The New York herald. [volume] (New York [N.Y.]) 1840-1920, 1858-12-06

feet Of the storm only njurous and 10 make the sad
tale short this dear charge, whom was anxious 70 re-
father to watch over her-ded mid ocean, many hun
dred mites from any land, and there no alternative,
10 hope but 70 conform 70 the cusom-the necessity
and much as II pains me 70 state IT, the sea became her
tomb.
This occurred the 10th Of July, 1858 The uncer-
tanty Of the time required for passage Of trading vessels
such as tins one on which write Will, fear, much
delay before this reaches you.
] might stop here; you may say that J have
tortured you enough but i am not loet To all
Of propriety, feeling or duty, notwithstand-
ing all my sins against you, 70 say nothing Of
that feel it deeply awfully have debated long
and anxously my mind whether ought 70 reopen
wound in your heart which can never heal but feel.
ing do severely, that suspense the cruelest Of all
conditions that certain evil even fatality is better than
hopeless uncertainty and that this sad avowal all
do-al the PREPARATION can make-I have boon induced
for these write better that you know il,
than remain tor lie in uncertain suspense. An intelligent
English sailor to whom had shown Kindness in the
far of and almost savage land in which have resided
for the last year has promised u convey this letter TO
some European seaport, and mail II there. He also has
undertaken to get the two deaths advertised in some Eng
lsh American newspaper so that in case this letter
never reaches you her friends may not always remain
gnorant Of her fate
now think hest TO address this to the most probable
person think Of TO know present place OF abode.
mean your father where he or some OF your brothers
in Wisconsin, win be likely TO find IT, as shall
close TO him. tn an urgent request that he vii! send
you, wherever You may be- But must ever remain In
uncertainty 70 whether ever reaches you indeed,
whether you in the land of the living As to my
family and former friends have wish 10 recall myself
TO their memory And TO poor 9. outraged parents do
not dare address myself.
Ii this meets your eyes let me beg of you to be-
leve that however much have outraged your feelings
and hghed your life ever had the strongest regard for
your high moral worth and your integrity and goodness
OF heart and the bitterest reflection have been
made feel thus far has been the anguish and regret OF
having forfeited your former good opinion forever and
the ruin have brought upon all and the fate that
has fallen to me by the DEGREES Of just Providence,
heavier and dreadful to my prospect Of the
future.
Painful as all this and however disastrous 10 me, can
not feel until have done what little remains IN my
power, and when tins packet leaves my hands shall
have discharged the last sad and melancholy duty now
suffer only from feelings of and bghted hope in
the fate that il hencefotb my lot 10 endure But will
add more; and all could say may only disgust
you the towards
For obvious reasons Il is not, and cannot be, my pur
pose speak Of any details particulars 10 the past
or the future indeed Of myself in any way. trust
you may never hear from me again, and only wish 81
hope your future life may afford you, yet, less Of
anguish than the past few years my life depends upon
my present heath, my now limited means, my memory
must be bloted out very But yet remain humby
your unworthy, HARLOW CASE