New-York daily tribune. [volume] (New-York [N.Y.]) 1842-1866, 1843-05-11

its clear mirror with tracery of dsordered carr
catuTes.
once read these words of that many-sided
| thinker. Stefan: = He who has no employment
to which he gives himself with true earnestness,
/ which he does not love as much as himself. has
+ not discovered the true ground on which Chris
tianty brings forth fruit. Such an occupation
becomes quiet and consecrated temple IN all
hours OF affection, IN which the Saviour pours out
! his blessing ii untes Us with other men, so that
we can sympathize IN their feelings. and makes
actions and wills administer TO their wants
/ II teaches lis TO know our own ciTcumscrlbed con-
( dItlon. and rightly to weigh the worth OF others.
/ 1t is the true, firm and truit-bearing ground of
real Christianity
These words came like a breath of air on
glowing sparks. y light was kindled in my soul,
and knew not what I wanted. and what l ought
10 do. After had well considered all this with
myself, spoke with my parents, and opened my
whole heat to them. They were surprised, OPP
posed me, and besought me to think better of it.
had ioreseen this but as | adhered firmly and
decidedly to. my wishes. they surprised me by
their kindness.
was very fond of children; my plan was,
therefore, to begin house keeping for myself. and
10 undertake some work or occupation which
should, by degrees, enable me TO take two or three
children, for whom / would provide, whom
would educate, and altogether adopt as my own.
! was wclipersuaded that | needed many of the
qualifications which wonld make good teacher !;
but ! hoped tina. that new fountain of activity
would, as II were, give to my whole beng a new
BIRTH. My goodwill, my affection for children,
would. believed, be helpful to make me good
guide To them; and thus though could not be-
come a wife, might yet enjoy the blessing OF a
mother.
'And WHY could you not-why could you
not - interrupted Elise.
People say" returned Evelina. smiling, that
you had 10 make your selection OF husband
from MANI adorers YOU cannot then understand
a case in which there should not even be one
choice Bnt, truly, indeed, that was my case.
But do not look at me 50 amazed-don't look at
me as if were guilty OF high treason. The truth
is, that never had an opportunity to say either
yes or no to a lover. With my sisters, who were
much more agreeable, and much more attractive
than |, it was otherwise
But now | must return to that moment OF my
life when released myself from every day paths !;
but, thank God not with violence, not amid
discomfort; but with the blessing of those who
had given me life, for which now, for the first
time, blessed them.
Touched by my steadiasness of purpose and
by the true goodwill which they had perceived
IN he, my parents determined to beStow upon
my desired domestic establishment the sum Of
money which they had put aside for my dowry
IN case ! married. Indeed. their and my sisters
kindness made them find pleasure in arranging
all for ne IN the best and most comfortable man
ncr; and when left the paternal roof, 1t was
with tears Of real pain. Yet | had too clcary
studied my own character and position to be I'M
decided.
1t was day in April, my thrtielh birth day.
when, accompanied by my own family, went
10 take possession of my new, small, but pretty
dwelling. Two young lathcr-and -mothcrlcss
girls, not quite without means, followed me TO
my new habitation. They were to become my
children, / their mother.
never shall forget the first morning of my
waking in my new abode AT this very moment
it is as ii I saw how the day dawned in the cham
Der; how all the objects gradually assumed, as 1t
seemed to me, an unaccustomed dehnteness.-
From the near church assembled the morning
HYMN with It's pleasant serious melody, which at
timed the soul TO harmonious peace. | rose early ;
I had to care for house and children All was
! cheerful and festIval-lke IN my soul a sweet
emotion penetrated me, like the enllvenng brcczcs
of spring. | saw the snow melt from the roofs and
fall down in shining drops, yet never had seen
the morning light IN them so clear as now saw
the sparrows on the edge of the chlmneys twltter-
| ing to greet the morning sun. 1 saw without,
people going joyfulIy about their employment 1
saw the mllll-woman going from door to door, and
she seemed 10 ne checrfullcr than any mllk-wo
man | had ever seen before: and the milk seemed
10 me winter and purer than common 1t seemed
to ne as II now the world Tor the first tune.
I ancied even myself to be altered as looked IN
/ the gass; my eyes appeared to me larger; M
whole appearance to have become better, and
mere important In the chamber near me, the
/ children awokc--the little mm0rtals whom was
to conduct to eternal life Yes, indeed, this was
beautiful morning. In 1t the world tirst
/ beamed upon me, and at the same time my own
inner world, and became of worth and conse-
( quencc in my own estimation.
The active get quiet life which had from this
/ time forth, suited me perfectly well. From this
! time became happily more and more in harmony
with myself. The day was often wearsome, but
/ then the evening rest was the sweeter, and the
/ thought that had passed a useful day refreshed
nv soul The children gave rne many gricfs
many troubles but they gave likewise an interest
10 my lile and happiness to my heart and all
the while. III pleasure and want, IN JOY and sor
row, thev became dearer and dearer to me. L
cannot imagine that children can be dearer to
| their oygn mother than Laura and harje arc to me-
/ In this new position | also becamc a better
daughter, more tender sister, than had hither-
! to been: and could now cheer the old age OF my
parents far more than if had remained an mac
tive and superhuous person IN Their house Now tor
the first had the advantage OF all that was good
! in nv education. Amid lively activity, and with
distinct object in life my being lost BY degrees
what was vain and false; and the knowledge
which had obtained, the truths which had
known, were productive in heart and deed since
/ had 50 10 say, struck root In hte.