Sunbury American and Shamokin journal. [volume] (Sunbury, Northumberland Co., Pa.) 1840-1848, 1842-03-05

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drank everywhere, on all occasions, and the
question we asked was, ''does he keep good
botte!' and when we could not get good
one, poor one would do.
l was born of respectable parents, and was
educated by minister, and then bonnd out TO
the hating busines, in as perfect a grog-shop
as ever existed. But few days before left
Baltimore, found the old books my master;
there was the names of sixty men upon it, and
we did not recollect but one that die not 90 to
a drunkard's grave. Another halter says it
was Just so on his books. Al one time there
were twelve ofus as apprentces-eight Of the
twelve have died drunkards; one is now in
the aims house in Cincinnati, one in the aims
house in Baltimore, and here am |.
For while was prosperous, notwilhstand-
ing drank on; did not expect the appetite
to conquer me. Well, when % years old, in
ISIS, went to the West. As soon as away
from parental care, gave way, all went by the
board, my suffering commenced. For 6 months
had no shoes, and only one shirt and two pair
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deed. But returned ragged and boated to
my mothers home. When got to the edge
of the town, was ashamed even to walk on
the ground OF my nativity. In the dusk of the
evening crept along to my mothers, and was
soon dressed up decently. My mother only
said, "John, am afraid you are boated."
then drank nothing for while but it was so
hard 10 do without, that at lcngh took glass
Of ale, and all was over with me sgoin--my
appetite rushed on like a flood and carried all
before it And for fifteen years, time after
/ time, rose and fell was up aud down, would
quit all, and then take little glass. ] would
earn sl5 week, be happy and well, and with
money in hand start for home. and in some un-
accountable way, mpercepibly and irresistably,
fall into a tavern, and think one glass only
would do me good. But found single glass
of ale would conquer all my resolutions. / ap-
peal TO all my fellow drunkards if it is not en-
actly so-it the one glass Of intoxicating drink
does not annIhilatc, by revival of the appetite,
! all resolutions to resist drinking on. am sat
isfed this appetite is rooted in me, and never
expect to get rid Oft. 1t is like mercury in
the themomctor-keep heat away from it and
1t will not rise, but apply the heat ofyour finger
and it will rise at once.
June 18th, last, drank and suffered awfully.
! can't tel! you how much suffered in mind
IN body every thing, but in mind more. |
drank dreadfully the two first weeks of June
bought by the gallon, and was about taking my
lite-drunk all the tine. On the llth was
a wonder to myset-astonished that | had any
mind left and yet it seemed in the goodness
of God uncommony clear | laid in bed long
after my wife and daughter were up, and my
conscience drove me to madness. | hated the
darkness OF the night, and when light came
hated the light hated my life my existence
| asked myself ''Can refrain! is it possible p
Not being to take me by my hand, and lead Oh
help me along and say "yoU CAN" wa'
frendless; without help or light; an outcast
My wife came up stairs, and knew was sut
tering, and asked me to 90 down to breakfast
| had pint of whiskey and thought | woul,
me as decided. Moderate drinkers beware
Take care you don't get into this awful condi
ton! Well, | told my wife | would COM
down presently. Then my daughter came u
and asked me down. | always loved her
; because she was the drunkard's friend my on
! ly friend. And then she said, "Father, don
send me after whiskey to-day" was tormen
4 ted before, but this was an unexpected torture
= told her 10 leave the chamber, and she wer
: down crying, and said to her mother, father
/ angry with me. My wife came up again, an
4 asked me to take some coffee; told her di
? not want any thing of her. I soon heard som
o one enter the room, and peeped out and saw
r was my daughter.
81 ! then thought of my past life; my degrad
:, ton; misery of my friends; and felt ba
a enough. So called her and said, "Hanna
;; | am not angry with you, and shall not drr
is any more" She cried and so did |. WEI
up and looked to the cupboard and looked
D. the enemy, my whiskey bottle, and though
n ais it possible | can be restored" and then
in turned my back upon it. Several times viii
In dressing, looked at the bottle but thought
t. should be lost if yielded. Poor Drunkar
m There is hope for you You cannot be wor
he off than was; not more degraded, or more
of slave to appetite, You can reform fyou vi
10 Try Ir-rRy IT. | felt badly tell "
ng There are some here who know how felt.
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