The Lancaster ledger. [volume] (Lancaster, S.C.) 1852-1905, 1853-06-01

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feel it ooursng through my veins. like
slender streams Of heat--why, man, l tell
you feel better than have done for
weeks. Give me some more, and will
yet live to laugh at your grave face.
could almost eat, and that | have not
done much for weeks, my tongue and
throat have been so sore."
After some time gained his conscn. to
try to sleep-he was afraid of sulfocatinp.
and he said his thoughts were so wild as
he would lose himself, that he would start
up, and fear he might go mad. At length
he slept; but what II struggle, now that
the Influence of the brain was calmed. |
had promised to remain by his side that
night. Whenever he awokc from his
troubled sIumber, gave him some re-
freshlng drink,and 10 myastonishmentheut-
tered his gratitude in the mildest manner.
could scarcely believe it was the same
proud and almost fierce man had seen
at hrst. Towards day his garments be-
came drenched, and his check grew more
wan, whilst his dark hair, dripped with
the heavy sweat that was fast flooding life
away.
| When morning dawned, retired for
few hours rest. On my return to his
chamber, | found him on the sofa as first
l had seen him. He extended his cmac-
lated hand, and, with smile, whose DOW
er was extraordinary, he thanked me for
my care.
Between yonr skill, DOCTOR" said he,
and my determination, tho enemy might
be held down long time"
The day wore on. To nv surprise he
really seemed better than the dav prcvi
Gus. Ills conversation, Mt first somewhat
reserved, became more free and ,rnest
and as night closed in, he appeared to re.
gard me almost atfectionately. Occasion
al faint turns occurred during the dnv, but
upon the whole, he thought he felt better
than he had done for weeks. Yet there
was scarce lung enough TO have support-
ed an infant. Still this once powerful
man lived on-moved Mt times with a sur.
Prising strength and spoke almost with
out pant.
When the sun was nigh down, he plac.
ed himself at the window. A few clouds
portended coming storm, as their irreg-
ular outlines were lighted uo by the last
rays. AL looked upon him from the
book ! had been reading, tear tren,bled
upon his long lashes, and gently fell upon
his chest. Soft feelings were busy in the
heart of this usually stern man, making
him child again. a shudder shook his
frame as he gazcd upon the disappearing
disk Of the sun. Was he thinking he
| might never see il more
81: has gonc," said, he, speaking to
himself "The friend of my childhood -
the gladdenng sun of my morning.lire-
has left me for long night. Oh. God !
may its rays gladden. my poor mother
when | am gone" Turning to me, he
called me to his side. Doctor" said he,
when the sun goes lown, there seems
something taken away from mc-thc fun
eral pile lights on my cheek, till every
hbre of my frame glows beneath its con-
sumlng fire; and alas the heavy morn
ing sweats are not rs dew to me-thcv
waste and chill me to my very marrow.
From my early child days have watched
that great bright sun, and bathed myself
IN his light. saw how tree and flower
alike grew strong beneath his generous
rays, and | learned to look upon him a.
great life-givcr. 1t has left me, and
feel my heart strength has set with it
damps already rise, and earth soon will
DC hid in the grave Of night. Give me
some drink, and for the first time in INV
life will tell to another the history of
the wreck that remains Of me-" lie con-
tinucd-- ~
"There are motions in all mems lives
that change seems newborn in their
characters, be it for veal or ILL., Some
accept The impulse, and try their bark up
on the new sea. a pert full Of promise
is the reward to some, whilst Others are
wrecked most miserably! To me there
Is no future in this world len; whilst in
the world to come, those clouds that so
fast darkcn the just now Redeemed heay-
vens, are not darker than the doubts that
surround the horizon Of my future being.
Yet, most singular, as my body fibre by
fibre drops away, leaving bare that called
spirit find growing apace within me
that which createth need to believe in
fnture-a very soul-necessity that it must
| be
IL say, DOCTOR" he continued, striking
his breast, "that this very inward waste
this utter un6tness Of my dissolvinR boz
dy to be the scene Of my spirits action,
has dons more to teach me Of the imper-
ishablencss Of TIA, trae self--thc true
than all the sermons and readings could
have done There was time when such
teaching could not have weight then, this
body seemed sitting residence for what
then termed yiii. but am now convinc-
cd % Goai. Not nerve. not muscle,
that was dsobedienk The muscular sense
was so perfsct, that l felt satisfied that
termed soul was its nero embodied Tsqul.
sitinHs. In other words. soul seemed 10
me the perfect unition Of the senses
"As child, was large ard well form
ed. As years advanced, and tAeso doc
tFines took hold, did everything 20 per.
'ect the body, that this unit---sl.lG so,,l---
should become q perfect as possible Ny
father died whlIss wss 10 my fHeenth