The daily crescent. [volume] ([New Orleans, La.]) 1848-1851, 1850-05-01
DAILY CRESCENT,


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iii &elhef alone wns opposed 70 our engage
gneni She Wss non satisfied with Henry's pfinei
=. Is eaiel away our distinctions Of right and
and b laughing at The bon-nef we forgot 70
F''|A|s4 i|le spirit Of the phrase. Dear motner
~. re gentle q say much, ere vas .,, ns.e.-
|''se b hide my wounds, If I died ID TIE attempt
AE6nits rolled on; our weading.dAy was nxed.
Them was rum0fs q something whispered about
~ loses--tshat cared he cane 70 me, he
Nepk be Acknowledged tis sins he had gained, and
Il believed. i f1rts2s- surely I loved hima did
not. t4I ! could not, wouid not lose my lover !;
'isps5} ihal Was n1i entirely sef'deceived. Again
be played again aided him TO The extent OF my
i5I,Sef. he le;i, disffaced and ruined man the
very Hezdni<zion on which 80 mnch depended was
stacked and LOST almost ere he received is He saw
biz IDLY depiored his nihtuation, and returned to
sH4t Fatal table. He wrote 70 me frequently. i
HHs Fs1ut Of my cpnstancy; had but himto love
end would not forsake him considered the
molher who 50 fondly sheltered me--who wept,
felt isembied with and for meas nothing because
bad made love a domineering god. worshipped
en IDOL IN Henry; TO Frederick bowed before my
own creation. threw away my many comforts 70
Ni,n9 70 one whom knew was but broken reed.
l.nckilY for ne, could not part with any portion
ei my capital without the consent Of my trustees
Bat my income was at my own disposal; and
fu4blessiy cnflailed my mother Of many comforts,
ti4i tmight squander my means on a man whom |
sies{lsed. She never repr0ached me when told
her Henry had received my last farthing but on
hearing fresh proofs OF his worthessness, she for
tAde our correspondence ii was useless. de-
graded myself still more; l made a confident of a
servant; he wrote 10 ne ciandestinely-- |
loathef myself Fl sickened at the secret which
0ppfcssed me; could not meet my mothers eye /;
4 Diushed before my servant; my acts had made
her my companion; we We're on an equality and
lensiared her hippant remarks and degrading con-
dQlences; ldared not offend her, and trusted to her
friendship. was no longer free agent nv very
words must be weighed. How often did | find my
ssif on tha point Of inadvertently betraying all ;
now did regret the frank unreserved communion
shat had for so many years subssted between my
mother and myself Had she not trusted so entire
II ~ me she must have discovered my faults. OH
NOW any heart smoie me when she noticed my fail
ing health, and sympathzed SO fully in my troubesl
could NOT confide in her; vanity forbade it. i
could not resign Henry. His letters, the poetry,
he romance, Of my misery were now almost essen
iAi tonne and YET loved and dreaded my mother
more than ever.
Letter succeeded letter from Henry. Though so
criminal, his was an open character. He did not
make systematic harvest Of his affection. He
Md his troubles TO me- because that relieved him
but ne neither exaggerated or told all. At last
eaMually heard that he was in a state Of destitu-
tons his friends had east him of he had no
resource; and, In real life, pennYless and I'M
known slsaggler has but Iiuls chance of finding
Permission 70 work. speak Of the higher poor
1|0e9 who toll in Offices, and live by their heads
rather than their hands, While the laborer NAV find
malket for bis brawny limbs and gelltrained sim
etss; while the artzan and mechanic will find
ave1k-fpnm, however comf0rtess; a master, how
eyer harsh pittance, may be, but still the means
q escaping starvation, the rank above can seldom
gain that employment which life itself depends
without most powerful recommendations; aud Hen
" was fliendless. His wardrobe had di appeared
piees. meal; he was starving. i wrote an appeal
70 his family bur, fearing their assistance might
eolne 40 late, ldecided upon doing something my
kolk He had exhausted my purse / dared not an
ply % my mother; blush now, when reflect on
The siepa ! took. ! pledged the few ornaments |
could part with, without exciting observation
would not lower myself farther by again having re-
course 70 my maid; l carried them myself May
you never know the humiliation then experienced
Recent writsrs have so familiarized us with
Scenes OF this sort that girls more tenderly nurtured
than had been would know how to proceed but
was utterly at a loss.s After wandering about the
