New-York daily tribune. [volume] (New-York [N.Y.]) 1842-1866, 1842-06-07


"a and peri.h. ere could emerge into the iight
and beauty of a renewed life This bad never
dreamed Of, and all thu JOY and luxury OF exist
cnce. all the sense Of light and sunshine AID iIe-n
air. all the hou.and fold delights with whicn "on
uas -trewn thu. pictured word. were not worn,
such price Upon these lips the worm 'hou'H
feed. and could 10, drive him away these e!e-'
through which the soul had looked aPon n'''o,
,lo,ion. world a. through clear glasses "ou'd
chang. until they were lOathsome and corrupi'"'
TIN God the agony of such a thought. Noiihs
had ever imagined equaed 1t IN terror ana
.,h.n I recalled the dead face. oil thD-c whom
had loved and buried. and remembered the benign
and plarid smile which .hone uron them In. ''e
To-. foo,.,rin,s Of the freed and rejoicing spirit ~
!, aad besvenward and which seemed 10 oetchen
tho RECOGNITION bv the soul Of a divner sense a
/, was leaving its clay tcnemeni-and though,
that. perchance even at the very moment WINE
va. bending over them To take a last iare"e''
looA. with thi. feeling in my h"ari. they were en-
during he same fierce, burning tormeni'-'he IAN,
feelings Of horror and despair that 30" gha"en
ne ike burning worm it seemed 20 me a. It al
the lows | had aver kn,wn ~ eartn Wou'd "o'
countertalance So dreadful doubt.
heard nv name called from below made
,,o,b.r effort. but nv tongue was torpid aud dull
AZ
,bonght that Wa. dead. Iin~ardly declared that
would nove-I strovc with almost .uperhumhn
axer,ion.. but in vain;-I could not take my eyes
from that spot on the wal, which bad become a.
cursed because must see it. Sidowise through
nv eve. felt the pleasant sunshine glowing INTO
the room; and over my head the busy Ties mum
med and buzled inccs sanily, and crept now ana
then across my face.
How long and tedious seemed the moments
they were year, to my excited mind-and no one
came An aye of torment seemed 10 have passed
when heard light tap at my door could not
answer it. Again | heard louder knock J
knew it wa. nv sister. for she spoke ana cdHed
me b. name. The door opened and she came
forward cautiously, and again -poke a. she ap-
preached the bed. she looked a moment at IN"
and touched mel did no, speak, bit Law motion
les. with nv ewes strained at that i'tcrnil 'ps'.
She unused moment and then, uttcrlng per
cling scream. nan 20 the door and called Tor my
neither. Instantly tic horror of The cry brought
the family to my bedside They lifted my hand.
and it fell again upon the cov-rd. ihrN ieH OF
nv hesrt-thcre was not a iuiier OF pulse, Tor
ali that it seemed to If hell itself could not
DC worse than the torment that | was enduring. |
eard quick Econ, ul,iyc -ob., and fell soft hand
smooth my hair from my forehead. Some one
said" he must have died in a fit; and Yet how
.alm his face is" "Ncs," was the answer, " be
pr,bably suffered no pain and died almost imme-
diatcly-perhap. ia hs sleep Then the voices
grew more distant and mucnuring. and some one
eft the room Soon the door opened. and tie
ACE oithe family physician Intercepted the damned
pot for moment Now, though J. he will know
hat | am not dead, and will relieve me from this
..ituation lie felt of my heart and r...I-s for n
moment ard then ! heard him say, in answer to
". lam IN -1fT
20 say he is entirely gore. My art can avail him
nothing" The voices then became lower, and
listened in vain.
Ii was long, dark pause-ihen the shutters
we're closed, and persons trod lightly across the
iloor and smoke to zach other in under tone, as
if the place were sacred. That silent awe which
pervades the chamber of death, and bushes the
voice as if the senscess clay could hear, had
pas.cd over their spirits like bIeatE-,tain upon
lass | heard the low confused murmur 81 vol'es
lronc through the darkcned chamber Now ana
hcn the door opened, and some one bent over me
nd gazcd at mo, while scalding tears tell upon my
ace. Then the room was empued oil all per
sons and | was left alone IN the darkness ana
stiffness. listened for voices, for any thlng was
better than this drcary srlncs,-bui in vain:
spell was on the house: ~. sounds of laughter,
Is rapid footsteps It's hustle and noise were gone:
every step was careful and slow. and every voice
q, whisper So went on hour after hour and
.,il Law helpless. and longing for the moment
when should be able to move and loosen myself
from the close, dcathly grasp which almost pressed
he life out OF the body. A. lay tku'. sud-
denly heard birds gush of song from the tree be-
meath nv window; how joyou.ly IT warbled, uncon-
.cious of the agoey 80 near it-and how my heart
>ickencd within as heard 1t.
Soon persons g ,u.e and wrapped me up IN white
linen, and swa,h,d my limbs and made the horn
BILE funeral arrangements. Some one SAID, How
chastity his eyes look, and then gently pressed
down the lids over the balls Of my eyes. Never
ill that moment did / dream that that accur,cd
spot, on which ny gaze had been rvetcd for 80
many hours, could become dear to me. The
thought that we are viewing any object however
mean. for the last time. always raise. il III impof
lance, and give. II Fictitious charm: and now
this spot To me the straw to "a drowning man.
the silver line of sunlight in prisoners dungeon
the last link with this visible earth | strove
in vain to keep open the lids-slowly they yielded
to the pressure Of the fingers, and gradually the
range of vision became more and more confined
.n,il all was utterly out. Never before had The
lear OF being buried alive suggested itself, but now
il came over me like ulphing wave. thought
that | should be laid down alive in the charne-
nouse among decsying corp.es, and -tihed from
he clear breath of heaven fami,h. il indeed
we're Ao, dead then. All the trehtful ,torie. OF
such occurrences that had ever read came to my
mind, and the hope OF ultimate recovery grow
tec.lcr and iecblcr.
The nigh, came. and how drsary and amending
t seemed. One after another heard the hours
struck by the clock. until at last. from pure ex-
hauston. lost my sensation. Ii must have been
ate morning when returned to consciousness.
telt hands upon me-,hry were lifting mo into my
.oitn | heard them screw in screw after screw
until the lid was fastened and only the narrow
space the face remained open. | felt the
sides of the coffin JAZZ and rub against my arms.
and | despared tina, | should ever recover my
nnver of ,nnfinn