Port Tobacco times, and Charles County advertiser. (Port Tobacco, Md.) 1845-1898, 1854-07-20

Oank; anu WalCueu Hie yeiio" o""oH'"o
playing "bo.peep" through the branches of
The trees, and the shadows of the fleecy
clouds fitting over the landscape, and
though, had attained to the acme Of earth
ly happiness.
Blu, ''chsnge came over the spirit OF
my dream" One afernoon-one Of Oc-
,ober's sunnies, and most delicious,
while in one Of my peculiar moods, be-
held pair of large, lustrous eyes gazing
full upon me. Previous to tina, time had
never felt more than transient and ordna-
~ interes, in any woman-had never fel!
that indeGuable longing for | know not
what, which the great part of us experience
in our earlier years, when we meet some
fair face tina! plesses and makes an impress
sion, which, for wan. of more expressive
phrase, we call love.
had often conjured up such one as !
fsncied could love, and even felt my SYM
pa.hies 60 GU, in ques: of The imaginary be-
ing, but like the wandering dove, they soon
returned from whence they went. But the
moment beheld those eloquent eyes, and
tina, ,ranscendanlly beautiful face, surround
ed with auburn tresses, from which they
peered. knew my doom was irrevocsbly
sealed, Such gaze had never met mine be-
fore. The face was strange, yet perfectly
familiar, and instsn,ly recognized II as
one had seen 10 some spirl-sphere, or al
eas, in one of my summer.noon reverles,
II rem lined but moment, and then,
while celestial smile played over every
feature, vanished grsduslly away. In tina.
moment, however, felt its image impress
ed, and standing out in bold relief on the
tablets of my heart.
do not use this language in the sense
in which i, is used by sentimental rhymes
tiers; but when say fel. the image OF
the mysterious visilsnt impressed upon my
heart, mean it. 1t seemed 10 be engraven
there, SO that every feature was as percep-
ible to the touch as to the mental vision !;
and thousands Of times have found my
self unwis,ingly placing my hand to my
hear, TO ascertain whether or no that
ecslatic thrill which follows a touch of the
actual flesh and blood would be produced
thereby.
The ight succeeding the interview, sleep
rested not upon my eyelids. was feverish
and sgi,ated, and continually stretching out
my arms to clasp the angelic form, and pill
low her head upon my bosom. Such q
desolste, lonely feeling had never be-
forefore experienced. ], seemed as though
the atmosphere was sitting and oppres-
sive, and was literally crushing me with
its density. Blu. the heavy hours wore
slowly on, and when the morning at
length dawned ! arose with flushed face
and flultcring heart to endure all the eg-
grava,ion and agonies Of an unrequ'ed, but
increasing love.
Experience has led me TO the belief that
love n its early stages can be overcome by
a strong effort of The will. But when
cherished, it, or any other passion, so in
weaves itself with our nature as to become
essential TO, in fact, part of our existence
By broodng long upon one subject,
we incline all The faculties of both mind
and body in tina, particular direction and
render the attempt 10 turn them in contra
~ one, painful in tie extreme. Had ! al
that time been aware Of this fact, might per-
haps have banished all thoughts of The fair
ideal from my mind, and thereby escaped
months and years of suffering such as no
ordinary mortal could endure. But instead
of SO doing Rugged the delusion 10 my
heart, and became daily more and more en-
amored OF her who has exeried such an in
fuence upon me.
do not wish to be understood as saying
that my life Of love was one of misery
nah nnt tEo nj I'M
was in state Of the most exquisite rapture.
often a crimson flush would suffuse my
cheeks and temples and wild lus,re CLEAN
from MI eye. This my friends attributed
to some unnatural and unhealthy excite
ment which they were continually warning
me TO guard against. Little did they think at
those moments had caught glimpse of her
seraphic figure, or fel. her soft ringle.s wave
against my check, and inhaled the fragrance
of her balmy breath. You will smile al
this, am we'll aware; bu. no matter
| am as firmly convinced even now,
that fel, her actual presence, as
am of my existence, and that belief can
neither be reasoned or taken away from
me.
My passion daily increased, and coon
became so intense that formed dislasle
for every thing tina. had The least tendency
TO divert my thoughts for an lns,an, from
her; and as a natural consequence, most of
the pursuits and avocations of life become
in the highest degree repuIsive. was dis
contented and unsa.isfied. could no, re-
main quietly at home. A some.hing with
in me kept urging me hlher and thither,
and compelling me continually to change
from place to place, and engage in new I'm
dertakings and enterprises. What i; was
know not. appeared to have no objec,
10 ife-no,hing to live and toll for. VIVA,
was the world with its slrles and ambitious
to me ]. possessed no charms or allure
ments, and took no interest in its afairs