Bellevue gazette. [volume] (Bellevue City, N.T. [i.e. Neb.]) 1856-1858, 1858-02-04
For the Bellevue Gazette.
Self Conquest.

Sttt OhVttests
~ have lost my way--I have wander.
ed far from the pure precepts and princi-
piles, Of my childhood" murmured Eva
Lee, as with bowed head and fearful eyes,
in the solitude Of her own chamber, she
recall led the bitter, unkind and rebellious
feeling TO which under the pressure of
sorrow she had sometimes yielded, and
visions of her laughing, happy, prayerful
childhood arose before her.
For many years had Eva Lee been ex.
posed to peculiar trials and temptations.
Once The only and tenderly loved child in
a happy home, then friendless and home
less, distrust and unkindness cast their
dark shadows over her sensitive, and once
trusting heart. The cordial, heartcheer-
ing tones of love and tenderness, seldom
greeting her ear, repulsed by the arms
that should have sheltered, rudely probed
by those who should have aided her in
the great life struggle; what wonder if
for a time with palsied arm, aud fearful
heart she laid down the oars, leaving all
to the mercy Of the pitiless gale, forget
full of the great Pilot. But there is in
every heart an inward voice that will at
tines be heard above the angry ron of
the tempest, and the fierce din Of world
" stlife and for the earnest seeker the
mild radiance of the Star of Bethlehem
will peer through the darkest clouds and
reverently needing of that inward voice,
and thrilled by the memory of almost for
gotten teachings Of her childhood, she
remained IN her room, till long after twi-
light had deepened into night. and the
holy stars came ont as witnesses.
Life had seemed 10 her so weary and
so sad but as she looked out upon the
glorious beauty of that silent, starry night,
she fully realized that that life was yet
crowned by many rich gifts, and notwith.
standing her disuppointments and her
sorrows, if the blessings within her reach
were truly appreciated, it might again be-
come to her beautiful and valued and
carefully weighing every motive and oues-
,ioning the influence of every feeling
she firmly resolved to keep untiring walcl
over her overlGsked and SO often impul.
sive spirit. '-.' '''
Years passed. She mingled in the ac'
live scenes of life, taking her full share
Of its burdens aud its cares; while nont
but the eye Of the All-seeing knew o
the noiseless struggle within and in Sc
cret, AID in silence she reaped her re
ward, enjoying that calm which only thos,
can know who have become self conquer
ors. If to her were denied the Joys tina
spring from happy domestic ties, and wei
regulated home affections, the sunshin,
of her cheerful spirit iIlumined NOR,
than one lonely home, and more than on
eye fingered with a blessing upon III,
brave heart hat had struggled So cheer
5 fully with the ills of life /; and when afte
the lapse of many years, she had again
happy home, and a situation of wealtl
J and influence, she looked back upon tn,
/. SORROWS. that had induced those long hour
+. Of solitary thought, as but an ordeal thrc
: which a wise directing Providence ha
: led her TO prepare her for the duties c
5 the unknown future, awaken in her heal
: the germs of a noblsr life, and q full pei
ception OF those great principles, justice
truth and love which, if rightly under
c stood and observed, would bind men NOR
5 closely together in II common brother
/ hood, and firmly believing that an Eye
Infinite love had noted every trial, nun
bered every tear, and responded to ever
prayer for help, she retained thro' life
deep reverence for humanity, even whe
most ignorant and erring, and an earne
lore for justice, truth and the right, an
her TN altering trust IN an over-rulir
n Providence, was transferred with a bles
Of TO more than one hopeless, despairin
d. and lonely heart. J. L. NYE.
Nebraska legislature in a Mus
, We Zip the following from the Chic