The New York herald. [volume] (New York [N.Y.]) 1840-1920, 1849-06-05

felt at times that I hated you a. much l
once loved. and you cannot wonder at IT, You
we'll know how devotedy attached was to you, and
how cruelty you repaid me; but knowing how wronged
have been, and hearing from eminent counsel how
prefer amcsble and private arrangement to tho
public one that Is now in progress This affair Affects
none as It does ourselves and we might arrange it
Your family will, doubt, II you subject this to
their inspection, insist upon you not seeing me They
doubt vi" in this Believe
has been most detrimental to you In every way wish
ment, as have from mine, in writing this / do not
wish law suit more than you do. although shall
undoubtedly be the gamer You have the power pre-
vent any thing Of the kind, and sincerely hope
that you may have the will. As much and terri
ply as you have made me suffer, ] would not
njure you; but trust your conscience will at last
make you feel how deeply you injured me. You may
think desire too much to see you and that ac-
count decline the request; if 50, am content am
sincere in the wish YOU If you are disposed
to see me, will be at home on Sunday morning and
Mondsy will answer either morning ' OF .1as sms
his will decide II you come, We may prevent All
presence will not affect II way or the other
Your family have spoken toe shameful me various
PERSONS for me to longer 1t in silence Too much
publicity; yet do not wish it. although am prepared
for it. have endured too much, suffered agony that
no tongue can tell for me to dread this business Do
believe that you happier for the course that
you have pursued? can answer for you, no. for Is
Mot IN this city and
public opinion as you have done Yet for all the past
has been to me torture in the extreme, st o still
fegned come, and do not compel me to this warfare
! (signed) Mrs. T. A. WALKER
am not to blame If you heed this not for all that
will ensue. desired quiet and private conversation
with you to public strife and if you refuse cannot
| help It,
This then read 1t written after the breach
Of appointment at Mrs. Daly's without wrapper, d.
els 1t well to constantly irritate and insult one
| that you have injured almost beyond endurance?
zee, mat you " NO dread OF
what others would die than be guilty Of you
would not dread the adherence and contempt Of all
men For 1t is not so. You have feelings something like
human beings although you possess Of the kind
or generous emotions Of human nature still you are so
extremely and sensitvey selfish, that you feel in your
selfshness much others and would suffer as much
| as the more noble and manly in being exposed in all
your ttleness. care not how VIGOROUSLY bad man
has proved himself he would like to incur the con,
tempt Of mankind; particularly for his meanness pride
Is engrafted in the hearts of all true feel more
than others; you know have but small share; still
the atom that you possess you unpleasant
sensation, Knowing this, you cannot by all your in
total indifference topublic opinion. have unbounded
pride and independence Of character, and that too
with scarce shadow Of fear; but would expose
myself to the derson of the world for all the wealth
that could be lavished me- tor would wish the re-
spect Of the reputable; would not wish be alone in
| my glory-and SO you feel You wish to be thought
man, and also, what is quite as important, gentle
in the estimation of every but yourself am not
writing in the spirit of anger or hatred you for
tell; my happiness has been totally destroyed but
feel that brought it myself in trusting so conf
would not again desert me- but your nature is most
treacherous and to those that put faith in you
that was dead to honor and truth, and have met with
my reward for love- have received unmitigated and
most unmerited hate; for devotion, dosertion
bearance taunts and insults the most oathng; for
affection that mover tired, attention to your every
wish, have received nothing but unkindness harsh.
ness and endless insults. For months this was born
| in silence; no retaliation anger marked my Ian
guage. hoped and believed that you would relent
that human feelings would visit your heart; told not
to my family half Of the insults cructies that
had been heaped upon me; yet you not content;
you felt that you had so much wrong that you
would endeavor to ruin so efrcctually That every
friend and relative should desert methen no blame
would be attached to you. Had you left in poverty
have known your deeds You tell Mrs Daily that |
what would do again, and that, too, in presence Of
all creation Had they not influenced you to treat mo
so cruelty, and had they not uttered the most shame
full falsehoods against me, should taken tho
trouble to repeat those stories that told me about
them. care little for the affairs of others never
me; then would retaliate, but would not say what
had not heard. You should remember that il | loved
you so well that lived in meanness and obscurity
with you, that never lived before; misery mean.
ness and poverty, never felt before My pretensons
to the decencies and propriees of life were as GOOD
theirs and had they not moested me- should never
have spoken their names. God knows would not in
lure ny my conscience is pure in that respect at
darkness. never, in thought word deed have done
| you the slightest wrong Those that know me- know
this to be trne feeling has actusted me- and
| did you speak the true sentiments of your heart
you would say that ] was too devoted to you for q
thought of guilt to cross my mind. This say not to
| vndicate myself for | need no vindcation on that
You also think that will fear stand the test
public trial. Youuknow me not if you suppose that
] fear What have you left undone that should
dread! Nothing nothing; no. not all New York would
fear to stand before You have accused me of crimes
al. hava
many insults from You and yours, fear nothing;
for the blacker you make me, the contemplate
| you will appear. ] am Indifferent would as fl have
said before much prefer preventing this from appear
ing for the amusement and Of the public for
am fully aware that 1t will not be at all agreeable to
myself; but have suffered when you have been very
happy you have endeavored to me insults when
! you nave endesvored to create respect and atten-
ton for YOURSELF you have heaped everything upon
| me that was vile and bad, when at the same time
you have endeavored to make yourself and IA
miy respected, and yet you say that fear. What
have to fear' Nothing, say again None have ever
injured me, but YOU but | fear nothing more. You
can withdraw the stigma that you have east upon me-
you reiterac your insults but perhaps Won will
think hereafter that love is much better than hatred
respect than contempt. have loved you passionatey
and deyotedly and would have been happier in ohscn
rty with you than in all the luxurousness of wealth
without you; yet although such my feelings make
no proposals or concessions you told Mrs DAILY that
had FOR never felt that injured you or else should
have acted justly. As far as know my duty towards
myself for any unkindness want of attention Could
l. would be some excuse for you am told that you
are 80 pitter IN your ieeings towards me- well
most nsultipg Well as you please II you think it is
manly or gen,lemanly lthe following crossed on the
fourth page OF original letter. ts nv with
words OF insult against II is more tEan Others do
answered your note as soon received It, which was
not until wednesday at o'clock. and went as said
would; do regret being deceived BY YOU again n
you think that en.manly conduct to one that YOU
have injured will add either to your pleasure or bapp
hess, you are welcome to the Won have
put me TO- acted as ever shall II pledge my word
viii be 80 much OF lady ~ to keep It, You wrote I'm
the spirit OF Kindness and answered II as such: but
when went TO Mrs. Daly's.I was told how Won had
spoken OF me- IL was most strange you cou ddesre
to treat me yet write you did Would to God that
you had less deceit IL was either deceit or anger
caused by as you thought contempt OF your request
You know that am no waverng, undecided person
and what have said will do. ! said before that I
would see you, and bad received 10 in time sbouId
sba request all my fris nds not to tell me any more Of
the Ill feeling and most uDknd words you in sneak
ing Of me- cannot bear this continual excitement
and If II affords you amusement 1t does me Fare