The New York herald. [volume] (New York [N.Y.]) 1840-1920, 1846-10-28

The following letter offered by Mr. Scott has never
intercepted her letters and desires keep Hoyi NINA
The letter 10 fraught with ach feeling and de-
clsre' her undying love for H. Iii dated,
oh God! my darling. could yeu have been with me
during the past night your very ul would have been
the whole live long night have walked this room in
the very despair Of agony. 4! God, God, what a
separated from you, whom / owe more than life
know not what is to become Il ME. As these SLAM
der. are known own only to Dr. IN; C.. Co.. , M and and
ony, yet in the estimation Of The world, shall be
my only consolation this that those who know me
win always believe mo pure But, oh my God, what
i So1d human ssnss %s;s
the horror Of my fate, and oh! tell YOU feel for
Now have to drag out miserable existence without
ono hope in life OH my God, is not this worse. than
death, oh my SOUL my heart is bursting. This day
how often have | awsked to joy-slas! now, can
Let me tell you my feelings, dearest and then you
can no longer be insensible to love like mine Even
maniac than human creature, think thus: oh! God
although these sufierings are worse than death, yet
will endure them if he will he loves me,
that he will desert me; that though it may
be years meet yet he will be faithful; and OIL
viii live IN the sweet hope, that one day God will make
will exist this hope and it will sustain
will write him during the long years of probation
we will fall on some plan by which may know he
in this world We will know that we love and are faith
full and this will enable us to endure everything tor
hope will cause US happiness. LIT, II may be long long
each other, that will console us-and dearest, do you
think your love stand this test for OH It's great
oneyct think, if endure this test, how great will
our Joy be when united and God will unite us,
Oh! pray he will darling, in all this and darkness
lowe them s have rsOS Oh
God, you cannot be insensible to devotion like mine
Love for you has brought on me this awful ste and Oh
now bowed down, Frustrated with misery, can you de-
sert Think il has all been done for love bear TO thee
You have promised me, dearest, you would never for
sake Oh is the time to prove this to me. Col
VI. told me you had got tired Of me. That TO
90 to you now, you would spurn me" Oh! these
driven me crazy but oh were to believe them, 4 Is
hand should take this lie But, no, no cannot be
you spurn me, who is purity itssi-whose only
He says, you too worthless for gentleman to
tee. If he had considered you worthy Of being touched
too contemptiss to notice Oh my God. would that he
could know all the noble high minded honorable feel
With love But no let the world think Of us as il may
here in pure hearts, have the consciousness OF
innocence, and that is enough; Oh! my God cannot
write-my heart 10 bursting, darling In these agones,
have you thought Of me and pited met On dearest
on your day, my fate depends. Beloved, ing
to you my only friend oh think of all have done
for thee and tell you will never leave menever for
: Darling love, my soul is breaking-I cannot WRITE
Dr. is all hsrshness 10 me, and will not
me-Desr Cousin -, all kindness-she has soohed
me when have been racked with agony to lay for
are kind TO me, but they think am only sick when this
bosom 10 torn with anguish. What my fate is to be
know not Col. NJ swesrs shall never in my life see
ray husband and Of course separation will ensus On
dearest entrsat you write me-advise what to do.
Oh write page after page. for thy words support
am dying with grief Dear one you say you will have
to die for me- No! No they say I am to be parted
from my husband-bu all to be kept secret from the
world enduring agony, and my friends believing me
happy As my room 10 not the street. and very far
back you could not arrange with the letter for there
porch from my room, and Ills far back that to reach
haze xk~k ~rk
dearest, this will be, fear impossible and Mrs c.
has slept with me every night for have been in sucn
state all night 40 TO require some one besoe me
But, dearest, my lite depends my hearing from you
therefore, for Gods sake, write and tell me you VIII al
ways love me, and advise what to do NOW, gu can
send letter to-posrow at o'clock in this way-pu
il in piece Of cotk seal the package, and write on
thus -" From r. IT, Pnces Store y send II ~ your ser
vantas fear Chi stmss coming here again nm 70
give my hands Warn MIN 70 allow no one 20
Il from MIN IL can manage, will send an answer oy
HIM So soon my tate Is decided you snsh learn y,
writ. me II YOU will be always faithful and wait and pray
0od 70 units us. Oh, tell me, for life depends On y