Green-Mountain freeman. [volume] (Montpelier, Vt.) 1844-1884, 1846-01-15

supposed from the very nature of things, they
must be ignorant, poor, and needy and felt, that
altho' they had broken the direful chain Of slave
w. they must need Instruction. The inquiry
consequently was, "Does any one care for them,
or look after them? Is it not possible that ]
with my feeble abilities can do them good?' At
first | felt reluctance to live again in the world,
as all for a long time had been given up, and
never through a protracted sickness, had | adj
dressed a petition to the throne of Divine Grace
for life or health.
Rejecting on their situation, and the sustain
ing Grace of God and his goodness to me during
my sickness, | thought l shonld not be afraid to
trust God in any situation whatever, nor fear
but that his Grace would be sufficient, and there
fore was led to say, eff there be a spot in the
world where the people can be so ignorant that
| can do them good, restore me to health and
direct my steps thither fnot let me die--liv-
ing or dying | am thine. 4 felt an entire Will
lingness TO live and suffer all my Heavenly Faith
er's will, and tho my sickness was protratced,
believed that it was to prepare me for all that
awaited me in this present life and that it was
for this very purpose, even to 60 to Canada, that
he was raising me up. He had taught me BIZ
sweet experience that His Grace was sufficient
for every trying emergency. After having writ
ten to Rev. Hiram Wilson, Missionary in the
Province, and receiving an Encouraging answer,
[ laid the matter before my friends, but they felt
that they could not give their consent. The
cause was an unpopular one, and the way was
unpopular too. However | felt that | must 60
that the Grace food was sufficient, even un-
der such trying circumstances--and that the
promise was mine-"I will never leave thee, nor
forsake tlee."
Thus l startcd-a lone female,-sent out by
no society-to be sustained by none-against
public opinion and the wishes Of oil my friends.
But the Lord was with me, and His Grace sus-
tanned me, even till this present time, and to
Him be all the praise, Arrived at Dawn about
four months beEre the British American Insti-
tute went into operation, over which Rev. Hiram
Wilson presided, and engaged in teaching the
youth Of the neighborhood.
Sometime in Dec. that school was opened,
"AN 'HNNS" IL Huo uSdlu9I M WloiCS, 1 Gig dBCu
in it and remained more than a year, giving my
entire services and all received from my friends.
f However I did not feel satisfied that it was the
: place the Lord would have me occupy for several
reasons which l will briefly give.
LIST. | was never satisfied that the plan adop-
ted there, was the best way of doing the greatest
amount of good with the lest means. ely.
went with the expectation of going into some
poor and destitute neighborhood, and doing them
\ al! the good ! could, without the world knowing
where | was, except the fittlo world around ME,
which Ind been aroused by the course was pur-
suing. I knew I had not abilities competent for
E the performance Of great things, but the Lord
had made me willing, and prepared me to act in
a small sphere, even such a plan as those Of
greater mental powers, would overlook-had
: made me willing to suffer his will as well as do
it.
"Lord, keep me little and unknown,
Lo,'d and priced by thee alone"
was the desire of nv heart,-there(ore | did not