The New York herald. [volume] (New York [N.Y.]) 1840-1920, 1854-07-07

me In this vrss chedness in you cannot doubt and
sh,oa sss sisS rsS nth ana . bow Sssa as sai
weary With unequal strife. But hope N hope jast
men Do suasr vropg-in hops the Plo.esnas y. biz
faint not snesg the rest vhafever chsnee hope thea
the best" Rat Ksts my hope has been sut o. 10 taia
..s s.s as, .ss1s: : ssa r be-: =.
from you II again you'd spsak more firmly e the arm
mss & despair OF my affections. that you kns. i then
.%, .Sp sn S1i x our ages tie s
ian Of e Think OF the end Of our being, and dscds
i. II sus
Ions sce that with other people and thsr ahars pve
po hing-iet me mind mine and they mind theirs; it's
Z 70 down to Court as my ease comes up AGAIN das
when they win ask for another postpon~ment They
will get H. Of for ten days more ps Al they can
do-set postpopemen's But must come ont Under tho
law and the, ali know It &c. considering ths time that
has shpsed-and 90 most from minutes and rnemorJ--
al are sick Of H. 90 fsrI mean on Croossrs sids ~ho
not backward In saying 90 tell you this bscAuss
know you win be glad to hear Of it but no~ must
close and with my best and enduring love AND affection
for you my dear wife under all and every circamstooe
ana with the the children, remain your sincere
from his early to bis present affection for her whom
he gave his whole heart, and who must retain -
AGAIN must add that now and forever mean that
you she'll never Kate have 70 tell the shitfren that
did not do not willing to- any and everything to
retain your love and saec,ion and to sntis one e A
sboud Be So that ready In every coucsssion-asI
have told you and others&nu that w.ald WORK til,
ooe Again, my dear wife, soiea. could write yoa
vlrmee u my feelings had the time and II yoa could
get it and cannot read this ~ correct IT. a. have
xrten baAIiy before TO be ready ~ ous,
~ know that you viii knowing you do
the sentiment i rights what you alone hJw
preciatpr the nobIer qualities tina. you may sccreit
NE as possessing. How implicitly rely sssing you
and bearing from you you will not act too hastily
49, I'LL - Dv.S0 faol sk1afT
ought 70 have your and the shldreDs syrupany ~ue
get that Of others, until get money ai liberty
Kate, may God in his infinite mercy guide guard and
drcc. you while under influences wso, thinking
they doing right, blghtng prospec- tnat ever
viii be repentsd Of Kiss the children for me, and tell
them love themyes, dearly love them ard hope that
tbes will be good you have been; it's all viii ask
and let me them and you and be with You onoe
more be A.ppy that parting we shall ,se, -
your devoted though distressed husband,
rurspAY EVE, s O'Clock
DEAR KATE have just returned from the examina-
ton, hch takes place daily,st r. ~ and which, or
rather for which time my nss,ing is again. postponed
only kept up by the other side-the hwyersto sspin
cut time, and get pay There is no doubt at AL that
said this afternoon have had this opportunity
before and he 10 surprised. Well, have suffered long
and dsepIy--and who has there been that has cared
enough to look into III and have been too proud to beg
Of those who would not come voluntarily to my asss
tance. All this win appear and they will say they too
are surprised Ol0 C1OOker - muCn more c0mpiAo8Aues
and indeed is very laxative and social, m.nfsstne
quite different feeling than he has toore do his
lawyers because they ind disposed to go thoroughly
into everything connected with my business The only
thing that now gives unhappiness is that think,
and indeed know that they know what In progress
The part Of your frs nds in my appearance look IS
ffeeldepressed-they laugh; snd II otherwise, they
think do not care so am confident Of being miscon-
strued in either way but do hope that win not BE-
you know is true. Oh, Kate how wish l could pass
this eve with you, to takto tell you my fselings-to
show you that have been wronged know you must
feel that have been and to zee the chdrenbut
not; and when 60 forth any that knows u.s.
then .what boots 1t teach my heart task vain
hide; little Il rscls Of the show Of PRIDE"
cannot write more; can only AK In the words Of
g
the sleep fonntains Of your soul and keep my vtsase
How have darkeued siDce you saw lasta Kate, I
love you still-ove cannot perish In my hesrt-'twil
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dearl hush fe raging tunui my rou aud stfii the
pride in my lonely heart, struggling for
shared together. While here sit in loneliosss the
thought csnes DER my heart ana chis with sadncea
ard cesoiston and yet within my heart sonethins
tells of hope Oh GOO Kaic that you could feel thai
you eoulo appreciate my feelings that had the
power to make you know them, what would not give
from you Would that could read your heart, and YET
think know II. But the uncertainty Kate, Ido
couture you to reply to metell me somethins-writs
to me that may know am not forgotten. See me, my
Gear wife, but for and the last time and above I'll
rely my love, my devotion you kiss the children
for me, and tell me your wi-he, and then know the
votion Of your unhappy husband
NEW YoHx June ~, 1854
DElR KATE Your good and Kind letter was receivei
while your father was with me. OF course had moi
time to read IL then and in fact II must Immature
to him that did not mention Jour the chldren
names or ask how you did or anything else moro thar
though had not known any one but myself. Neither
did tell him that knew he here, for did not have
Time for although It cool there where am TO VIVA
se with here long Huh came to see me yesterday
morning. said as he passed the Astcr House. he Mr.
and and Mrs rasten getting into oArriaes and on inquiry
going 70 Brunswick said nothing but expected him
Hun also told me had written and sent bail bond &c
IT, yet did think Of IT, and It is ey that Hull ma
meet him down town 10 morrow. Will you explain 10
was so in hopes that something would be BY him
quarter wanted to say. could not realize my feeling
until he went when, ~ he left, my hopes Yc
e1nnot blame Inn for in,hunsnly or want q feeling
ahouders when there those Of my own relations VII
IN mo, for reasons unbelmovn TO him, or else want
natural feelings He said his return he should 10
the Crccktrs ana he thought something could Be den
with them Sbut be s mistakenly not then, he shoui
see my family, and know the reason why. Every wor
he ssid vas plain and reasonable, and could say
an and said all tst know or can say, and feel that
do good BY either. After he your letter was m
ony consolsticnto think that you and the children ye
thought Of me and cared for met IL indeed brigh
SPOT, While al around ID DARK and Whatever other
may think, feel and hope am deserving close thi
to send BY Mr.. Hail. who has called Anectonately,
WILDES.
INV YoRx, Oct n, 1853
DEAR kAH-I know that an overruling Proyidenc
knows and controls our veeone that sees not "a ma
sees--and know that shan submit with resignation
to all the Affections and bereavements that have com
upon me; but II does seem hsrd, yea cruel that In
greatest hour Of aiction that my wife and childre
should be thus ruthlessly torn from 1t il hard in
deed and stfi moro 20 that have sympsthizia
friend 10 whom can turn for counsel, none save M
own heart which u bleeding with anguish. What ca
doy ask myself, 40 lay tossing without rest and
heart without hope--what shall df that / have no
dcnes Iknow mott and when feel that you too mus
share my feelings, and cannot dare not and will no
alleviate my wretchedness BY one kind look ward
viii rot even see me or permit TO the children
] ask myself n II possible can have 10 deceived my
sell in the return Of those feelings that freely an
fully gave your II cannot be, and will not canno
believe Il and never viii yield this though il be 8,
unequal contest. No, Kate, until know from YOU
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