Jeffersonian Republican. [volume] (Stroudsburg, Pa.) 1840-1853, 1850-03-07


was married early in life to one whom | more
than idozed, and went to Louisiana TO live. 1t
was during the last months Of the FIVE years that
soJourned in that state that the seeds of my after
unhappiness were sown. | was young, Emily, |
and was too prone to put faith in all saw and
heard. 1t has only been through the two last
years my intimacy with you, that have learned
what good wife should be. Oh, Emily, Emily, |
the precious pearls that have cast from me, and
trampled in the DUST because knew not their val
ue VIII you believe it, my friend, that my hus-
band is now alive and the father of large family
in one of the West India Islands. 1t was my own
fault" she continued, as was about to interrupt
her. " 1 listened to evil counsel, Emily, and l
learned TO distrust my husband Yes, learned
10 disrust, and az last to hate or at least thought
dld) that husband who had always lavished upon !
me every kindness. never quarreiled with him.
No. was loo innately proud for that ; but al
lowed myself to brood upon my SILENT growing
hate, and oh, there is no feeling this earth that
so nigh wraps the brain to madness as the hate
born of jealousy. You know my frank, open dis
position, Emily So went to him, and with my
mouth in the dust, asked for separation Oh
never did the poor doomsacked victim Of the Bos-
phorus beg for life, as for the blessed privilege
of going from his presence forever with our only
child. He tried to reason with me- but was mad,
Emily, and have been mad since | asked for
nothing but my child, and pleaded with an earn
estness which he saw it was useless to resist
So, Emily, will pass on to the announcement of
my wdowhood-when went forth to the world a
! hypocrte in widows weeds. My husband wrote
TO me three times during the first year of our sep
aration, imploring me by every precious tie to
permit him even by stealth to look once more upon
the face Of his child Toevery entreaty returned
a cold, stern, hard answer, and for all this have
dearly bitten the dus, since. The years sped on
which returned no more, and my child began to
expand into loneliness which was almost super
human Strange as i, may appear TO you, again
learned to love my husband through his child
When she spoke to me il was her fathers voice,
every lineament was his, and SO loved my child
that again loved my husband through her
Strange inconsistency you may call this, but it is
nevertheless true. knew that he was alive, for
regularly every year have received small por
provision for our maintenance through unknown
hands This, with the little patrmony received
from nv father, enabled me to live far above want
actually affording many Of the little luxuries Of
life. You little know how | yearned to look once
more upon nv husbands face. Oh Emily, /
thought if could only see him, all might be made
up. was prepared to humble myself in the very
dust, that nigh, be taken back to his heart once
more. | knew not where to direct even a letter
/ TO him, and like poor condemned criminal
dared not make open inquiry; for in the eyes ofthe
world was widow and my poor child an orphan.
So we'll have played my part in hypocracy, that
no one has ever dreamed of my husbands exis-
! tence.
! " / believe that knew, and loved you, too, for
nearly four years-and that brings me to nearly a
widowhood Of thirteen years had almost out
lived the hope of ever again seeing my husband,
when about three weeks since received a small
note from him, announcing that he in Mobile,
and most ANXIOUS to see the child of his youth
that he would call on me the evening of that day,
as an old friend of the family, promising under
anv circumstances not TO reveal himself to Ada.
Oh the hours Of that day were SO "laden paced!"
At .ast he came with seven o'clock. parted with
my husband, tall SllgHl inquire, WIFI lSuI Ulue
eyes, and dark curling har-and | shook hands
with him after lapse of thirteen years, perfect
Indian in complexion, an enlarged robust figure,
eyes somewhat darker, and his hair, instead of
grey, was as black night, lying in thick masses
of large manly crispy curls! Never would have
recognized the husband ofmy youth in the fine
looking mddle-aged man presented to my daugh-
ter as the friend Of her father. had prepared
her TO receive him affectonately, and the warm
welcome she extended, assuring him that any one
who had known her father should have the warm
est corner Of her heart, beyond conception
painful to both Of US. They had long and inter-
esting conversation. He inquired about her stud
les, and seemed pleased with the progress she
had made, making her promise with my permis-
sion) to correspond with him under the assumed
name of Dunslow While in conversation with his
child, / had written few lines, stating my earn
est Iecantaton of my former errors, and earnestly
asking for reconciliation. He was terribly ag-
tated during the whole interview, and when gave
him my note to read, the strong man shook like an
ague fit.
" He scanned it several times-walked the floor
in terrible agitation-looked at me with the
concentrated agony of life of human suffering
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