Herald of the times. [volume] (Newport, R.I.) 1830-1846, 1845-02-20

Esther ss thing that mnst at some time
take place az inevitably as her own
death.
Another vacation came round, and
az ain Clement was at home still deli
cate in health, but apparently not worse
than before. And So he came and went
ihree or four times and now he was at
home for the last vacation that should
occur before his necessary college
course would be completed. Then his
mother, in the fulness Of her heart,
spoke TO him Of all her hopes aud wishes,
aud was both surprised and disappointed d
a, the quiet manner in which he listened
10 her.
"Indesd, mother" said he calmly, ~
have no thoughts Of marrying and ]
have oever looked upon Esther except
as friend and sister l hope you have
30, spoken to her On this subject"
"My darling Clement my dear son
do you suppose for one moment | would
sci 81 improperly But can you not see
yourself tha; she loves you Do you
think that her int nse anxiety, her ear
neat wishes for your welfare, could ever
proceed from any other cause 7"
1t never struck me before ia that
light, dear mother. Ii il be really as
yoo ssy-but i! would be absurd IN me-
TO speak 10 her about it at the present,
II. ! intend TO read for fellowship"
Now poor Mrs. Granger scarcely
knew what fellowship meant, except
that il was post of some honnr and dig
niiy. She was quite unaware lha, the
course Of study necessary 10 obtain one
10 almost murderous, as aiso that il ex-
cIujes from marriage during The time
that il is held. So she simply replied
shat she hoped, as soon as he got the
fellow ship, he would have time to think
about what she had said and the matter
ended for the present.
Clement was awakened by Mrs
Grainger's hint, to observe the various
symptoms OF affection which poor Esther
unwitingly manifested towards him. -
Genle and kind in all his feelings, to
love him was the surest way Of obtaining
his love and before he left home again,
be was the afiianced husband OF Esther
Gorbet But he told her OF the anbi-
don that was in his heart He might
At once have been ordained to smaIl
h,iog, which, small as /, vas, would
have been wealth 70 them.
but l must win this fellowship, Es-
.her," he SAID 81 cannot bear 10 stand
oo the ladder without reaching the top,
even though | should descend agar at
Il 4
worldly for your sake eau, probably,
on giving up my fellowship, obtain II bet
ter living than that which offers now
Study, siudy, study; little rest even
during the brief time he allotted to him
sell Tor sleep; hasty meals, to which he
brought no appetite perpetual bending
over books continual struggle to bear
up against the insidious approaches OF
creeping illness such is an epitome of
The next few months Of Clement Grain.
gers lie. Very anxious were those
two heuris who loved him best on earth,
though they strove TO cheer each other
with words oi hope and comfort, and
were less unhappy than they would have
bren had they known the ruinous extern,
oi his cxeriions. Their chief distress
was The unfrequency and breviiy of his
letters. 81 nm well, but very busy,"l
~ns the substance OF them all and III
would have added to Esiher's grief
could she have known that her long, al
lrciloDaIe letters were now merely glanc-
ed over, and then laid aside for the leisure
hour that never came.
The tune Of trial arrived at last
There were only three candidates for the
vacant fellowship who appeared to have
any chance of obtaining il, and Of these
Clement was one. He slept not on the
previous night, and ere he left his cham
bcr, he flung himself on his knees, and /
prayed, long und pnssinnalely, that the
triumph might be his. Something fortl.
fled with the internal courage inspired
by thus act of devotion, he entered the
examination hall.
IL WAS over and Clement Granger
returned to his chamber an altered man
a hundred years seemed 10 have passed |
over his head in few hours The proud
dreams of his youth had dispersed into
empty air his priyations, his prayers,
his labors, had been all for nought II
another won the prize. Blu, he walked
With quiet step aud calm deme amor /; he
wen replied TRANQUILITY to the greetings
,f some, who, knowing the tremendous
forts he had made TO succeed, sincere
Y pitled him for his failure lie closed
he door Of his apartment wrote n few
ines TO Esther, simply stating his defeat,
md that few days would find hin, al
'ome again; aud then he bowed down
rs head, and gave himself up to such an
gony Of anguish as can only be felt by
ne whose whole hope has been rsked
~ one unsuccessful cast Burning tears
orced themselves from his eyes heavy
obs lubored from his heart his whole
rnme seemed wrthirg in convulsive
'dure. He grew calmer. He remem-
rrcd that, by this behaviour, he was
howing terrible want Of submission TO
he will Of Providence. lie tried TO
ally his mind, to think it possible that
one future success might ye, be his
'u' no his mind actually seemed to fall
a"A from the very idea Of such a bill Of
iiiiculiy rs be had lately climbed and
neriy weak aud exhausted, he sunk