The New York herald. [volume] (New York [N.Y.]) 1840-1920, 1858-01-19

clouds of adversity had lowered about him he had at
least one friend left him that stood by him regard
len of blackenings storms and winds bowling in the
friends in New York and added Eve would think
and talk of pleasant things, and have a nice day
together he commenced q conversation, but very
soon he relapsed into a fit of abstraction from which
i endeavored to arouse him by shaking him by the
arm, saying TO him that it was paying a poor com.
pliment to his guest to suffer himself to be absorbed
in thought 30 much as to forget his presence; he
reused up and requested me to excuse him, saying
he had no control over his thoughts; that they re,
verted as naturally to his difficulties as the needle
turned to the pole; he then entered upon them at
some length; he spoke of his lawyer; asked if I
thought Carter had bribed him; l told him no, l
thought no such thing; l asked him if he thought
Mr.. Keen would recommend a lawyer to any gentle
man that could be bribed; he said no, and was
ashamed of himself for thinking 30; but after hav-
suspicious of everybody. Then he said he
received various advices on the subject of
his difficulties from different gentlemen ;
that some had advised him to seek q
by prosecution. Such counsel he regarded as only
adding insult to injury; that men of g~rovelling
minds, who have only to clutch the dollar, could
never understand the feelings of a man of high
any one could think that he would wipe the dis
grace, heaped upon him away with paltry gold; his
soul loathed the thought; it was an abomination to
him; that he regarded the very touch of Carter's or
any OlueE mdu \ HONEY, unOeT slIliidT CiICuulbIdnCtb,
as a contamination and pollution; the day passed
on, and as the time neared for my leaving he grew
sad, and said that if he could have me with him
always he would be himself again; told him that
If he would permit 1t i would never leave him., l
would travel with him to the end of the earth; he
demonstrated against my accompanying him, urging
that he never would subject me to the inconvenience
OF his mode of life: he said he wished to take a tour
regain his physical strength. Before leaving he in
quired where we could find a home together, where
we might live among strangers who knew not of
and would not jeer at his DISGRACE l
or California if he preferred it, and the idea seemed
to please him, and he added, ait seems like a hard
case, Mary, that ! am a man no longer; you will
have TO think and act for a man." by the close Of
that day j found that time, the great restorer, had
failed to blunt the keen edge of his grief, and the
night was gathering about my only brother; / left
there in the evening for the college; he accompanied
me TO the depot; / next saw him in the early part of
the following August; he came to see me at the
country residence Of a friend, about two miles from
North East; the first week in August he saw me at
Mr.. Marm's house; he stepped up on the verandih
Of the house where were seated a lumber Of his
friends who knew him from his boyhood, and so
changed was his appearance that none re cognized
him till they heard the sound of his voice.; his APP
pearance was truly appalling; he had grown thin
and his countenance was haggard and careworn.
One look into his eye told the fearful truth that rea-
son was tottering on her throne, He pa ssed hur-
riedly into the house, up and down through the va
rious rooms, and said he must return to the vii
lage; it was raining at the time; he had walked with
out an umbrella, and determined at once to return;
finding him resolved to return, i determined to
him, being too anxious to permit
him to 60 alone. His friends, finding us going
ordered a carriage, and sent us to the village; my
brother seemed determined to leave that night; had
he done so, il was my full purpose to accompany
him: but he yielded to the e~ntreaties of his friends
and remained over night; the next day he was more
composed, and returned to Baltimore; j visited him
in Baltimore in the latter part of August; | then
found him at the Mansion House, better than when
he left me last, and ] remained with him several
days-nearly a week; though better, he was still
quite cratic in his course; he was looking better,
and seemed to be regaining his flesh; / saw him in
the middle OF October, when he again came to mi at
the college in Wilmington; his mind then was very
much disturbed; he looked much as he had looked
when ] saw him in August; he looked wild; | tried
TO console him as ! always did, but it had little effect
upon him at first; he remained for an hour or two,
then took leave Of me, saying he would not see much
more Of me for some time; he returned again after
taking leave of me; dashed h~urriedly up TO the door,
and brought a horse and carriage for me to take a
ride; we then took a ride together some distance on
the PhiladelJ na pike, which was parallel with the
Brandywine; II was a dreamy evening in Autumn;
we rode toi ether for an hour, some time in
silence, ! thinking; my brother and myself were
G.irking ~ tie scenes before us in silence; /
Iext Jaw hin in prison on the 9th OF November.