American Republican and Baltimore daily clipper. [volume] (Baltimore, Md.) 1844-1846, 1845-01-13


Something, whcrcunto may bind my heart,
Something to love, TO rest upon, 10 clasp
Affections tcndris round.''
Come, hlther, Eloise, and as the setting sun
sheds its last faint rays o'or this fair world, and
evening zephyrs bring with them the incense oil
dying flowers, now in this hour of Sabbath feel
ing, will tell thee, the story of my life. Yet
my sweet coz, thou hast vainly dreamed that
the sad bearing of the pale Student concealed
anght which might feed the romance of thy
young Imagination, and | fear to disappoint
thee when tell the part, which | for SO short a
time have played in the great drama of life, lay
not amid the busy scenes of this world. The
heart was my world; in it alone have | lived,
and the history thou wouldst hear is but re-
cord of morbid and improbable feeling. Still
1t may be a warning to thee, sweet COZ, for
have noted the too changing color Of thy
cheek, the excitablity of thy warm tempera-
ment, and have feared lest the error which
hath embittered my existence should shed its
Upas influence DER thine own, that thou
shouldst forget that to live in accordance with
divine design, we must act vigorously, earnest
y, outwardly.
Thou remcmbcrest, Eloise, that was left an
orphan at an early age. To me were never
known the social influences that cast their hal
lowed charm around the susceptible years of
eneffable sweetness of mothers smile. I'm
INJURED in the precincts of College, a delicate
constitution prevented my participation in the
boistcrous amusements ofmy more robust COM
panons. Thus driven to books for solace,
gradually became an unnoticed bark-worm.-
Chilled grew the yeaIning for sympathy which
filed my whole being, and the peculiarly warm
and sensitive feelings which properly directed,
had gushed in an ever fresh fountain of love to
humanity, became warped and selfish. Ambi-
ton became my secret deity--thro' the mighty
powers of intellect in which felt sort Of des-
pairing confidence, | would win fame that
should make me the invisible companion ofthe
"high ones and the beautiful Intense devo-
ton to study undermined my bodily health but
as felt it fail, still stronger grew the thirst
within.
At the University, | stood prominent, but
with naughty silence, received all honors, for
unconscously to myself was yea. CIV
'oo'e, anu "0'' MIC" mat tho admiration re-
ceived was unhallowed by one human BEINGS
affection,
Time passed OH, and the period arrived for
my travels abroad. The Student paused-a
Transient nush lit up his omaciated counten-
ance End he leaned towards the open easement.
:, 18th lower tone he continued-"Trivial are
the outward circumstances which awaken the
master passions of mans heart-still, well do
remember the first awakening of my heart from
its sepulchre in the depths of cold philosophy
to a life of love. | had wandered as was my
wont along a solitary walk. Spring sunlight
fell around-but my soul sprung not to its
brightness; birds warbled their melody but
awoke no responsive chord within my heart
How suddenly the scene changed, where all
was few moments before dark, glowed now
the light of strange happiness. Fear not,
Eloise, that am about to repeat the hackney
cd eulogy of every lover-what most loved in
Alice d. was the earnestness of her truthful
character Suffice il to say, that ere left Eug-
land for the first time | revelled in the con-
seriousness that was lovcd-and, oh, how ex-
ceedingiy beautiful seemed Alice, when her fra
gile form trcmbled and her eye kindled, with
the excitement of her ardent spirit, as she strove
to draw away the errors which had blinded my
mental vision-to awaken a truer life within
me, and from the loveness of the created to
raise me to the Creator.
We parted had broken the chrysals--and
with purcr aims | greeted the future of my
hopes.
Time passed on-oncc more | trod my ma
tive shores-again | visited my old, familiar
haunts-but the bride Of my heart welcomed
me not. Too spirit-like for earth-Alce had
, burst the feeble bonds which bound her to it
and Though | had never dreamed that she
could die" with strange calmness heard,
that she was no more. There are some human
beings whose mission TO earth seems clearly de-
fined-it is shadowed forth in every deed
these are they who hallow humanity; for short
time they remain among their fellow beings,
silently teaching patience and endurance under
those trials which too often fret the existence
of man-how beautifully these contrast with
those stronger spirits to whose very life storms
are accessory, and who develope themselves
amidst the whrlwinds passion.
Eark, to the soft airge Of the Autumn Wind