The New York herald., 1844-09-10

tua strength and power OF endurance continued to de-
Three of the four faint turns mentioned occurred
since the beginning oil December sa2 Evening services
and meetings for business became SO wearisome That
partly relin9uished them For year two have com
monty requested the clergy to perform for nearly all
but the episcopal Offices and preaching nor have allow
ed extra duties TO be appointed Tor me nave et also
punctual my appointments which Discrimination never
knew in former days, and which was then trust never
seen or suspected in me BY any person.
In this first portion OF my narrative you have the period
from August 3D. 1925 to May oath is44 At The latter
date came different anguish hitherto unasted Dy me
MAY 25th, ls4t-Late last evening. while was calmly
rejecting, had been for hours on the res ns OF
last Convention just adjourned there were saddehy
communicated to me- by committee Of ten cleIgymen'
certain charges connected directly or indirectly WIN
what s above rected They were prepared WA Ma sa in
cese, after several meetings but without my knowledge
or surmse though seeing their authors daily during he
Convention period. The accusations were brought 70
me, and read without the least suggestion OF any kind
whatever to be ready to receive message containing
such matter. At FIRST, the whole seemed like dream
the work OF some mistaken impulse, arising from exsg.
gerated or distorted one that could NOT
last But before the next morning. the reality forced II
self upon me; appalling reality indeed IT, concerning
aught alleged against heart mssave me me op
for was forced into Ike position Of de-
fendant-now than that was held convicted with
out any opening for deence for whatever the degree IN
which they believed nae in fault and whether were
right they my had acted rrevocaby and cut
off brothery persuasion from either party charges enter
tanned in numerous assemblage being unavoidaby PUB
lie charges, and such the public almost never with
draws from living victim. was judged already That
for the best intentions at the time could not prevent this
result will the future acknowledgment should that
be made by any concerned or over hasy
judgment, reverse it.
We read in our common code, "rebuke not elder.
but entrea him as iather' IS st. fauis command 20
old persons; perhaps the clergy; and none VIII deny
binding on all under his Jurisdiction Our divine Saviour
ordained that before offence was complained Of to
the church. the aggrieved party should expostuate
with the offender supposed offender, and even take
witnessed with him to attest the right administering OF
the exposuaton be objected that the cnnons are
presumed to embody this injunction, or that conscience
only and not csnons must enforce III the procedure re-
fer to not conducted under canon conscience alone
was to govern the case another passage there s
III man be overtaken in fault ye which are spiritual
restore such in the spirit OF meekness consider
ing thysel lest thou also be tempted" this command
ment cannot be merged in canons legal unctionary
s to act without regard to his own liability to temptations
r. ars s = hsSa ANY o Ser cr
accused brethren when the law or canon assigns them
no duty they be not Witnesses or their proper repre-
senaty and having legal Junction. then certainly
they both bound to consider" their own impefecon
and to govern their action in the case by the spirit Of
Such my rights a Christian mine, by the ex.
press njunctons Of the gospel; mine, by the voice Of
Throne though given the keeping Of But alas
the keeping insecure Through want OF caution
brehren vea mW o%n comnanions and familiar friends
did me this dishonor." The whole was spreading among
the public and was beyond their demonstrating they
believed to have done wrong but even were this
true why make of account the privilege held from
our Saviour ami His Apostles Why cut me oil from
mngling my regrets with theirs, if felt that ought to
do SONY tears with their forgiveness. could that be
grantedthe most tender of all facts OF brothery chris
tian communion Why repel me from such love, INTO
the unkind relation OF antagonist Yet SO It was NO
sacred affection seemed to remain but such as magis-
feels when satisfied legal evidence and discharg
ing legal office, ho inicts legal punishment was
condemned unbeard; was condemned irrevocably
moment of becoming sensible Of the deadly blow have
crowdedson my mind both excited and confused by me
sudden reality that opened upon me- cannot be told All
-nffA half -npa1 10.
tceno CONFERENCE.-THE opportunity for explanation, Tor
extenuaiion, for depreciation once, and once
but though the offence beyond sort Of excuse
and committed openly before the public, ans he was
Immediately denounced to bad man, did II not
without expostulatons. have, by expostulaon,
prevented moro than despondng clergy not con
ministry, upon which must have deposed him and
have been afterwards thanked for interposition yet
in these cases was the canoncal magistrate with the
right well the power to act otherwise But for me
there expostulaon; the contrary, daily smiles
met through the Convention season. from those wLo
each day occupied in what must prove the desruc
ton Of my usefulness and of the happiness OF me and
mine not rown not hint Of the gathering storm, not
alarm note Of my impending annihilaton Secretly
to me- that necessarily involvedh were deter
mined on most suddenly was it made known to me by
expostulation. was judged already. All was
wreck.
the wreck were it possible, know not, for my mind
distracted, and my heart desoate-l resolved-no,
that oud imply. ought to imply deliberation
perceived MAY 25h) what had hoped to effect in
due season and in gradual and perhaps safer manner
drink, except the wine at the Holy Conn urion OF which
partook Whitsunday and since Beyond this excep-
tion my reraning from them has thus far been entire
And though under engagement Of any Sort it is my
purpose with divine assistance to continue in tns course
Indeed have yet felt not the least temptation to re-
cede from il for which most unexpected favor humbly
The audiences with which learned that my brethren
had cast down to the ground and its crushing effect
on my mind, acting a system already predisposed TO
such attacks produced another OF the faint turns men
toned, rather continued tendency to fantng, from
which free for days, and those, the first
of my enduring the violent change oil renouncing IN
stanty and entirely the long accustomed stmulants with
out any sort Of substitute for them. Somewhat longer
there constant and exaustng copious perspiraon
very excessive at night NY sleep was and pra ,%ped
which was formerly taught produces It, when heahy
But the principal change decided increase OF the local
inertness. For month more, was often attended
with bursting sensation In the head then came diner
ent afection for five days; and then another month
ing continued funess OF the head with drowsness
have since used occasionally prescription but the
omission OF leaves much az before yet ~ must not
be long persevered in. This symptom 10 more severe
than any that felt last spring. and for perhaps year
The side occasionally giving the idea Of rawness there
and few times, the which formerly renewed ~
has made sensiby felt Whether the disease will
pass away, what may be its result pretend not to
loresee. And whether have gwen the right name.
matters little Disease have, and have had for sixteen
years much increased in the last five or six nor has
been under than partial control. And the re
cent aggravaon mentioned adds fear to the obsnacy,
and perhaps ha danger o tho affection which has 70
greatly broken my health.
trust that this narrative will satisfy the Convention
that have not acted inconaideraey in rendering th
resignation Of my episcopal jurisdiction the ground OF
impartial health and further in asking the election on
the sameground of coadutor should myresgna'ion not
he accepted which request now renew.
But must invoke the interposon OF the Convention,
between me and the movements and influences unknown
the Canons concerning the charges that have been
brought against What those charges arc, need not
state for they were known to not lew out oi doors,
though not a whisper OF them breahed TO me- and
Immediately afterwards widely blown as the
winds; their publicity being IL possible increased by the
measure adopted the clerical meetings, OF seeking con
rmation Of the mputatons already made and also such
others might be obtained throughout the diocese Be
TIVE and such movements and influences entfe eat
the enton to nerpose. Not that body or any