The examiner. [volume] (Louisville, Ky.) 1847-1849, 1849-01-06

with when she was 10 associate hereafter.
She tried To repeat ,ilai Edward must have
ceased to love her, She was convinced thai
she did not deserve his love 10 eontinne.--
Splendid presents had-been lavished on her;
Of many she kGew not even the names, and
with a very unusual perversily, she persist
ed in weaving her simplest attire.
She had but few absent friends; one OF
her young companions had married a cler.
gymsn OF small means, and another very
wealthy merchant. Annot had not heard
from either. for long time, but it so hap
pened that hardly had she ceased to witness
the anxiety OF the bird to rejom its mate
than she received letters from both. One
was filled with congratulations and earnest
hopes that she would not forget her old
friends; the other, from her rich companion,
was Of different character, she wrote
You have often heard how much ! was to
be envied-how fortunate was; and though
live in magnificent house, and have
carriage and servants al my command, j
am not as happy as when ] used to consd-
er ride in your uncle's oldiashioned nod
dy, great indulgence, and new sash the
perfection Of a toilette. My husband is as
affectionate as | could desire, and more at
tentive than | have any right 10 expect,
considering his unceasing occupation but |
go through worlds of torture learning so
behave as others do do believe that all
my acquaintances were born with knowl-
edge Of etiquette; they know TO a hair
breadth the depth Of a courtesy and the ex-
+ act importance OF each double-knock.
am sure Try do all things as ought, and
| yet my very servants laugh at me. | have
no taste for music, but am expected 10 be
in rapture with this and that singer. | car
: understand Shakespeare, and tremble al
! Milton, but, failing to acquire French,
ain considered an ignoramus, and am put
{ down if | attempt to give an opinion by
some whom cannot but believe inferior tc
; myself. | used to be praised for my sensi
tive modesty, now it IS positive curse.
( feel every turn Of the eye, and movement
of the lip, as if they were turning me into
ridicule My husband, kind as he is, Otter
bushes at my blunders and total want o.
) tact. am sure to do something wrong
when most eager to do right. complt
: mented one gentleman upon his eloquenct
| who always stammered, and lady on heI
: complexion who was never seen without
rouge during the last ten years know
{ that my husband sits in terror lest | should
spoil his dinner party, and trembles when
he enters the drawingroom, fearing | have
done or said something below caste, while
the gentlemen were at their wine, Ii my
: husband was what they call millionaire,
should. perhaps, see less Of this, but then III,
public would hear more, make me thei
| butt, and, after partaking Of our entertain
ments, amuse each other with the repetition
Of my vulgarity. do not think this either
! honest or high bred, bur il is done all Iht
same. | cannot, loving my husband as
do, and ought to d. wish myself unwed; bn
! do wish that either | had been born tC
! and brought up in the sphere where move
without interest or sympathy, or that he haC
been the occupant Of village curacy, o.
the proprietor Of a prosperous farm, wher,
$ my knowledge aud habits Of life would have
been Of value and appreciated Oh, Annot
: do not imagine that rank and riches are ne
. cessary 10 the happiness Of those whose
early days have been passed amid the flow
t ers and fields Of the country. have fell
t enough Of the heartbeatings and burning
| which the change have experienced ha,
/ created 10 prove the contrary. Never wa:
/, well-dressed slavery more complete thar
mine. must not think my own thoughts
or go my own ways. Would you believ,
it, that the day which, in our childhood, W,
held so sacred, is the great feast day
80 much Of those who have no other for re
Taxation, but Of those whose lives are devo
ted to pleasure! have not courage or DO
sition TO Withstand it, and this self-reproact
is added to my other sufferings. Do not b,
tempted, Annot, TO leave your own sphere
by the gilded glories Of one which, howeve
you may admire at distance, you are un
suited to mingle in
Annot was proud of her beauty, and
drawing herself up. heightened gaze a
the old carved looking glass convinced he
! that as far as face or figure went she wa:
! not likely to be surpassed. The sun wa.
| high in the heavens, the flies had ceased tC
buzz against the loaded panes of the win
dows. and the flowers hung hesvilyin the
! sunbeams-lhe air was hot. Annot arose
and walked backward and forwards on, the
/ floor OF the spacious but low ceilinged room
furnished with rare old high-backed chairs
covered with fine tapestry, the hsndiwork
OF legion Of aunts and grandmothers, who
had been the honofed wives Of an indepen,
dent. happy race of high-class farmers
Outside the windows roses and vines min.
gled together and cast d soft green sh ade
, within that tempered the sunshine The
pictures we've also OF embroidery; the
"Prodigsi's Return" was companoned by
the ''Sheep and the Shepherd, and large
sampler matched by the ''Ten Command
ments.' All the corners except one were
filled by mer-cupboards, and tina! formed
a sort OF recess where Edward and Annot
bad sat many years together, changing from
letters to lessons, from lessons TO the time
when she ased to write their two names
together within circle, and he tried his
sail at sonnets, which, however lame and
commonplace in the eyes or ears of critic,
seemed perfect to her, and more, far more
lprecious than the ewels lsvished upon her
in after time.
And was she about to relinquish the