The Ottawa free trader. [volume] (Ottawa, Ill.) 1843-1916, 1848-08-18

its secret way, but seemed To- brighten the !
spirit it was TO cXlinguish.
Susan after time, felt that she was pass
ing through the Valley Of Ihe Shadow Of
Death. This Conviction did not dcprcss her
cnergies-it awakened them she had COM
muncd with her own meek heart, iftCd il
to her Maker, and remembered with couso'
lation that il said, ''those also serve who on
~ stand and wait" She Struggled ON from
day TO day in the performance Of hcr du-
lies amid many privationS, the worst oil all
prvation, that of mental Development and
social cheer, yet had she conscious &C
count in her own heart, and sincere andu I'M
assisted endravour had no doubt "A register
amid the higher achievements OF more IA
vored minds. with the certainty that she
was not long Tor this scene, she r,doulled
acr eXcrtions to put her little household in
order. She repaired aud made clothes for
her child, and she laid them away. cmbalm-
ed with tears. Ia the same manner the
needle tOilcd for her husband, and the saw
ingS which her lrugllity effected were en-
ploycd TO purchase him sundIy little com
forts.
"Thcse VIII keep him warm when | ain
cold" she thought; he wiil little think that
while he will forget me, for better company,
t is true aly only happines was to rcmcm-
Der him, and that sinai. scarcely be more
solitary in the grave TO " hich | ain going,
than have been in the home 10 which the
brought me-"
Sometimes a little ink bottle was taken
from the mantle shelf, and q sheet of paper
from her little table draw or, and then, with
effort few lines were traced, and the pa
per hidden carefully away, as if she had
committed a crime. One night she made
more cudeayOrS than usual. and the Strug-
Cling unaSsis;cd spirit Of intelligence was
burning in her bright hazel eye and glowing
on her beautiful check, when Size was star
tied by an unusual noise. The paper was
hurried into the drawer, the ink bottle re-
stored TO lhe shelf, and taking the candle
She went out TO the landing place. She be
! held her husband assistedby tw u men, slow
| " ascending the stairs. lie had met with
an accident: had broken his arm; It haC
been sc,-he had tainted during the opera
IuUn--aud with the ghaStly aspect incident,
such circumstances, appeared before her.
! This event Frustrated Philip Morris som,
! time, during which Susan nurSCd him will
uuremitipg care. II was long before he
| was able TO return TO work, but his employ.
ers were liberal and con>idcratC, and die
I not forget in his weakness the mau who
! had tOiled for their advantage in his day!
Of health and strength. But although una
bic to pursue his manual laboiS, Philip Nor
IiS soon made an effort TO get abroad il
search OF mental occupation and social en-
ploymcnt. lie went to his club, 10 the Me
chancS Institute, 10 the coffee shops wher,
he could find the best selected books anf
! newspapers All this was well done liz
nObly determined 10 rescue himself from be
coming the mere machine Of toll and drUdg
cry for so much crash as can be graspe,
thus Alas had he thought Of her whon
he promised to love and chrrishunt deatl
should part them: had he considered tina
she had soul Of equal value with his own
perhaps an intellect as capable Of rcpayin!
culture; and then he was twice blessed
blessed in the act and in itSreactiop. But sci
lishly devoted to his own objects OF pursuit
| Infatuated to the wan looks Of his quic
wife, he failed TO perceive that her chccl
grew palur and her voice weaker not tina
he grew inscnsb.e or indifferent to her cart
and anxiety during his illness; but wit
renovated health, he returned to his Oh
habits and accustomed to receive sacrifice
withOulrnaking any, he >inucd against graf
itude and good feeling almUstuucOnsciously
Gradually, Susan found herself unequal {,
even the daily walk with lite Philip, tn
effort of going up aud down stairs: an,
then there was some talk OF her rCturnin.
home for time, aud trying the effects o
her native air. She smiled fcrbly as thi
was spoken Of, yet left it unattended; ST.,
: knew that she was going 10 farther and
better home, ana often did she wish TO So,
rs much but she was not eloquent o
+ words, nor sufficiently strong in spirits, art
after two or three fruillcsS attempts she de
sisted, and pursued as far as she was able
the even tenor of her way.
, Philip Morris recovered his health, am
T was restored to work aud full wages: aGaii
: he talked of the country for Susan, and in
sisted on her trying n new doctor; he Sough
/ TO tempt her appetite by such raiitirS as hI
could afford, bat sill he could not resign lii
, own peculiar habits AMI enjuylnrntS, and Il
mong the evils these cntalcd were lalchourS
I One night he rc,Urnecd home as usual n
) bout iduight.-Nhon, on opening III,
, room door, instead Of the small bright iir
! The trimmed candle, and the pale, patien
worker he was accustomed 10 behold, nj
was darkness and silence. He paused
t mnmeut-an indeScribablc sensation of col
crcpt over his frame; aud fear, like para
. ly>is, invaded his heart; at length he cx
claimed :-"SuSan! Susan, my dear
t There was no reply; he stepped farther in
: to the room-he repeated her name yet loud
oil .'ss s,'l. hs s"ourd his way To In
, ircplacc-on the mantrl Shc.i hc Iuuua
box Of luci(rr mntchcS-ubtamcd n light
, and lighted candle. lie now behold Su
I san, with her land resting on the table, seat
O.. ed in her usual place. lie approached an
took her hand-O Heaven, its icy coldncS,
lie ilnng himself on lis knees the floor
: and looked up into her face; there was
sweet placid smile ON her lips--for a furgiv
ing, gentle split had passed from them
but the eyes were fixed, aud-Susan wa
dcad.-had been dead some hours. Til,
distracted man rushed down stairs. nlar
| ming ali the inmates rs he passed. y med
I ital man was soon present, and the cham
| Der in which that Young creature had al
$ most lived and died alone, was thronCcd b.
) crowd, any one Of whom, inspired by
better social system, would willingly hav
5 sustained her 20 n longer life, or chccro
f, the brief time that allotted her. All wer
1 horror. struck, aud one hcar.S;ruck; poi
% tcularly when the child, awakened by In
, tumult, scrambled out Of his little bed, AT
. rushed for protection 10 his lifclcss muthc,