Wisconsin tribune. (Mineral Point, Wis.) 1847-1854, 1850-02-15

+ reared you would suffer as l have suffer
I ed / knew. knew YOU loved Inn: and
yet he asked my hand but. had my heart
I been wholly free. been wholly his. and no
/ ties of relationship between US. I would
not have married him, and-broke thv
heart. Oh how prayed Heaven that
/ you might be saved. l, my sister. have
had 10 confdant. Dear as YOU were TO
me l could not tell 10 YOU this one hu-
initiating secret This that has been
wearing my life away for years But.
now. now l cannot help it. am diving.
and must speak TO YOU Bat tell II not
not to him Ee hates me Tell it not TO
him
Luis, Luis Oh [ cannot remember
when | did not love him: when he was
not far dearcr to me than existence And
he was so good and kind but that was
only pity. My God that | have had
power to elicit no other sentiment But
he knew not no enc does. the thoughts
and feelings, and dreams, and light. and
beauty that sweep unbidden through heart
and brain. till they well nigh reel meath
the high offering Of hope and happiness
no, not that bat power and passion. Aud
now, and now on one blackened leaf Of
~ plAN ~ tttk ALAIttfDiN II blNtuAEu al L
have suffered Sufered-oh I could not
endure the same again. What a fearful
moment was that Wen [ heard he was
n2ayricI ! L knew it wouid be so and yet
the blow was heavier than | expected -
/ staggered beneath it-aud the deadly
darkness Of delirjum seized nv heart. but
not my brain, though | prayed for fearful
forgetfulness.
But she was so beautiful Oh. how |
would have loved her; bat she flung me
from her-spurncd and scorEcd me. Had
She been good as fair. Oh. how l have
prayed that God would touch her heart
and change it. But she is dead and he
loves her still. Once, once | heard him
murmur: Oh. Julie much as [ have
suffered, much as [ have endured this.
this is the bitterest blow of all-that you
should die - (8u- there we're words
she did not hear. That you should die
impeniteut an uubcl.evcr.) l nave re
membared it: il is burned in living fire
on my broken heart, and my blighted
brain IS one fierce fame Oh if | could
but lave It in the >cathed spirits fount of
tears they would c5Cl it. But they are
all dried up and sc0ruhcd, and withered
and wasted forever. If | could bat weep.
this death agony would be less Once
tears were mine. alc / thanked my Ma
kcr for this token Of kindness, bat now.
now has He turned from me in wrath.
deserve It; I an weak and wicked, and
have 50 worshipped this one earthly Idol
bat l could not help it And 1 have al
most cursed myself that had not strength
to tear his image from ny soul Sat l
am punished fo7 it. Oh. this is hcH 3
there can be no other; 1 know I cannot
suffer more than I have already done
And set [ am his wife Rose his hcteE
,rifs: No not his wife; he told ne It
should rot be though we are married.
Oh. mcrc;fal Father hos the fire Of those
fearful dreadful terrible words scorctcs
ny frcnzied brain. sc0rcaos my hated
heart Oh, LilIias, he said. what
warning words are scathed on the riven
..la, {, on the writing brain. with burn
ing brand from the darkest depths Of des
pair, death Oh, my Savior still this
one undving fire Oh, | could not bear
t. I could not bear il when had PRAYED
and plead with Heaven TO spare him to
me, and the petition was granted. that he
should turn in horror away. 1 could not
have him die; and, perhaps MY prayers
were answered a judgment Oh this un-
recoucIed heart"
Faint and exhausted. L;lIias lay, almost
breathless. on the heated pillow The ag-
ony Of Luis cannot be described And
[ as she ceased speaking
"Lilljas. Liliias my own loved one Z"
was wrung from his bleeding heart.
Again She started and lifting her dark
and startling eyes, said with touching We
hemence-
Hark 1 hear his voice: he has come
home: I did not know it, Oh yes, re
member. he Is sick; l must 90 to him.
sick no; he lcas sick; bat now-is it
wicked and vet I have wished he were
50 now. for then. then he would not look
so c5ldlv on me Then I could be with
him. watch over him. b2thc his burning
brow. and cool his fevorish temples, and
when he slept, could gaze for hours upon
his face, and bend ny lips to hiz, and
count the lingering pnlscs as | held his
hand in mine = Av hearts Worship toUca-
I os not one throb of his, thrilling it to Inu-
sic"
A-a:n the sufferer ceased, exhausted
and wre.ched hearts were tar0bbing all
around her.
/ The agony of Luis almost drove him
mad
Is it possible whispered Lord Clare
monte, that You have not loved herr
/ how could you help itH
Il have loved her. M lord, and do
still. and believe me. she has ever been
the dearest OF earthly objects And yet
1 can hardly believe It possible that 1
have been the being Of her idolatry.-
Blessed Savior. can it be p
Luis was still very feeble His suffer
ines. the excitement of that one scene was
feared would again PROSTATE him; and
his friends and physicians tried to prevail
on him to retire and compose himself
But no scarcely for moment would he
leave the bedside Of Lill.as Hour after