The south-western. [volume] (Shreveport, La.) 1852-1870, 1854-11-01
LOUISIANA, WEDNESDAY, NOVEMBER /, 1854.

I HAVE LOVED FoUR.-The first one loved!
Oh! in what way can describe how | loved
him? How tell the delicious tremor that selzed
me when heard bis voice, or the happiness !
had experienced in looking at him, or the ten
der care took to produce smile on his lips?
And vet, I must confess, he was ugly-very
decidedly ugly. But he was my first love, the
first being who had made my heart palpitate
the whole day, who clothed my dreams with
every smiling images, who opened to me an en-
tirelY new life, and from that time [ compre-
hended no happiness which was not through
him, no sentiments which were not OF HIM, no
duties / would not have sacrificed to him. Each
of his words made every fibre of my frame
vibrate, each look, whether gay OF quiet, re-
ected itself in delicious Joy in the depths OF my
heart, and when his mouth multituded kisses
on mine, when his arm formed caressing collar
around my neck, when his hands played with
the braids Of my hair, happiness elevated my
emotions toward heaven, for then understood
the enjoyment Of angels. Near him all other
sentiments faded. What to me now were the
bonds imposed BY law or habit. what the plea
sures of society, the triumphs of self-loye? How
many times to remain near him, have laid
aside my festival ornaments, preferring his SIM
pie words to all the Intoxicating praises of the
world How loved to see my golden gisdle
bruised between his fingers, OF the garland with
whichI had coquettishly decked my brow,
trampled under his feet. OH. for him what
should I not have demanded Of heaven, and
what affection could ever rival him in my soul!
Notwithstanding must tell it-a year of in
Itoxication had hardly passed, when another
sentiment invaded my heart No power could
oppose itself to the interest with which another
being inspired me, an entire stranger, but whose
candid expression awoke in me a thousand
hopes He had glorious eyes, from which |
learned to draw the tenderness, and when be
leaned bis head on my bosom, when he mur-
INJURED my name like the first note of a new
love song, said to myself, ''Here, also, is the
happiness of loving" | WELCOMED this thought,
it doubled my delight, and l loved them both!
How in some time from this was found near
me, oh !ssuch handsome fellow, with pale com
plexion and blue eyes, dare hardly tell you,
However, since my pen is vowed to truth,
and my heart must here betray its secrets, |
will confess that this passion was not solely one
of those piquant episodes which glide across
the heavens without disturbing their harmony.
My young love took his place in my heart, and
to keep him there lavished my tenderest ca
resses. loved to follow the development of his
first desires, to reap myself only the efforts OF
his senslbility. was now persuaded that the
heart of woman resembled flower, whose
| perfume is love, and that an affection the more,
bHt added another branch branch. Cenld then re-
IL, hot lodi
and loved all three! Oh! if could only sur
round in mystery what remains to be told, If |
cqpld only seal in the depths Of my heart this
last weakness of my nature, i'll could only stop
at the mystical number OF my first loves. But
alas! destiny is great, inexpressibe, and in spite
of myself, finished by adoring a child, averl-
table child, who came do believe from the
ethereal heaven, for he was beautiful as the
cherdbims, who held the veil over the head o.
the Virgin, and his mouth when he smiledowould
have made Eve sin, (Satan must have looked
thus when he tempted her, and his eyes hac
that innocent voluptuousness that made one
hope all things, pardon all things. Amiab]e
and gracious, submitting to your caprlces, an
ticipating your desires, covering you with gen
tie looks and charming caresses-to see him
was to love him-and that is why | loved him
But four! Oh! marvellous prodigality O
heart, can it be true? -Four loved at once
Happy with the same happiness, partaking o.
the same favogs, receiving the same smiles, the
same looks, the same caresses, and that toe
without jealously furnishing for single instant
the harmony of these lovers? For it was one
of these incomprehensible mysteries thatnature
alone reveals to the heart of woman. And now
if YOU would liketo understand it-ifyou would
like to know how could love them all, how
they could all love me, and how we could al
live together, raise the curtain which shadows
this picture, and you will sea mother and
her four sons.
A NICE MAN-The other day, by mistake
Of one of our mailing clerks, package of oul
morning papers, which should have gone te
n - De-