Gallipolis journal. [volume] (Gallipolis, Ohio) 1837-1919, 1851-11-27

t al ~ -tafi 81 SEA I'd :,
and bow myself to the dus; before
learning, but, ! know not how it is.
further than that cannot 90; esteem
and veneration | feel, but assuredly
ny affections never grew in that soil,
Ny love for agriculture took meforth
into Nature, and Nature is lovely
But Adam was uneasy in Paradise,
and did not wake to lie and happi-
ness until Eve came; and I. who did
not possess a paradise, found myself
very lonely and melancholy at "Sten-
backe." Trees, after all, are wood
en- and dull things, when we crave
for human sympaIhies; and echo,
the voice OF the rocks, is the most
wearisome voice | know. Nol heart
to heart, eye TO eye, that is the life,
and to live together, happy and
rural life, to work for the happiness
of those who depend upon us-to
regulate the home, TO live, TO think,
TO love, TO rejoice together. Ali
"my wife" still stood wildly before
my Imagination.
My experience in the realms Of
love had, however, made me suspi-
cious. feared that | could never
be happy, accordingto my ideas OF
happiness, which my neighbor-friend
characterized as "reposing in the
shade of a pair Of slippers" was
in low spirits; and accordingly, one
day, after having finished, the last Of
six dozen OF cigars, and qnarreled
with my neighbor, who bored me
with his everlasting and doleful IT,
rades against the ladies, | set off in
my own sulkey 10 amuse myself by
drive.
| drove a considerable distance to
the house of an ole friend, who had
been felIow-student with me at the
Military College at Carlberg, and
who had often invited me 20 visit
him. He was now married, and was
in fact, the father OF eight children.
A large family, thought, at first;
but not one too many, said | 10 N.Y.
self, after a single day spent in this
family, which hal given me the i'm
preston Of a heaven upon earth.
The mistress of the house, the
vile and mother, was the silent soul
OF all. alt is she-it is she, who is
my happinessl'' said the fortunate
husband; but she said, SIT is hel it is
he!"
any dear friend" said TO him
one day, show have you managed to
be so happy in your marriage?"
"Oh," replied he, smiling, 81 have
a secret to tell YOU" --
"A secret! for goodness sake, what
is itl'
"From my youth upward be re-
piled, 81 have prayed God to give me
a good WIFE"
ayes" thought | to myself, shat
IS III Here am unmarried, because
| have never discovered this secret,
without Gods especial direction |
may not venture to choose my
wile.'" r.ss-
A younger sister Of my friends
wife lived in the family. No one
would have been attracted TO her for
her external charms, but a short time
brought you completely under the
spell of her kindness, the intellectual
expression OF her countenance, and
the cheerful friendliness OF her man
ners. All the household loved her;
she was kind and amiable to all. To
myself, however, it seemed that
there was an exception: | thought
her somewhat cold and distant. u
was almost sorry when perceived
that | was grieved by this; short
time convinced me that ] had really
fallen in love with this young lady.
There was, however, a great dif-
ference between this and my former
love affairs. Formerly, had per-
mitted external charms to lead and
blind me: now, on the contrary, II
was attracted TO the soul, and its
beauty alone had caPtivated my
heart. But why then was SO excel |
lent a soul SO cold toward met
NV friend said that it was because
Maria had heard me- represented as a
iekle young fellow; one who amused
himself with broken Alliances
Righteous HeavenI was that ildeed-
one of my faults? Ifcklrl I, who
-eIt myself created as a model Of
fidelity. 1t was impossible for meto
bear patiently so'crueI an injustice.
Mol as truly as my name was Con-
'tantine, must Mara do me justice.
From that time, as she retired from
ne, so began | to walk after her. ]
vas determined 10 convince her that
was not the tickle, inconstant being
bat I had been described. 1t was
lot, however, very easy to succeed /
a this, but at-length ] did succeed.
After having put me to a trial, from
which | came with fiving colors, she