The New York herald. [volume] (New York [N.Y.]) 1840-1920, 1846-10-18

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love, adoring, idolarous love for thee Oh dearest
when think they have made you despise me- good God.
whittier shall 90 am alone, unprotected, all desert
me. He whom Iworshipped as my idol, my angel he
has forsaken there left Dear one, you
have made me love life-you have made me cling to
existence and now that yon forsake me, FAREWELL yes.
farewell dread not death, hesitate not TO end this
wreiched existence by my own hands God will have
mercy on my SOUL for he will forgive me for taking
life can no longer endure.
Dear beloved one, have nsught now to live for and
am so miserable that have lost my very By
enough to cause DEATH Only think how happy I am to
know, just in one draught can still the throbbings Of
Then dearest farewell yes, forever. Ere one hour
perhaps you may hear that she who loved you ondy
Is now no more Pray for me, dearest-pray God to
have mercy on my soul-for must die. o, God give
me strength to drink it. Forgive mo- dearest oh, for
give me- dearest OH forgive for the sake OF heaven
love you, love you, till reason has left me. My God
perhaps this is the last word shall write. Good
God | am deranged-actually deranged My pen falls
from my hand. oh. God. what wretchedness!
Continuation of Same)
.tH WEDNESDAY EVENING
My God beloved, could you know what were my
feelings few hours since, you would believe, what
have often told you, that shall die a maniac. can
scarcely realise that am living, for so near
death Why, why was it that hesitaed to drink that
why it hss feared to die The
cling to life Deprived of that love, death has moi
one sting have suffered SO intensely today that
headache have slept for several hours, and this in
some degree Gained the excitement of feeling Last
o Ss he TINS Of bodily
mind. When these attacks of perfect agony
come over me, ! really believe, for the time
be left alone. tremble lest from the desperation of
sorrow, may in moment of rashness put end to my
my fate in this world Oh dearest if you could look
in this heart and see how wretched, how perfectly
m & does
ted as mine You know beloved one all my trials and
you do not blame me for being wretchedfor oh, God
have no hope, save the hope OF DEATH Dearest pray
you forgive me for having thought for moment that
you had ceased to love me On yesterday thought you
were cold towards me but perhaps; because was suf
ing So Forgive me, for was so happy that have onged
in that hour Of sorrow, for every proof Of affection
my sinking heart, and knew your dear voice alone
could revive in my soul the springs of life But dar.
ling remember did not blame you; you were given to
blame you for ceasng to love SO unworthy object
But oh darling one believe this of me This life shall
prove to you am worthy Of thee. Dear love- only see
how adore thee every action Of this life shall con.
vince you Of the truth of the devotion the purity Of
You mpore YOU to love- me lis NM me s en're 81.
my very breath oh to know that you love me
to hear il from thy sweet lips to SEQ it in those
dear eyesthose eyes more eloquent than words This
this my happiness, and what trouble what suffering
would be too high price for thy love oh dearest
long you love for nothing clse-oh darling
can you desert who loves you do? Dearest
when dwell on the deep exalted feelings of this heart
which 40 language can express cannot merely say,
love you: no something than love more even
than idolary s feeling canno. describe; but lis
sort of worship Of intense doatry, which exceeds the
know how love you, then you would know was wor-
thy Of you Mine angel, love you to that degree Of
alteration that my life isin your hands-wth you rests
alas death is MISUNDERSTANDING these words and
pause ere you decide my fate Dearest angel Ills this
fear which makes me miserable-it almost kills me-apa
darling, you cannot blame for feeling thus when GU
recolect that yuv are my all In this world and the
only being love- 1t is but natural should cling to YOU
fondUosg an itv narli I
cradle when away from you that hours actually seem
days, and since yesterday appears eternity to-
ing the heavenly words. that you still love me- Oh
when shall meet you For heaven sake let II be instant
itself left No. 10 unfortunate moment fear
for observed several persons in the opposite
whose faces could not distinguish from my veil also .
servant in the Rotunda Now am afraid they will speak
Of it, for of course they had the door tried anJ
then my coming cut looked suspicious wished |
had remained a few minutes longer; tn en- i might
and ascertain If anything has been said by the SER
wants. for It's them fear. only hope you did no
gave rise to remarks However trust these are only
my fearsbut should you find that anything has beer
strange the door should have been tried twice and
should like you to find out the person nqusitive.
almost afraid to 80 to A. for there apt to NEE
arrangement but beg Jou will use all find
out if anything has been said as feel very anxious
know cannot but regret left at the time did, how
You can find OUT surely on dearest, if do not soon
see you, know not what will become of me. Again
darling beseech you, let it be the first moment it il
possible for loving you do absence insupportable
From the ots Of rest and opium together head aches
love- won't you kiss your poor poor Virginia and say
you still love her7
Continuation Of sams)
Alas dearest this morning am 50 sad cannot write
Icannot account forlhese fits of deepest melancholy
which almost drive mad, but Ills my fate and cannot
more ihsn can tell yon only hope and pray God
your dear note may balm and soothe - did moi
Yesterday a he expected he wss By
| to him. ], with my own hands, supplied every
want, tanning, and watching him, while he slep,
Every thing that affection kindness could die
tate, done by me with tenderness, and if | wa
| so vile he represents me, must not my heart b.
pure when il thus returns good for evil OH dearest
could you be with every moment, all my action
OF kindness and tendenessto those who show naugh
but unkindness, then dearest know you would love
long sweet one, for you to know AMI want yo'
to read every feeling of this pure bosom, and then
writing, for 6nd those feelings coming back upon me
which almost made me seek DEATH yesterday. Oh the,
are so terrible, so fearful am shuddcr ing from them
resist them7 What, If in one Of those moments, shout
destroy myself-oh, that again could be alone
for tremble for the consequence Dearest, you know
not how awful these feelings The only thing that
relves me is to write to you dearest fyou cannot
this week shall put letter in the Office for you
you know not what comfort IL is Oh mine own one
darling angel, am SO miserable, SO wretched, that
koow ii shall live TO you again this earth
it that cannot support this life of anguish
must die. oh. perhaps, heaven may have mercy on me
Dear, dear love, why will You not wrest me from all
these suferpgs, and make me happy, happy But dar
ling, forgive mel, know what ask God grant youl
precious words may chase sorrow from the heart o.
your VIRGINIA.
The 9th letter. written by Mrs Myers, dated Aston
House, New York, Monday night, o'clock; and ad
character in some respects, was Of such delicate ma
ture' that the Commonwealth Attorney objected TO
being published In II the lady deeply regretted her alb
scnce from Hoyt; declared her only earthly desire
to see HIM referred disparagngy TO her husband and
protested the most undying attachment for IL calling
him her angel, her darling love- her all She also
fers in il TO her ill health, and mentions unpleasant
visit from DR.. Gray, in professional way denounce,
quacks and their nossrums and winds up with an ear
nest desire to impress fervent kiss on Boyts lips
When the ninth letter was concluded, the Common
wealths Attorney observed that he shou like TO read
letter which he expected was In the possession Of Mr.
Perview, who at that time out OF Court but pre-
sumed he would return in few moments. He remark
ed that he had become Disguised with them and whe,
I