haei1 streets OF - for some time, daried into a
handsome looking pawn-shop, and made known
my wants. Not here, Miss, I" said the man. scarce
concealing emile, . we only sell must trouble
ineineIiveIys end turned down bye-way, The back
street Of back street. met Frederick he stopped
and talked most cordially; he iancied was bound /
on sone charitable errand, and complimented me /
On Drawing the dirt aud discomfort that surround |
poverty IN towns. lsauntered on; he was still by
my side How 1 escaped from him know not;
ban now entered the fatal gate that ever stands /
invltibey OPEN / was TOO agisated to notice a |
number Of small closets that lined the passage, but
rushing on, found myself before a neat door with /
lD0ckef and bell. Mechanically raised the for |
nler, and my peal was answered by smart servant |
gIEls She stared I; again / whispered my demand |
beginning 10 produce my deposit. The girl rndey |
showed me the entrances had passed, and NUT |
,efsng-" such impotence! pretty creatures! a
double knock, tool" slammed the door in nv face
This time went right. and found myself ia little
den which enabled me to make my business known
without being visible 10 any but the shopman; as
he turned 20 speak to me the door was half opened,
and 10 my horror heard Frederck's voice whisper
. Bolt the door, Mary, OF you may have an insult
ing visitor He had tracked me, but il was too
late 10 rscede. transacted my affair, when a new
difficulty nEoas; my name and address were asked
The man could not avoid perceiying my hesitation
:" All, you're not used 10 those things vet, see
rather Rfeens my dear. You'll know better by and
bye ) il : matter Of form. Mary Smith, you sadi
very good name for the thing what address 20
l went through all these degrading forms as in a
dream but % this hour am haunted by the sound
Of q piano IN room over the shop; the musician
was iormeniing tavorite song which had often
played 70 both Henry and Frederick. have never
touched il since.
On lsaying this place new humiliation awaited
mes Frederick was at the door; he took my arm
Iathsr than offered his and led me on. was weep
ing bitterly. Your mother" he said hut ] |
need non ask--she is no party 10 this OH Mary |
beware! you are misled by false generosity |
press 10 questions You have no right to inter
l1H ~ 1tuI pftfdt5 dctfoDh Dut as your friend,
your klnsmnn, your minister, | have authority to
warn You. You are depriving your mother of her
right your confidence you are wasting your mo-
neY on one totally unworthy of your sacrifice, since
ne Will make no sacrifice in return; the gold law
shef on his vices is much stolen from The deserv
ing pqaE who might profit by it. Think Of the in.
calcueble good your income might confer il nro. |
perry directed; think Of viees pampered by il Al |
present. Henry is starving" wept "'Then. |
Mary give this money 10 your mother let her assist
him; oh 20 not degrade yourself You have tried |
BIN, You chung 10 him when all cast him off; You
have proved the depth Of your attachment, and OF
his unworthlness; punish him now in mercy them
It he repent, receive The pTodigal kill the fatted
calf; bur do not, do not, still administer openly to
the drawings Of a hardened sinner. Your recent
visit proves how he has drained your resources.
Your mothers income is but small do not contem-
plate hardening her with your support. Can You
calmly reIfench her comforts, and sacrifice her to
this lllends You have known aud loved him for |
months only your mother had been your benefac. |
iees from the hour your BIRTH and yet you would
make her suffer rather than forego the luxury OF |
giving this is nesfshness, Mary
Mneh more he said and when l was calmer /
Ptemisea not TO renew my correspondence with
tie1Iy TIL ne was a worther man, on two conri. /
fionss that my mother should never hear of this |
occurrence, and that Frederick would moi only i'm
mediateiE forward the money / had raised 10 him
but WORLD personally exert himself TO procure III
forgiveness from his family, at least impress on
tnem The necessity and justice Of rendering him
such assistance as should enable him to raise him |
sell from his present abiect state
Frederick kept his word. We now had many in. |
iervisws, and each tended more fully 10 incrsase |
my love tor him, while they still thought me true
70 henrfi he, poor fellow, went out 10 Australia
ihere he again yielded TO temptation-be los, ma |
nov, bis own and his employers. woman of no |