Bradford reporter. [volume] (Towanda, Pa.) 1844-1884, 1857-01-22


OF others was to him as q dear and trust.
ed brother. and month after mouth passed
away, aud when he was often compelled to
leave home on business he congratulated him
self on having brother to leave with Car
lotta, who might otherwise have found even
| Castle Mortimer in its beauty very solitary
! home
| have said that will not detail the steps
| by which We passed on to destruction. 1t is
enough to say that when Mortimer returned
| from an absence of unwonted duration. it was
| to fnd his home deserted, his wife faithless. his
| friend a villain
| Ii | were willing to dwell on the scene and
events which immediately ensued, doubt whe-
| ther my reader would believe that such things
could be. | must hastily mention the mere facts.
| will not undergo the torture of analyziug
! them.
| Newent abroad, resolved that no trace should
be left OF our movements One mouth, one lit
tie month passed away
! Does the reader believe that it was a month
OF guilty JOY, where the voice of conscience was
drowned in the tumuIt of passion? 1t was a
month of most unutterable misery. | speak
not OF my owa sensations. | say not whether
my passion would not have sileuced nv con
science, II her misery had been less intense
But no words could describe the agony of that
young creatures mind Helpless and hopeless.
tossed by ceaSeiesS despair, she refused TO be
comiorted and there Were hours during that
month when thought her SufferingS must end
III loss OF reason. She never once reproached
me. She never once wished that she had not
LETT her home aud husband. On the contrary,
she said constantly that she had no rirht TO
Tltp fhap. h.,r- -, ,F,l
She could not have deceived him although she
deserted him. But how piteously she would
express herself in wonder how so sinful pas
sion could gain entrance into her sOnl how
she would call on Heaven TO direct her and
pardon her and then, forgetting herself for
the moment, she would rcturn TO me. weep
ing bitterly, aud implore my pardon for her
sorrow
One month passed away. We were in Italy.
; and she cntreaied my permission to absent
herself from lne fer few DAYS 10 revisit a SPOT
known to her in childhood. | did rot Weld
willingly to her request cannot now tell all
that Ied Inc 10 grant it she left me. accomna
MED 10y al old and attached nurse who had
brought her up and followed her 10 England
aad whom she had insisted on making the com-
panion of her flight. This womaus presence
enabled NE to give the desired permission.
knew that she loved her as her own child
knew that she was safe with her bade them
return in one week | could not precisely as
certain the'r destination, but | fancied il mast
be Cartotia'S early home, and that she would
not revisit that with me, although she lou.sed
to see IT,
She left me-One long gaZc-one passionate
embrace-and she left me- | never saw her
again. The week elapsed, and | received a
| lew blotted lines from her, telling me that she
had resolved on leaving me- bnt she had no
courage 10 say so. lest my entreatieS added
10 those of her own sinful heart. should over
come her resolution. She said she felt that
she was the most sinful and the most misera-
bic OF human beings, aud that the future must
be one OF ccaScleSS prayer Tor pardon, and that
II was only in solitude she dared ask IT, She
told me not to attempt to seek her She said
it would he useless 4; that her nurse. Blanca.
would remain with her, and | must baa!Sh her
from my memory. She was dead to me, aud all
the world
Nevertheless. did seek her. I sought her
increasingly for many months | resolved
never to icave the spot where We had parted
| felt as if she could not be very far away. |
'S'iSASb t'itAN 81 h'Ah Hu>l NtNts ItH size NOGtN
wish 70 recall NE her clingimg nature would
make il utterly impossible for her 10 dwell
alone.
never found any traces of her. never
ceased my search. | wandered in all direc-
tjomS, and | ever returned to the spot where
she had left me, with vague expectation of
finding her there again.
Months passed away. most miserable months
during which | held companionShip wiki 40
one aud endured mental >ufTeriugS which no
language can describe. \ change came al
last
Be still. nv throbbing heart Why beat
sn wildly ROW for those whose pulses were still
ed so loag ago? Loug years have come aud
gone since that sunny day in Italy dawned up
Oil me. Why is the glare Of its sunshine daz-
zljns nv eyes now Why am trembling as
with the agony of u new sorrow? Why do |
again seem to hear the words which told me
all? VIII the memories of tha; day and hour
never die away as all human things else fade
aud die ?
| said that my search was ceaSeleSS. that
never relaxed in NV efforts, and | said truly
But | believe those whose minds have ever
been for length OF time strained TO one pur
pose kuow that moments Of laSSitude come hen
almost pucon>ciousiy mind aud body give way.
and Que sinks down in langour until some chord
of memory is touched by the dreams which that
very langour invites, aud one starts again 10
the full sense of memory, the quick throUbing
of the great agony.
Such panse had come in nv search. | was
i'll. was weary. had spent several days in
a kind Of apethetic repose from which | could
not rouse myself | had no one to watch me,
or attempt to rouse me had not seen a ser
rant from amongst my own people was sur
rounded by foreigners. and believe that
was regarded by them as strange even to in-
sanity.
The dav had been oppresSively hot and |