Carroll free press. [volume] (Carrollton [Ohio]) 1834-1861, 1846-04-10

vrTg ,u-L Tf-ta b. 80 Of ct fu view uo-
b.- IN ugd 70 excite my euergr-. ler, wlih
o haa.tto v.. Iy t-..ay, h0w cal ] cau-
mau- r- 'a-H.ia- '0r gopl! Ia IHst
have par.u.-d uv -au' l0r h.m, and lH-re
o. ro..i#gi. tie pastor iuIure to look up
or wI,h irF.'
A. -h.r. drrt'y ir"w near her end. Tor
t6a shock -lp bad received ha3 70 dl-rup-
4r.t ,le springs Of H.e th-, rapid con-
sumption ensured. size sc.u.rad more gan-
10 rnd r'ru- we've 81 E.r lo-, a. q Tough
u1' ST.. perfectly guiesreat, sIe wro.e nor
u' DIS.
"Janaey &c, 1895. Harry thoughts
car Hsd r.c.uUrt expressions .u nar#fs--
brewery Hw.l Jos lu-ra IS an w-ri
f.us.r--.s; ca. o "a 90 lE.gu8g' here
for f-raugad love. Nsurr only i.t- e
wha.l have brea--shp -lGrs ron. r,r-
s5in ..ii snch a- Ian. How hare 7 been.
drcoi,'d. even ia ra.urr! ! box or 90
the " "a storm ard ..-fau 20 ,ha aT..- ls
,hu, dor ard lar K il,trow 7 -hl. ir3
the counterpart NJ uv own p M. iu'
s.u m,rk... haVege- rute'y tha wr's
trw n-l sd the l.fa-.nTt cloud. q p g.0.u
Is -laing a- br1hty a- ever; ard. t.nu-b
;He wa:.r- -rlI. Ho.I1 tHr ti-h.1te- ,f
H. -fa,s. yr.t tasv c4a-r no. thair urrg ~
. et mus'c--.c: aI.rn'a -i.h- regret. rr' r.
I a 'ew man"nts al will be a- lair a. though
. 30 cloud He. .rp..
/ Il WATCHED l..,'a r.,l, tia; ri"p.'l on
-i'' Gurrday hy fa., and 'hoa %. -.lst
for wan. Of Ir.u t5on- d. ih- -p"nE, l.
would t.s c0a.l..nirrF. H-.rHel p.
alter I'rh, 10 I'- ~mro strain, O.. o..
sounded Just as -we-i.v ~- ever. TIE -U-
al Is-t rnch-d rha punh that tords.ed il.
land wi'hnred i.- d1wors thst hile4d L.
bank; and. ~ / Ooet out o. me sewing
sun, tb0U-hi saa. nov hear .hp yiug
notes Of nv Ii'lie brook, Tor pvermy band
cou.i SOP II IN its course. ] was sure IL
would sink away hat n Pit. and -9i mo
d0Wuro wJtcb the stars, a. tbag c.epi on,
on ty one on a cDuH'--s skv--and she
moon never looked % pa'e and gentle
lut watched H vain: he music NJ he
rll prrer spu5drds &, eicee'ly ie'6re. True,
'itwas fainter, bp. il l,iaklcd on. IKE the nm
SIC OF q fairy beli, as It's Lri-hl d.op, wan
trred auid .ha rehtles. In vain | sought
for sympathy here.
Il -I,pt aud dieamed Of fairy forms foot
ing in fower-curs upon nv H,le stream e..
Morning came. and my dean was rca'-
lied The showers Of heaven-forever
frue-hsd revived he dropping flowers.
a1d the lit,le brook was warblirg o. Ike a
he1u half bursting wish joy.
Il turned away 20 sigh. All else was
) true, bat one whom had loved far more
Than all Of nature. The sun, the moon,
he trees. he flowers. The waters. and the
'sky, al Porsuad their wontpd harmony,
and even my iavoritp star.-lfp one owed
because he loved il would twinkle 50
wj'chngly that it seemed TO mock ne.
There IS pain within NY heart Tor which
can frd no sympathy from Nature.
"Memory IS the only hiss Of my exis-
tence. love 10 dream over the days Of
peace and love, when my ardent spirit
ounded to meet and to return his tones Of
affection. To banish this rero-pecliou
were misery, though with it come sad
thoughts. But perhaps hey 10 me good
Iii least they make ne humble"
Poor, poor Ellen! Sh, had no hope that
reconciliation could ever take pdce--aud
day by dav she moved hastily towards the
gates OF death. | would have sought 10 re-
new the broken chain OF love. but he had
mysteriou~y kept himself aIoo', and to all
NY written entgpaiia- that he would come
down and see Ellen for the last time, he
. only replied that it could not be. Some Sc
liou5 mys erv enveoppd this ill-'aied al
tachmeut, Tor | saw that he loved her as
deeply as cver.--I dscoyerd the secret at
last, but | will not revea! it. No no. nv
poor cousin! sleep soundly--they shall not
know it,
The last entry in heriourna was written
but the day before closed her eyes in !hcir
last slumbpr. How like heris lis language!
April 80. 1905. The night wind
,ouuds rot 80 mourrfulIy rs ills wont. |
hav" given up my Idol aud found peace in
the sacrifice. Could live now, when dark
hours camn. shd my heart itil ike burst
ing, | would -alhcr up il irCken slrilgs
and fiHd music in Them somewhere. /
would RENE nrer thu; had loved and re-
cpived the love Of one good, rcau.'ul ard
gifted or earth. and that in heaven it wou d
he mine forever; and then | would find
something to DO 10 make some other teing
happy and thus arrive Il, my ru des.ina-
ton in life.
"Would that could see him just once
more. | would spring to his ams--hjs
own true loving girl would rest my
head on his bosom. and feel his heart lhrou-
bing forgiveness back to mne--l would
take one searching looll into The depths Of
/ his sOul--i wonId snatch one bright ray
from the Ighthls of loving eyes---and Sc
yer one more dark lock from his manly
brow; and steal the shadow Of his noble
form; and then, could lid HIM farewell,
with world of riches in my heart on
which would exist forever.
"But why indulge such visions! A few
briefhours and my spirit viii he beyond the
reach Of mortal care. win he not come
before die! God grantme this boon; and
7 nh No ,,,1rptH