Worcester daily spy. [volume] (Worcester [Mass.]) 1850-1888, 1853-02-24
The First Cross Word.

you seem happy, Annette, always. l have
never been in family where the husband and wife
seemed more So
well DONE, said Mrs. Huntington, laughing.
you have used the word seem only twice in that
short sentence. And now have a begging way
about you, as if you really in earnest to hear
something about married l1fe before taking the
fatal step. 1t is well Harry is not here to see the
look Of sadness in the eye of his bride elect He
might fancy her heart was full of misgivngs, in
stead of wedding fnery
Don't laugh at me, Annette; talk with me as
you used to do love Henry, you know, and yet
l have many misgivings about married life. l see
so few who are really happy in this relation-I
mean happy as should wish to be. You seem to
come nearer to it than any one else. Do YOU
ever--?"
'Quarrel9 No, not often now. We had our
breaking in. believe it must come to all sooner
or later
DO tell me about it, will you, Annette
Eyes, if you very DESTROYS of it. VOC EaL
learn something from it.
Il was romantic girl, as you we'll know, Kate,
Some few friends had, whom l loved dearly; but
the friendships did not quite satisfy my heart
Something more it craved. l hardly knew what,
until loved my husband. When we were first
married | used sometimes to ask myself Now, do
find in this life all which expected to find? Am
l as happy | thought l should be-: Ny heart
always responded, yes, and more so. With us the
romance of married life, if may call it so, held on
a long time. For my part, was conscious of
pleasurable excitement of feeling when we were
together. | enjoyed walking and riding alone with
him. The brightest hours of the day, were those
in which we sat down alone together, to talk or
read. For long time felt gentle restraint in
his presence. l liked to be becomlngly dressed.
When dull, | made an effort to be social and
cheerful if he present. had great fear of
getting into the way of sitting down stupidity with
my husband or of having nothing to talk about
but the children and the butchers bill. made
business of remembering every pleasant thing
which read, or heard, or thought, to tell him. and
when all these subjects were exhausted, we had
each of us hobby we could ride, so that we were
never silent for want of something to say. Thus
we lived Tor year or two. | very happy /
think people were often surprised to us con.
tinue to enjoy each others society with so much
zest
But there was this about it. As yet had moth
ing to try We were boarding, had no care,
and his tenderness and interest was a sovereign
penacea for the little ails and roughness which
must fall to US in our best estate. This could not
last however, forever. He became more and more
occupied in his business, and / at length had a
house and baby to look after. Then, for the first
time, our mutual forbearance was put to the test.
Hitherto, we had been devoted to each other now
the real cares of life pressed upon us so often
really to absorb our energies. | was the first to
feel the change 1t seemed to me as if something
was overshadowing us. Sometimes l would get
sentimental, and think he did not love me as he
once did. As look back now, | am convinced
that here my first Wrong step. Indulgence
in these moods weakened my resolution. 1t was
an injustice to him, Of which ought not to have
been guilty 1t left me, too, with wounded feel
ing, as if had been wronged, which began to af-
feet my spirits.
Once, / had for some time, carried about this
little sore spot in my heart. kept the matter all
to myself, for was, in part ashamed, and in part
too proud to speak of it. Here was another wrong
STEP There is no security of happiness in mar
ried life but in the most perfect confidence
There came season of damp chilly weather.
One morning | got up feeling very irritable.
had taken cold, my head ached, and my baby had
been worrisome during the night. In my kitchen
had cross, ignorant servant girl and on this
particular morning she had done her very worst
for breakfast. The beef steaks was burned to a
cinder, the eggs were like bullets, the bread was
half baked and the coffee, which was our main
stay was eexecrable. My husband was very pa
tent with all this until he came to the coffee and
this upset him. He put his cup down and said in
a half yexed tone, i do wish we could ever have
any good coffee. Annette, why cannot you have
1t made as my mother does y
This was the drop to much for me, and boiled
over. you never think anything on our table fit
to be eaten said l. and almost started at the
sound of my own voice, you had better live at
hcme If you not satisfied, or else provide me
with decent servants. cannot do everything
take care of the baby all night and get the break
fast, too
Il did not know before that was so very unrea.
sonable,' said he 10 tone Of injured feeling. He
sat few minutes, then rose, lett his unlasled break
last put on his hat and went off,
When heard the door shut behind him, all my
temper left me. went into my room, locked my
sell IN, and cried like child. This was the frsf
cross iOO,d had ever spoken to my husband. II
seemed to me as II some sudden calamity had be-
fallen IA. l worked myself to such pitch Of
feeling, that walked about The room wrngine my
hands. $3.50
20, IFS all over with u.s., thought l, I'VE shall
| never be happy again in this world This thought
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