The Rutland County herald. [volume] (Rutland, Vt.) 1852-1855, 1854-01-20
Che famiIp Girflr.
A DIARY.
BY MARTHA RUSSELL.

Jan. ljM.-rhey have been spoken.
those words which so dreaded 10 hear.
and, oh Heaven, what am that /
should indict such pain and suffering
upon the human soul Never did he
seem so good and noble as when, put
ting aside all earthly considerations, he
plead in terrible tones for my love. for
lite's best boon from my hands.
And yet, never did feel il more i'm
possible 10 grant his prayer God
knows | would have done so, if could ;
would have put away my long cher
ished dreams as idle, had | found any
response TO his words. ] even plead
for him, set before me all his noble
ness and goodness, his growing sympa-
thy with my tastes and pursuits, the
wide influence for good. which he urged
! possessed over him. thought of nv
mother,--of the life of toll and insola-
ton that lay before me but there came
no response. and | dare not irihe with
eternal truth.
He plead for hope, and urged the
love which in the need of years of ten
derncss and devotion. 1t cannot be-
l have been down in the innermost re-
cesses Of my heart. and know, by the
love that went out so spontaneously
toward another, that there are abysses
of tenderncss-aye, passion--there, that
III. has no power TO move and know
ing this, ! dare not trust TO years.
So let him look into my heart; God
gave me strength to do il; and, with
an incohsront blessing on m" far MY
-.'-r 49, ..~..s o"s '"sS ,uo "u,i
darkness but the wintry sleet, nor the
north wind, nor the darkness, is not
more cold and dreary than the heart he
has left behind Oh, they know not
woman's heart who talk of the pride of
conquest
There is nothing on Gods earth that
teaches humility, like the consciousness
of being deeply and truly beloved
Jan. lsh'--They say H. has gone
TO New York en- route for Europe =
DIR. G.. was sitting with US when Emilia
came in, having just heard the news up
town. suddenly interrupting herself
in her cxclamations of surprise, aunt
turned to me .Iou said II. called here
the evening he went to hear Holmes
lecture. Did he say nothing of this
Elizabeth 2
No, certainly not, aunt, and JOY that
/ was thus able to speak the truth, gave
me courage to boldly face DIR. G..
searching look.
But was glad that uncle came II
that moment, and created diversion in
my favor. lie never sees mystery in
anything that cannot be solved by the
interest table, and thought ii had gone
TO Europe on business. Stocks ar,
rising, and he has some interest there
] believe he said
Stocks, uncle = said Emelia, impa
tiently. When did Fred ii. ever trou
Bile himself about stocks, ! should like
TO know ?
Il am really afraid its an attack o.
brain fever began aunt despondingly
His father died OF il, and he has beer
threatened with il more than once
Don't YOU think so, Doctor 2 she asked
anxiously.
Not at all, my dear madam. No
that a young fellows brain, aye, ant
blood, ioo-docs get into strang,
whirl once in q while, but from oihel
causes than congestion And again h'
scanned nv face closely.
Aunt sighed, aud uncle spent whole
twenty minutes, long time for him, it
trying TO prove 10 her the impossibiliiy
Of there being any hereditary tnint II
the blood Of that iamily--a family re
lated 10 him.
According to him, all his own rcla
tiyos have died through some oyersigh
which might have been seen and pro
vided for, had they been endowed will
his wisdom. presume he expects e
be translated.
Jan. 20h.-Emilia takes H. ab
senee 10 heart. What does Il mean
Underneath tina, sarcasm between then
DID there iurk a deeper fcelingf
must look to this She IS 10 high spiri,
10 night. ihoosh. because Mr. T., VIII
leciured before tie Institute last nigh
IS 10 dine here tomorrow. She prn
phecies I viii fall in love with him a
once. Perhaps so shall see.
Jan. 2ln.-Ile has been here, ih
Author. Poet. Prophet, whom ! hav
reverenced for years. have lookc
upon biz face. listened to his voice. an
il i much 10 say that be did not disaf
point me. The face is good, grave an
serene bot hi. chief power lies in 81
voice and manner, which groSs on on
until Il becomes complete fsscinaiiol
A. least, 80 thought when he iurr
e1 from the mixed company after dir
nor. and commenced talking 10 me 4
BroSning', poems. which lay upon n
table. Perhap. I was prePof-es.ei B
the Interest with which hr laenf
a. my remarks. hni every uorI SCENE
the ccia af a ioY ng heart. an earne