Kenosha tribune & telegraph. [volume] (Kenosha, Wis.) 1856-1859, 1856-11-13

Nb-' "a stin living. II SttftlN as ii speech
while it will consolidate, vet will also
roughen: as if the delicate hues of this
rainbow love viii be furnished by the
material breath of words. VIII Eva
prove the realembodiment of nv Egeria.
VIII the impersonation equal the idea?
In few days shall be able to answer
thesequestions, when shall have probed
her mind to its depths, and ulroiIed her
character like rare golden fabric be-
fore me. | shall then know in Eva the
attributes have dreamed Of in Egeria,
and Shall be loving, trustiul, and happy.
''Jaty 20. This has been day OF
sorrow and evil to me- walked over
to the Hall, intending to tell Eva all
taat ! bad i'll my heart for her; when
met her coming from the shrubbery with
young Mr.. RolleStone, the squire of
Oakenden West. He. remained close
to MS the whole of my stay, and could
not find one solitary moment wherein
TO speak to Eva alone: wonder how
Eva can like that young man. Hecould
never love her as well as he loves his
dogs and horses. Yet if she does not
like him, why does she suffer him to be
So much with her: Perhaps her pa
rents would like TO bring about mar
riage between them. Her mother, re-
member, did once hint to me something
about the two properties of Oakenden
Vale becoming one. That was when
| hrst came, and did not understand
what she meant But of course feel
quite at ease on that head. Eva loves
me: she almost said SD Yesterday: and
OF course she could not commit such a
crime as to trifle with my heart, leave
and break it, Yet how confused she
looked to-day when | met her leaving
the shrubbcry; perhaps he had been for
reing his pretcnSions on her, and she
had been rejecting them cut OF greater
love for me. She would naturally look
confused if she met me then. Yes
terdav she pressed my hand when put
that white moss-rose into her hand: |
felt the press distinctly; besides she blush
Ell AS she did so.
''Jufy -. | saw Maud to-day. She
started up like an elf from the fern in
the park, and whispered in my ear
"Boy, Boy! when will You find that Your
star of heaven is only a marsb-hght guild
ing you to sorrow, perhaps t" DEATH"
She disappeared before | conld ask her
How or where. she disappeared to, |
don't know; but she was gone like a
shadow Her words have troubled me
much. She could not allnde to Eva
1t is an Insult TO hcfpiirc heart to couple
il with the idea ftleeeption. am UNI
worthy of her love If can doubt it
But am in painful state OF suspense
altogether, and feel doubly the strange
kind Of lets and hindrances and impal-
pable barriers that have suddenly risen
up between Eva and me. The unres-
trained intercourse in which | took such
heavenly pleasure, and which was worth
all the fixed and definite love in the
world, has been abruptly interrupted.
and now | never see Eva, unless in com
nanv with her brother, or that Young
Mr.. Rollestone.
".ytI9 81. | have not seen Eva alone
and am thinking of writing to her UNI
less | can snatch some opportunity from
the net Of precautions in which we are
both developed. Yet am SO satisfied
that shcloves me, that lamcomparatively
happy even under all this wearisome
restraint. What strange creature is
that elfin Maud? What wonderful
influence irresistible and almost terri
fvino-she has over every one She meets
with. Yesternight | met her again, her
lap laden with roots and herbs and
weeds, and worlds Of msightly insects
crawling ovorthem in the light ofthe full
moon. She hasn oidea ot'anything loath-
some Immature. She says that we c0uldnot
reject any Of Gods creatures, for that
there is only beauty and love and fitness
in all things. Here is the grand creed;
but | feel myself inca. able Of adhcring
70 it, for ! am more impressed by thu
outwardlv beautiful than by the worthy
in life. Maud says that amtoo Sybarltic
for her faith; and ] acknowledge it
Yet she is not Indifferent to beauty
Last night shc' murmurcd, clasping her
hands together: And |, too, Paul,
could die for love of loyelness! Does
she love? ] think so. But whom
Not Horoce-vain, brutal, and selfish as
he is, though so beautiful. and so like
Eva. Yet there is love in her eyes aud
and love in her VOICE, and She bears its
impress on all she does: and there are
not MANY III Oakenden on whom she
could cxpend the treasures of her rich
heart: for il is rich. Despised though
she may be. her heart is mine OF wealth
which no one in Oakcnden either under
stands or equals. How wonderfully
fascinating She is. Hours on hours she
can keep me entranced, though know
that the broken spell viii throw me at
Eya's feet \ mysterious kind of awe
steals over me when listen to her, with
her low voice and cleaning eyes. pom-
inc forth such deep thoughts and eX-
oI1isitc feelings. She seems like a re-
from the unseen world; and /
nc>- er feel SO holy or so good a. when
return from one Of our long, long con
.,ersations in the woods, or by the river
SID She seems 10 strengthen all the
n,oniv nart Of my mind; while Eva. fasci-
notee me ~ .Armidan Incidence. W hat
. d;+Tareuce between thosn Two beings!
no one. nh poetry; the other, all intel
Loot. che one. Lii:a; the other, Thought.
4 strange contrast: but very beautiful,
roo. For confess that |, too, was like
the rest. and at one time despised Maud
If tI,n Hollow with the unrutiied equan-
unity OF superiority. ! have learned my
mistaLe and now acknowledge Maud
rare artistic powers, her grnnd soul, her
brain, aud am proud 10 name
,-.,,I4 te,. ,.bau,niou and friend
Paul and Eva sat beneath the beech
tree bv the river. Eva sat on the mos
~ bank. and at her feet lay Paul. lior-
ace aud the young squire of Oakender
West In d gone for days excursion.
and Paul h ID seized the opportunity, 20
long looked tor. by which he hoped TO
secure his worldly happiness for life