Fayetteville observer. [volume] (Fayetteville, Tenn.) 1850-1966, 1852-01-20

u room, aS glanced round Ii, locke
d very So ug and cheerful. The carpt
g was ga y color red--the paper on til
fI.Yalls was light and clean the ole
h fashioned clock in the corner tiGke
y in str png, clear voice the bras
a knobs of the doorwere bright as hand
}, could t axe them-so we're the can
RI dle-sticks, ranged along the mantel
: piece, The fire shone with a red an,
drowsy glow the old cat slept at m,
| feet the candle burned dimly Of
e the little stand.
+ 1t il very pleasant here, I though
| or it would be, rather, if | ha d any
: one with me; but1 am-alone.
don't think any but an old maid cal
comprehend the full meaning of thai
wo rd. A bachelor is solitary being
certainly, but men do not feel, like
women the need of home sympathy
and 10 me affections. To a man, a
brighE freside at his clearinghouse
is just as cheerful as if it we're his
own; he companionshipof a friend is
as gtateful to him as that of a wife
or chld would be, if he had them
lie does not feel any claving for fam
| lily joys; he has ne vacant chamber,
haunted by a sense of its own lone
illness, in his heart. Business, the
pursuit of wealth, the society Of his
acquaintance, suffice for him. But
| want something dearer, tenderer,
more real, than this; and, being una
BILE to obtain it, cannot but feel
an emptiness, void in life.
How thoroughly alone l aml ]
have bro pthers and sisters, nephews
and niee@; they like and esteem me
with various degrees of warmth, but
| am not important to tn em. live;
and if ! died they would not miss
me. | should like to be really ne
cessary to the happiness of one hui
man being. 1t is vain wish though,
and might as well ask for wings,
and expect that | might fly; single
women 9f my age are ofbpt small ac-
count tp, any one.
Alor +, alone! 1t will be the lot of
all my future life, be that long OF
short, Ind in death shall still be
solitary / shall have long illness,
perhaps, and Anna or Maria will /
come hsre to nj lrse me. / shall not
make M uch trouble, l hope-I shall
try not to be exacting But Anna,
she will he the one, probably, as her
family is smaller-will find it very
lonely, and she will feel anxious To be
with her husband and children. She
will do all she can for me, and do it
kindly, and ngrudgingly-yet on
the whole it cannot bebut relief /;
when she sees that her task will soon /;
be endel.
] shall die. The clergyman viii
be pres(nt, with Anna and her hus-
band, for she Will have written to him
that | cannot last much longer, and {
that he had better come on, if possi- {
bic. Anna will weep when she sees
that ! am going, and even Georges |
eyes may be wetIwith tears. A short {
a few q uichly drawn breaths, 5
md all will be over. Only poor (
body will lie upon the bed k
5od grant that the spirit may have {
passed t5 happier regions! <
Theyawill lay me out and place me {
n the Harlor-I shall lie there un-
disturbed. None will come to gaze q
With anguish on my pale and wasted $
eatures- mo hot tears will fall upon t
ny face mo kiss be pressed upon
ny icy lips. "A few neighbors may 3
'tep In, perhaps, to see the corpse a
md when the cloth is removed they 0
gill say, 'She is very natural, or {
She is much altered" just as the |
;ase may be. The same remark will a
'e made by those friends who have ?
'een sent for to follow me to the y
rave. $
After two or three days will come t
he fune al. Some Of the village peo-
lie will be present, and there will be
respectable number Of mourners.- \
\ prayer will be offered, and the old {
lergyman will speak a few words to Il
he living, admonishing them to pre- h
are for the time when they, too, must b
lie cold and motionless as the corpse D
'efore them. The coffin will be open b
d, and all who wish Can look at me i 4
or the last time me--after that, the I'D
Till be screwed down, and / shall be
arried to my long home. Should /
he day be fine, some Of my old ac- I