Virginia free press. (Charlestown, Va. [W. Va.]) 1832-1916, 1846-10-22

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/ yretched days and sIeepIess nipbl.. ~
Gsd what i my hope nov tosne / IA
lnorrot decides my fate. lam sepsf,,e'
ircm my hpsband. and compelled ,o !,
turn to home where kaow moi how {
shall BE received. NY fsikefis , s,,rp
kbenried man-from him | CAD reee;ve n
thing bnt uDkindness. psfhaps erueliv'
Ebul OBJ God defend me from this f,ie
Oh what is ii thai stays this hand. VIE,
EalI this misery may be ended ia one mo
Emeni My God this life mus, Be ,,ke,
/ cannot support Il. Oh that had s.renglI
10 write you. bot this poor bosom = p,
Eagonized for one word. Oh mai i eonI,
see you for one mompnt-iustope instap
I-but 20. alas il cannot Gel Desrss,
for one hour last night. did Isii Il IL
window just oyer the steps. hopinr ose,
you, but you did nol come NV GOD
lust for one hourlwiih thee i would civ,
lup lie itself. You ask me ii DR.. an,
Mrs. are kind 10 mel Dr.. -
Isl so incensed agains. me. thai he will no
teven seq me-. He telieyes / wrote ,b,
letters. He says they are 90 filed will
love and idolasry. thai he never behaved
before. women could love with such ID
tensiiy. They are indee awful letters
every word breathing The deepest, fondes
love. Mrs. c. has been Ike an an
gel TO me. She believes me innocent
pure oad heavenly. She feels for me
nnre than ! dared hope any one would
feel for me. She sleeps with me sootbe,
me, prsys for me. when ] am Ia such d.
gony that am.almost q maniac. Some.
times l have suffered so, that in order Il
allay my miseries. | have taken 40 drops
OF lsudanum. Every day since that "a.
tai Thursday. ! have taken opium every
tiye hours for without il, should have
died. No mortal could endure agonie.
like mine. Oh God !swhen Think on
my future fate. ] am beside myseIf-go.
ing TO q house where I shall meet with
nothing save harshness--ro being 10 speal
one word Of comfort-one word Of kind.
ness all cold. chilling 10 me-perhap.
on bedsof Illness. death mo creature Il
smooth my dying piliow.s Oh God! God
God the thought kills me; alas wha,
may be realiiyI Dearest. never forget
never forget-s,cear 10 me you never will
your promise that my last moments shall
be spent with you. You shall Sc sent fol
That Ipromise and oh. tell me you
will not refuse 10 come-7romise me ;
nay, swear il, then i will be happy know
ing the last breath WILDE in ihg s.ms. |
expect nothing from my family but Nm
kindness; and now I wish YOU 10 advise
me on this subject. Dear one, you are
my all. and on you l depend for every
thing ] hasetold yos that khaRa means
sufficient to support myself for year;
should my treatment al home7be such as
] feafit will be, what would you advise me
10 do? II they treat me cruelty, you GER
lainly would not wish me to endure it,
/ have 4 very dear friend 10 Washing
ton. Mrs. He woman Of the very
irst1amily and standing. She isso devo-
ted TO me. that she will refuse me noih-
ing. She loves me. she says, as her child
Shall spPly 10 her 10 get me situation
as teachef in some school. or any other
emPloymsnl she. might see fts | can
write 70 her. and 60 10 her. unknown TO
my famhy-for perhaps IL they knew il,
they would not let me 90. Will not this
be i good arrangemen,l have such
confidence 10 her devotion 10 me, thar
know she will not refuse me any favor,
however great---indeed know she would
insist on my remsining with her; but that
! would agree 10 only on one condition.
that she allows me 10 earn my own sup
port. Did you know how she loves me
you would be surethstI would meet from
her unbounded kindness. Now, dearest,
know how coldly. how unkindly / am
to be treated Al home. They win treat
me 80 as to break my heart, and oh! Il
cannot endure more than am now suffer-
ingi 10 your letterto-night, tell me how
shall act 10 this affair, for will do moth.
ing without your advice. Oh, NV very
heart bleeds. when think Of The trials
before me Oh you 60 pity me! Think
Of me TO- morrow. when my fate is 10 be
decided; and oh pray God 10 have mercy
on me! Dear one. trust you will send
me the ring. tor now ! need every kind
ness from yousto strengthen and support
me and Oh that ling viii be such so-
lace. For the sake Of mercy refuse il
not, All ny friends believing me 10 be
". pot having heard Of my distress, have
been 70 see me, but my mindis ID such |
Dtaie. have seen 40 one. fEvery<hour
receive some message from sonae oi |
hen. !. W. basbesn here every day,
'nt can see no one. | Am jn too. much
lgony; and Col. NJ forbids me mem
ioning The subject 10 creature and
iearsst. do you not think. in justice 10
nyself. ! should have told my Intends or |
his-fot HhenvI an gone. they win hear
1okl MIS- statement. He viii tell
rery one He will be believed. and /
hall Dol be here 10 defend myself. II
Ave longed to tell my friends ofkaR. but
an. not allowed to do so. They will
lssr .ny aeeosers when Ham gone. and !
hall not be here to say 4 an inn6csnf.
)h how unjusl they are 10 me-! In hose
eitsrs thereis not word said ofopr meet
ng once 10 the psrIpr. Dearest, once
more. promise me nerer 10 speak 10 P. R
Col Mr. told Dr-. c. that
:. R told aim ofihings which occur.
ed 5etgesn 20. ssyiog be bad them from
'oyden. Who VAS ''olH lrisnd.r P. r
- spoke Of you RILEY. 70 Col Mr.
pying you were only : 80 assosiqis for
sens also told him OF certain woman
shom you had = bot my God 1
u ssk Il. sh1n him. Ior be . ibef6iner
I - psscelA - ruei. could yoo sptst 90
i'm DsslesI. Ekno = ! shall le,fs here
iIhfF moiroEor Wedas,5sy. ~ home.