The Jackson standard. [volume] (Jackson C.H., Ohio) 1847-1888, 1858-04-29
From the True Flagl
MY COME ESSI0N.
The Autobiography of a
WOMAN OF FASHION!
By AGNES sATHER.

was nnHured IN luxury, weakened Oy IN
dulgencies, rendered proud, arrogant and
naughty, by years Of prosperity and happiness
No shade had como between me and the sun;
>but like dfsam-long ng.cherished, brilliantly
tinted. my life had run.
Twas the mother Of three lovely children; the
dark eloud. like speck, was above the horizon;
and yet | marked it not, until 1t gathered III
blacknest and storm.
God made B. glorously handsome man, but
sensual indulgence had left its impress upon
HIS features Yes, his iasa,iate thirst for RUN
was stamped In indelibli;aA faC. les u,
on his brow; the droop ~ q .sHR ftry
eye the half-closed lid I'D
live TO write myselfa -, gARD's WffSa
Sinful 1t was to love ts loved B., and surely
have had my reward J loved him selhshly
engrossrgly Ito the exclusion Of the hopes OF
heaven and the affections o. earth,
My little Rose was B 8 idol; no matter aow
Obscured his senses--how dimmet H. faculties,
by liquor, her baby caresses were prized by
him; she alone showed no fear; hers was the
perfect love.
One day she was taken suddenly i'll; and
she lay upon my lap pale aud still, as heard
BIS unsteady step upon the marble OF The en-
trance hall was leaning over her, aud the
sscsldng tears were dropping upon her baby
face o. he came into ,uS"om. FELT him
throwing himself upon Ies, h cried and
sObbed aloud wa lo see his agony;
bound as my baby was with the fbres Of my
heart, could Willingly have offered her up as
a sacrifice, If thereby her father might have
been saved.
| watched and waited; twilight deepcned
into darkness; the parching feverthirst was
upon her lips; the faint breath grew fainter;
the little feet were cold; fntter. a sigh, md
the angels winged their way TO heaveh, bearing
pure and spotless soul. ALONE, wept for
my only daughter B. lay, as he had thrown
himself, upon the floor In an agony of grief, he
lay there when she died aud his loud breath
lug tod that he was oblivous to all sorrow. He
lay there while | dressed my angel for the
grave. When her hands were folded upon her
breast, left the ruom--the dad child and the
lcsping father the only occupants.
For two days after Roses death, b. was him
- 4. On the day Of the funeral, he was absent
an hour. Upon his return, | knew he had
%en out 10 crafty his insatae thiut-that
nlcbster that cries "give pive" Many friends
we're at the funeral, but did not see them;
! lnplaintd alone in my ROOM and after they were
ke upon the ride. The children miss.
pet and were sad aud thanked nv
on Gat had no daughter to bear aud suf.
Y - mans lot. On the banks oi Laur Wa.
va laid poor Roe,s remains; and her ia.
thei hfbfnned the place by maudin speech
il'tenedt to by the undertaken and his assistants
IN silent amGenent. When turned from her
grave cast behind me all lorhrarance. steel.
ed my heart to Love, and bade fate do ts worst
mad not saf red enough In one week to buy a
whole Lifetime Of happiness2
Our furniture, which was mortgaged, uas
rich and luxurious, and our house laIge and
costly; yet in the midst Of this splcndor, we
lived sometimes with only the bare nrcessaries
o. life. BIS business, which had been large and
profitable, was constantly dropping Off and
looked forward with dread TO the time when
we should be without q home and penniless
Had Il. resisted temptation, all would have
boen well; but sleeped In pollution, the very
sSh1aght OF what his sin had brought upon him
only served 10 plunge him Ito deeper pxcssa
lie had given up soul and body irrempdiably -,
and was hastening on. with fearful strides to
that briuk, from which so many have plunged
into the tathomlesS gulf Of perdilon. Tn" fatal
habit hHd become passion--a passion which,
Ike the rising tide, rises higher and higher, ob
lteTating all the land marks of reason, aifoc
tion, honor and principle.
~ had large claim upon the government,
and we were advised by friends to go to Wash.
ington and ptesedt the case | had often been
there, and knew the temptations of that city;
out b.solenhly promised TO refrain from liquor
III our case Is gained We shall be rcIi,'
-ficught, Nspd then how easy to secure to myself
and children a'hope'
We borrowed money TO travel with, and
were seon settled IN laxurious quarters Mt BIS
hotel, Ia Washington. | knew many Senators
and Representatives, and hoped much from my
eva personal exertlOns. Mr. J. asked me TO
exert my influence In behalf Of tho extension of
Ia intent, He told ms my husbands bill had
'gbost ol shanee,' az long as Senator
pposed G H. 4 have him completely
thumb said be, for he has acc. pied
Llready, | eau gain him for you il, in
gou will gain iormy cause two Carolina
b, or prevent their acting There are q
q haueless ways iu which YOU ladies
~ your power, which We gentlepen urr
resl't' promised, for | knew
1ual. and, il il did not pass We werl
Yed to call upon Senator O, myaGi,
sed ~ elegant carriage costume,
holtl, Seuding up my card, was
~ into hi, presence.
ssi6F slssap onnquick serutnizing glance.
as enler,d, &n, Ia hia mo-, cou teOus man.
nsr. be rose add ,ifsrsl me seat lie was
wraprei u a loUe, morning robe Of crimson
cloth lie bore the appearance " good humor,
cd volupuary, ratiler than lhe hard working
salesman, OF the far seeing politician; aud 1t
he had almost nnlimited power, Mr., U. stood
waiting ior me 10 open my business.
have. stOrmed your stronghoIdi YOU must
yield youisaf ptrouer, @ yon cdHnut fly
Il would not 1Y il | could; aln old. but
beauty has power with me YET said he, bowling
40 he spoke.
j trust, sir said that shall aud you a
slave TO Is Influence
Mr. q. smiled. aud sald e,
= ! suppose, Mrs. b.. you are no exception to
ihe general rdle; every one who approaches me
wants soMETnNo. -
one ele1' -
That Ia what you alrol said the cd.
lam old gentleman, kpar what Il =
you wish, and thg Il - =