Vermont phÅ“nix. [volume] (Brattleboro, Vt.) 1834-1955, 1855-06-02

owe me nothing ] have had a wild dream,
bu, am awake at last-awdke enough to sec
il was a fools idea that man like me could
win young girls heart lie was calm no
lnnger; but he turned abruptly away to hide
his emotion. Mr. Lacy criod, striving to
sthe the conflict Of my love, Il would fain do
right. have a deepesteem for you--I--'
broke off, Give me little time,' | added,
passionately renewing the effort; Il shall con
quor this love of mine-l will become worthy
Of you ailer all =
Conquer The purest feeling of womnns
hoart Offer yourself sacrifice to my selfish
ness No, no Mildred, yours is the season
of blessedness-mine is already past. Present
ly, will come back TO you in my old character
and be able 10 say with less difficulty than do
tonight, God bless you BOTH will kiss you
for the last time lie clasped me in his arms,
and kissed me, seemingly with more earnest
ness than passion, bui il was the very depth Of
passion As the door closed upon him,
strange impulse seized me. onged to call
him back. Was il true did not love him -
saw none Of my family that evening, for
went at once TO my room. What a night Of
misery and conflict passed The next morn
ing, Frank came TO my private siiting'roum,
and Knocked for admittance. He held letter
in his hand !; his fine eyes were suhused with
happiness. 'Sympathise with me, Mildred
he said Il feel too much, to bear il alone
| have never talked to you about her, for
could not trust myself with the subject while
doubt remained Now, will tell you about
my darling; she is as WORTHY Of mans heart
as-as Mr.. Lacy is of yoars. BY the way,
Mildred, | was very anxious about you that
night he cams home. for your manner was not
not what, were | in his place, would have
satisfied me; ; bat that is the form woman' S
caprice takes with you, have concluded. As
for not loving him at bottom, don't dare so to
impugn my noble cousins heart aud understand
ing. Frank talkel on long and earnestly
told me the story Of his love. read me his letter
but heard nothing distinctly, understood moth
ing fully. One fact erasped, that be was
going to leave me ,o-morrow--going to this
darling Of his--and that il had spark of dig
nifty and womany ssnse len, | must excite i,
now. don't know hpw bore my martyrdom
but won its crown. Frank bade me goodbye
without n suspicion of the truth. ran once
more to the solitude sf my chamber. ! felt a.
'a'1o"eu anu P'"s"se' nh"g myse" on ihe
oeu )" "anspo" despair. why, hau
'oS' sn' 'i"u oe,n so criminal hAt my
punishment was so heavyi 'Oh, Frank =
cried, 'how ] have loved you--what life might
have been = Then reflected, if Mr.. Lacy
loved me as loved my cousin, what fine
spa" ~ S''u n'''u.' "e "Au s"o"n, VIVA, rare
e,' suen . nea'' was nii,e'Ao'o as "as' y
' W "'HnA was ''o CAUSE U,
n''' "a' ,ey !" s'''' u'sS s''"'S' anu
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Frans w,s rn,,,;cd and NJ 49, 80 "a, as,'.
saw n, leas, never saw him Dis,nno;n,.
men, had made life an oarne,, thing IN mo
and ,aupbt by lis diseinlins. the ebarne,cy orn,
former lover rose in dignity in NV owes Ho,y
was il that had thought would be life.long
love for INV cousin seemod , TO-
sient emotion. of which the ,raccs grew d,;lv
feebler. Had | sacrificed nv banoinoss 70
passing fancyt Or vas il that Al nv ,,e one
canno, long cling to the imnos,iblet Ii,Ie
sienified the seeming eou,rarie,y of nv hear,
for the fact remained-ifI had never Ioved NJ,
Lacy before. loved him now. ,bou,h, nor.
petually of the incidents ofout brief enragemeo,
word Of endearment. every erhr,ce
had lis hold on NV memory. I recalled his
opinions. framing nv own s,rinoen,lv bv ,her,
and followed his publie caree, as far a. 7 was
able. aided bv NV deen knowlsdge or ,ho
hiob principles and natives ,h,, ac,na,ed 4,
The feeling grew in. silence. I'M INV former
love for Frank was but a cbild,s dream in con-
parison. To hear his name mentioned and al
,yays mentioned in conpectio, with some,hina
honorable. moved me with a strange n,ss;on ae
feelinp-and he had loved mel OH ala he
love we vet, Time passed. and had lone
INV former relation. with socie,v ana
had met with successes enonob 70 gra,;ty INV
heart. had vanity boen nv ming n.ss;on ~
rould have adop,cd !, \, 0lsce of he ono which
was secretly sapping The fresh snrincs Of life
the idea occurred. ,ha, !, mich, he
possible. without any compromise Of woman.
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