Oroville daily Butte record., 1857-01-09
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lis II TO be happy 10 Love .
by FAfRIE DOT.

Il was richly repaid by her love, an
extrct which she sent me from little
book of heart.t thoughts will show her
regard.
Il love him. The spirit arms of my
love-nature ever stretch themselves out
towards him, seeking to enfold him for
ever in their earnest embrace. My
love has become part of his very he
ina-he feels it, knows tit is his sun
shine, his life. | once thought all love
must be enthusiastic mine was not.
Therefore il is not love, my heart whis
percd, but now | know it is love, the
only love Of which | am capable. 1t
is not passionate, but enduring, earn
est, deep, absorbing, calm, unohang-
ing, eternal! Yes, eternal; eternity
of duration is one of loves essential at
tributes, else it were not love. |
know he feels that am all his. | am
willing-glad that he should, knowing
all this, am happy
'What would not give were this
love all mine now! 1tmight have been
but | sighted it; my own rash haste
sent it all back to the heart which gave
me all its rich treasure OF afiectIonate
devotion, and Dow-O, now she has
'learned to love another has learned
that she is capable Of deep, passionate
love, and it wonld have been mine; !
could have stirred the deepest waters
of her soul, as could no other. Now |
have discovered my own-i found it
out the same day crushed lho tender
flower of love IN the most iai lhiul heart
woman ever bore.
Soon Ellie is to be married. was
too Snro OF her loye-cid not sui'icient~
" heed the indications of a keeuIy sen-
stive and proud, though loving spirit,
until it was too late, and now / feel
my loss, ., so intensely Elfe feels
that | have triAed with hor--have won
her love for the couquest's sake, that
she has been dupcd too long too often
borne patiently with my opinionatcd, +,
Imperative words
j see MI my wrong now; how mis-
Judged her true, love-lull heart, bat
heaven knows | have loved her, do
love her now. If, in simple justidc to
her. had humb!ed myself, | might
now be happy. In education she was
almost my superior, she had beautiful
tancics, dreams and aspirations, with
which | did not freely sympathizc-
says. she gave these up even, forgot
them, and tried to awaken in hrrielf
an interest in that which interested me,
for my sake.
is it to be happy to love 2 love.
Is it happiness to know the one dear
est to me on earth is soon to become
another's: Is it happiness to know
she loves that one with passionate
devotion that might have all been felt
Tor me, but for my own hasty jud G
ment?
My heart is weary, now--so lonely,
so dosoIatc. What is physical pain to
the intense longing there, never ceas
ing, never satisfied. In my being is
void which my soul seeks in vain to
fila restless yearnlng for something
lost, an indcinable shrinking from con-
templating the happy past, which Yet
is ever With me. Can this seeking,
yearning, rcstloss-longing be happi-
ness Let those who have loved an
swcr.'
There are other heart histories in
the same f,lio. This is the first my
eye feII upon, it was penncd hastily,
with scarcely an aiter~glance. Thus |
send it YOU.
4 LARGE niNSER.--The dinner to
the lower classes at Moscow, on the
day of the coronation of Alexander,
was served upon $40 tables, just out
side the city gates II consisted Of 240
sheep roasted whole, 800 gallons oi
soup, iS0 dishes Of meat jelly, 1900
fowls, 1000 turkies, 1000 ducks, "a,
coo loavcs OF white bread, 5000 loayes
OF brown bread, 5000 hams, $50 pies.
$1,000 apples, 10000 pears, 10000
plu'rs, 1000 buckets OF beer, A 900
buckets of mead, $500 buckets of white
and red wine. One OF the roasted sheen
was placed in the centre If each table
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