The Arkansas banner., 1843-10-14
THE DEFORMED.
From Munuscript toand n q Mad-housc.

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 pY SIR E, L. BULwER.
 am the eldest son of a numerous family noble in birth, and eminent in wealth. My brothers are vigorous and comedy race.- my sisters are more beautiful than dreams. By what fatality was it that alone was thrust into this glorious world distorted, and dwart-like, and hideous-n.y limbs mock cry, my countenance horror, myself a blackness on the surface of ereation,--a dis cord in the harmony of nature, a living mi- sery, an animated curse? 1 am shut out from the aims and -eAjects of my race; with the deepest sources of affection in my heart, 1 am doomed to find no living thing on which to pour them. Love out upon the world-l am its very loathing and abhor- renee: friendship turns from me in disgust pity beholds me, and withers to aversion. Wheresoever l wander, l am encompassed with hatred as with all atmosphere. What ever attempt, am in the impossible circle of dreadful and accursed doom. Ambition pleasure-philanthropy-fame-the con- mon blessings of social imtercourse-are all as .ofher circles, which mine can touch but m one point, and that point is torture. have knowledge to which the wisdom of ordinary sages is as dust to gold; I have energies to which relaxation is pain; I have benevolence which sheds itself in charity and love over a wom For what-merci- tul God flor what are these blessings of nature or of learning The instant em- ploy them, ] must enter among men: the moment enter among men, my being black ems into agony. Laughter grins upon me- terror dogs my steps-l exist upon poisons. and my nourishment Is scornl
 At my birth the nurse refused me suck l; my mother saw me and became deirous :; my father ordered that should be stihed as monster. The physicians saved my life accursed be they for the act One woman -she was old and childless-took compass sion on me; she reared and fed me. grew up-l asked for something to love; loved every thing; the common earth; the fresh grass, the living insect; the household brute; from the dead stone I trod on, to the sublime countenance of man, made to behold the stars, and to scorn me; from the noblest thing to the prettiest; the fairest to the foul est; loved them all E! l knelt to my mo- ther and besought her 10 love me; she shutl- dered. l fled to my father,-and he spumed me! The lowest minon of the human race. that had its limbs shapen and its countenance formed, refused to consort with me; the very dog, l only dared to seek out one that seem ed more rugged and hideous than it's fellows ! the very dog dreaded me, and slunk away ] grew up lonely and wretched l was like the reptile whose prison Is the stones heart :; immured ill the eternal penthouse of a solitude 10 Wnici, tiI,, 1I;,sco.h Hc ro!ln,'ck;.. ,..,,.r .s.-.~, sa,uou 0iitf.s,is n' anu 1 flint, and doomed to vegetate and baton on my own suffocating and poisoned medita- t!cns But while that was my heart's dun geon, they could not take from me the er- ternal senses, the sweet face of the Universal Nature, they could not bar me from com mune with the voices of the mighty dead
 Earth opened to me her marvels, and the volumes of the wise their stores. read mused-I examined-I descended into the deep wells of truth-and mirrored in my soul the holiness of her divine beauty The past lay before me like scroll the myster- ies of this breathing world rose from the present like clouds; even of the dark future, experience shadowed forth something of a token and sign; and over the wonders of the world hung the intoxicating and mingled spells of poesy and of knowledge.
 But could not, without struggle, live in world of love, and be the only thing doom, cd to hatred q will travel" said l, s'to other quarters of the globe. All earth's tribes have not the proud stamp of angels and of gods, and among its infinite variety may find being who will not sicken at my seii.'' took leave of the only one who had not loathed me-the woman who had given me food, and reared me up to lilc She had now become imbecile, and dotng, and blind so she did not disdain to lay her hand upon my distorted head, and to bless me. s'Bui better,o she said, even as she blessed me, and in despite of her doiage-ssbettcr that you had perished in the womb!' And laughed with loud laugh when hoard her, and rushed from the house.
 One evening, in my wanderings, as issued from wood, came abruptly upon the house of village priest. Around it, from thick and lofty fence of shrubs, which the twilight of summer bathed in dew, the honeysuckle, and the sweet briar, and the wild rose sent forth those gifts of fragrance and delight, which were not denied even to me. As walked slowly behind the hedge, l heard voices on the opposite side; they were the voices of women, and paused to listen They spoke of love, and of the qualities which should create it.
 "No," said one, and the words, couched in tone of music, thrilled to my heart, 'sno, 1t is not beauty which ! require in lover it is the mind which can command others, and the passion which would bow that mind unto me. 1 ask for genius and affection. l ask for nothing else''
 ..But," said the other voice, ssyou could not love monster in person, even if he were miracle of intelligence and of love.''
 s'I conld," answered the first speaker, fer vently; eff know my own heart, could You remember the fable of girl whom the monster loved could have loved hat monster.n
 And with these words, they passed from my hearing; but stole round, and through a small crevice in the fence, beheld the face