Sunbury American. [volume] (Sunbury, Pa.) 1848-1879, 1858-05-29

"No."
"I wonder at that, for news spreads fast in
this vicinity, and | mentioned it this morn
ing.'
What is il ~ asked Stsan
THAT l have had living presented 10
me-"
"lndeed Then you will TO leaving this =!
AT thu months end. wonder whether
anybody will regret me ?n
.Oh, yes !" inYoluntarly uttered Susan.-
Many will" che hastened to add.
susan" :" he said in low tote, as he ad.
vanced close TO her and took her hand, must
go alone ?"
She strove 10 take /. from him. but lie
would not let her.
as not the time come Shen nsy speak
again? y he whispered. Susan, we are both
leading lonely life. Why should it be SO
ilad come here aud found you with any OBJ.
ject, or probable object of attachment. I
should have abided by the old refusal, and
never more have REQUIRED TO il but it is not
so, for you remain alone in the world. There
have been times lately---may ! speak out
| lreely?' he broke of TO ask, frankly as il
tho undisSuiscd heart spoke, and not the
tongue
Yes, yes" she answered
! Then | have at times fancicd you were
| inclined 10 regret that refusal that YOU were
beginning TO esteem me more than you did
when you pronounced it,"
81 could not esteem you more than ] did
then. Mr.. Leicester" she said in n gentle
! tone
"Wcll, esteem is too cold wcrd butt
did not dare to make it warmer. The JOY
that hope has brought TO me is great-too
great TO be crushed now. Oh, Susan, You
must listen 10 me think how long | have
| loved yon! What caused mo to leave Barba-
! does ?--the thought Of you quite as much as
my breaking health. What made mo seek
employment in this locality? the hope Of
being reunited TO you"
| Now, the truth was, if Susan did not re-
! pent Of her former rejection of Mr.. Leicester
Immediately on its being given. she had Gore
| so rery soon afterwards that is, she repeutcd
| having put barrier to her friendship aud
intimacy with him. During the voyage home
she had had leisure TO reflect on bis cstma
| bic qualities, his welcome society his noble
! conduct TO herself; and be gradually became
| the one bright spot in tho sad Barbados
reminiscence. During her more recent in.
tercourse with him she had learned to love
him-not, however, as she had once loved
another. THAT conld never be again for
Susan Chase it never is FOR any one.
| She stood closer 10 the window, pressed
! her forehead on its frame, and fpoke in
subdued tone
! There are circumstances in my past lie,
| which, II known to you, would probably fOr-
bid you 10 think Of me as you are doing
! Before | relate them to you, | must promise
! that all you have said may be us re,racied.
shal! understand it as such. No, Mr.. Lei.
cestcr for he sought 10 take her hand
ngain-'listen first. When | was eighteen
/ / kana a.
marriage was fixed, and ! was to accompany
him abroad. My mothers death prevented
! il, and he sailed without me. We cores
! ponded for more than three years aud then
he returned TO fulfil his engagement. 1t was
Lieutenant Carnegie"
, Susan stopped, but Mr. Leicester made no
comment.
"lIe returned to marry NE but, ere the
wedding day. found that his love for ne
had changed into love for my youngest
sister; Il strong, unconroIlabe passion us il
appeared, aud she shared it. ! sacrificed my
own feelings, released him, and they were
married"
Go on, Susan !"
"From that moment | stroye to drive him
from my heart, it was hard and bitter task,
but ! succeeded tolerably well and when
Emma wrote that she was suffering in health
miserable, and had a preseutiment OF dying
in her approaching illness, l thought it my
duty 10 go out 10 Barbadoes. Ursula would
not. There met you, Mr.. Leicester"
And your sister repaid your kindness by
quitting you in the manner she did
Yes You can understand now, why |
felt it so undesirable 10 be left under the
roof Of Mr. Carnagic. Not" added Susau
turning her fearful eyes upon him, "that any
trace o! former feeling remained IN ny heart
Oh, no. that had been completely eradcated ;
but felt my position an unpleasant one"
1T was So"
"And it proved so. One day after got
better from NY illness-l wish to tell you all
Mr. Lieutenant Curungie so far
forGothimself as to speak Of our former love !;
he urged me TO promise that it should be
renewed after the divorce from my sister had
been obtained. | was shocked and terrified
and | told him that ! would rather marry
poor black on his estate than would marry
him He left NE in passion, aud you came
in close upon it. 1t was then you--spcke TO
me-"
"Ay ay?"
But answered you very differently from
what ! did him, though the substance was
the same" she said, glancing brightly up.
81 was thankful to you, Mr. Le.cester-grat
fled by your good opinion of me ; aud, in one
| sense, TtBTtlltu go 10 answer NtuJ lbI hab
begun to value your friendship. | removed
to your house the same afternoon
And went up The country on al impov-
erished mission, TO rid you OF my company.
The time will come yet, Susan, when We
shall Jeguile our home evening by talking
over these old days
This remark recalled Susan.
"When Mr.. Curnapie was in England last
year he came here. What do you think for +?
To renew his prayer that would still be.
come Mrs. Carnagie. quilted his presence,
and sent Ursula to answer him. That is all
| have TO tell you, Mr.. Leicester"
and why have you told il me, Susan p
1T was right that you should know il
And because, knowing it, you may not think
of me as you did before"
mo, ! do not think of you more highly.
repeat. Susan, ! cannet see why you have
told ME this. Why should your having been
engaged to Mr., Caruagie, rendeg you lees
eligible to become my wife 2"
because my hearts whole love was given
to him." she murmured. because, loving
him as | did, ardently, enduriugly can
never love another. esteem youi Mr..
Leicester-far more than l ever esteemed
him; / Ike you better than like any one