The Caledonian. [volume] (St. Johnsbury, Vt.) 1837-1867, 1854-02-18

''N' ''''' "''H "V'"o vi H'ihc COu!u,tuc
hearts history of this impuIsive woman
MARY. it begun, ''lcar Mary, | must
write to YOU. ! am frantic with misery Nv
own heart can bear its weight of wretched-
ness alone no longer. lean tell it to no one
but you. fling myself upon your pity. I
know your calm, sweet. rightlv-tcmpcrcd
heart can never fully understand my way
ward and wicked one; but you always piticd
me. and know you will now. Mary, YOU
know what childhood and youth passed
| made dl>cord ever in our well-tuncd family
l. the only one rcpining amidst content.
trial and vexation. and mystery to Won ALL
Wildly happy one hour-pIunccd in dccp
despair the next. Only in excitement was
happy-thcn followed misery Therein lies
my history. | believed myself, Mary. and
think YOU all believed. that ] had talent; but
has! no controlling power mysclt, and no
one could understand me- 50 grew up with
out anything fixed or settled about me. | was
not even equal in my likes and di>likcs
grew sick of pcoplc-nonc realized the
dreams have dreamed were 50 beau
titul-none SO cnthu>iastir-none so warm
hearted You know, Mary, how tiscontcnt-
ed was with myself, with all, with the quiet
lie we led. How lonscd with an unqucnch-
able thirst, for luxury all that was gay
and brilliant. WANTED, too, to know pco-
pie OF great minds. men and women, whose
thoughts would Stir my s!umbrrin- energies.
1-shall confess it YES, ALL hung"rcd
for some deep, idoairou, love. | half-lovcd
more than one whose heart was offered M
to me. bat how poor the -: - Was this all :
this poor. hc"rarlv. sti!,,d loyc? In all
the world were there none Ike me. to give
heart for heart: found no such, None
We're Ike me-
Il met ALERT IIamlin In every respect
he was the very opposite of mvSelt.-calm
and sclt-po>scs>cd a.ways IIc had the vcrv'
best aud kln!c>t hcart-thc clcarc>t mind -
the most uncrr!nr Iudgment-a man of no
great intellect, Of no mighty. ovcrpowcrin.
emotions. of little enthusiasm: never carried
away by impulse, a man of system. Of cool
ness. OF clear, GOOD sense Mary. in this bit
ter and terrible hour OF acutc>t pain TO me. |
am calm enough to bear witness to thiS-I
gratefully and proudly do it-that never,
Fl ON the mOmcn; | first knew him, through
TIE years OF our united lives, have | known
in this man one look. one word. one action
that was not manly. noble Ihavc felt ever
that with his good, and Just, and mcnerou.
heart, he was The most enyiallc man on
earth.
MARY, DID vou ever wonder why he mar
ric'l me, or him He saw what was He
loved mc-I know we'll have never douh-
ted ito the extent of hi great heart. He
loved mc-hc saw my faults. felt that he
could love them all-could bear with nv ca
prices could suit me 10 himself. | said to
myself. 4 shall become calmer. more gentle.
more equal minded woman. NV life will he
fused in his. shall rely upon, his STRENGTH
ON lis strong heart, mine wca.v. way
ward, >;orm-ios>cd shall f .,d rcrosc.'
married him, and vop were all made hap
ly. Helen has d'.ne so we'll, said nv father
ana mother; has shown herself IN the enc
50 sens Die and iulcious' With this thought
t.rmuI!nc blessings on me. died both INV "a
rents.
Mary, linccr here Albert made tor IN,
. 4 beautiful homc-thc most cnyiallc hon,
on cartl-thc home lie had been for yea,
. preparing, and which he and came at las, t,
dwell in and enjoy. And peace came an,
dwct with us. Aitcr 30 MANY wears OF Vail
search, happiness came to me unsought. No
that deep, ricE: ovcri'ow;n. had dreamed! Of
in earlier days, thrilled my heart with it
passionate ov bat the calm of content wa
mine. was no longer the same being
: < Mary. how can 90 on : Within a fc,
weeks cvcrvthin. has changed. have live
: an eternity Of insane happiness of mad an
| gui>h. In the great world was one. most ci.
ted of talented man. who was w,ctchcd, fo
he haa-oh, Mary cannot 90 on. d
: not care for this man. do not want to 9,
t with him, but how can remain here. hay
suffered him to come hcrc-T have kent 81
, lent when he told me how much he cared fo
me. Oh What PROCLAMATION to have listened
what sct-rcproach. what agony have or
durcd .-7h're IS a M'uh upon my som, Ma
! nv. know Albert would forgive me h
, would believe me, but could never meet hi
+ eve again. never could not bear mvScI
, am going away from him to- morrow. Ma,
, | 70, tul- 1t1., I
her like Yourself Never tell her anvthin
+ about me-shc will forget me. Make he
5 calm, even-tcmpcred, happy; don't let he
! be that curse to hersclt-an impulsivc wo
man. Save her from that implorc you
But oh, Albert-ifI could find one faul
with hlm-throw one word Of blame upor
him, but cannot cannot Mary, pity mo
r implore von. Yes. and pray God pit,
her-tiod pity her'-your poor HELEN"
Ilcncctorth poor Helen hurried on to he1
doom. That night-that last nicht-hov
r long. how gray, and chill and dreary it wa
she sought her pilow-she buried her fac.
in the deepest gloom, but the haunting mise
: rv of her heart would not let her Sleep
There was no rcpose-no oblivion for her.
: II shall never slecp-I shall never sleep
she murmurcd to herself over and over a
gain.
In the morning she rose, pale and silent
, Mr. 11amlin was going early into town, bu
!. Ii, Enaercd 10 Snnal kindly To uclnn