The true northerner. [volume] (Paw Paw, Mich.) 1855-1920, 1858-08-06


that night, than it had usually been OF
late; for my feelings were softened, and
| had never seen her so lovely / had
never before known what treasure
was atout to lose. The subject Of my
voyage was not mentioned, and if she
had heard of it, she accepted the fact
without the least visible concern. Her
quietness under the circumstances chilled
me, dishearted me quite. ! am not
one Of these who can give much superfu-
Gus love, or cling with unreasonable,
blind passion to an object that yields no
affection in return. A quick and effect
ual method of curing fancy in persons of
my temperament is to teach then that it l.
not reclprocated. 1hen it c. pires like a
flame cut off from the air, or plant re-
moved from the soil, The death-strugglc,
the uproOting, is the painful thing but
when the heart is thoroughly convinced
that its love is misplaced, it gives up,
with one last sigh as big as fate, sheds a
few tears, says prayer or two, thanks
God for the experience, and becomes wiser,
calmer,-yes, and happier heart than be-
fore"
"Truc," l said " but our hearts are
not thus easily convinced"
Ay, there's the luo 1t is for want
of true perception. There cannot be
a true love without Il true perception.
Love is for the soul to know, from its own
intuition, hot for the understanding to
believe, from the timony Of those very
unreliable witnesses, called eyes aud ears.
This seems to have been my case, my
soul was aware of her love, and all the
evidence Of my external senses could not
altogether destroy that interior faith
But that evening | said | believe YOU
now, my senses | doubt you now, my
soul = she never loved me" So was
really very cold wards hcr-for about
twenty minutes.
81 walked home with her;-wo were
both silent; but at the door she asked mc
to go in. Here my calmncss deserted
me, and | could hardly hold my heart,
while / replicd,-
E' If you particularly wish it.
''' If did not, | should not ask you,
she said and | went in.
" | was ashamed and was vcXed at my
self for trembling so,-for | was in a tre-
nor from head to foot. There was company
in tbs tbs Il f AaEsqEG st @ 6Fifqa
came and sat by my side.
- | suppose, said one Mr.. Westwood
has been telling Margaret all about it.
- About what ? Margaret inquired =
aad hear the truth flashed upon me,-the
news Of my proprosal voyage had not yet
reached her! She looked at me with
a troubled questioning expression, and
said, -
al felt that something was Going to
happen. Tell me what it is
- answered, - Your friend can best
explain what she means
''Then out came the secret \ shock
Of surprise sent the color from Margaret's
face and raising her eyes, she asked,
quite calmly, but i'll low and unnatural
tOnc,--
"'!s this 500
81 said, Il suppose | cannot deny it.
"' Your are really going?
"She could not hide her agitation.-
Her white face betrayed her. Then was
glad, wickcdly glad, in my heart and
vain enough to be gratiiiad that others
should behold and know | held a power
over her. Wcll,-but | suffered for that
folly.
@I feel hurt she said, after little
while, because you have not told me this.
You have no sister, (this was spoken very
quietly,) 'and it would have been priv
ilcgc for me to take Il sisters place, and
do for YOU those little things which sisters
do for brothers who are Going on Il long
journeys
81 was choakcd 1t was minute be
fore | could speak Then ] said that |
saw no reason why she should tax her
time or thoughts to do anything for me
ooh, you know, she said, YOU have
been kind to mc,-so much kinder than |
have deservedp
1T was uncndurablc,--the pathos of
the words | was blinded, stiilcd ! al
most groaned aloud If we had been alone,
there our trial would have ended. /
should have snatchcl her to my soul But
the eyes Of others were upon u, and |
stccled mys-lf -
- Besides I said, i know Of nothing
that you can do for me-.
"Therc must be many little things -
to begin with there is you. glove, which
you are taring to pieces
True, | was tearing my glove,
was calm enough to observe it That
made me angry.
Give it to me; | will mead 1t for you
Haven't you other gloves that need mend
ing p
II, who had triumphed, was humblcd.
Ny heart was bre,king,-and she talked
of mcudiug gloves did not omit to
thank her. coldly arose to -.
"Wcll, felt now that it was all over.
The next day secured my passage in the
steamer in which my friends were to sail
| took pains that Margaret should hear of