The Caledonian. [volume] (St. Johnsbury, Vt.) 1837-1867, 1843-01-30
Vol. 6. No. 81. Whole No. 9S7.


the intense, absorbing love of early days was TO
.outinue through life, and every degree Of affection
short Of that appeared nm insult to my feelings
When he returned home after evening passed with
his friends, md cndeavorcd 10 interest
by recouutins the little incidents Of the day. turned
from him with disgust aud Impotence, which I took
no pains to conceal FOR my busy fancy instantly re-
vened &c the time when no incident, unconnected
with myself, had power 10 interest him, nor any So
cely could rival mine in his esteem. My days were
spent in fruitless rcpniags my lost happiness
my nights in tears and wretchedness. The effect of
this visible in my appearance. Tho color
faded from my cheek, the light from my eye, and my
wan and haggard countenance bore the impress Of
many more years than had yet numbered. I had
ever been fond Of dress, and now grew Shameful
y negligent Of my appearance My husband per-
ccved this, and created in his mind disgust and an
ger. lie demonstrated with me, and [ attempted to
correct this fault. Sometimes when expected him
at home, would arrange my dress with more care
than had ever bestowed on it in the days OF my
grhood, but to no purpose. His thoughts were oc-
cupied with matters of business and he did not te-
stow e, en- passing glance on the attire which had
cost me such UNIV onted trouble. Then would
leave the 10 m, and throw myself on my bed, to
slightest change of costume called forth burst Of
rspturous admiration.
can these things appear 10 you like trls. They
were sufficient the happiness of my life. Ttey
destroyed every thing like energy in my chordcerfor
no effort Of mine could recall the Inst render me
again the object Of enthusiastic devotion which had
rendered the first months of my life SO exquistely hap
nv and which alone could satisfy my heart. Could
| have moderated my expectations, and submitted
with grace what could not prevent, might still
have been happy, for my husband as i have before
said, was kind and indulgent, and there was nothing
, in my circumstances Of which reasonable woman
woud have CON planned. Bit | was rot reasonable,
and instead Of try ing to make my home cheerful and
comfortable permitted il to be gloomy and desc
late as my dsconsolate disposition, and utter igno
rance ofdomesiic management, could render it. MIR.
Marshall was fond of company but deferred from
inviting lis friends his house by nknowetge tho
disorder and confusion which pervadcd it. well re.
member an occasion on which he deeply motif
fed lie had invited Doctor Bently, a stranger and
| u gentleman Of much refinement and intelligence, to
spend the evening with us, and he was very anxious
that his wife, and all the arrangements Of his house,
| hold, should appear to advantage. ! would have
grati(ed him, had il been in my power, but did no.
know how to accomplish it, and my servants were as
ignorant as myself Will. some difficulty and much
DELAY our evening meal prepared, and our guest
summoned to partakc of it. But never shall forget
the look of blank despair which my husband cast up
on the table when he approached IL ard no wonder
he was dsmnyed, for even I, absorbed as was, and
unobservani as had always been of such affairs
could not be blind to the and vulgarity
which its arrangements exhibited had trusted ev-
| ery thing to my cook. and she pc formed her task
entirely TO her satisfaction, in blessed ignorance
of the modification she inf cling upon her master.
or the a,tonshment she caused in his refined and pol
ishai guest. The awkwardness and constraint CT
my manner added to the cubarrassments OF the un-
| fortunate master Of the house. lie could scarcely
ask his guest to puIakc of tho coarse vands Win
which the table loaded, and it was sensible re-"
lief TO all parties when the meal was over nd DR.
I}en:y under the rrecnce OF business, TOOK MS ea'e
Then at last the lorbearancc of my husband gave
way. lie reproached me in strong language for my
mat, ention to his wishes, and the neglect OF my dI-
ties.
..Iye tod ne WIS rendering myself an object Of
DISGUST n, dislike TO Linn, and that if did not
form my habits, indifference and contempt would
take the place Of the affection with which lie had
hitherto regarded me. At first, answered him only
with tears; hut my temper soon became reused, and
rem cached him in for the change which had
taken place in him since the first months of onr mar
rage and the misery which that change had occa-
stoned me. IIo deridcd my romantic folly as he
called and left the house more completely ana thor
ouphv ou. OF humor ihan had ever seen him.
..And here my dear girls. must pause, to impress
ppon your minds lesson which my own painful cx-
perence has tnught Never, ifyou wish to re-
tain the affections Of your husbands be tho means Of
nor,iryins their pride. There is, in the minds Of
men. so close connection between then self love
and all other kinds of love, thai blow inflicted up
on the one fecng-thc master passion may cal! It
never fails TO do serious injury TO all the other at
fections of the heart My husband had almost
without complaining series of domestic dscomorts'
which would have exhausted the patience OF most
: men; hut when the wecbed disorder oil his hcuse-
hold was exposed a stranger, even his k'ho heaf'