Herald of the times. [volume] (Newport, R.I.) 1830-1846, 1844-07-04

..ty are apt TO regard the young and
eauiiful. was q child, vain aud giddy;
sld his batteries were all received IA
aoi acknowledged my rorih and beauty.
yerhy believed that | was all he leign-
1, and that he felt all that he proiessed
vas grateful for his love, dazzled by
wealth, and proud Of my brilliant con-
lcst--for does not conquest argue
.Iwer-and so | accepted him IA my
usbuTh, verify believing that in so
.oing had conferred an infinite obliga.
lon, aud added gratitude to the ardent
worship which he already rendered to
ny grace aud beauty. Well, | became
a wife without the first insight INTO
wlle's duty. head the solemn lnlunc-
,,ons, "love, honor and obey" but
deemed them mere form, which, though
perhaps used IN earnest in olden time,
was now, IN sense, perfectly obsolete. -
! promised without the expectation Of
ever being called on TO perform, for was
! not empress OF my husbands heart,
fortune, and destiny H. had often as
sured me that was, aud my power alb
snlute. How theo did my heart revolt,
aud my spirit rebel, when he first assnm.
cd husbands authority We quar-
tclied violently. accused him of hav.
ing deceived me, of hearllessness, Of
tyranny, and he retorled bitterly. The
repetition OF such scenes has rendered uI
hateful to each other, and indifference l.
tive nenresI approach to harmony, which
we can now hope for. At first | found
relief ia the novelty Of the amuscmens
which my wealth and station furnished
inc with, aud IN the admiration and envy
with which ! was regarded. But this
novelty wore away--and now, IN my
weariuess, ! envy her who tolls all day
for bread, for she lies down to sleep with
a blessed consciousness of being useful
in the world, and Of having done her
duty while | live without enjoyment,
and merely to sqnander money winch the
children Of misfortune are plning To death
for want Of. My death would be no loss
10 society, would remove tax from the
worlds wealth, aud not one solitary crea-
turc would lament my loss"
"You. distress yourself unnecessarily,
my dear Mrs Lawson. You have II in
your power To dispense much OF blessed
ness to the needy and the unfortunate
SAID Mrs. May, persuaslvely.
"a do give n great deal to charitable
societies, but | have no pleasure IN II.
And 10 dive into The dens OF vice and
misery, seeking to rescue poor ~retches
who would probably return TO their old
habits as soon IA | let 90 their hands, is
not al all To my taste. No, ] can do no
good, | can ENJOY no happiness ] wish
! was annihllated," aud She again burst
into passion oiweeplng.
Mrs Nav and Isabel took their leave,
and at the distance Of q few PAGES turned
INTO an alley, and soon entered a small
house. Here was seated very plainly
drcsl woman, busily sewing, amid
group of bareloo,rd children, all engaged
At work. The two eldest, both girls,
were sewing seams which she had basted,
aud Mile boy sat in the foot of the
cradle, plying rattle and whistle in un-
avaling attempts TO quiet the peevish
baby. When the ladies' entered, he laid
aside his playih'ngs, saying, sorrowlully,
"Now, mamma, you must take little
Charley, and 50 the work will not be
done, and we shall get no -"
A significant shake Of the mothers
head suppressed the remainder of the
sentence, and she conver-cd with Mrs.
May in polite and intelligent manner
That lady, al lelgth, remarked that she
must take leave, rs she was preventing
Mrs. Monlesque from finishing her work
"Ah, that ~ the fault OF my guileIess
little boy," she replied. cheer'uiIy "but
! had promised him some cakes, If he
kept Charley qulet,so that we could finish
eur sewing The case is not one oi
necessity, thank God. So | entreat
tha, you will not be in haste to 90. We \
lead weary lite, aud II - a rellei'to be \
permnted to suspend our labors, and con .
verse an hour with friend. declare
] am somelimes tired of my life. Mr.. /
Nlontcsgue is dear kind soul, we love
each other entirely, and could be so very
happy If we had a competency of this
worlds goods. But here we toll from
morn i,lI night, all the week and bless
the Sabbath only as It is a day Of rest
for our wcaried bodies and with all our
care aud labor, and lhe sirlctest economy,
we can hardly clohc aud feed our chII-
dren aud meet other necessary expenses.
There is lille comfort IN such a life. -
We can afford ourselves no indulgence
IN the way Of recreation, we can hardly
afford 10 read an hour IN n week, aud
our conversation ~ always Of how we
shall manage TO get along aud meet
necessary expenses. My husband looks
sadly upon my still youthlaI person, from
which beauty and grace are fast vanish
ing away and lamenis that my mind is.
iettered aud enslaved by weary care
And ! sometimes think that the very
affection which we feel for each other,
nc-ls to the bitterness OF oUr lot, by in /
cics>ing the regret which each feels for
the ahliclion Of the other. People talk !
Of Glove ~ cottage" bat ] have learn
cd Nv experience that there is little hap
pincss in love, when it is attended by
poverty. Constant toll and care, wear
out the body aud depress the mind neg
lect freezes the tender svmpatbIes, and