The New York herald. [volume] (New York [N.Y.]) 1840-1920, 1846-10-18

family seemed determined on H. ana MI particularly
anxious. know not what TO make Of It'll only know
have horror dread of him and travelling under his
protection is awful to me. Then prefer staying At
thrown with persons care nothing about and then
should be dependent young men, on going out entire
il. being friends of MIR Myers. There objections to
remaining and yet, dearest, cannot leave you, and IL
you will not 20 with me, must remain buff remain
l may be compelled TO 70 with ----. Do, dearest
love, tell what shall do-ioE you know, darling.
and tell me what to do feel so weak, so badly, that
then think of staying here all tho tims-but again.
have a motive in going TO New York, which cannot
est, for must determine in few days have in
vitations from 's fam ly to rsmsin with them, but
for sey show %s are
here who consider me more worthy Of their acquaint
s % Of
their household But, darling forgive mel have uttered
words uniting for me forgot how desolate am, and
forgot my unworthiness There those who love me,
and tell me am all pure, all angelic They would fain
thus low and hunbled and that may forget how
pride, but alas my God has been withsred crushed
forever. Dearest will tell you something you prom
ns To S Ss with hs night
town vow seet observed the person who told
you Instantly said Do allow me Inc exquisite hsppinsss
may not write you twill be such hsppiness for me to
write to one lwhO has elected from feelings
and took her address Now dearest, remember, don't
say one word Think what your feelings would be to
would be- This person said to me evidently Tor ne pur
pose OF seeing what effect it would have, Could you
you would have agreed with he was desperately in
love; but then she rchwe OF could resist"
are hs ss M. 9 1y
and thinks no! once Of her wealth He has too much
n part % % %
ings they could not but you know well, dear
est, what they were and - but natural should have
part of this letter has been written in tears they
holy Ones shed for you Read this letter. dearest ere
you retire tonight also one particular one wrote you
while - was here You may remember it, for was
written in the despair Of love, when wretched
you retire ask II especial request Dearest,
will il prompt you to send me kind note morrow
happy
o'clock to Does not this deserve long reply
viii you have patience to read this volume Oh
yes for tlsfrom loving, true, pure heart.
1.-THE following supposed to be the letter Mrs Myers
refers to in the above and which she strongly insisted
on Hoyts reading before he retired for the night Il
SATURDAY, O'Clock.
My God my God what am not suffering Agony.
yes teniod agony May not still call you DEAR dearest
for OH you are so in the fullest meaning Of those
words. Yes; dear one, must speak with YOU now.
BE- one word hers to give you pain my darling one.
is consuming my Utmost soul Rather, beloved. than
give you pang would die. Therefore, dear
broken woman Darling Of my very iiie now Enssl to
YOU entreas you in the name of mercy, to be candid
very brink Of perdition Tell me- implors you tell
ne. are your feelings changed to yards met From
that you felt ysur feelings had undergone change
You almost feared the effect this intelligence might
Ssss Sn n. this wound Oh LEI NOT
feelings deter you from acting towards me candidly
Deceive me not. ! appreciate dear one, your kind.
proves to me your true nobenes Of character which
have always known You to possess But dear love
could you know the very anguish am now enduring.
you would at least pity me, poor wretch am Dear.
write. Oh my God, loved one, let me not remain long
in this state of sgony else am lost forever Fear not
will take to himself Think not dearest, will com.
plain or reproach you No no ! cannot viii not
help ere perish II is not strange, dear one that
you should charge towards me- No no for am too
much less being like thine own dear self No one. no
one loves me- Every one in thi: wide world has for
for changing No no dearest, blame you not Dear
one only pray to God that he will show you how
OF az Of
fersd and at least may know have thy pity. That
will be sweet drop in the bit cup Of sorrow which
have drain ed to the very dregs Have done nothing.
suffered nothing abandoned nothing for thee Oh God,
have given up the world for thee have loved thee
till can love nought else beside thee. have no other
| God but thee. To none but thee have bowed down
and worshipped. Thy bosom ia mine altar, and now
love thee love thee mady love thee Thou hast drank
nv dry of all love. Thou than earth
mSsn wa. ali One in
| BILE, wretched, thou, deav angel, came to Thou
bdst live and oh, when thou tod.t Of love- then
then was this being made nav. lived, as il were In
world Of Joy, of bliss Yes dearest, the few brief
months have known thee, have been happier then
ever dreamed il possible be- for what greater hsp
piness is there than thy love Oh dearest can never
You the dssr ONE who n
happy You taught me to love life, for you made that
life heaven. Forget III No noe en- in death Dearest
when have often asked you If you loved me- IL was
because doubted thee, but those very words from
thy lips love thee, gave me such feelings Of rapture
made me so often say, .lOve, do you love me ]" But
dearest why dwell on those sweet moments. the memo
once more appeal to you in the name of heaven il You
have changed towards me, tell me frankly, freely,
for there in the grave, at least, is peace Think NOT.
dearest will blame you for deserving poor being so
loved OH say So and you bring this heart the very
joy of heaven Good night, love w God what q night
heaven take you from me, and thatwill give me
| some relief
Mrs Myers again reprodehes Hoy for his alterations to
another lady
God of mercy give me strength 10 write you what
have this day heard Now ali il explained, aud
now understand why you made those remarks me
Saturday which rent my heart in twain. To-
day have heard all have not time write fully, for
have but moments leisure. friend called TO see
me, and ! saw from his manner and conversation he
had netting TO particularly Immediately he intro
duced you and think my God what my feelings
when he told the following He says there has been
at the Exchange certain lady by name Miss -, whom
you were introduced to took at first desperate
fancy to After few days this fancy rpened into love-
and she left you offered her your heart and hand
While she was at the Exchange, your attentions TO
her were so marked as to be the subject Of general
remark You shut up your ONCE the whole morn
ing, and sate with her till dinner was announced
The evening and night the same devoted afseption
every moment by her side You first made your feei-
ings known to her by presenting her with aowsr Al
the circumstances detailed TO me most minutsy.
You requested her permission write her while she
would be New York; and when she return; 70 LOU
heard partly from friend and partly BY letter The