The Trinity journal., 1856-07-12
[From the Golden Era.l
Manuscript found in Deserted Cabin.

By NAPrHA.
ALONE Alas I'm all alone !
Home, friends, happiness, all are torn from
me, and must wander on through life, a
miserable, deSpiSed, compOnionleSS being
Life why should cheriShit? What charm
is left of all those which once caused me to
believe my path strcwn with eternal, indy
ing roses, to Soothc or expand the withercd
heart of one who, in his youth, has with
drawn from the world and its pleasures ?
Twas not always thus. All, no Once
life seemed perpetual spring, with no cloud
to thwart the sunlight from blithc and mer-
ry youth. had fond and loving mother,
who, carcSsing and retting, called me her
darling boy Oh how loved that mo-
thcr But she could not always remain
to me- and saw the unmiStakablc Signs of
decay--a wrinkled, carc.worn brow, silver
ing hair, and anon Il trcmulous voice and
tottering footsteps stealing DER her, and |
saw she soon must leave me The thought
was unuttcrabc agony At last she faded
and passed oway-lhc pure spirit winged
its flight to God, and one of the charms
which bound me to earth was severed Now
GR are broken and long to go after her
My young heart seemed bursting, as | fol
lowed her to the grave, and there gnzed
with s0ul-coucentrated look upon the re-
mains of my mother. Years have passed
away since then shall never meet her
more. Her course is ctcrnally onward
mne-I dare not think of it; but there
my be a hope for me yet.
K X
| loved with all the ardor of passionate
soul the object of my affections returned
my devotion and at length we were united
| was happy, thcn-so happy But my
bliss was to intense to be lasting She was
lurcd from the path of virtue bya villain,
and would have fallen had | not sent her
soul to heaven before it was stained by crime
Gradually terrible suspicion of her inf
deity forced itself upon me. | struggled,
resolutely struggled, against conviction ;
but the proofs were too strong was forced
to believe her false A letter fell into my
hands, and learned that her honor vet re-.
manned spotless | vowed that it should
never he stained took her life that she
might not sin. Even now the blood curdIes
in my veins, as | think Of the look of re-
proach She cast upon me, as the life blood
Uas oozing from wound in her bosom, in.
hictcG by my msparing hand. 1t haunts
me in my dreams, and in my waking hours,
whichever way turn, | meet that awful
gaze Twas arrested and tried for murder,
but | had committed no murder had
saved soul from damnation.
They said was mad. and was confined
in a dungeon. lIa ! ha ha Twas a
ef"hSO ""hh'oo ny tHc DIoW NlltCH gave
her eternal life, perhaps | have condemned
my soul to the regions Of the damned, where
a terrible rcmorse of conscience will contin-
ually harrow my spirit ; but | am content,
for she will look down from the realms Of
Immortality, and supplcltc the pardon Of
the Almighty for her Savior
Immortality What world of meaning
is there contained in that word Immor-
tai Can it be real or a stupendnous fable,
that there goes forth from the decayed tene-
ment Of clay a bright and celestial spirit,
which shall exist during the unknown ages
OF an endless eternity? 1t must bo 50; for
the great Creator, being perfect cmbod-
lment OF almighty love, could not have ere
ated man to live life of misery Oh earth,
and dying, become entirely extinct No
man was created for a higher dcstny-the
sojourn on earth being the trial to which
the material is subjected to test its worth.
AL mankind will eventually reach this home
of the happy 1t IS worse than folly for di-
vines to urge the statement upon the minds
of their followers that man will exist in
future state of eternal misery Mailman,
though they call me, | ain not mad enough
TO believe this. CAM it be that the Almighty.
loving man as we know he loves us, would
have created us that far the greater portion
might writhc ina lake Of living fire, as i.
declared fcQl tAe pnnit > NJ
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