The New York herald. [volume] (New York [N.Y.]) 1840-1920, 1845-09-10

SINGULAR AFFATR.-THE RECENT SUICIDE IN
PHILADELPHIA.-On Sunday morning last, we
ceived through the Post office, the following singu-
lar letter. which we then laid aside, thinking it had
been written by some who had little else to do
but TO scrlbbe. But the recent suicide In Phiadel-
phia has induced us to give it publicity.
j @. BENNETT, ESQ. =
When you receive this letter. there will be less Of
the unhappy in this world-one sinner in eternity
You should not be surprised quit this world
aye, this world which ! so dearly loved
| hope my corpse will not be found-I wish it may
not. Should il be found l. too we'll know what would
be done-as with every else-"the coroner's in.
quest" Suicide Oh indeed, it is horrid sound the
impossible now Suicide, yes-"insanity" many would
say-insanity wish it was-I wish could but for a
moment be insane would not know that was about
committing one OF the greatest crimes that have
much abhorred-hat have dreaded--that despised.
But it is my fate If was "insane" would not fear
this pistol now before would not pray to God in
thu moment would not have prayed all last night to
forgive me-to pardon my last my greatest sin-a sin for
which cannot repent afterwards. must repent before
do i'll must repent OF the sin, and still must do
| If was insane" ! would not that the 'whole
world" should look at me after had snatched life out of
my body. But have seen many an unhappy creature
have heard many remark. "Insane"-yes those
that have sorrows, cannot think OF other persons.
would be happy If was insane. But / am mott can
not be.
have destroyed every letter every paper that could
show the Of this Trash act" would call 1t.
But will here state all tina. caused my misfortune.
am in debt owe sum Of money. which believe
Will never be able to disposed Of other persons
money TO speculate my account-al was lost was
not ambitious-oh, Almighty God we'll knows that
have been ambitious. have relations-poor
atioDsand the most dear to me. My salary was scarce
ly enough for my necessary expenses. could not
help them. When saw that money lost-when
found that was compelled to pay il back to its
and that they were not rich, | then called some
frends-yes, friends rich folks be friends
| to poor creatures-it is disgrace for them
called those rich friends. but in vain told them
the truth begged favor from them implored-sll
| in vain. Oh have been so degraded-l have even
offered to be the slave OF a rich man If he would
me in a state. But the rich man scorned me-he
laughed and said: You want money to throw away Y
| No more, no more-T almost tempted 10 write their
names But, no this is sufhciens-if their eyes fall
upon 1t, they will know their own words--they will
| know where they come from.
have, in despair asked every Of my friends ia
help with money; but those that could would
not, and those that would, could not. do not doubt
that many Of them-of those friends-wben they come
TO know that :" ] am MORE" will say, poor fellow
IL thought he really needed it, would have given to
him. But they generally think that what they dom
need, no one else can pardon them ell know II u
not their aut- 10 my fate" and il cannot be other
wise. ! wish it could wish knew there was one
person in this world that would willingly prevent h'
deed. Many will say, "a young msn-orly five anc
twenty-whst could induce him to do this nj so early
period Of his life ~ young that has not had one
day OF happinen. young man that loves an angel
yes an angel she IS and has hopes Of ever making
her happy. young that has neither father moi
inothcr but has three dear sisters that love him most
aiecuonaely, but they do know how unhappy no
rs, young man that mas been despised, insult
go, degraded, and scorned. young man tina
could not look at his friends n the face withou
siasSing Tor having asked them favor .whiot