The Columbian fountain., 1846-11-10


nodrished my fatal attachment until became reck-
less OF public censure, and prepared to encountsr IT,
for his sake
After the inerception Of my letters by Col. Ny
ers, considered my association with Mr. Hoyt fore
yer ended. was closely watched, and had no means
OF communication with him. A day or two after
this event, Mr.. H. sent me package by his servant,
and message to the effect that he would have writ
ten to me, but knowing my situation, he feared
nterception ofhis note He besought me to write to
HIM by the messenger. On Monday received
letter from him, saying he had been under my win
dow ior two nights, hoping to see me. He enclosed
| me cofd' and wrote me he would be at DIR. IS,
lwhere l was staying,) at a particular hour that
night, when must be certain to have letter in
readiness for him, which was to be attached TO the
cord, and lowered from the window, and he in like
manner, would transmit to me a communication
from himself.
Finding that he had mistaken the situation Of nv
room, IN acceding to his suggested plan, appointed
him window in front, where could receive the pro
posed communication, and return to him the package
should prepare for him. In one OF these letters, he
promised to continue his correspondence with me after
my departure from Richmond, provided it could be
ranged with safety. He then requested me, most i'm
Fortunately, to destroy every line he had written
me- knowing had numberless letters Of his in my pos
session This promised unhestatingy, and perform
ed without distrustfu thought; and thus robbed
myself OF evidence which might have paiated my
ror since my own letters, sacred as deemed them,
have been committed to the press for the gaze and
taunt oil the unfeeng multitude.
Does 1t harmonize with justice, thus to deliver up
to public print one portion Of correspondence, while
the other part which induced it, is shrouded forever
from publicity To my Judgment, 'tis act Of injus
tce, from which should imagine every humane heart
would revolt with adherence. Having unfortunately
deprived myself OF every line which prompted such
passionate expressions OF affection, am unable to
with mine those professions of equal warmth and
equal fervor, which accustomed to receive, and
which might have excused the tone OF my replies
The letter intercepted and most fortunately preserved
by my father is the only one from Mr. Hoyt which
appears in comparison with my own; though from it
one may easily gather that not the only actor in
this correspondence, the only from which
emanated professions Of devotion and epithets OF
dearment.
Iwrote in the very sanctuary Of confidence,
dreaming that another eye would behold those evi-
dences OF my feelings, but the one for whom such
vows were registered and yet the very secret and
shadow Of such confidential intercourse, mark how
often appeal to him for my purity, my guilelessness
Your pure and spotless," SIC. ssYou know the pu-
rty Of this heart; you know not impure thought
has dwelt there; &C In the presence Of heaven
itself could swear that this bosom is as free from
guile, free from impurity as an angels, and rather
than lose that purity, that delicacy, which know is
the jewel of my character would far rather lose life
ITSELF" Every thought of this heart is as pure, as
spiritual, as heaven itself Although the world may
accuse yet in own hearts we have the conscious
ness of innocence and that will sustain US" Is 1t rea-
sonable that such expressions as these would have
found their way into such confidential communica-
tons, il one stain OF guilt-one spot OF pollution
had marred MY intercourse with him! Is it reasona-
bic that should thus have pointed to my viruous pu-
rity, unless had been spotless and unblemished!-
Oh! no. no!
| letter addressed to my husband has also been
exhibited calculated to represent me acting with
the utmost duplicity. There are circumstances in
extenuatisn of this On the day after Mr.. Myers
dan rt,,ra 20 tha Nnrth M Hat cLaIv vhoo
| should write to my husband. On my replying, "ths
following day." he said, "Remember it is important
that your letter should be couched in the most aec
tionate terms" l remarked, II thought such advice
from him singular and inexpicable" He replied,
"You have always been in the habit of writing to
him afiectionately; and your letters now to be
characterized by coldness, his suspicious might be
excited as to the cause" When penned those
words to my husband really felt just wrote; for
when was with him, or in correspondence with
him, my conscience reproached me for the wrong
was doing him, and at such moments felt kindly
and tenderly towards him.
There is one point in this fatal correspondence
which wish to rectfy in your eyes, and that is the
entang ement of my sisters names in some of the
letters. They were both unsuspcious of the
ture Of my association with Mr.. Hoyt. l.
was entirely unaware Of the nature Of my CORES
pondence with him, and my elder sister ig norant
Of the fact of my acquaintance with him, beyond
the mere casual, speaking acquantanceshp Of formal
fashionable intercourse.
Thus, my dear friend, have given you all the
particulars Of an association which has ended
fatally for of its actors-so unhappily, SO un-
fortunately for the other; for | am now mourning
ever the ruins of my domestic peace, which my
own hand assisted TO demosh. Yet, even in
this hour of gloom and Of darkness, while the
storm RACES around me, and even the voice of
pity is hushed by the turuultuous tempest Of pub
lie reprobation, find my conscience serene amidst
the biIlows; for that conscience whispers unceas-
ingiy to my agonized heart that Of crime, Of guilt
am as sness as seraph before Gods throne; and in
that great Day Of Retrbution when all secret thots
and secret feelings shall be uncovered, my purity
shall be read, in bright characters by those who
now condemn me.
| Crushed, overwhelmed as now am, the world
feels authorized to hur the most cruel accusations
against me but God is my refuge against Mans Vi
olence, and live in the abiding hope that the hour
will come when shall be regarded as deeply in
jured and greatly ,oronged woman. have been
keenly affected by the recent reception of two anony
nous letters couched in the kndest terms, breathing
all the fragance Of sympathy, and assuring that
the belief Of my innocence is indelibly stamped on
many hearts. Oh with what thankfuness, with
what fearful gratitude, did Idwell on those kind and
tender ex pressioHs! The world cannot know the
bleeding heart it lacerates by unworthy suspicion