The weekly pioneer and Democrat., 1858-12-23

me. A relapse set in on going TO sen. and
however much regretted il, il was too late
10 retrace or return. The ship had been
out several days. week-when we were
met by dreadful gale, such as the Indian
Ocean alone can exhibit, and we were driven
before hurricane for six days and night.
Most OF the sails and one Of the masts were
carried away, and although nearly ship
wrecked, and driven back from 1900 10 400
miles, we found more favorable weather. /
mention this to show you how utterly il was
ont OF my power to help or relieve the poor,
suffering child.
The effect Of the storm was only injurious
and 10 make the sad tale short, this dear
charge, whom was anxious to restore 10
friends who could bring her up properly-
to her father, to watch over her-died in
mia ocean, many hundred miles from any
land, and there was no alternative. no hone
but to conform to the custom, the necessity,
and much AZ il pains me 10 state il. the sea
became her tomb. This occurred on the
18th Of July, 1888. The uncertainty Of the
time required for passage Of trading vessels.
such as this one on which write, will,
fear, cause much delay before this reaches
you.
i might stop here, you may say, that
have tortured you enough but | am not
lost to all sense OF propriety, feeling or duty.
notwithstanding all my Sins against you, TO
say nothing Of the violation Of oil the mos,
sacred ties Of iie-God knows that | feel il
deeply aud awiny. | have debated long
and anxously IN my own mind, whether |
ought To reopen wound in your heart,
which can never heal, but feeling as do Sc
verely, that suspense is the cruelist of all
conditions that certain evil, even fatally.
Is better than hopeless uncertainty, and that
this sad avowal ~ all can do---all the re-
paration can make have been induced
ior these reasons to write. II Is better that
you know II, than remain for life in uncertain
suspense. An intelligent English sailor, to
whom had shown some kindness 10 the far
OIL, and almost savage land in which | have
resided Tor the last year, has promised TO
convey this letter TO some European seaport,
and mail 1t there. He has also undertaken
to get the two deaths advertised in some
English or American newspaper, so that in
case this letter never reaches you, her
friends may not always remain ignorant of
her fate.
i" now think best TO address this to the
most probable person can think Of to know
your present place of abode. mean your
father, where he or some Of your brothers in
Wisconsin, will be most likely 10 fnd
it, as ! shall inelose TO him. with an
urgent request that he will send il to you,
wherever you may be- But must ever re-
main in uncertainty IN to whether it ever
reached you, or lDdo,d whether you are IN
the land OF the living. As to my own fam.
ly and former friends, have no wish to re-
call myself TO their memory. And to poor
C.'s outraged parents do not dare address
myself.
II this ever meets your eyes, let the beg
OF you to believe that however much have
outraged your feelings and blighted your
HE, ever had the strongest regard for your
high moral WORTH and your integrity and
goodness OF heart, and the bittercst reflection
have ever been made to feel. thus far. has
been the anguish and regret Of having for.
feited your former good opinion forever and
~" Wv 'hih ha't bioubut u!Ntl uIi itiu
the fatc that has fallen to me by the DEGREES
ofa just Providence, comes heavier and more
dreadful to my prospect of the future.
Painful as all this is, and however ds.
astrous to me, can not feel at rest until
have done what little remains in my power,
and when this packet leaves my hands.
shall have discharged the last sad and mel
ancholy duty, | now sullsr only from ieel.
ings of remorse and blighted hope in the fate
that il is my lot to endure Bl' will add
no more and all can, or could say, may
only disgust you more toward inc.
For obvious reasons il IL not. and can
not be my purpose to speak of any details
or particulars as 10 the past or the future,
or indeed Of myself, in any way. trust you
may never hear from me again. and only
wish to hope your future life may afford you,
even yet, less OF anguish than the past few
years, lfmy hfe depends upon my present
health, or my now limited means my mem
ory must he bloited out very soon.
But | yet remain humby. your unworthy.
HARLOW CASE