Oxford Democrat. [volume] (Paris, Me.) 1833-1933, 1858-11-05

get mo up stairs"
ALFRED, choose now" said my mother.
as she laid her hand on my arm. She ,rem-
blod violently, and was deadly pale.
"ify5u i1ueh me will kick you" said
I'm a terrible rage. God knows knew
what .ail.
Will YOU 60. N'red''
NO" replisi, bat luailod before her
eyes.
Then follow me-" said she as she grasp
u my arm firmly. RAISED my foot-O,
my son hear mel raised my foot, and
kicked her--my sainted mother How my
head reels, as the torrent Of memory rushes
over me- kicked my no,bsr--i feeble
woman-my mother She staggered back
few step, AMI leaned against the wall.
She did no, look at me. uw her hear,
boat against her breast, 30, Heavenly
Father" she cried. {" forgive him. he knows
not what be docs 80 The gardener just
then p,.-ej the door, and seeing my moth
cr pale, and almo-, unable to support her
-eli be stopped she bcckonsl h'm in.
Take thus boy up stairs and lock him in his
own ROOM" aii she, ani turned irOm me
/. Looking back, q. she wl- entering her room
she. gave mo such look-ii will forever
follow me- I, wa, look Of agony, min
slcd with the lnten.e., love-, was I &c last
anutterablo pans from a heart thai was
broken.
In moment I iounl my.'lf 4 prisoner
IN my own room, I thought for moment
| could ding myself from thc window, and
da.h my brain. oat, but iclt afraid q die
I was not pcnl,ent. At times my heart
wa. subducd, bat my stubborn pride rJse
IN an instant and babe me- not % yiel d.
The pale face my mother haunted me-
| dung myself on the bc,i, and Toll asleep.
I woke a, midnight .,iasned by the damp
nigh, air, terrified with frishIlul dreams
would have -ought my mother AZ that
moment, for trcmbled with fear, but my
door wa, fast. With the daylight my ter
rors were dismissed, and became bold in
resisting all good impulse.. The servant
brought my meals, bu, dad not taste them
though, the day would never end. Jd't
at twiligh; | heard a light ioots,ep APP
proach my door. II was my sister who
called me by name.
"wha, may tell mother from youF"
sic asked.
Nothing" | replied.
"O' Alfred, br my sake. for all our
akc,, say that you are sorry. Sac longs
to forgive you"
~ w,nt 30 driven 10 school aglin', my
will. SAL
but you will g II she wishes ii, dear
AlrrcJ." d" said my sister. pIcndinsly.
mo, I WON'T" said I, "and you ncedn't
.ay a word more about IT,
go. brother, you will XIII her, and then
you can never have a happy moment
made no reply 70 this. Ny feelings
were touched, bot .,ill resisted their in
nuenc,. Ny sister cillci M, bu, would
not answer. hclrl hcr footsteps slowly
r,iraiius. and again | dung myself on tho
bed % p,., another wrctched and fearful
night % God, h'w wretchCd and fearful
| dli not know.
Another foo,step, 81 ,wer AMI fecblcr than
nv sister. disturbed me. A voice called
me by name. 1, wa. my mothers.
4" Alfred. my son. shall | come in3 ar
you sorry for what you have done'" she
asked.
cunnot tell what influence, operating q.
that moment, made the speak adverse To my
feelings. The gentle yoics OF my mother
that thrilled through me, melted the leo
from my ob1ura,e heart, and longed 70
throw myself on her mock, but | did not.
No. my boy, dd not. Bot NY words
gave the Ii, 10 my heart, wh'n | said was
not sorry. IhcarI her withdraw [ heard
her groan. longed 70 call her back, but
| did not.
was awakened from an uneasy slumber
by hearing my name called loudly, and my
sister stood beside my bed.
&" Get up Alfred o, don't wait mo.
moni Get up and come with me. Moth.
or is dying -
thought was dreaming. but got up
mechanically. and followed my sister. On
the bed, pale and cold as marble, Law nv
mother. She had not undre.scd, bot had
thrown herself on the BID % rest. Arising
to 90 again % me. she was seized with a
palpitation Of the heart, aud borne ssnseless
10 her room.
cannot tell you my agony as | looked
upon her-my remorse was tenfold more
bitter from the fact that she would never
know It,. | believed myself a murderer.
fell on the bed beside her-l could not
weep my heart burned in my bosom my
brain was all on fire. Ny sister threw
her arms around me and wep, in silence.
Suddenly we saw a slight motion Of my
mothers hand-her eyes unclo-ed. She
had recovered consciousness but not speech
She looked at mo and moved her lip,.
could not understand her words. "Moth.
sr, mother" -hrieked say only that you
forgive me- She could not say with her
lips, but her hand pressed mine. She smil.
ed upon me, aud lifting her thin white
hands, clasped mine with them, and cas-,
her cues upward. She moved her lips IN