Green-Mountain freeman. [volume] (Montpelier, Vt.) 1844-1884, 1853-08-25

which all who know me must have observed, in
few years past. After years spent in humble
and contrite entreaty, that the tremendous sac.
rifice on Mount Cavalry might not have been
made 10 vain for me--'he chiefest of sinners
il pleased God to speak his peace into my heart
that peace of God which passeth all under
standing 10 them that know il not, and even TO
them that do. And although ! have now, as
then, to reproach myself for time misspent, and
faculties misemployed although my condition
has on more than one OCCASION resembled that of
him, who. having one evil spirit cast ont, was
taken possession Of by seven other spirits more
wicked than the first, and the first also; yet !
trust that they too. BY the power and mercy Of
God, may be. if they are not vanquished.
But where am going ;o3 On this sabicct
more hereafter. Meanwhile. assure yourself Of
what is of so small vane compared with that of
those who are piece of myself-of the unchan-
ged regard and sympathy of your mothers son.
Ah, nv God ] remember to have seen her die,
to have followed her to the grave, to have won
dered that the sun continued to rise and set and
the order Of nature to 60 on. lgnorantof true
religion, but not yet an atheist, remember with
horror my impious expostuations with God
upon this bereavement not yet an atheist"
The existence Of atheism has been dened but
was an honest one. Hume began and Hobbs
finished me. read Spinoza and all tie tribe.
Surely fell by no ignoble hand. And,he very
man, who gave me HUNTS " Essays nson Hu-
man Nature " to read, administered =" Beatti up
on Truth'a as an anlidote Venice treace against
arsenic and the essential oil Of bitter almonds
bread and milk poultIce for the bite of the ca :
pello.
Had remained successful political leader,
might never have been Christian. But it pleas
ed Gud that my pride should be mortified that
by death and desertion should lose my friends !;
that, except in the veins OF maniac, and he,
too, possessed "of child by deaf and dumb
spirit" there would no, run one drop of my faith
er's blood in any living creature beside myself.
The death of Tudor finished my humiliation.
had tried all things but the refu Of Christ, and
to that, with parental stripes was driven. o.
ten did cry ont with The Iather of that wretchcd
boy, Lord b ieve-help thou my unbelIet; !"
and the gracious mercy of our Lord to this wa
vering faith, staggering under the force of the
hard heart of unbelelf hoped would, in ills
good time, he extended to me also. St. Mark,
VII. II 30.
Throw revelation aside, and can drive any
man by irresistible induction to atheism. John
Marshall could not resist me. When say any
man, mean man capable Of logical and con.
seqnenial reasoning. .Deisn is the refuge of
,hes.v,l, ~ 'r,l,g oh KBER Chdirn.M bela,ve
revsux-~.,c. -. -,---v-1aJ lo1 4sIve forgiven
us both) and myself used with Diderot g. Co.,
to laugh at the deslical bigols who must have
milk, not being able to digest meat. All ihelsm
is derived from revelation, that Of the laws con-
fessedy. Our own is from the same SOURCE
SO is the revelation of Mahonet: and can't
much blame The turks for considering the Franks
and Greeks to the doators. Every other idea
of one God that floats in the world is derived
from the traditions of the sons of Noah, handel
down to their posieri'y.
But enough--and more than enough-I can
scarcely guide my pen will, however, add
that no lukewarm seeker ever became real
Christian. for " from the days OF ohm the Bap
list until now, the kingdom of heaven suffefelh
violence. and the violent take it by torce"-a
text which read FIVE hundred times before |
had the slightest concep',n OF its true applica-
ton. Your Brother,
J. R., of Roanoke.
To II. ST.. G. TUCKER, E-q