The examiner. [volume] (Louisville, Ky.) 1847-1849, 1849-07-07
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write book on the Immortality OF the soul.
and if ] had been well enough, should
have done it; for think on that subject |
could write as not many have done.
have been without friend in the world.
And that is a state in which man knows
whether he believes in God or not; for If he
does, his soul Graves God, in such way as
that almost he is seen in the clouds, and felt
in the air, and in the coming OF thoughts into
the mind. / have known the want Of food,
and, one whole winter, the want Of warm
clothing; ard have known what it is TO
need medical help, and not to have it, be-
cause unable to pay for it.
Marham-Have you?
Aubin-Yes, have. And in such cir
stances, know that life looks quite another
thing to what it does TO man at esse.
Marham--Poor Oliver life must have
looked stern to you, very stern.
Anbin-For a while it did, and then it
grew sublime; for | saw God in it all. And,
besides, there is in the soul an instinct Of
her having been made for foreordained
end, Of her having been created for special
purpose, which only she herself can answer,
and not any one other out Of hundred mil
lion other souls. So the more lonely
was, and the poorer, and the more the pain
in my forehead grew like the pressure Of
crown Of horns, and the more | was an ex-
ception among men, so much the more was
persuaded Of having destiny OF my own,
and peculiar one. And | said to myself,
"What i am to be, | can suffer for, and
will" So as my lot in. life grew strange,
| had trembling Joy in it for the sake OF
what though bit must spiritually come Of it.
But, dear uncle! those tears,-I canno, bear
them. Besides. ] am happy now. And
now our souls, yours and mine. have found
one another.
Marham--But 10 have suffered as you
have, and been alone
Aubin-Lonely never was indeed |
was not.
Marhdm--For God was with you. And
| do believe he was.
Aubin-And so were the souls of many
saints, and heroes, and noble thinkers
men OF like suffeIings with my own.
Marhdn--True saints and true heroes.
But now, Oliver, tell me, were you never
tempted to iorego your scruples, and enter
Au6n-No, uncle, not for a moment
Marhdm-.lf you had fattered q little, or
been less molly scrupulous, your genius
would have been acknowledged and well
paid very soon. No doubt you felt this;
and was not i ever a temptation?
Aubin-No, uncle.
Marham-My noble boy! And YOU sat
down SO long 10 poor food. and scanty, per.
haPs.
Aubin-But ate it, like the sacrament.
IN high communion OF soul. For some.
times | felt as though there stood about me
rasso. and Others like him. And thought
OF one who was SO holy. the priests could
not understand him, and who was therefore
50 poor and unfriended, that he had not
where to lay his head; | thought Of Christ
in the wilderness, hungry and alone.
Marham--Lnd in that way you held
faithful 10 your convictions.
Aubin-Yes.
Marham-And yet,-am right. Oliver!
Surely must be, for you are young still.
And was not home sometimes a hope
with you!
A"bin--Ani so temptationl No,
uncle.
Marham-But with such prospects as
found you with, you must have been in dread
oil starvation 80 MT an nnlikalP shiHe ~.
| you some time.
Aubin-One while had that fear; but
| made an Ode to the Poor-house, and then
| was not afraid Of poverty any more.
Marhdm-What do you meant
Anbin-And | was the better man. be.
sides. lmean, that | made up my mind 70
die in rags and want, and then / was no,
afraid Of doing 10. And as soon as there
was nothing in this world that could Tighten
1ae, at once, with ease of mind, goodness
grew easier with me.
Marham-Ease OF mind But think
can guess at what you noean. God be.
came every thing to you, as the world grew
nothing.
Autin-But the world never did become
nothing to me; for always, even from the
middle OF city, it felt great and wonderful
about me; but when no temporal good could
come OF it to me, then the eternal meaning
OF it entered my soul freshly every day.
The more | felt the world was not mine at
all, and could not be, the more blessedly |
felt it was Gods and so. another way, il
was mine again, gloriously.