Herald of the times. [volume] (Newport, R.I.) 1849-1856, 1849-12-20
From he Lody's Book. e..
TIE LILY OF NEWPORT.
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think we should ever meet again. Do
you remember how you entreated me
to come and see youl And I knew
then should never 90 tlat, ere the
time came. the grave would be my
home. Yes. Rose, am dying-dying
now. And oh, how long has death
been coming My hearts'rings for
years have been breaking. one by one.
Deaths hand is on the last (; its music
10 hushed for ever and ! know il is
breakihg-breaking now. But how
long-can you tell me how long the
heart will be dying1 Oh Rose, once,
once there was a time when l feared
YOU would suffer as have suffered. ]
knew knew you loved him; ahd.yes he
asked my hand; but, had my hear. been
wholly free, been wholly his, and no
ties of relationship between US, Iwould
not have married him, snd-broke thy
heart. Oh how prayed Heaven that
you nigh. be saved /, my sister. have
had no conhdant. Dear as you were
to me, could not tell to you this one
humilisting secret. This. that has been
wearing my life away for years. But
now, now l canno, help it. ! am dy-
ing and mus, speak TO you. But tell
il not not to him he hates rne. Tell
it no, 10 him.
Luis, Luis Oh cannot remem-
ber when did not love him when he
was not far dea'er to me than eXis-
tence. And he was so good and kind;
bu, that was only pity. My God I! that
/ have had power to elicit no other
sentiment. But he knew not, no Ore
does, the thoughts and feelings, and
dreams, and light, and beauty that
sweep unbidden through heart and
brain, till they wel.-nigh reel meath
the high Offering ofhope and happiness;
no, not that, but power and passion
And now, sYYd now on one black-ned
leaf Of brok en-hearted memory 10 pic
tured all | have suffered. Suffered
oh, I could not endure the same again.
What fearful moment was that when
] heard he wa. married! | knew it
would be so, aud yet the blow was
heavier Than ! expected staggered
beneath i,-and the deadly darkness, Of
delirium seized my heart. but not my
brain, though prayed for fearful for
getfulness.
But she was so beautiful. Oh, how
| would have loved her but she flung
me from her-spnrned and scorned me.
Had she Been good as fair: Oh how
| have prayed that God would touch
her heart and change it. But she Is
dead and he loves her still. Once,
once J heard nan murmur: "Oh, Julie,
much as / have suffered, much as
have endured, this, this is the bitterest
blow Of all--th.t you should die -.
but there were words she did not
hear That you should dic--inpeni-
tent an unbeliever.) have remem-
bered it it is burned in living fire on
my broken heart, and my bhghted
brain 10 one fierce flame. Oh, If |
could but lave it in the scathed spirits
foun, of tears, they would cool it,
But they are all dried up and scorched,
and withered, and wasted for ever. Ii
could bu. weep, this death agony
would be less. Once tears were mine,
and | thanked my Maker for this token
Of kindness but nov, now has He
turned from me in wrath. l deserve
il; am weak and wicked, and have So
worshipped this one earthly idol but !
could not help it. And l have almost
cursed myself that ! had not strength
to tear his image from my soul. But ]
am punished for il. Oh. this is hell
there can be no other: know | can.
mt suffer more than | have alrea,ly
done. And yet am his wife, Rose
his hated wife : No, not his wife he
told inc it should not be though we
are married. on, mefciful Father
how the FIRE Of those fearful, dreadful,
terrible words scorches my frenzied
brain scorches my hated heart. oh
Lilliss,' he said. 'wha, fearful future
is before US Yes, these warning words
are sca,hed OH the riven heart. on the
wri,hing brain. with burning brand
| from the dsrte- depths Of despair