Lewisburg chronicle, and the West Branch farmer. [volume] (Lewisburg, Pa.) 1849-1849, 1849-11-28

oc an hour before they should fea@ouab' =
be expected, bu. this quarter Of an hon'
pllded away very soon. and daylight began
sensitiy 10 decline. She repeatedly 'sii
her work TO gaze anxiousiy from tie via
dow. AT last she asked George Il Il WIS
No, time fur them TO come!
"Why, no." said George, hesi'aiing, i
should hsrdlv expect them yet"
II IS two hour. and more, already, and
i, is growing dark" Mary brought her face
c.o,e 10 the glass, ,shadin. her eyes from The
light in The room by putting her hands or
each side Of them. and straining her sight to
look d,wn the road; but the snow which
filled the air, drove againsi the window. and
iricklej down on the outside. and prevented
her seeing much. {" I do not believe il is
possible for the poor little fellow to get
across the pond in such night as this"
"well Mary, we have nothing 10 do but
to wait quietly for the end, nov. There is
nothing we can do. and it is wrong TO be
restless and anxious about H."
80 dear" said Mary, sitting down and
gazing into the fire with a look of great
distress. "How sorry am We lei him go !.
I might have gone-and now he vii perish
in The snow, and shall never have another
moments peace, as long as live"
"But consider. Mary" SAID Geo.s-, tive
have done the best we could and e is in
Gods hands. You are not willing to leave
him there"
"Oh George" said she. "it is too dread
fuI." She arose and walked back and forth
across the room with hurried and restlt So
step.
The truth was that the strong impulses
Of maternal anxiety. had gained an entire
triumfh over her feelings of Christian re-
signation TO the divine will. George had
left the case in the hands Of God. and was
quietly awaiting the result. Not co!dly
and with unconcern-for his hear. was
full of the deepest and lenderes, in,eres, in
the fate Of his little son !; but while h,s al
feclions and sympathies were all deeply in
leresIed in the case, his UiU stood aside,
and entered into no COMES. with God in
respect TO the issue. Mary however could
not give up the case to G'd. Her nsnu
and will struggled for the con'roi ct u,Hnd
as she was utterly without poser. her soul
was in q state Of Inde,.r.batic lumuit and
agi,aiou. Nothing ni4aes such commo-
lions in the soul. as will struggling for
dominion, while yet it is po~erless. II
RACES like a maniac, chained, but unsub.
dued.
Two reasons made the duty of submiss-
ion, in this case, far more easy for George.
than TOR Mary. FIRST, he was moi the
mother. There vas semi-nninai instinct
of parental love in her bson, which was
altogether weaker in his. Then again from
difference in their habits of mind. he was
accustomed TO see more OF the bright side. |!
and she more of the dark. His naiura
associations OF thought were cheerful; Nj,
rvs we're sad. So that when any rude !
blast oi unusual fury shook the windows |
1t was followed in Mary's mind by ,ile idea !
of Fergus perishns under in the SNOW
while to George, II suggested the probabii- (,
lty that the wind it eli might be guide 10
Fergus, 10 the points of the compass, If h !
should get los;-or tha, it would blows off
the snow from the ice. OF some other en-
couraging idea. Thus submission was -
far more easy duty to George than to NJ,
ry, still i, was no less duty TO both.
The iumut in Mary's mind increa Sed a.
the next hour passed away without bring
ing any ,idlngs Of her boy. Her agiralion
and her sufierings were increased too, BY
The conviction that her feelings were rong
and that her plain unwillinsness TO sub'nr
to the decision of God was entirely iucun |
sis,ent with her Christian vows. Blu, 10
leel righ, is very different thing from
struggling against feeling wrong. She saw
clearly how unreasonable il was for her to
be unwilling that God should decide. and
how foolish it was even in hearl,, 10 airemp,
to resis:s. him then by kind Of desper-
ale struggle, she would resolve to give ~
the contest. and resign the case en,rel,
into Gods hands {; but il was Of little avail. !
She found that the root Of iAsubmissjon
lay too deep Resolutions and deiermin.
alions, somehow or other. did moi reach j..
After the most energetic exercise Of the
will 10 feel right which seemed posi-
ble. she would find in a few minutes her
heart rising again in restless insubmission.
Then would succeed feeling Of despair
at the hcpelessness OF her efforts then
self reproacE for this sinful rising agains,
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