The Empire County argus., 1856-09-06
No woman ever led 50 strange an existence as at

i No woman ever Led go strange an existence as at
i that time. | was like one bowiidpred; the ulole
world seemed as unreal TO me us was my own /. e.
Before Others, my husband (what a mockery to c.
him by that namel) WAS us had often seen hinl-a
quiet, reserved and stately man. with the mark OF
some mysterious sorrow upon his brow.
But to ME, be was any thing, every thing. have
walked in the dead OF night TO soe him standing
first him, in pale light, at the foot OF my bed
only the head and face visible and the tautless iea.
lures convulsed like the face OF tormented fend.
have sat covering in distant corner OF the room,
while be has assumed thousand shapes before my
eyes-now looming up before me like an immense
statue OF horror, and then shrinking down at my feet
till could scarcely discern his OWL form and features
A i'd once rememb> r, when sat thinking of him in
a kind OF pasied wonder, that had grown IL be Il
seco d nature with me, he came upon me suddenly
WIN face like living flame, glowing with clear
red heat that scorchtd my cheek and the next second
donned his grave, PALE impossible countenance oEce
more He was the wonder and terror, and also the
strange delight Of my life; ior alas! l loved him!
Who can account for so strange an inlatuaton?
1t was the constant study OF my life to shield him
from exp, sure. l felt as il Lad the guardianship
of irighttul secret, which would bring ruin and
Il ath upon its possesSor. And yet l was unwilling
and unable to resign him. Even though had known
l was sealing my doom, believe l should have clung
to him.
! look back now at this period of my life, and won
der if that being ever loved me. Could it be that
human affection had place in that unquet spirit!
Does he look loiIglngy after me now from that place
Of his abe de, and remember the days he spent with
Inc on earth?
How strange! How mysterious! That I, the
tempted, the periled, and the saved should linecr
here engaged in the same worldly pursuits, while he
(where can he be! in everlasting torment or etclua
happiness:) is calling my name in vain.
Strange, too that | who have eaten and drank
with spirit of darkness should sit more at the
tables OF men Strange that none, looking upon my
careless lip aid brow, should dream OF the tearlu
mystery OF my life, or know how near my feet ap
preached the burning gull when he was my guide
Has every life such secrets? Are all such dark
abysses hidden from sight by veil of flowers? VIII,
can tell Perhaps those lovc-but hold my brain
burns and my temples throb! Is liz beside me once
again? Is this HIS hand upon my Cwn? Away
unquiet spirit!
They told me He was mad Can it be that
toc am to follow him there as here? Nc-I am not
mad Not mad
lie learned to love another. AS if the curse was
not already heavy upon my head he tortured mt
daily by looks and words. and sighs, for which
could have killed him! One after one the delicate
and thoughtful attentions he had been went to pay
me in public, were transferred to her. and all who saw
us knew how she had riumphed over me
and form as beautiful and vouptuous as that OF
Venus when she rose from the foam of the ocean
these were the thsngs that charmed him. these the
things that made me an outcast forever! She,
smiling FRI m out her rnglets Of yellow hair; gig
CLING weak girl and YET she had his heart, and l,
who laid my head upon his breast each night was
deemed but stumbling block in their way
How my blood boiled within me as l watched her
beside him! How | longed to kill them both-to
0t ll nj nd fin
Judgment when | saw them hide some look that
would have betrayed all Fools Did they think
to deceive me-me who loved him so?
For a year thai long torture continued. Montalv
was no longer the mysterious shape that had haunet
and bewidered me 50. Stern, and pale, and moody
he sat beside me- looking at me coldiy and loathingly
with those beautiful violet eyes, Oh, to feel and
know that l was a hated thing that another only
waited to take my place; that another looked upon
me with a mocking smlie when the hell within my
heart would not let me rest
I bore it all why was | not mad? Why do l
write of all this so coolly:-of what was anguish al
most unendurabe And yet l bore it all !
AT last she died She that painted piece of per-
fiction. with her yellow curs and her lovely bosom
died and name only common food for worms
Strange! How laughed when heard of it. How
l gloat"d over the anguish liz would feel! How
triumphantly stood beside her when she was cold
and STILL and eXulttd in my own full free life
He entered the room, cast one look upon the quiet
face, and fell upon his knees beside her. laid my
hand upon his shoulder and laughed aloud.
Weep -sob-groan! I cried. For twelve
long months you two have walked upon my heart OF
hearts Now call, and see if she will answer you "
Devil! !" he cried, and springng to Lis feet, look
ed wildly around. A shining dagger Il had been
keeping it for her, but death saved her lay upon the
floor He gave one last look at the poor clay that
could content him no more, and plunged the dagger
to his heart. They lie together in one grave-she
wronged me even in death.
And now they tell me that 1 am mad That he
was mad IIa! ha Was sic mad, also
No! no! He was an evil spirit sent to tempt me
to my fall. can see it now but my eyes were blind
ed then by my love for him. But now | rejoice that
she gave her soul for NINE In the flames Of torment
she can hardly feel his kisses!
She. to come between me and what was mine
She to despoil me of my richest TREASURED love to
think of her now, crying out in vain for one drop
water to cool her parched tongue
, But mad? No, am calm. Is not my revenge
sweet?
STEAM MELuDIES.-iL mas been stated, SAYS the
Boston Journal, that some Yankee in Worcester has
ctpcaedpd in turr,nU the unnarthv cnrnerh of +h,