Lynchburg daily Virginian. [volume] (Lynchburg [Va.]) 1852-1861, 1858-12-09

taken or scnt back safely to you. From these do
mands hnd no wish to escape. My only anxiety
was to do anything in my power to afford small
consolation, in the strongest assurances | could
make, that her wishes should be carried out. Al.
though. alter the mother was gone from me for
over. the poor child became dearer to me. She
NIL had left. Yet as | had promised her poor
mother. and TINT mother had sacrificed the
world and everything earth for my snke, had
not the slightest thought or wish to neglect the
discharge of the responsible, and to me, fearful
| duty During all her last illness she regretted
having brought tho child away, but having then
much hope of the happiness we might enjoy, and
anxious to be loss alone in the world. she could
never think of leaving Il. behind; claiming her.
as her mother. that she had n stronger personal
right 10 daughter than its father when she was
about to leave forever.
Aftcr this snd and dreadful time, constantly
and anxionsly sought an opportunity to send the
child To YOU. or her grandiathers family, whore
you could eventually obtain her. My object was
TO find somo good. trusty woman or family GO
ing to American, but such chance never offered
in II single instance.
Before go further or into still moro painful
results. beg you will allow me to say that have
spoken ot the anxiety Of C., mud her constant ef-
forts to renew my promise to her, nnd which were
repeated only two days before her denth. In tho
hope that you will exercise moro charity towards
her memory Let mo trust TINT you will do no,
md think and feel lcss severely towards her. She
paid bitter pcnay for all the outrage that
committed uptn, you. In her last illness, sle
spoke often. feclngly aud tenderly of you. with
how much regret ncod not sny, but wishing to
acknnN ledge to me TINT you Ind always treated
her kindly aud carefully, aud TINT ON her and my
self alono rested the responsibility Of that now
lntnl separation.
You will have perceived, Gro this, that hnve
yet more To communicate. and or II still saddcr
character, to YOU. hase written rurposely in
the "pnst tense" ns it were. ~ ihat yuu may be
less suddenly drawn To the anticipation Of my nn-
happy narrative, ns caunot wriic but once. for
ohNiuus reasons. And NOW comes the mort pan-
ful part of my duty.
hardly dare tell You how cruelty severely the
poor child took the death of hor mother. She
never forge, it. Although her own health wnsal
ways delicate aud sho suffered much, yet from
the time she seemed 10 become more sensitive and
grew weaker as she grew older ind tnllor, But
wero il not for the If whnt IN to follow.
| should not have attempted to write You until l..
was within your reach, nnd on the point Of being
restored 10 yon-perhars not then even.
A. before stated, failing to find my suitable
opportunity that could trust 10 take her snfe to
YOU, n last started with her myself. determined
to risk going To England for the purpose. hcro to
sock some married pair of emigrants to whom
could trust her, or employ suitable person to go
with her Shc had been very i'll before starting.
but | thought her sufficiently recovered, and her
physicians also thought she would risk nothing IN
gong to sen, but unfortunately. all my hopes in
this last effort. were doomed To the snme blight
that has thus lnr followed me- A relapse set in
our going 10 sea. and however much regretted
it, il WAS too late to rctrncc return. The ship
had been out several days--n week when we
were met by dreadful gnlc. such ns the Indian
Ocean alone exhibit, and we were driven be-
fore hurricane for six dnys and nights. Most of
the sas, mud one of the masts were carried away,
and although n"nrly shipwrccked, and driven back
from 1000 to 1900 miles. we found more favorable
weather. | mention this to show you how utterly
it out of my power to holp or relieve tho poor.
suffering child. The effect of the storm was only
injurious, aud to make the sad tale short, this
dmr charge. whom was anxious to restore to
friends who could hing her up properly to her
fathar. to waicboyer her: died in mid-ocean many
hundred miles from any land. and there was no
alternative, no hope, but To conform to the Gus
tom. the necessity, and much as it pains mo to
state it. the sen became her tomb. This occurred
on tho 10th Of June 1853. The uncertainty of
the time required for passage Of trading vessels,
ruch n this which write. will, fear,
cause much delay before this reaches YOU
might stop here you may say, that hnye
tortured you enough but | am not lost to oil
sense Of propreiy. feeling or duty, notwithsmnd-
ing all my sins against you, to say nothing OF the
violation Of nl the most sacred ties of life. God
knows TINT feel it deeply and nwfully. have
debated long and anxiously in my own mind
y
heart, which never heal. but, feeling do so
vercly that suspense is the cruelest of all condi-
tions; that certain evil, even fatally, s better
than hopeless uncertainty, and that this sad avow-
| al is all | can do-all the reparnton | Gun make
| i have been induced for these reasons to write.
1t is better that you know it. than remain for le
in uncertain suspense. An intelligent English
sailor to whom had shown some kindness in tho
far off, and almost savage land. in which have
resided Tor the last year, has promised to convey
this letter to some European seaport, and mail 1t
there. lie also has undertaken to get the two
deaths advertised in some English or American
newspaper, that in this letter never reach
cs yon, her friends may not always remain isnor-
ant of her fate.
now think best to address this to the most
probable person can think Of, to know your pre-
cent place fabodc. | mean your father, where
he or some of your brothers in Wisconsin, will
he most likely 10 find it, as | shall enclose to him
with an urgent request that he will send It to
yon. wherever you be. But must remain in
| uncertainty as to whether it reaches YOU. an in
decd whether you are in TIE land Of the living
As to my own iamly and u.mer friends | have
40 Nish to recall myself l., tger memory. And
t. poor C.s outraged parents | dare not address
msscf
liihs ever meets your eyes, let me beg of you
to believe that however much have outraged
your feelings and blighted your life. ever had
the strongest regard for your high moral worth,
and your integrity and goodness of heart, and the
btterest reflection have ever been able to feel
thus far. has been the anguish and regret ofhay-
ing forfeited your former good opinion forever;
and now the ruin have brought upon all, and the
fate that has fallen to me by the DEGREES OF just
| Providence comes heavier and more dreadful to
| my prospect of the future.
/ Painful rs all this is, and however disastrous to
me, cannot feel at rest until have done what
| little remains in my power. and when this packet
lo,yas INV hands shall hnye discharges the last