Vermont watchman and State journal. [volume] (Montpelier, Vt.) 1836-1883, 1853-03-10

count OF It's giving trouble aud making
dirt.
Sometimes, one Of my relations or ac-
quaintances is so obliglng as to ask me to
dinner. Those are holiday occasions, aud
then | generally walk in the Park | am a
solitary man, and seldom walk with any
body. Not that | am avoided because
am shabby; for ! attn not at all shabby, hav-
ing always a very good suit Of black on Tor
rather Oxford mixture, which has the APP
pearance of black, aud wears much better)
but ! have got into habit of speaking
low, and beng rather silent, aud my spirits
are not high, and | am sensible that | am
not an attractive companion.
The only exception to this general rule
is the child OF my first cousin, Little Frank.
have particular affection for that child,
and he takes very kindly to me. He is a
dillident boy by nature and in a crowd he
is soon run over as may say, aud forgot
ten. He and 1, however, get on exceeding
y well. | have fancy that the poor child
will IN time succeed TO my peculiar posi-
ton in the family. We talk but little still,
we understand each other We walk about
hand in hand and without much speaking
he knows wha; mean and | know what
he means. When he was very little indeed,
! used to take him 20 the windows Of The
toy-shops, aud show him the toys inside 1t
is surprising how soon he found out that
would have made him great many pres
enis if | had been in circumstances to do
1t.
Little Frank aud 90 and look at the
outside of the Monumeut--he is very fond
OF the Monument-and at the bridges, aud
at all the sights that are free. On two of
my birthdays, We have dined on a-la-mode
beef, aud gone at hali-prlce to the play and
been deeply interested | was once walk
ing with him in Lombard street, which we
often visited on account Of my having mem
toned to him that there were great riches
there-he is very fond OF Lombard street
when gentleman said to me as he passed
by, Sir, your little son has dropped his
glove ] assure YOU, II YOU will excuse
my remarking on SD trivial circumstance,
this accidental mention Of the child "a NINE
quite touched my heart and brought the
foolish tears into my eyes
When little Frank IS sent to school in
the country, | shall be very much at a loss
what TO do with myself, but have the in
teulion ofwalkng down there once month
and seeing him on half holiday. | am
told he will be at play upon the heath and
if my visits should be objected to, as unset
Ting the child, ! can see him from dis
lance without his seeing me, and viii walk
back again. His mother comes of 4 high
by genteel family, and rather o3sapproves.
am aware, Of our being too mach together
| know am not calculated to improve his
retiring disposition; but | think he would
miss me beyond the feeling of the moment,
/ if we were wholly separated.
When die in the Chapman road, shall
not leave much more ia tins world than |
take out Of 1t; but, happen to have
miniature Of bright faced boy, with
curling head, and an open shirt-iril waving
down his bosom (my mother had it taken
for me, but | can't believe that it was ever
ike which will be worth nothing to sell,
and which | shall beg may be given to
Frank. | have written my dear boy lit
tie letter with 1t, IN which have told him
that felt very sorry to part from him,
though bound to confess that | knew no
reason why should remain here. | have
given him some short advice, the best in
my power, to take warning of the conse-
quences of being nobody's enemy but his
own; and have endeayored to comfort him
for what | fear he will consider a bereaye-
ment, by pointing out to him that was on
ly a superiluous something to every one but
him, and that having by some means failed
to find place in tins great assembly, am
better out of 1t.
Such (sald the poor relation, clearing his
throat and beginning 10 speak little loud
er) is the general impression about me-
Now, il is remarkable circumstance which
forms the aim aud purpose of my story, that
this is all wrong. This is not my life, aud
these are not my habits. do not even live
in Chaplain road. Comparatively speaking,
am very seldom there. reside, mostly,
in al am almost ashamed TO say the word,
it sounds SO full of pretensions--in a Cas-
tie. | do not mean that ii is an old baro-
NAL habitatlon, but still it Is building al
ways known TO every one by the name OF
Castle. In II, preserve the particulars of
my history; they run thus:
1t was when | first took John Spatier
(who had been my clerk into partnership,
aud when was still young man of not
more than 6ve-and-tweniy, residing IN the
house of my uncle Chill, from whom had
considerable expectations, that | yeniured
to proposeto Christina. | had loved Chris
tiaDa long time. She was very beautiful,
and very winning in all respects. | rather
mistrusted her widowed mother, who fear
ed was of a plotting and mercenary turn of
mind but, thought as well of her as |
could, for Christians sake. | never had
loved any one but Christana, aud she had
been oil the world, and q far more than ali
the world, to me, from our childhood
Chrisuana accepted me with her mothers
consent, and was rendered very happy in
deed My life at my uncle ChIl's was Of
spare dull kind, and my garnet chamber
was as dull aud bare, and cold, as an up
per prison room in some stern northern for
tress. But, having Christians love, wan
ted nothing upon earth. would not have
changed my lot with any human being.
Ayarice was, unhappily, my uncle Chill's
master vice. Though he was rich, he pm
ched, and scraped, aud ciutcled, and lived
miserably. As ChristIana had no fortune,
was for some time lille fearful of con-
Tossing our engagement to him; but, at