Holmes County Republican. [volume] (Millersburg, Holmes County, Ohio) 1856-1865, 1858-12-30

before hurricane for six days and nights.
Most of the sails and one of the masts were
carried away, and although nearly ship
wrecked and driven back from 1900 to
1900 miles, wefouud more favorable wealth
err, l mentioned this to show. .you how
utterly it was out of my power to help OF
relieve the poor suffering child. The eff
feet of the storm was only injurious, and
to make the sad tale short this dear charge.
whom ! was anxious to restore to friends
who could bring her up properly; to her
father, to watch over, her, died in mid
ocean, many numbered miles from any land,
and there was no alternative, no hope, but
TO conform to the custom, the necessity,
and much as it pains me to state it. the
sea became her tomb This occurred on
the 10th Of July, 1858. The uncertainty
Of the time required for passage of trading
vessels such as this one on which l write,
will, | fear, cause much delay before this
reaches you. --..... e..,.f.-. ......,--.
l might stop here, you may say, tina: l
have tortured you enough, but l am not
lost to all sense of propriety, feeling, or du-
ty, notwithstanding all my sins against
you, to say nothing of the violation of all
the most sacred ties of life-God knows
that 1 feel it deeply and awfully. l have
debated long and anxiously in my own
mind whether l ought to reopen wound
in your heart, which can never heal, but,
feeling as l do severely, that suspense is
the cruelest Of all conditions GER
tain evil, even fatality, is better than
hopeless uncertainty, and that this sad
ayowal is all | can do-all the reparation
can make-I have been induced for these
reasons 10 write. 1t is better that you
knowit, than remain for life in uncertain
suspense. An intelligent English sailor,
to whom bad shown some kindness in
the far of, and almost savage land, in
which / have resided for the last year, has
promised to convey this letter to some
European seaport and mail it there. He
also has undertaken to get the two deaths
advertised in some English or American
newspaper, SO that in case this letter new
Ell, reaches you, her friends may not al
ways remain ignorant of her fate. , =.
Inow think best to address this to the
most probable person | can think of to
know your present place ofabode. l mean
your father, where he, or some of your
brothers in Wisconsin, will be most likely
to find it,, as-I shall enclose it to bim, with
an urgent request that he will send it to
you, wherever you may be. But l must
ever remain in uncertainty as, to whether
it ever reaches you, or indeed whether you
are in the land of the living As to my
own family and former friends, 1 have no
wish to recall myself to their memory
And to poor C's outraged parents, l do
not dare address myself. =, .......,.. &.
If this ever meets your eyes, let me beg
of you to believe that however much |
have outraged your feelings and blighted
your life, ever bad the strongest regard
for your high moral worth, and your in
tegrity and goodness of heart, and the Bit
terest reflection l have ever been made to
feel thus far, has been the anguish and re-
gret of having forfeited your former good
opinion forever; and now the ruin l have
brought upon all, and the fate that has
fallen to me by degrees ofjust Provi-
dence, comes heavier and more dreadful to
my prospest of The future. aE
Painful as all this is and however dis
astrous to me, cannot feel at rest until l
have done what little remains in my power,
and when this packet leaves my hands, l
shall have discharged the last sad and mel
aneholy duty. l now suffer only from the
feelings of remorse and blighted hope in
the fate that it is henceforth my lot to en-
dure. But Twill add no more, and all |
can, or could say, may only digust you
the more towards me.
For obvious reasons, it is not, and can
not be my purpose to speak of any details
or particulars as 10 the past or the future,
or indeed of myself in any way. trust
you NAV never hear from me again and
only wish to hope your future life may
afford you, even you, less of anguish than
the past few years. If my life depends
upon, my present health, or my now linn
tied means, my memory must be blotted
out very soon., .. aage-
But yet remain bumbly, your unworthy,
&. .7e5 -.H HARLOW CASE.
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