Martinsburg gazette. [volume] (Martinsburg, Va. [W. Va.]) 1833-1855, 1846-11-26

such as these. hurried me along with fatal pre-
cpiiauon. A nature like my own. capable of
the deepest feelings. and trembling lest such
scenes be unappreciated BY the object on which
il has been lavished, is often exhibited IN my
correspondence with him. Every doubt, eve
~ fear, was answered by assurances undylng
devotion and answering faith Such vows
fed and nourished my fatal attachment, until
became reckless 10 public censure, and prepa-
red 10 encounter it for his sake. After the in
Perception Of my letters By Col MYERS, ! con
sidered my association with Mr.. HoYT forever
ended ! was closely watched. and had no
means Of communication with hun. A day
or two after this event, Mr.. How sent me a
package BY his servant, with message 70 the
effect that he would have written TO me, but
knowing my situation, he feared an intercept
ton OF his note. lie besought me to write 10
him BY the messenger. On Monday receiv-
ed leuerfrom him. saying be had been under
my window for two nights hoping TO see me.
He enclosed me a card, and wrote me he
would be at DIR. IS, (where was stay
ing. at particular hour that night, when
must have a letter in readiness for him, which
was TO be attached To the cord and lowered
from the window, and he, in Ike manner,
would transmit to me a communication from
situation of my room, |, in acceding 70 his sug
gested plan, appointed him window in front,
where could receive the proffered commune
cation, and return to him the package | should
prepare for him. In one Of these letters he
promised TO continue his correspondence with
me, after my departure from Richmond, proyl-
ded il could be arranged with safety, SAYING il
would be his only solace in absence. Hethen
requested me most unfortunately TO destroy
every line he had ever written me, knowing |
had numberleSs letters OF his 10 my possession.
This promised unhesItatingIy, and perform
ed without one dstrusttul thought,--and thus
| robbed myself of evidence which might have
palliated my error, since my own letters, sa-
cred as | deemed them, have been committed
10 the press for the gaze and taunt OF the UNI
feeling multitude Docs it harmonic with
justice, thus to deliver up to public print one
portion OF a correspondence, while the other
part, which induced it, is shrouded forever
from publicity. To my judgment It's an act
of injustice, from which. | should imagine,
every humane heart would revolt with abhor-
renee. Having unfortunately, deprived my
self Of every line which prompted such pas
sionate expressions Of affection, am unable
to contrast with mine, those professions OF
equal warmth and equal feryor which was
accustomed 10 receive, and which might have
excused the tone of my replies. The letter in
tercepted, and most fortunately preserved by
my father. is the only one from MIR. Hoyr
which appears i'll comparison with my oWn,-
though from il one can easily gather was not
the only actor in this correspondence, nor the
only source from which emanated professions
of devotion and epithets Of endearment. |
wrote in the very sanctuary OF confidence, ne
yer dreaming that another eye should behold
those evidences Of my feelings, but the one for
whom such vows were registered. And yet.
in the very secret and shadow OF such conf
dental intercourse mark how often appeal TO
him Tor my purity, my gullelessness; Your
pune and spotless "" ~ on know the
purity Of this heart; you know no, one impure
thought has ever dwelt there :" SIN the pres
ence of Heaven itself, | would swear, that this
bosom is as free from guile, free from impuri-
~ as an angels Rather than lose that purl-
ty, that delicacy which ! know IS the Jewel OF
nv character, / would far rather lose life II
self" ''Every thought of this heart is as
pure, as spiritual as Heaven ITSELF" Although
tie world may accuse us, yet IN our own
hearts we have the consciousness Of inno-
cence. and that will sustain US" Is it reason
able that such expressions as these would have
found their way INTO such confidential com
muncatious, if one stain Of guilt, one spot of
pollution had marred my Intercourse with
him? Is il reasonable | should have thus
pointed to my purity, unless had been spot
less. unbemishedl Oh! MOI mol
A letter addressed to my husband has also
been exhibited calculated TO represent me as ac-
ting with duplicity. There are circumstances
in eYtenuatlon ofthis. On the day after Mr..
Ms departure to the North, MIR. HON asked
me when should write to my husband-on
nv replying 1.-The following day." he said,
''rememher, it Is important that your letter
should be couched in the most atiecuonate
terms" remarked, II thought such advice
from him singular and ineXphcable." Here
nlied, "you have always been in the habit OF
writing him allectonately, and were your let
ters now characterized by GOODNESS, his susrI-
ciops might be excited as 10 the cause. y
when penned those words 10 my husband
really felt inst as ! wrote for when was with
him or IN correspondence with him, my con
science reproached me for the wrong | was
doing him, and at such moments ! felt kindly
and ienderly towards him.
There is one point, in this fatal correspon-
d-nce, which wish to rectlfy in your eyes.
and that is the enlargement OF my sisters
names in some Of the letters. They wereboth
unsuspicious Of the nature OF my ASSOCIATION
with Mir. Hoyr; l.. was entirely unaware Of
the nature of my correspondence with hun,
and my elder sister ignorant even ofthe fact of
my acquaintance with him, beyond the mere
casual, speaking mountaineering OF formal
fashionable intercourse.
Thus my dear friend, have given YOU all
the particulars Of an association which has en-
ded so fatally for one of its actors--so unhsp-
ply. so unfortunately for the other; for am
now mourning over the RUNS o. my domestic
peace, which my own hand assisted TO demoI-
ish. Yet even il this hour ofgloom and dark.
ness. while the storm RACES around me, and
even the voice OF pity is hushed by the tulnul-
tuous tempest of public repro5auoa, lind my
serene amidst the pillows; for that
whispers increasingly 70 my agoni-
zed heart. that oil crime, CT guilt am as sun
less as a Seraph before the throne OF God sand
in that great DAY of Retribntion, when all Sc
and secret feelings shall beuncov
cred. my purity shall be read in bright eharae-
ters by those who now condemn me, Crush 4
ed and overwhelmed as | am, the world feels
authorized 10 huri the most cruel accusations
against me; but God is my refuge from mans
and live in the abiding hope that
the hour will come when shall be regarded
as deeply injured and greatly 'rronged wo- /
man.
have been keenly affected by the recent