Fremont journal. [volume] (Fremont, Sandusky County [Ohio]) 1853-1866, 1854-09-22
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describe how l loved himl How tell the
delicious tremor that seized upon me when
heard his voice, or the happiness had
experienced in looking at him, or the ten
der care took to produce smile on bis
lips? And yet, | must confess, he was ug-
| ly. But he was my first love- the first be-
ing who made my heart palptate the whole
day: who clothed my dreams with every
shining image; who opened to me an en-
tirel y new life: and from that time COM
prehend no happiness which was not through
him; no sentiments which were no, of him /;
no duties | would not have sacrificed 70 him.
Each ol his words made every fiber Of my
frame vi6rate; each look, whether gay or
quiet reflected itself in delicious Joy in the
depth of my heart; and when his mouth
mqltituded kisses on mine; when his arms
formed caressng collar around my neck /;
when his hands played with the brads of
my hair, happiness elevated my emotion
toward heaven: for then understood the
enjoyment OF the angles. Near him all
other sentiments faded. What to me now
were the bonds imposed by law or habit
what the pleasures Of society, the triumpths
of self! love? How many times to remain
near him, have | laid aside my festival or
namcnts, preferring his simple words to all
the intoxicating praises of the world How
loved to see my golden girdle bruised
between his fingers, or the garland with
which had coquettishlv decked my brow,
trampled under his feet. Oh! for him what
have not demanded Of heaven, and what
affection could ever rival him in my soul !!
Notwithstanding, must tell it. A year of
intoxical;on had hardly passed when anoth
er sentiment invaded my heart No pow
or could oppose itself to the interest with
which another being inspired me, an entire
stranger, whose candid expression awoke in
me thousand hopes. He had glorious eyes,
from which learned TO draw the tender
ness; and when he leaned Lis head on my
bosom, when he murmured my name like
the first note of new song | said to my.
sell Here also is the happiness of loving
| welcomed d this though, it doubled my
delight, and | loved them both! How in
some time from this, was found near me.
oh! such handsome fellow, with pale
complexion and blue eyes, l dare hardly
tell you.
However since my pen is vowed 10 truth
and my heart must here betray its secrets.
| will confess that this passion was not sole
ly ore of those piquant episode which
glide across the heavens without disturbing
their harmony. My young love took his
place in my heart. and to keep him there,
l lavished my tenderest caresses. | loved
to follow the development of his first de-
sires, 10 reap myself only the effort Of his
sensiblity. was not persuaded that the
heart of a woman resembles flower, whose
perfume is love, and that affection the more
but added another branch. Could then
resist the new sentiment that offered itself
to me ? and-Iioved all Mreei Oh! if |
couldsonly surround in mystery what re-
mains TO be told, if could only seal in the
depths of my heart this last weakness OF
my nature, if could only stop at the mys-
tical number Of my first loves. But alas
destiny is great, inexpressible. and in spite
of myself, | finished by adoring child. a
veritable child, who came / do believe,
from the blue ethereal heaven, for he as
beautiful as cherubims who hold the veil
over the head of the Virgin, and his mouth
when he smiled, would have made Eve sin,
(Satan must have looked thus when he
tempted her J and his eyes had that innocent
voluptuousness that made one hope all
thiugs.-Amiable and gracious. submitting
TO your caprices. anticipating your desires,
covering you with gentle looks and charm
ing caresses-to see him was to love him
and that is why loved him.
But four! Oh marvellous prodigality of
heart can it be true? -Four loved at once
Happy with the same happiness partaking of
Of the same caresses and that too With leal-
ously furnishing for single instant the har.
mony of these loVersl For it was one of
these incomprehensible mysteries that ma
ture alone reveles to the heart of woman.
And now. if you would like to understand
-ifyou would like to know how l could
love them all, how they could all love me,
and how we could all live together, raise
the curtain which shadows this picture, and
you will sea- MOTHER AND HER FOUR
SONS.
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