The daily dispatch. [volume] (Richmond [Va.]) 1850-1884, 1855-04-18

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,iieur uL that might overtake the slow
s s.vnk ! rnS cain the moment OF expiation.
NUS ..n,,t strsirht to the masters room. lie
hn.o me hsr,bly. and ordered me out OF
spoA s,.i,tIAs. ha d;i whenever came before
Us us s's toid him authorits.iyely to listen to
, ILL, had son, eth;nr, Ia say to him; and my
,,snna. snnnosa sfruck him; for he turned
rnnnd =, ,os rarra;n. and told me to speak
What mad to saw
harsn nv stating briefly that Herhon
e.iia, 5cvn Hsgl;n's crag; and u
I NV. AZ INV VA .hst Il WAS who had
sos A. AZ msh Observation-Disclosures WINE.
Mu. !. ,o os mare fa;ntness. 10 this day do
suet r mss fail sanselesa 10 the earth. And
r nau 10y I ramained sensaless With brain
toI rss,,, - vas hsl;evad. tha terrible
.sacn INV systsm had undergone at seeing
}r;and ,ar;sh a. hlv before
my dearest hai no ,o,,ch - .ottar
ny - 'o .. y. .;s,a ~, Mo . IN their
svm,at t never given me- bafore.
nsn Scotereo, sna. uaIn .uauv" or. -
ciunK s.on'ly 70 Ms AM "noIe a. .a.rat
tsMpeeu 30 spesA .ne 1uIn-nt VIC ae'tha
Always nuue cloRsiDs on ny ~ haroro
SANS scene Wa Roue lnIo.su 80 h,J. ard
was struck down py IN invisioi9 nau' anu
reduced pertorce 20 slence Aue" I 'hod
that was smut out from eAp.a.'ons "a. .a .aH
shut myself out from repaIauon n my , :el,
Die deed. Day ana mgnt, asy anu " L.s s;,,
always haunted with nerce tnoukne VI eiu'
and striving helplessly to express II.
had come now to that time In my ite
when must choose profession: resOlv'
ed to become physician from the !eehng
of making such reparation to humanity as !
was able, Tor the NE nad oestroysu. !
thought If could save life, II could aiie,
viate suffering, and bring D.essing instead OF
affliction. that l might somewhat atone Ior
my guilt. Ii not to the individual YET 10
humanity at large. No one ever chung 70
profession with more ardour than under
took the study of medicine; for It seemed 10
me my only way of salvation, II lnoeed thas
were yet possible-a salvation to be worKeo
out not only by chastisement and control OF
my passions, but by active good among my
| fellow-men.
shall never forget the first patient at
tended. 1t was painful case, where there
was much suffering; and to the relations
to that poor mother above a!l-pitter an.
guish. The child had been gwen over Dy
untried, from despair, not from hope; or
| dered new remedy; one that lew would
have the courage to prescribe. Inc enect
was almost miraculous, and as the little one
breathed freer, and that sweet soft sleep OF
healing crept over her, the thick darkness
hanging round me hghtened percepti6iy. nag
solved the mystery OF my futurei ny WoTh
| and charity should come out into the ilgn1
again and could deeds OF reparatlon dispel
that darkness which mere opJeotless pun,
lshment-a mere mental repeutance-coui
not touch!
This experience gave me renewed courage:
devoted myself more ardently 10 my pro,
fession, chiefly among the poor, ana Wltnout
remuneration. Had ever accepted money
believe that all my power would nave gone;
And as l saved more and more Aves, ana
lightened more ana more the neavy 6urden
of human suffering, the dreadful shadow
l was called suddenly TO dying iady. NO
name was given me-, neither was her STATION
In lite nor her conoluon told me. hurried
Off without caring to ask questions careful
only to heal. When reached the house,
was taken into room where she lay in
fainting fit on the bed. Even before sscer.
tanned her malady-with that almost second
sight of practised physician,-her wonder
full beauty struck me. Not merely because
it was beauty, but because it was face
strangely familiar to me though new; strange
ly speaking Of former love: although, in
all my practice had never loved man or
woman individually.
reused the lady from her faintness-but
not without much trouble. TWAS more like
death than swOOning, and yielded to my
treatment stubbornly. / remained with her
many hours but when / left her she was
better. Twas obliged to leave her to attend
poor workhouse child
Ihad not been gone long-carrying with
me that fair face lying in its death-like
trance, with all its golden hair scattered wide
over the pillow, and the blue lids weighing
down the eyes, as one carries the remem-
brance OF sweet song lately sung-carryng
It, too, as fallsman against that dread shad-
ow which somehow hung closer on me TO-
night the DARKNESS zoo, deepening INTO lis
original blackness, and the chill lying hea-
yliy on my heart again-wnen messenger
hurried sfter me, teiiing me me laay was dy,
| ing, ana was 10 70 PACK Immeolately. l
wanted " no second oaaang In moment as
II seeneo " me- l WAS Al her room again. IL
"aS t1Sa,, ,s
-, ah eo iauy was nyinG now, paralysea rom
ner ae1t apsa nd saw .ne aeath, ring
uu ;th ,vh; au daa;h .nas aaln., Dl9i sn
:s VIZ" 49, 800, uoa'n nai nies some vi ms
~ co,,.het ' 10y eIeisy, e.eiy tnougnt
W t th o,d;uarn r,,jaa e - Strange
the a GHy th aies ~ meaiclne, that II was
WI. VIII ois HS INC Ineihlsl wouid prepare
snehti Suo openeu nel Eyes iuI! upon me-
anu 1ne Mnole roo1 ~ was niled win the cry