Brookville American. [volume] (Brookville, Ind.) 1858-1861, 1858-12-17

ful weight on my heart aud brain wa
q reality. Before my eyes was proc
of my wrctchedness LIN my hands
held II. God pity me, ii was roal, real
sMr. Walter Mayo 10 Miss IIelcl
Stiekncy," that was ALL all bnt M,
heart was breaking. Ny brain whirI
cd like q maniacs. This mighty trutl
elaspod itself about everything. II wa
within me, and around mc-above M
Iaad beneath me. There was no leavin,
L., no forgetting II. Thero was no res
tor mo; constantly my heart must benI
up its terrible load OF grief -N s'sf
T"And vet II was no WONDER,
thought, while tho ealmness OF Despair
sottlcd upon me; 'no wonder that h,
should prefer tho brilliant, accomplish
cd city belle 10 me, methe simple, QUOT
unprotonding country girl I. had of
ton hcnrd him praise her; she was lik,
d sister 10 him, no had said, Perhaps
OF a sudden hshad found that he lovot
her better thanm mo, tiod only know =
But, q. u VIVA so cruel 40 hard 10 boar
I could not --souid not live Hltst tsIst
ibid people ever die suddenly whcr
such such griots came upon tholn2p
wondered sIf 40, lbclhse 4 as dying
| rose nnd went 10 tho mirror. My
face was ~ white M doaih; my eyes o.
wild and staring NJ though was wrost
ling with tho grent conqueror. Lines
OF purple lay about my lips, which
looked NJ Il they were frozen, frozen
with luch q pltlful expression Of woe
dngucrrooypcd upon theml | eaHpod
my ley hands over my eyes 10 shut on,
tho picture which had not strvuglh tt
turn nwhy from. Ny senses seemed
leaving mo, ~ with q low moan ol
agony going from my lIps ! sank help
lessly upon the floor Isl al Az H =.
When | awoko 10 consciousness ! was
IN my mothof's room, Tying upon hon
bed with her dear face, anxious and
fearful, bending over me-. "I was
drcadhh sick, she sald. uShe had
found mo lying lko one dead, upon the
hoor ofiny room blow long / had
been there she could not toll She had
not called mo at tea.iime, because she
thought went out with Lucy Curlor
aud Ind not returned. The doctor said
! must be quiet
'efhe doetor2p Irepeatcd, wondering
ly, staring nbsently into hcr face.
ayes, dear, the doctor--gbod doctor
Owens, here he II, now, and stepped an
lido thnt might soc him, bat 1 turned
my head away murmurlngi sMa.
''WaIter, Walter' aaale lil
"Do you wish to soc hlm?" ask cd
the good old man, pressing his COO
hnnd upon my forehead. e1~ Is.
'hrSee hlmy %, no, no, sirl7 Ioried, o
sudden strength coming upon me ut tb.
thought. IL shall never SEQ him
agalny' j 1eH q
"Wcll; wen, You ncedn dear. don
mind I - ho said, soothingly boievini
me delnious. "'rherc, horel'
sank wcnrlly buck upon my pillow
and ils ! did 80, | heard my mother
whisper my nanle. ] listened attentive
~. i-Nfa t-a-iffil r f. f.it
-"IIad we better telegraph to him?'
she said iH4 p ~.s7 fa s,sf
"Thcre Is noparticulnr cause for you
doing So Aletter sent in the mail TO
morrow morning will answer as WE'LL
] do not apprehend any serious result
from this attack. Do as you please
however" q irae sfaS 4. bas .1..l..
IL guess well send tonight, them
Walter can come in the first train TO
morrow answered my father ~
.Dont, dent send for him." i cried
srringing wildly up. 'If you love nc
do not let him know that / am i'll. =.
shall be better soon. Do not look q
me so, am not deirious; know wha
am saying-don send for himl'
l."Why not?" asked my mother -.
s'Because, because faltered. ''
cannot tell you whyr' "a
.s"W hat is it, childl'' queried my G'
Ither. f..f. fa.l ,i.is - 80 1850 q. a.f.
'Waltcr viii never como here engai
for me; be IS 1Es $50
What p srf s4i.......
lie is married to some one clsol
read il in to-day's paper T. | said.
.To-day's paper repeated my moth
er. las-fa
Yes, il is in my room, go for it =
The paper was found, and tho evl
dence Of W alters peridy read by eac
memb Der OF the family, before the wretch
led Truth could be realized, then blan
Isilence followed, and my mother. cam
to my bedside, and put her dear arar
/ lovingly about rue, and said, il all otl
ers failed, she should always renal
true; that she should rather saffeusiror
/ his ficklcness n thousand times owe
i than bear up under his guilt, and thi
il was oil right, all tor the best, eve
i Though my heart broke undcr the bul
den which bore down upon il. ap =
How from my inmost soul blesse
} that mother for the comforting Wort
she spoke to mo, and while 1 nestle
closely in her arms like irightene
I groyed child, and felt her warm tea
upon my cheeks, her iender kisses upd
I my lips, through my sorrov, litt
lvein of joy found its way, and thanl
ed God for my mother-ior my mot
, cr's love ! - 80 <sH-e -
! In few days / was up aud abol
, the house Tho pride that had be,
numbed by my first shock OF sorrow, toe
up life again ana came faithfully 10 n
; aid. Iput aseal upon my lips. Ups
Z them should lingcr no regrets; play I
: words OF passionate tenderness; tar
, no names which had once beon utter'
' with so much of gladncss. Ny hea
/ ST. ou,d prison all its gricfs, though
l their rebellion, IL were tornand broke
h Pride should be thcstern sentinelwhi'
Q / would set 70 watch over IL. Pridetl
0 sexton which should bury from &
eYes of the world my woes; the mu