The New York herald. [volume] (New York [N.Y.]) 1840-1920, 1846-10-18

som; tiny precious hand clasped in mine and oh God
love- you know not how long to be you now that
you are SUFFERING nov were permitted, might prove
nurse you; how I would delight to minister to every
want, and should be jealous Of the dear pleasure
that not one thing should you receive from another
that could now fly to you press you to my heart
circle you in the Of tenderness and love have
with the words Of sweet love. and then while You slept
to bend over you watch over you for you to kiss
ALL to take thy dear hand and hold II close mins
Irvine these arms around thy dear neck and feel that
then held my embrace AL that loved oil sdored Oh
Of such happiness thrills the nmost bres of nv soul
But no. il cannot be-. Oh agonizng reflection you.
and pain and cannot be beside you !, who love
you to such desperaton; who now would rush through
What have on this earth to make happy Nothing
save thy dear lovenothing save thy own precious self
in h You % s
separated, divided, perhaps eternay but oh God. 1t
cannot be- will not believe that two beings so inds
forever! Dear love, when write, think this
subject il almost kills me- and this night almost
miserable for existence feel this instant could wei
death. perfectly wretched am fear shall be
i'll tomorrow, for cannet close my eyes in sleep all
can pray hha God will have mercy On my SOUL for It's
bleeding, torn one.
FRIDAY, IL o'clock.
Again this morning behold writing to you. Dear
one, am miserable can do nothing but write. pray
from my soul that you are better-wsl. Oh dearest
love- have never had these feelings before. My God
do they not speak to you Of worship dolaty2 am in
Nothing can picture to you my anxiety am almost
beside myself Oh. that dear letter. may it tell you
are better and thu. send one feeling Of happines to
broken heart Now, dearest one. have another, and
the strongest proof to give you of my love- Yesterday
when read your last note saying you would not be
to defer my departure for few days hoping by that de-
lay souid be able to have one dear meeting IN this
thy dear SELF mine own love- I cannot bid You adieu
anywhere save here for have much to say to you,
vacy This morning entrsatsd Mr. M only a to wait
till Wednesday for really felt too sick to leave home
on Monday At first he positively refused, saying I
gle to my own pride to beg and enreat thus who
treats me cruelty But OH dearest what would not
there was but condition which he would remain
He would stay until Wednesday, if promised what he
blood was chilled in my veins-for a moment could
not speak Oh dearest il is a most frightfu awful
SU s%ss, s to %s and to IKE yielding
promise dearest cannot write it. Dear love though
at such PTUposs promised it, though
at all. If remained would you. This, and this
up all earth see you Loved one. could tell You
the condition. then you would indeed prize the love
.Ss S " feelings .hS
have one =, q parting here o. ri. WIN recon-
1t is Dear one, you say will not come to you to.mor
row Yes, sweet one, that will, and would walk so
from those dear lips would not be willing for you to
come to me tomorrow, for dear one, would not
and sus n No.
yesterday in asking you to come to the parlor know
it was wrong; but dearest forgive mel knew
what asked was perfectly out Of my when J.
wrote you; for love, misery ALL have nearly taken nv
reason from Dearest one, read your note-it will
either send misery or gladness the heart of your
voted -. Your note has indeed sent misery to my
heart God only knows now what will become of me.
Of yoa to See me- tho p ns s
cy in the name Of love- shall be there precisely at
half past ~ o'clock; and oh God grant may meet
Not strength for one word miserable past expe.
rience.
SATURDAY MoRrrNG
Mrs. Myers regrets her INTENDED departure aud
quent separation from Hoyf.
know not why it is, but feel sad this morning.
have been thinking all night Of the bitter word farewell
which am soon to breathe to you. oh dearest what
will become Of me in that houra Iprsy God to sup
port me then fer without His support. must die Oh
dear love. it makes miserable I cannot
bear to think of it Oh. that could remain here,
only imagine, darling, that have to separate from
one much dearer than my own liie Oh Is not this sepa
Gaon worse than desth-and shall not see that dear
lace for so long Perhaps never again Dearest, know
not how 1t s but feel if should here
never meet you again Oh, God can this fate be
mine On lave mercy on me- and spare at least
this agony Would that could see you each day till
the sad moment Of our adieuthis would be relief but
il cannot be- Oh dearest what in the of heaven
have done to deserve bitter destiny as mine 4
Loving to perfect doatry and yet not pei mted to
be always near him. Oh dear, dearest one cannot
write this morning feel SO sad. 10 dispirited You
know not my feelings but would to God you might
know them Soon. dearest of my soul, we meet-then
one glance from those dear will make feel happy
Yes shall be happy with you but. alas away from
you, how utterly miserable Dear one, farewell-one
sweet Kiss your Virginia gives you. Remember they
are given to none save her own devoted love
Alta VISTA the residence OF her father, in Albemarls
county Virginia II in reply this letter that Hoyts
epstle OF the 18th June. already published by
ARA vDrA, June l3, 1886.
Mrs Myers declares hop unhappy she separated from
Hoyt-En,reats him to fly Nth her. and requests him
TO yrife
II has but three days. nv own beloved one since
we pared but in that brief time alas have endured
years of misery-sunered my God. words cannot the
half Of express told you dearest it would be i'm
possible ior me 70 write to you but am actually SO mi
ing to you, my angel and feel that cannot support
existence unless can enjoy the sweet privilege Of
tai loved like for believe 1t is impossible for hui
heart to contain such burning fervent unbounded
gragc to express Oh dearest, how do long for
words TO tell you how love you; for am sure, did
know an the idoistrSus love Of this bosom you would
ton to me more prec more necessary to life than
the very air breathe for as could not live without
air, in the same way should die deprived Of thy dear
love Ii is impossible for survive as now am any
longer cannot, cannot live without thee always be.
side me Oh. dear love. tell how il is that you can
refuse .to make happy when you see my life dc .
ponds on it Dearest when you will no longer
refuse VIII you turn from me, only one Remember
look to you for happiness for you the only being
created who can make me happy and oh darling, do
not pray you, do not refuse Dearest, entreat you,
reflect well on what said to you when last met !;
and, above allsweet one remember my happiness here
and in future world depends you. Beloved one. did
you only know how love you, you would not hesitate
Every Joy, every sorrow, should he shared by her
who has given you ALL all she has in this woodland
tha nsr whole entire heart In the sunshine of pros
pery men would share all thy Joy and gladness and
angel In that hour would my love shine out in all its
origh,ness then would sit beside thee, dearest, and
gloom; thy dear head should in this fond bosom
and pilio" ed there beloved, would you be unhappy
said TO you; and If you love me- you cannot refuse
This is the strongest test love can have Do Won not
think so, darling should not have mentioned this
subject, but each hour convinces me more and more
that can no longer remain as now am. but nerhsn.