Oxford Democrat. [volume] (Paris, Me.) 1833-1933, 1854-04-21

is bashiul a. j, is secret; and the tongue Of a
lover fails when most required. lIwould have
been rudsness to have shaken him or aud
had plead or,-cfdcors engagement, ten to
one. he would not ha', proposed accompany
JOG me. Frank Lumsden was general ae-
quainianec.
Out VIC went; there was no help Tor it. !
was angry with myself and him. The eve
ming pasSee over; every minute seemed an
hour. cursed the Danish vessel, and al it
Concerned. Frank stock to me like an evil
conscience. and no, till an hour aNer all hopes
Of seeing Miss wyle had eSpircd did he leave
me to myself, to shcw the eud Of my bitter
thoughts
The next noon called in the expectation
,hl, some chance might have been afforded me
to plead my apology, and to express at once
my rcrre, and disappointment. only saw
Mrs. wylic. Catherine was indispnsed. For
several successive DAYS made enquiries.
She va, better, bu, had not len her room
she vas now nearly quite ~ell-she vas out
al short walk :-Ca,hsrins Mas invisible.
wha, could this mean Offence, It offence
had been given by nc was involuntary. Faui'
ty or not. ~hy condemn NE siihouI aiIordInr
opportunity either Of hearing or an eTPla-
naiCn'
At Iha, period, all the passions Of youth
burned ho,ly in nv hear,, and alI within was
tumul, By FITS ] was sorro~rul and angry
j-alou,-do'ing imphcabIe-iorgiyiur; "e'.
eryihinr by turns, and nothing long" cIccP,
iu the ardour of an affection which | rallied
araiusl. bu, could no, cast from me.
Prryiou, to this, ] had been urged by my
friends to aecsp, Of lucrative mercantile sit.
ua,ron in Demcrara but this offer, although
no, positively refused, had kcp, in allowance
solely on accuub; of nv reluctance to leave sll
IN the World that ~as thea held dear hy me-
In thc dclirium OF nv thoughts, imagined
that this bar Mas nov removed and tha, not
oul, had a rirh, to GO where pleased, bu,
ita, was ready at a moments warning 10 de-
50. She ,luns me she dsspscs me .--atall
e,e0,s she condemns ne irhca'd, she wish.
Is 10 Get rld of me her affections may have
been alisua,ci In another. shall snd " ~ill not
atsuc,s her she shalt soou be nd Of my pres
cuce.
b., perhaps had rrocras,inaied too long
Was the situation s,llI oren' wrote on the
rn,,an. 10 NV friend 4, Liverpool. By return.
lr s1sver came. summoninc me To be ready
with all speed. as the yeS,cl vas ready Tor
sarlios, and rha, he had secured NV passage.
IN tvo jays w.s oil on my purney. Head
strur. and lmreruous, had no, tune did
no, give nyselfrm.-to reject on my con.
duct. Tie STEPS bad taken were Irrc,rtc,a.
blc.
ID Miss wylte know my motions : had
ever, reason 10 believe tina, she did not, and ]
even ,r.umphed iu,he suPPus,lon tmay licl'.
IN forgive mel that she would feel the cruelty
Of her conduct, and suffer for i'-oh not suiIer
-.h., Is Ton strong ~ord-bu, be sorry FOR
It when too late.
The morrow was my staring time. ] was
to leave my native land, aud all ! loved IN the
world. in search of uncertain gains Nv
mind va, dissatisfied anil dark, and could
have wished or death, were 1t for no other
reasou than thl, nv bon,s should res, in the
same churchy,rd si,h those Of my family and
iorralhers. The love Of country may be much
stronger IN some busoms than ~ Oihe,s; hut
Il the latent GLOW is at any time to be called
forth. It mus, he when a man is leaving 1t for
dim and indefinite PeriOd-Perhars With li'.
tle prospec, Of return.
A, morning the carriage, with trunks laced
on top and front, rarIled to the door. We
drove or passed through the well known
streets, like people who are hurryinG to scene
Of caie,y and before had recovered enough
from my rcyrrie to he altogether conscious Of
wha, was passing we were several miles rrou,
INV native place-rrom the home Of Catherine
wyle. remember in the midst Of my har-
Jy bravery. being more than once overcome
with the sofuess Of humanity ard starting up
10 the windows Cf the chaise, 10 casi last,
and Vet another last look backwards. The
young day was serene and beautiful, the hirl'
we're singing 10 the fields, and the wly'ds
traveller whis,ling in vacant joyfuness Of hI'
heart The town was still visible, as II lay
On the side Of 4 gentle hill. The blue sm,kC
from a hundred happy helrihs was ascending
up through the quiet morning ait, the wealth
orcoek on the lown.house sIeeple rlittercd 10
the sunshine.
Thirty years what ehasm IN human lie
thirty wears passed over my head IN for
sisn land, as, changed in form and mind, ! SCI
ms foot on the native soil to which felt hlC
almos, grown an alien. The hirh.hearieC
passionate stripping had become transformed
to,o the slllcw valeiudiuariau, the almost pen
nIless youth into the man Of substance. On
the morning after my arrival, as thought oI
my early yess.l looked a, my face in the mir
TOR. and could not help hea'ing a sigh oVel
the ravaVes Of time.
Need ! say lha, few, very few Of my earl,
friends remained to bid ne weleome back
The scy,he Of time had made dreadful havoc
The old had passed away "like tale that u
told;' the mature, such as remained ofthcm
were grayheaded, and bending under III,
weight of years. Boys were transformed in