Edgefield advertiser. [volume] (Edgefield, S.C.) 1836-current, 1855-01-31


utmost TO play the hypocrite successfully, ant
forced up smiles, 10 repay the love each believe
ed the other to feel. Yet during all this, they
were ever looking back with anxious regrets tt
what they had lost, and in their solitude the,
sighed for the past and mourned bitterly owe
the step they had taken. And thus wore OF
month after month of this life of terrible strug
gle-a life in which every advancing day, cover
cd and filled rs it was with joyous smiles ant
the honeyed words of affection, only made then
loathe more and more the presence of each other
because they were continually compelled tc
strive against the real feelings of their hearts
and show in their outward acts love whlcl
they were utterly ignorant and destitute of.
1t must have been terrible to live thus, anc
vet for years they to maintain the same undi
minished appearance of affection, and to cheat
themselves, and all who knew them But il
could not last forever. The time drew on slow
ly and gradually, when they began to discern
the truth, or rather, ut first, to suspect it.
know not what first revealed to them the true
condition of their hearts, 1t might have been
the muttering of a name in sleep; or the dscov.
cry of some toy or little keepsake, treasured il
secret through long and solitary years Of bitter.
ness, and almost wor3hipped for the memories
it brought buck Of the past; or, perhaps. letter
written years ago, in the young hearts first love
and cherished since, and read and read again
when the other was absent, till it had becume
soiled, and worn, and faded. and blotted with
tears, and now left by accident in some place
where it had been seen and read unsuspectingly
by the very one who ought to have been the
1ovf IN Hharp Orp n thnu u.y
in which the discovery could be made. That is
nothing strange. The only wonder is, that,
though there had been nothing TO reveal it-no
they should have been able to treasure up
and keep their mutual secret so long | only
know that he discovered it first, and some months
before she did, and in his manly and noble heart
buried The awful truth and scarcely breathed it
to himself again, knowing as he did the agony
of spirit it would waken. Still he was tender
and kind. and full Of aifectionate attention to
her. Perhaps he thought he might yet win her
! love, or that he might even now have no mean
share in her heart. obscured rs he knew he was
by the image of one who evidently had long
held larger part, and TO whom she now clung
in memory with wonderful constancy.
1t is singular that he did, feeling at the same
time that he did not love her, aud never had /;
that she had been dcceiving him, as he had him
self for so many years; and knowing now that
all their mutual prGtestalons of affection had
been the strained and forced exhibition Of feel
ings that never had 4 place in either of their
hearts. Ii must have been life of terrible
agony 10 him, for the subsequent months during
which he suffered her 10 live on under the i'm
preston that she was still luved--io receive
from her the same cnrcsses he had received for
yearo, and know they were the fundings OF i
hypocrilcal hand, and that while she bestowed
them, she was thinking Of another. 1t must
have been just rs hard for him 10 return her to-
kens Of affection, while he knew all this. But
he did, aud would have done the sane till death
divided them, had not accident In time revealed
to her the true state Of his heart. 1t must not
| be wondered at that, situated rs he was, there
were strangu Inconsistencies in his feelings and
his conduct. The consciousness of his own
want of love for her, struggling with his high
sense Of honor and his sincere wish to make her
happy, would have made any man Inconsistent.
Amy would often ride with him, in his visits
into the country, to see his patients. 1t was on
one of these occasions that he had taken her
with him some miles, to the house OF gcnlle-
| man who had been unfortunate in business, and
and had recently taken up his residence on a
farm, and whose wife was in feeble health. 1t
was their first visit to the house. The gentle
man was absent, and they were shown into the
parlor where they were shortly joined by the
lady Of the house. cannot describe the scene
which took upon her entrance, for she was ,lhe
early loved of Henry. For moment all was
forgotten the presence Of his wife-the misery
of all the past years of decepton-all was swal.
lowed up in the bitterness of that one instant.
What hours of agony fonwed! But afier-
ward the calmness of their former life returned
TO them, and they revealed to each other all
their thoughts and feelings for years past, their
mutual dereit and loathings; and then what
was left for them to do? TO live rs they had
done? That they could not They were no
longer iguorant. They hud tasted of the tree
of knowledge. Henceiorih life was a barren
waste, leahess, howerless, hopeless. They knew
each others hearts, and now they hated They
could no longer look in each others face and
wear even the smile Of hypocrilica affection.
1t was after midnight. that night, when they
parted Size left the room calmly as if nothing
had occurred She left the house, hut he did
not know it. He sat in his chair, and hour after
bour passed on. He did not slumbsr, neither
did ho take any heed Of passing time. 1t was
LONG after sunrise when he was aroused by the
by the voice of his neighbors approaching the
house, and they entered bearing the dead body
OF his wife. Some fishermen had found her in
the river below
1t might have been entirely accidental that
Henry never believed it, and few weeks after
4. 1ao fho bo t0l
me the story which have repeated in my own
words, he was prematurey old and gray
BABLY KIcKED.-Sir--if you see fit you can
can give this place in your paper. have seY-
eral times felt the effect of tiny square toes ap-
piled to the skirts of my coat, but was never
smashed rs fiat rs when the following occurred :
Not long since happened in company with
a tolerably looking gal with dark complexion
and black eyes, and thought just to pass away
the time as drew up my stool, took hold of
her hand with mine, and put my other fin about
her neck, which caused deep blush to mantle
her face and neck. then commenced and emp
tied my hold gizzard 10 her telling how beaui-
full she was and everything else that | could
think of, and wound up by telling her how !
loved her. She heaved deep sigh when had
finished which caused me to think all was right,
when she looked sorrowfully Mt me and suid,
"Was yer taken suddenly Or did it come on
you bv degrets?" We could not tell which,
and left Immediately.
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