The Caledonian. [volume] (St. Johnsbury, Vt.) 1837-1867, 1846-02-28


wild and intense look.
You seem calm said she at last. Can
you sit on the bench all day, watching the
law-hounds hunt human being 10 the gal
lows, and at night sink into that chair, quite
comfortable and at ease, as if nothing had
hnppened%
tinge ofred shot over the Judges tenn
pie, but he saw the young creature before him
was no object ofresentment, and answered
her mildly.
Il am not without feeling, he said 1T
would be better for me if l were. The Judge
who condemns is sometimes almost as much
to be pitied MS the victim. After day like
this, he should not be reproachcd for seek
ing n moments relieffrom the pain of his du-
ties
you did feel for him, them exclaimed the
girl, while CLEAN of'light shot TO her eye.
Cold and calm as you seemed, there was yet
throb of human sympathy under it ALL
Heaven only knows how deeply have felt
for that unhappy man, his crime is terrible
but he does not seem born for eyilr
Born for eyil' exclaimed she eagery-hc
oh no, he is noble, good, generous!-'
SHE broke offsuddenly, dropped her clasp
ed hands and drawing close to the Judge said
tn him in changed aud low voice, "I'hey
will not find him guilty. Do you think they
will?'
The judge shook his head. The evidence
is srong-terribly strong
Il know know said the strange girl with
n sort ofbreathless eagerness. But there is
nothing positive-you can save him--you
IUW save him. Did You not say lust now that
lac was not born for evil? Stop, stop, do not
speak yet, have something to say--my heart
has been so full that must speak or it will
| break
"Poor girl what is the wretched man TO
your said the judge deeply moved.
what is he to me, true, true everybody
will ask that question; you are the first, and |
am here to answer it. Listen, sir, listen
since | was old enough TO know what love
was, have loved that man-you understand
the man whom you are trying for the muir
der of his wife. lie loved me too, and al
though poverty kept down his secret, and
wealth pampered my pride, love such as ours
! could not be hushcd or smothered by such
bad nurses. Those who love passionatcly
act passionatcly. was ardent impusive,
sometimes arrogant. He would not endure
these things in me, because | happened TO
have intellect, and was rich; had been poor
like himself selishly weak, lie would have
yielded up his pride to my great love. We
quaTrelled II matters not how or wherefore
he went away. For months never wrote.
He shall make the first advances. | suid week
after week, ill my pride was qucnchcd in
keen anxiety. ! wrote, then, and his answer
was that he lpas married! He thought that ]
did not love him-that my cXactons and
naughty will arose from lack of affection. lie
should never love any woman as he had loved
me, his letter said, but had cast him from
my heart, and while his soul was lhirstng for
sympathy, and tenderness, she the woman he
married, was thrown in his way. He was in
tho whirl OF society, and fancying that eX-
element was second birth of love, that his
first passion had persisted, when it was only
in resentfil sleep, he pledged himself irrevo-
cably 10 another.
20 how had loved that man. how truly
suffered! but no human creature dreamed of
it, why should they? | had nothing but my
pride left, and shielded me from pity, though
it could not from the anguish which sympa-
thy would have made more bitter. This was
two years ago. He did not return to the city
) for months, and when he did come back,witll
his bride, it was long before we met. ] saw
her often though, for she was frequently in
public, but it was always with burning at
) the heart, and something of naughty scorn,
} that one who had loved me could love her,tor
) she was an inferior woman in intellect and
) pcrson-my PRIDE us well as my affection,
was outraged in his choice.
, 'We met at length-oh, how changed he
was--the whole truth had not yet reached
his heart, but his energies were broken, his
selfrespect was diminished; lie was that most
pitiable ofall objects man Of strong ener-
! gies suddenly rendered hopeless. Jealous
affection made me keen sighted, and | knew
all this before we had spoken word togcth-
er. 1t was a bitter Joy TO me when Twas first
convinced that he did not love the woman he
had married. My pride was appeased by
tllisknowledge, but as that gave away, the
passionate love so long held in check, grew
into strength Dpniu II WINS Aforementioned
we never should have sought each other
but after two years. separation we were
thrown together accidentally, and alone. II
was u terrible meeting for us both-terrible
) in itself, most i'll its consequences. For the
first time in our lives we poured out our
whole hearts each to the other. All thoughts
of pride or prudence were swept away by
the strong feelings of the moment. cannot
tell you all that was in that last interview; the
expressions ofsorrow and bitter regret on
} both sides. You have seen him in the court
| and now that even in this terrible trial he
, seems calm and unimpassioned. 1t is only
the curb off strong will on a burning nature
That day he seemed equally calm, equally
} immoveablc, and this made my griefmore ell
ouuent / did not dream of the struggle that
} was going on under that cold exterior, and
thinking that he did not suffer equally with
myself, abandoned myselfto reproaches anc
expressions of regret goaded his already
frenzied feeling on to madness.
ooh if she were but deadp / remember
saying this more than once. 1t was wild, sin
fiIl, but only an expression ofagony. Heav
en- is my judge, ] had no deeper meaning
: The last time uttered this fatal wish my
hands were both clasped within his, and as
he bent over me saw that his features were
convulsed and dreadfully pale. He wruna
INV knitted hands and laughed--laurhedl