American Republican and Baltimore daily clipper. [volume] (Baltimore, Md.) 1844-1846, 1844-11-16

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softness of this address, so different from the
stately, cold and almost onnihilating contemp-
tuousness from which had suffered so much,
| made no reply, but unmindful of all around
me, | burst into tears. The window opened to
the ground, and he led me into the garden, and
tried to soothe and quiet me-
When he had succeeded told him | had
been listener TO his conversation, the tenor of
which had excited my hopes; and that though
my weakness was extreme dependence upon
those around me, thought that if some kind
and sympathising friend would aid me in my
first efforts, might yet wake to the conscious
worth of my existence, acknowledge the lone
illness and desolateness of my heart, which had
never yet found sympathy, and could not be
satisfied without-that to possess one valued
friend who would be to me all wished, would
willingly forfeit the advantages which fate had
showered upon me only to make my real mise
ny more conspicuous and profound.
Upon this he poured forth the most devoted
expressions of interest and regard, which chang
ed into hopeful anticipatons of future happ-
ness, the discomfort and repning that had long
saddened my soul. lie also explained the cause
of the long indifference that had tortured me
into real humility of feeling. Elevated to a
pinnacle he feared my tottering strength might
fail me entirely upon listening to theadulaton
of the designing and the sycophantic, and he
would not Join the crowd to add only to the
number of such. He saw, too, the Indifference
with which | smiled on all alike, and the list
lessness with which | regarded every thing,
and thought to excite i'll me concern for the
opinion of one dsinterested friend ere he APP
preached me as such.
"Accuse me not of presumption" he con-
tinued, elf | own confidence in the success of
my stratagem and forgive the pain may have
caused youwhile calculating upon my careful
avoidance of it in future. Your mind has been
aroused to serious thoughts of life. Accept
me as guide in developing the mysteries of
your being, and thereby fitting you for the part
you were destined to perform IN life"
The warmth of my gratitude, most enthusi
astically expressed, induced still stronger avow-
ais on his part, and at last ended in the most
ever came from mortal lips.
Need | own that was supremely happy for
the first time? A weight was removed from
my soul. | saw before me bright future
Led on by the guiding hand of love, might
yet soar to the attainment of my imagined
bliss, prove ministering angel to pure and
lofty being, and taste the joys of home in a
paradise of my hearts own choosing. Domes-
tic happiness had ever been the dream of my
fondest cherishing; and now all was to be real
lied; and despair was to give place to the
height of mortal felicity. Oh, the intoxicating
delight Of that one hour of heartfelt commu-
Mon. 1t was the awakening of the soul from
the long and fearful entertainments of mystified
nature to the simple and truthful realities of
life, for a tie was now formed that knit me in
the closest sympathy with my kind.
| returned to the jewellers changed being,
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all the conscious Joy of my own bosom. Many
were the looks of surprise turned upon me, for
never had the power of my mind nor the ardor
of my feelings been manifest before. | succeed
ed we'll in making all participate in my de-
light.
1t was the lastztim that such an assemblage
was to be gathered round me, in my own home
for | had promised Tracey that henceforward
would confne myself to more rational pur-
suits. But love had aroused vanity, and
wished to show him the full extent of the fas-
cinating powers that were hereafter to be de-
voted to his happiness alone.
CHAPTER II.
The jewellers had departed. The lights were
all extinguished with the exception of the soli-
tary one that still burned in my chamber
Nine alone was the bliss too wild for repose.-
Love, boundless, passionate, all-absorbing love,
had been won from the noble, the gifted and
the true, and no doubt or fear marred the hap
piness of its possessor. The clouds, the mist,
that had hitherto surrounded me, the wand of
the enchanter had dispersed; and clear and bril-
liant was the sunshine that threw its beams
upon the future.
Grateful for the present. and determining to
make every effort towards the attainment of
that perfection which alone could fit me for
60 Lo;, I
was soon TO be allied to-what had to fear?-
Was not love like mine, a guarantee against
all the ills of fate? Fatigue, excitement, and
its consequent exhaustion, produced, at last,
the slumber would fan have avoided, and the
dreams which visited me harmonized with the
ecstacy of my waking thoughts awoke,
changed in character and feeling, restor-
ed, as it were, TO the freedom of mind and
soul, happy in the pride Of feeling myself
part, however small, of the lovely and the good
that surrounded me in nature
The realities of life were no longer distaste-
full to me. Poetic feelings were unlocked and
poured forth to gladden. and to charm all
things to my mind and Ito my sense. 1t
seemed as if it had will, power, strength mighty
enough to alleviate the woes of all who came
within the sphere ofmy influence. Ofthe Sc
curity of my own happy lot, had not the least
doubt.
When Tracey appeared, at the appointed
hour, on the following morning, he found me
waiting for him in the late banquetting hall,
seated upon the same divan, where his first
words of sympathy had fallen upon my ear
He was astonshed at the change so short
time had made in my appearance. Like Pyg-
malion's statue, had started into life, at the
first touch of genial love; and the glow of ar
dent and enthusiastic hope nantled my whole
being. There wanted but the full exercise of
his matchless eloquence, in the display of the
varied knowledge he possessed, to stretch to
their utmost tension the cords that bound me!