Monongalia mirror. [volume] (Morgantown, Va. [W. Va.]) 1849-1855, 1854-11-18
! HAVE LOVED FOUR.

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way can describe how loved him :
How tell the delicious tremor that selz'
ed me when heard his voice, or the
happiness experienced in looking at
him, or the tender care | took to pro,
duce smile on his lps7 And yet |
must confess he was ugly-very deci'
tedly ugly. But he was my first love,
the first being who had made my hear;
palpitato the whole day; who clothed
my dreams with ever.smiling images
who opened to me an entirely new life
and from that time l comprehended no
happiness which was not through him
no sentiments which were not for him ;
no duties | would not have sacrificed to
him. Each of his words made every fl.
bre Of my frame vibrato; each look,
whether gay or quiet, reflected itself in
delicious Joy in the depths of my heart;
and when his mouth mulli,uded kisses
on mine, when his arm formed caress-
ing collar around my neck, when his
hands played with the braids Of my hair,
happiness elevated my emotions toward
heaven, for I.then understood the en-.
ioyment Of the angels. Near him all
other sentiments faded. What to me
now were the bonds imposed by law Or
habit; what tho pleasures of society,
the triumphs of self:loye! How many
times to remain near him have ! laid a.
side my festival ornaments, preferring
his simple words to all the intoxicating
praises of tho worldl How | loved to
see my golden girdIe bruised between
his fingers, or the garland with which |
had coquo,tishly decked my brow, tram
pied beneath his feet. Oh! for him
should not have demanded of heaven,
and what affection could ever rival him
in my soul! Notwithstanding, J must
tell it. A year of intoxication had hard
ly passed when another sentiment inva-
ded my heart. No power could oppose
itself to the interest with which another
being inspired me, an entire stranger,
but whose candid expression awoke in
me thousand hopes. He had glorious
eyes, from which | learned TO draw the
tenderness: and when he leaned his
head on my bosom, when he murmured
my name like the first note of d new
love song, said to myself, "Here, al
SO, is the happiness Of loyiug!"3 lswel-
coined this thought, it doubled my de-
light, and l loced them Joth! How in
some time from this was found near me,
oh such handsome fellow, with pale
complexion aud blue eyes, dare hard
ly tell you.
However. since my pen is vowed to
truth, aud my heart must here betray its
secrets, | will confess that this passion
was not solely ono Of those piqnant ep-
isudes which glide across the heavens
withour disturbing their harmony. My
Young love took his place in my heart,
and, to keep him there, lavished my
tenderest caressos. ! loved 10 follow
the deyelopcment of his first desires, to
reap myself only the efforts of his SEN
sibility. l was now persuaded that the
heart Of woman resembled a flower,
whose perfume is love, and ,ha, an al.
fection the more, but added another
branch. Could | then resist the new
sentiment that afforded itself to- me 2
and-l loved all three Oh Lii could
only surround in mystery the depths OF
my heart this last weakness Of my na'
ture, If | could only stop u, the mystical
number of my first loves. Bat, alas
destiny is great, inexpressible; and, in
spite Of myself finished by adoring q
child, veritable child, who came, ! do
believe, from tho blue ethereal heaven
Tor he was as beautiful as the chernbims
who held the veil over the head of the
Virgin, and his mouth, when he smiled
would have made Eve sin, (satan must
have lookel thus when he tempted her,
that made one hope all things, pardon
oil things. Amiablo and gracious, sub
hitting to your capriccs, anticipating
your desires, covering you with gentle
looks and charming calosses-to sec
him was to love him-aad that is why
loved him. .0..
But four! Oh marvellous prodigal
i,y-of heart, Gun it be true! Four loved
ut once Happy with the same huppi
ness, par,aking Of the same iavors, re-
ceiving the same smiles, the same looks
the same caresses, and that, too, without
Jealousy furnishing for single instant
the harmony ofthese loves! For it was
Que Of these incomprehensible mys,cri6:
that nature alone reveals to the heart o
woman. And now, if you would like
to understand it-ana owifyon woult
like to know how could love them all
how they could all love me, aud how We
could all live together, raise the curtain
which shadows this picture, and you vii
sec A MOTHER AND HER -FOUR SONS H.
| WHO FILL OUR PRISONS?