The Nevada journal., 1858-02-26

cent. WOulu make tnem comfortable.
They and few friends might do some
thing for them-the richer English
stockholders. The money the Compa-
ny owes me would be fortune to them.
Suppose you write Sattherwaite line
and tell him what l have risked and lost
Do anything you can that way-'tis my
only sorrow. / could continue here
could help them. But feel it is quite
impossible benceforth. For ten years
they have had nothing but what have
sent them.
If any money of mine can be got out
of the concern, send it to Mr.. Thallon
for same purpose.
You will find lists of attachments, con-
fessions and no,es in my pocket memo
randum book.
See that Mr.. Judd loses nothing by
the Woodville affair. would not have
him lose dollar on my account. Tell
him / remember him as a true and noble
hearted friend.
l am glad you remain to tell all the
world that l have, in all, done what
was right and honorable, as far as /
could see it, at the time. "The proof is
to die" No other would ever clear me.
Did live and ever do well, mauy would
believe had acted basely here-and
this would make life bitter.
There is little money, the last /
have, in the left hand drawer of this
desk. Send it to Thallon for my moth
er and sister-dont mind burial expen-
ses. Grass Valley owes me and my
family enough earth to cover MS, and
that is all we want.
Tell Chavaune l do not blame him.
poor fellow he has great risk, and is
trying to save it; he would have done
better by being more precise to his
word. AS it is | think the creditors
should at once have the property. But
| do not blame him. | think his acts of
the last few weeks have been done un-
der half
| would like to mention many whose
kindness l have felt. Mr. and Mrs.
Rush that good little Mrs. Solomon
her sweet good face cut me to the heart,
knowing the loss l had, in some sort
brought on her interest although, like
others-like you and mysezf-I thought
all would be well. do not feel that l
have misled or deceived any one, Mas
sachusetts Hill is the deceiver,) but they
would all feel that 1 had done it, which
| could not bear.
This end l have foreseen for many
weeks, but as long as there was chance
of seeing all, could not leave. That
is spoilt. feel deeply for you too but
there is no use in it-there are so many
and so much. Poor Mr.. Delano-I
know that he can BADLY spare his mon
ey; vet always so kind with his cheer
full, good-natured face Do not let him
lose if you can help it. l hope 1 may
remember this and such things. N.Y.
self had to leave, and it was cowardly
to leave my poor wife and children be-
hind-so they come with me-
l oug hit to mention with pleasure the
kindness of Mr.. and Mrs Atwood. lido
not let my thoughts run behind my Grass
Valley days, for then there would be no
end, and my strength might fail me.
One thing pleases me fer your sake
all will understand when l did not, what
Mr.. Sylvester termed to-day, "take care
of myself" that goa did not. In this
your exculpation may be found. 1t al
most makes me smile-now, that phrase
of his--what a difference in human
minds what vast difference between
his ideas and mine,
One thing slightly troubles me-that
we may be found before being dead
Make sure Of this-I hereby request
you to let decomposition appear, or give
my body to the surgeons. This | would
desire at any event, as it is the best use
l can make of a thing so useless.
fear this cyanite is weak, and may
seem to do, but not do its work Keep
us all many days, till all is sure-mis-
takes have happened.
There was no date to any of the let
ters, and no signature to This.
LDTTEg TO Mr.. JOHN D. BOYD.
My Dear John Massachusetts Hill
has fairly beaten me, and l am tired out
and doubtful of the future. so that take
sudden leave of all. | don't see any,
thing worth struggling for. There is
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