Green-Mountain freeman. [volume] (Montpelier, Vt.) 1844-1884, 1849-06-21
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| lection Of it away, use every expedient to
Danish the remembrance, and yet there it stands
stamped upon my memory, anineffaceable blot
Relating it to another person, perhaps may lie
unable to impress upon him the whole horror of
my mind, which received severer shocks during
the lapse of few hours than it ever did in the
course Of my whole life. Only one night of
terror! but in those protracted hours what revul-
sions of feelings fear, disgust, horror NIL rap.
idly succeeded each other! / am compelled to
collect my faculties whiIcI write. The remem-
brance causes mo to trenble even now. am
only woman, however, and men, with their
strong powers Of mind, may probably smile at
the intensity Il my fears. Isat them, however,
only place themselves IL ina ginatiot, in nly3pos
sition- young, fricndless, in 4 new cuuntry
and they will make many allowances. ! must
however. at once plunge into ny story,
sIwas born At Berlin, Of 1 laFR Asssi and
circumstances which may mt xlIalll hRglng
Lh.eaais doaa OH sneA. I'D
fonndationof one Of the noblest houses. IN The
city, we were compelled to separate, andcarn,
our own bread. Death overlook my father in
the midst of his prosperity, and the suddenness
with which it arrived prevented him from set
Ting his affairs 1t came, however, and with it
misery to our house. But why dwell upon these
unhappy scenes They are too painful to revive
further than TO form the reason of my separation
from my family. We were four sisters, and
was the Youngest had received good edu.
cation, and being I'M especial fayorite at home
the necessity of going forth into the world, in
search of my own livelihood, was looked upon
with sorrow. With tears in my eyes, begged
them to look with cheerfuness on the plan Of
my assisting to retrieve the falling fortunes o.
my family. even felt proud of the prospect O
exertion, and when the determination was at las
arrived at that should seek position as gov
crness in some family, | hailed it with JOY
remember how we discussed these things, sitting
round our blazing fire in the twilight. My wild
owed mother, half tearfully, half smllngly, a
il were, consoing herself with the promised ad
vantages and my sisters, now deprecating, nov
Ginning in with, the more brilliant portions c
the plan | fancy can see the little flame
dancing up and down, now illumjning, nov
leaving the room in darkness, revealing the cal
nest faces and sombre figures Of our mourning
clad family; and even seem to hear echoes
: their voices as they sounded low but clear in tn
t hush of the evening.
} A few weeks passed by without prospect
3 anything, but at length friend called upon
, with the information that he had heard of 81
: uation in a Russian family residing in the eny
rons of St. Petersburg which if chose to Al
< cept, he had no doubt he could procure for IN
+ There were many advantages attending it.
It Could refuse? I unhesitatingy resolved
90 and seek my fortune in the Russian capit'
/ The Journey, of course, was source of som
anxiety to eI...sN isSGQi
! for my departure but not without an intern
dread on my part of the future. 1t was a ne
: and sudden step, this leaving home; and one
: that the excitement of getting ready and Il
T. pains of farewell taking were over, | began
y contemplate the dangers was likely to encou
ter the novelty of my position, my dwelling
e mongst strangers, my duties and my fears
a being found unequal to what was demanded
D, me. As long as felt within the precincts
: my own country, my heart was sustained by Il
Il reflection. When, however, arrived at Dat
d ziz, where we halted for ar hour, walked
= and down the streets with feeling of nut
in sadness. Quitting that town, | seemed to
e. about to break my last link with the home W
n. leaving for an indefinite period. looked
through the solemn gloom of the streets towar
the gables of the high, narrow houses, and
the projecting balconies saw little groups
tv neighbors and friends conversing together, wi
i'll a feeling of envy. They were at home, but
tn was wandering away from it, becoming mo
g. and more conscious of the isolation of my DO
- ton, the further | receded from my native b
v lin. Little time for reflection was allowed n
le We started once more and at length reach
n. the Russian borders, and, going through t
mt ued our journey by night as well as by day.
r Many of the incidents encountered were
rs new to me that they impressed themselves stron
nd ly upon my memory. remember seeking the
a as relief from my own thoughts, which we
!. of that comlortless, uneasy kind which haunt
e. in moments when we are, us it were, hoyeri
or between two positions the home we have GU
d. ted and the new one we are about to form.
There is the regret of farewell still gnawng
our hearts; there is mingled with 1t the compt
sating feeling of hope, and also the unea
, dread with which unknown positions assai
/. felt was so young to be at large in the wor
: Little gimpses Of my journey lingef on my re
] objection. remember, near Brrtau, beholdi
r as we crossed the bridge, dense array of ma
: ed ships crammed close together, with their bo
spirits projecting far over the road on the 9th
:, side were boats laden with corn, and groups
aborers lying in the open air, fast asleep, thou
the dew was falling heavily and the cold was i
tense. | noticed the vegetation in its vario
stages On some parts of our journey the W
= low was in full bloom, but on the road near Va
it was very backward. Tired as was of /
r, prolonged journey, the intelligence that we VIC
in reality approaching the Russian capital W
n exceedingly welcome. My fellow travel
Of pointed out to me the country seats, with tn
ire extensive gardens and strawberries, as we pass
an along; but Notwithstanding all the care q
W. pains which had been bestowed upon them, Il
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