The New York herald. [volume] (New York [N.Y.]) 1840-1920, 1849-06-05

III love you and loath myself for not tearing from
part you have; you even deceived me- even in tho
most trivial things, yet never could resent such de-
cepton all your unkindnefs forgiven IL not for
got and vindictveness caused to retaliate Had
wounded your feelings in the slightest degree, dis
tressed you much little gladly would AJAX your par
don, and seek to retrieve any grievances and should
have aught Intentionally inadvertently, sim
ccrely regret it, You have ever judged wrong; for
instance, the other day that note that you sent me
never received until the following Wednesday at two
then in diately wrote answer which you took
notice Of you felt that did not meet you ut Mrs.
Day's becauseI wihed to tire atyou rudpIy and that
offended you much that you ssd much against me.
Aunt told me that she had seen you, and that che
told Mrs that you wished this trial to go forward;
that cannot believe for much you caused me to
suffer do not feel at all comfort able In the prospect Of
this publicity. Yet cannot have much to contend
with you for have far had all the misery, while
you have been very happy. You have been endeayor-
same time you have injured, insulted and degraded
me with your set; asked nothing from you but to
leave me alone, but you would not; your family and
self were constantly utterpg remarks to be
Ieated TO should have borne all in silence had
not been daily haIassed and initiated by words Of
yours. l loved YOU and could not be induced 10 re-
dress the many injuries that you had done me- until
found that you seemed determined TO ruin me. Even
then again and again entrested you and we
might arrange it, but you acceded, then refused then
requested interview, then you hesitated, and
we have but few days left you say that you do not
have it take place. Still and will be fair Never,
never suffer such intense wretcheaness as have
this last eighteen months. have endured too much
to calculate now yet would to God that 1t might not
be public every feeling Of your heart exposed to the
sareasms and jeers of hundreds. to afford topic Of
for ALL ridicue and curiosity assa your
every step. Yet feel as If need not care; cannot
suffer more in the opinion Of others than those that
have caused me all this unhappiness. am no coward
Il know what fear is, and will not suffer alone
If fall from respectably thank God you will too; II
if am marked. so shall you be. Our fate will DO the
same, veal woeremember that love you STILL but
will no longer suffer alone; you shall not persevere In
rendering me all kinds of injuries. feel that will
not be of than yourselfwe shall both feel un
bappy-not one, but beth. No earthly power could
have induced me to have acted 30 treacherous part
you yet for what you have been to cannot hate
you, although will not bear longer the ndignties
that have. You have endeavered to deprive me OF
my just rights. and exclude me from my station in
society all Of which yen have failed in and will ever
will you have that power and wo be to you
should degrade mel bitterly would you regret
the hour that you gained SO unjust triumph; but
do not believe that you feel much inclined for our
troubles and quarres to be exposed to the
curiosity as know cannot but have all the sympa-
thy of human beings Few have loved as sincerely, or
have been so grossly deceived as have been. When
you well know how | have loved, and still do, In
spite Of all the i'll that you have caused me- is 1t manly
even human to seek my friends merely for the pur
pose of abusing me? and may also ask If 1t is wise to
irritate me continually? Had not my affection been as
strong you might have suffered fearful retaliation
Mr. WALKEn:-I received your beautiful note, and
shall have the satisfaction of Informing you that you
need longer be annoyed with dreams or need you
be under poetical influence as far as regards me.
Poetry and dreams may console you, and am very
happy that you be so innocently amused. Some
have genius in way, others differing materially.
Yours consists in facilitating incomprehensiblity,
and manliness But, be it what it will | feel very
thankful that you dread to meet one that you have
acted so cowardly and dastardly to- Had seen you,
the remembrance Of other days might have made me
lose the recollection Of injuries but that cannot
be- have wish to you until the period arrives
when you will feel quite as unpeasanty as ever you
P. S-As for your intended, l congratulate her. for
she will never want for food or cothng her wants 81
far MS money and generosity will Co. will be most amply
provided. ! shall not take the trouble to make any
more inquiries in regard to your affairs as am suf-
fciently acquainted with them Remember, your fate
cannot be altered and that is satisfaction that shall
never be deprived Of Fate, fate
Please give this tho inspection of sisters as
IL is improper for youth to receive aught without
s should write but
their interference in affairs calls 1t forth Fate.
Dec. goth, l64S
ORAL TESTIMONY ON THE PART OF THE PRISONER.
The above letters having been given in evidence,
Mrs. CATHARINE HoyT was then called to the stand
Witness resides in St. Louis Is the wife Of Cyrus g.
M0yf Of that Mrs. ga Of
witness Mrs w. was in October, 1S47, at mothers
houses she came to board that day. when witness first
her, and she resided there five or six months Mrs.
Hi another boarder boarded there at the same time;
witness had never Mrs. Walker before she came
there to board when Mrs. Walker left she went to
house and went to housekeeping she boarded with Mrs
Hill up to August or September OF last year. uS4Sd
when she left to 60 tot New York; witness Mr.
Walker, till she him here in court Mrs Walker
day down into the parlor she had been there
but short time when she all in tremor; witness
supposed she had attack of chls and fever and pro-
posed brandy to her. she consented to take it, and wit
ness went out of the room to send her some when the
brandy came witness gave her pretty large Dose d.
luted with water she drank most Of It, and after
retired to her rsom after witness went up to
how she was, and found her vomiting witness
witness called on her husband to come and help;
he and carried her to the sofa and laid her
there as she lay, she vomied again. after which she
fell into n stup0r in which she lay, and seemed to be
insensibe; at about half past o. same evening, 1t
proposed to send for physician; three sent for,
ediately before they arrived letters
discovered which she had written the morning of
that day-one to Mr.. T. A. Walker, and the other to
his father they unsealed in those letters she
told them she had put end to her lfe witness does
not know what became of those two letters other per-
them; that day the first well the last
toilette table. legal difficulty to permitting
witness to state the contents witness was simply al
she had taken something to destroy herself after
the physicians came, and held consultation in adj
physicians one of them is here in New York; the
other two still reside In st. Louis; Dr. SIMMONS sent
for what witness thought was a asaf@ and he in
troduced feather in her throat she repulsed that;
witness thinks the feather was dipped in asafe
one of the doctors recommended mustard plaster on
her chest they had with them stomach pump; wit
longer than the others half hour longer,
till about eleven O'Clock p. M. she had now
shown some signs Of life, but still in in
sensible state in which she continued till the next
afterncn the first intelligence witness had of her being
up, from witnesses mother from whom she
told that Mrs Walker had got and been to her toilet
and arranged her hair; witness immediately went to
zee her; she was stretched upon the sofa when she
saw witness she laughed, and said that "Fate was
against he she then stated to witness she had taken
phial Of black drop and audanum that she had felt
sick when she took the brandy, and had thought it
let
and asked If they had been sent and said she had in
nded th,m to be sent after her death and that for
that purpose she had left them in the box where we
might see them; no inquiry was made by witness
others about the phial poison, where it was wit
ness does not rccoect that she then spoke Of any for
mtr attempts ut suicide
san,inafon-she had been at this time about
three weeks at the house "a letter was here shown
the witness This is the handwriting of the sister of
Witness II was written for witnesses msther. dated No
yember 1S41; special bargain made for her board
MT Walker paid for her board; witness cannot say
what the bargain was; 1t was supposed her husband
was with her, else witnesses mother would not have
let her Gomez the gentleman MIR. Allen who engaged