American Republican and Baltimore daily clipper. [volume] (Baltimore, Md.) 1844-1846, 1846-11-11


AS my personal interviews with Mr.. lloyt
were suspended after the anonymous commu-
ncatlon TO my husband, our correspondence
then commenced. Afterwards and at his sug-
geston, we were in the habit of meeting at the
Exchange, mostly in the public parlor, but two
or three times in No. Is, "a public sitting
room,) and once, at Mr.. tioyt's request, IN Al,
"a private parIor,) he saying we should not
there be SO Liable to remark, as the common
drawing room Of the hotel. | met him alter
wards in the same room, myself suggesting 1t.
was inscnsibly lured from the path Of recti-
tude, by seductive VOWS Of eternal devotion;
and hearkening to such protestatlons, respon-
sive feeling awoke in my BOSOM felt faith,
trust in him, too firm to be shaken, and with
out pausing to reflect, | rushed on, wrocking
and running my happiness by my own act His
manner and words always wrought on me the
desired effect of more trustlul confidence, ana
protestations and evidences such as these, hur
lied me along with fatal precipitation. A ma
ture like my own, capable of the deepest feel
ing, and trembling lest such feelings be unap-
precated by the object on which it has been
lavished, is often exhibited in my correspon-
dence with him. Every doubt-every fear
was answered by assurances of undying deVo
ton, and answering faith. Such vows fed and
nourished by fatal attachment, until became
reckless ofpublic censure, and prepared to en-
counter it, for his sake.
After the interrogation of my letters by Col.
Myers, considered my association with Mr..
Hoyt forever ended. | was closely watched,
and had no means of communication with him.
A day or two after this event, Mr.. II. sent me
a package by his servant, with message TO
the effect that he would have written to me,
l,,t
ception of his note. He besought me to write
him by the messenger. On Monday, rccev
ed a letter from him, saying he had been under
my window for two flights, hoping to see me.
He enclosed me a cord, and wrote me he would
be at DR.. --'s, (where was stayng,) at
particular hour that night, when must have
a letter in readiness for him, which was to be
attached to the cord, and lowered from the win
dow, and he, in like manner, would transmit to
me communication from himself. Finding
that he had mistaken the situation Of my room,
|, in acceding to his suggested plan, appointed
him window in front, where | could receive
the proposed communication, and return to
him the package should prepare for him. In
one OF these letters, he promised TO continue
his correspondence with me after my departure
from Richmond, provided it could be ananged
with safety. He then requested me, most inn
portuney, to destroy every line he had ever
written me, knowing | had numberless letters
of his in my possession. This | promised I'M
hesitatngly, and performed without one dis
trustful thought; and thus | robbed myself of
evidence which might have palIiated my error,
since my own letters, sacred as deemed them,
have been committed to the press for the gaze
and taunt ofthe unfeeling multitude. Does it
harmonic with justice, thus to deliver up to
public print, one portion of a correspondence,
while the other part, which induced it, is
shrouded forever from publicity? To my judg-
ment, tits an act Of injustice, from which
should imagine every humane heart would re-
volt with adherence. Having unfortunately
deprived myself of every line, which prompted
such passionate expressions of affection, / am
unable to contrast with mine those professions,
of equal warmth and equal leryor, which was
accustomed TO receive, and which might have
excused the tone of my replies. The letter in
tercepted, and most fortunately preserved by
my father, is the only one from Mr.. Hoyt,
which appears in comparison with my own;
though from it one can easily gather that was
not the only actor IN this correspondence, nor
the only source from which emanated profess
sons of devotion and epithets and endearmcnt.
wrote in the very sanctuary Of confidence,
never dreaming that another eye would behold
those evidences of my feelings, but the one for
whom such vows were reglstered; and yet, in
the very secret and shadow Of such confidential
intercourse, mark how often appeal 10 him
for my purity, and guilelessness: "Your pure
and spotless," Sc, "You know the purity Of
this heart; you know not one impure thought
has ever dwelt there;" ain the presence Of
heaven itself could swear that this bosom is
as free from guile, free from impurity, as an
angel S, and rather than lose that purity, that
delIcacy, which know is the jewel of my
character, would far rather lose life itself'
every thought of this heart is as pure, as
spiritual as heaven ITSELF" "Although the
world may accuse US, yet in our own hearts we
have the consciousness Of innocence, and that
will sustain u.s." Is it reasonable that such eX-
pressions as these would have found their way
into such confidential communications, if one
stain of guilt-one spot of pollution-had mar
red my intercourse with him2 Is it reasonable
that should thus have pointed to my virtuous
purity, unless had been spotess and unblem-
ished? Oh! no! no!
A letter addressed 10 my husband has also
been exhibited, calculated TO represent me as
acting with the utmost dupcity. There are
circumstances in eXtenuation of this. Ga the
day after Mr. Myers departure 10 the North,
Mr.. Hoyt asked me when should write to my
husband. On my replying "the following day"
he said, "Remember, it is important that your
letter should be couched in the most Affection
ate terms " remarked, 81 thought such ad-
vice from him singular and inexplcable." He
replied, "You have always been in the habit of
writing to him affectionately; and were your
letters now to be characterized by GOODNESS, his
suspicious might be excited as to the cause. -
When penned those words to my husband,
really felt just as | wrote; for when | was with
bin, or in correspondence with him, my con-
science reproached me for the wrong was do.
ing him, and at such moments felt kindly and
tenderly towards him
There is one point in this fatal correspond