The Ohio union. [volume] (Ashland, Ohio) 1849-1854, 1853-06-08

were 10 punish the unworthy authors Of
my sorfow--were to'sffike ifnperishable
remoIse to the hearts of Maria and John
aod1 iodk lhe pistols with me, rratiering
as 1 concealed them in my breast-"Per.
haps may want ihem." .'s,s i
In this frame OF mind, wandering through
back and retired streets, with no other mo.
tive TO direct me lhan the necessity Of To-
comolion, | at length found myself on the
banks of the Thames, at no great distance
from Westminster lr dges My boa, was
kept nearthis place. On The water Ishould
be delivered from all apprehensions Of OBJ.
serving eyes. ! should be alone with my
sorrow; and, uniavoruble as the season and
the weather we're, proceeded to The spot
where my boat was moored.
"Bad time Tor boating, Mr.. IIutirell,"
said Piner, who had the charge Of my
wherry. "Il's mortal cold, and there's
rain getting out there 10 the windward."
But careless Of his good naIured remon-
-slrlnces, lseized the oars impatienty from
his hand, and proceeded in an angry silence
to the boat. pushed her Off, and rowed
rapidly up the river toward Chelsea, with
Neptune lying at my feet. When | thus
found myself alone upon the water, with
none 10 know, or mark, or ogerhear me,
my grief breaking through all the restraints
that hid confined it as long ds,i was ex.
posed 10 the inspection Of my fellow crea-
lures, discharged itself ir vehement excla-
nations of indignant passion. ..,; !,
"Fool!--ldiot, that was to'lTust them!
Nthing on earth shall ever induce me now
TO louk upon them again. Oh, Maria! |
should have thought it happiness enough
10 have died for you; and you to desert
me--to fall away from me, too, at a mo
men, when single smile Of yours nigh
have indemnilied me for all the wrongs o
fortune, all the lreachery Of friendship! AS
10 Frazer, all men are alike selfish BY
nature, habit, education. !They are trained
10 baseness, and he is The wisesl man who
becomes earliest acquainted with suspicion
lie is the happiesl who, scorning lbeithol
low demonstrations of attachment, con
strains every sympathy Of his nature with
in the close Imprisonment Of a. cold ant
unparicipaing selishness; but I'll be re
venged. Fallen as am-Nrnk--inpov
erislled-despised, as Lionel Lu,trell may
be, the perfdious shall yet be taught /,
know that he will not be spurned viii
impunity, or irampled on without reprisal!!'
Atlhese words. some violence of gesur
accompanying the vehemence Of my sen
limeuts, interfered with the reposs o
/ Neptune, who was quietly sleeping al tn
bottom ofthe boat. The dog vented hi
l impatieDce in quick and angry growl
: Al that moment my irritation amounte
, almost to madness. ,.... .
Fright! right" | exclaimed, "my YER
. dog turns agans, me. lie wi:hdraws tn
r mercenary attachment which my food ha
purchased. now that the sources whic
!. supplied il, have become exhausted" f"
/. imputed 10 my dog The frailies Of man, an
r haslened, in the wild suggestion of the il
4 slant, to take summary vengeance on hi
t ingratitude. ! drew forth pistol frol
, my breast, aud ordered him to take to tn
{. water. | determined to shoot him as h
e was swimming, and then leave him lheI
0 to die. ~, !, l.t..
= Neplure hcsiiaied in o6eying RE. II
e was scarcely aroused; perhaps he did n,
# comprehend nv command. My impalienc
II would brook no delay. | was in no hume
It to be lhwared. Standing up in Inc boa
e proceeded, with sudden strength, TO ca
J. the dog into the river. . My purpose failet
), my balance was loet, and, in a moment
q time, found myself engaged in desp
{, rate struggle for existence with The darI
;. deep waters Of the Thames. | cAnn
4 swim. Dealh--death in all lis terrors, il
y slanlaneous, inevitable death, was The idt
y that pressed upon my mind, and occupit
d all its ficullies. But poor Neptune requ
ST red no solicitation. lie no sooner winesst
the danger Of his master, than he spraI
Is forward to my rescue, and sustaining n
: head above the water, swan sloully avs
E. with me To The boat.
y When once reseaet there, look,
b. bpon my preservey shaking The water fro
its coat as composedly as If nothing ex,r
ordinary had happened, my conscicn
became penetrated with the binercst fe,
as ings Of remorse aud shame. Selrju1se
is scIl.coIrec,ed, self.condemned, | sal like
OF guilty wretch in The presence Of that not
" animal, who having saved my life al i
il very moment was mtdilating his dt
n. lrucIion, seemed Of too generous a nalu
y to imagine thst.lhe act he had Ber(orms
i exceeded the ordinary limits oG'his serrit
" or deserved any special gratitude from !
N master. | lel, as one who had in intenli
al committed murder on his benoiaclor, az
is as slowly rowed towards the land; el
III quent ia the praise Of the unconscious Ne
Il. tune, the recollection Of my perilous ,
Or cape, the complete convicliUn OF my havi
r. in ono instance been mistaken in my anE,
a and perhaps, mos, unromantic as il IN
or sound, The physical operation Of my CO
r. bath, aud my wet habilimenls, all the
We causes united, operated so efleelually
,e allay the fever Of my irri,aled passion
D. that the agitation ofmy mind was soolhe
le Mine was now the Sphit ci one ip sorto
e, not ia anger. llumbled in mine 6I
y opinion, ny indignation against Maria a
ie John Frazer, for their cruel desqrton
"a my distress, was exchanged Jor ningl
ID sehiimeh, Of tenderness and E,rgivencl
.. On reaching the landing place. | haslpn
ul to take possession of The first hackne
q, coach, and calling Neptune into il, dro
OF to my lodgings 10 Conduilslreet.
u On arriving al my apartment tho 81