Marshall County Democrat. (Plymouth, Ind.) 1855-1859, 1856-06-26
the noble attributes of the soul which /

| vi mere sexual love L Knew uOlHiHS
until 1 had reached my eighteenth year,
1 had never had even a boy playmate
To school l had never been; my aunt had
taught me to read and write, and some of
the more ordinary female accomplish
ments.
But new chimera penetrated my aunt's
brain. A stray newspaper came to Pine
Forest, and in It's columns was the adver-
tisement of female seminary, which was
to be opened for young ladies, at Lands
down, in short time.
To this school my aunt was resolved to
send me, felt no delight at the intelli-
gence Study was distastefulto me. liked
better to 90 out on the bare hills when the
storm demon was abroad in his raging, and
barring my dark brow to the wild winds,
cast my restless eyes out into the deep
gloom, or, raising my face up to heaven,
gaze unshrinkingly on the red Eghtnings
which were vomited from the clouds black
bosoms.
But aunt said l must SO to school, and
when | openly demurred, she told me OF
the many wonderful things l should learn,
and the interesting objects would see; aud
l strove to curb my wild will in obedience
to her wish.
Two months passed rapidly away in
preparation; my clothes were ready packed
in aunt's great black trunk, and, accompan-
led by our farm servant, | was sent to
Landsdowne. Jacob engaged a boarding
place f)r me, in family of wealth and res
pcc.ability, and then he returned to Black
water.
Words cannot describe TO you the heart
loneliness felt that first night. Alone,
sat by my little window, which looked out
upon tall, dark church, and a dismal
grave yard, with It's white tombs:ones
cleaning in the ghostly moonlight. loved
the view Ii was more in accordance with
my own dark feelings than the cheerful in
terror of my pretty chamber. All was
light and pleasant there. The large solar
lamp sent It's silver light over the crimson
couch hangings, and Illuminated the wall
paper until the room seemed a garden o.
living flowers But liked not cheerful
ness. What right had | to be bright and
gay? Was l not waif on the fair earth.
There was no one in the wide world to love
me; would any one weep when l should be
laid away in the death mould? asked Tho
question with bitterness. No, there Were
none to love mel | laid my head on tho
window sill, and clasped my hands ovel
my eyes.
When awoke the sun was shining warm
ly over my disordered hair, and the LITTLE
robins and sparrowa were singing pleasant
ly in the churchyard trees. | reused my
self, and making a hasty toilet, descended
to the breakfast-room. The family had al
ready assembled. There was row o
strange faces a. the table; young gentle
men and ladies who, like myself, were t.
attend the school. | fancied they were rid
iculing me, and l doubt not they were, fo
one Of the Dung men repeated a few word
in an unknown language, looking at me al
the while, at which they all laughed heart
lily, aid turned their great prying eyes Gu
riously upon me. The young ladies evi
dently not regarding me in the light Of
rival in the Young mems affections, joine,
with them in the general attempt of quiz
zing me.
l bore this as long as l could, and the
from the depts of my fierce, wild hear
j. there welled up few bitter, writhing word
and spoke item. The surprised compan
were sienced, but occasionally they cas-
y looks of covert scorn toward me. Afte
II breakfast they spoke no encouraging friend
J. ly word to me, but conversd apart,
|. groups, and knew that l was their sub
!, ject, by the glances which they bestowe
s upon my shrinking, sensitive form.
e To one Of my nature, this treatment wa
CALLING in the extreme, and / made up m
IS mind to hate them all. Even the little cir
J. the daughter of the people who kept th
IS boarding house, seemed to take exquisii
n delight in torturing me, asking me spitefr
n questions about my dress, contemplate
studies, ETC.,
II Alone, / went to the academy. No on
k offered to go with me, no one told me whic
r. way to go, they only set up derisive laug
y as put on the green silk bonnet, which
l. had cost my aunt and the village milliner
al weeks work to remodel from aunts oil
d calash.
IS knew where the academy was situated
y | had passed it on my way the previou
day. 1t was a large white building wit