Smyrna times., 1857-07-29


no disposition to leave his post 1t is wonder
ful what perception animals have of the states
of the human mind. His subtitle instinct taught
him that no evil was to be apprehended from
me. and though within reach Of my hands, he
felt no fear. | would not have harmed that
singing thing for the wealth of the Indies.
"And thus, alone in gay crowd, stood un-
der the shade OF the large old linden. By de-
greeS the church was bereaved of the happy
party, and last Of all the newly married couple
stood out upon the Threshold And thus, solilo-
quised |, you VIII step out of your married bliss
into a world of hard realities, rugged, hilly
world, sheeted with fiery atmosphere. You
will see friends around you, but pleasant SYM
pathIes will stand at sad distance, ,and gloomy
memory will occupy my place under broad
shadow. These reflections were mine, not
theirs. The purple light Of love, flowing out
from the dawn Ofa new life, sutfuscd with mild
glory the present and the future. 1t is well
that it is thus. The dewy freshness and splen-
dor of morning is lost soon enough in the heat
Of noon-day and the shades of even; and the
joye that cluster around the 6owery wreaths of
the BRIDE, will too soon pass away, like fairies
at night when the gray gontalon OF Reality is
unfurled.
THE appearance of thai bride, as she stood
upon the doorstep, is indelibly impressed upon
my mind. A sweet smile played upon her face,
rendering more beautiful the bushing timidity
which marked h er demeanor and actions. That
the bridegroom regarded her with the most un.
bounded admiration was apparent, and 1t could
not be otherwise. For so much of grace and
lovelness as shone through her form and beha-
yior, any high soued man would gladly make
ghe greatest sacrifice, and he, though not high
souled man, but very much the opposite, could
not be insensible to their influences. From the
circle of friends which surrounded her, she let
her eyes and thoughts wander amid the groups
scattered around, and in spite of all my pains
to be concealed, after some time discovered me-,
with sweet, familiar glance of recognition
That glance and quiet smile were more than
| could endure. My feelings could be restrain
ed SO long as | was unknown, but being known,
hose friendly bounties, usually so welcome,
were as spurs decorating my heart OF hearts.
There was no ray of smile given in response.
My face suddenly flushed, and Jay lip assumed
the most dIsdaiufu curl. At such evidences of
icemg on my part, she looked grieved and av-
erted her face, TO prevent, as fondy hoped, the
falling Of a tear which seemed to be gathering
in her eye. And the bridegroom also turned
toward me, with "a smile that resembed a SUM-
beam among sepulchres. | cannot adequately
describe MY feelings:
"A fierce thought leapt
From cloud of my despair,
AS ligh;ning-lke, bright, wild beast,
Leaps FROM his thunder-lair.
.'The dream was o'er-it had no further
change. Dark night alone greeted my waking
vision. There was no pretty church, no bridal
party, only the darkness and my own confused
thoughts"
"Tell me, Paul." said / earpestly, "what
came out of that dream 1t has some connec-
ton with your love experlence-there is nc
doubt of that. Come, let me hear the story 10
the end. will not take denial. Remember
our old loves here, our rambles by the stream
on Just such nights as this How could you
better preserve the dramatic law of the uni
ties Z"
Well, said he,". after musing while, "you
will: have your way, cOeLum TuGt,' and the
least amount of time consumed in pickering
the better. Besides, it is more honest to Con
Tess that on my part there is no disposition tC
oppose your wishes. The old associations, the
sweeping pageant of by-gone years, with al
their memories. the soft delicious night, lit W
by the moon ard stars, and the sound Of ycul
| familiar voice, have struck cord in my hear
that has not vibrated latterly, and the passion
ate feelings Of my boyhood press the thrOnl
around me. The graveyard on the hill i
! sprlnkled with green mounds and custerin!
ghosts of marble; even so In my heart full o
buried Joys and broken shafts of purpose tha
look ghostly and terrible in the cool moonlgh
of the world.
"a chalk outline Of my early life has beef
drawn for you. There was no hyperboe il
that description. Even you, proud cynic as yol
are, dare not affirm it. But although she did no
captivate me by reason of gazele eye, queen
ly form, or any of those Establishments which
poets shower upon their ideals, there was
something about her which bound me as fas
as ever mortal was bound. When she read t
me out of some rare, gold clasped volume @
the mythic fancies of the past, beneath the leaf
trees of summer, adding to the poets glowing
words a wonderous charm by the magic of he
rich, full voice; or recited, as | unused by th
streams sde the lines of our best loved of th
modern masters of the shell; or sang deliciou
ballads in the twilight, Ginning her tones wit
the passion. breathings Of the harp, she was t
me something more than an ordinary earthbor
mortal. My soul bowed in meekness befor
) her, and strong, deep love, twined iisc
around the pillars ofmy being, rvaling the oak
clasp of our manhood's boasted affection.
"When it was decreed that should go froI
home to a school far away, the griefs that burs
: in on my boyish mind may be imagined. Pa
s rents know nos what they do when they pr
, their children on those pupular treadmills, cal
ed boarding.schools. They may do we'll q
: sort of hackney coaches to break unruly colt
: ih but to send a sober, sensitive boy, to pine
d spirit and destroy his health within their wall
o is doom more terrible than that of Prometheu
s AT the age of fifteen knew but little of tn
v science OF repressing feeling and affection an
d progress which have since made is due to ii
e excellent instruction of that indefinite thing,
;. indefinite in affection as in numbers, whic
o makes what ir called the world. The proce
: Of acquiring this knowledge was not vel
y agreeable, but endured it. The tears tn
e were wrung from my heart, in its different stag
Of were counted in heaven. When Julia kne
l. that it was determined that should leave hom
,f she grew sad. Not one werd Of mawkish Sc
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