The Hillsborough recorder. [volume] (Hillsborough, N.C.) 1820-1879, 1842-09-15

lunins1s1g -ass0lAios oniy.. Hslen's
hssFl. 50 CO A. hsr husband vas eancrrz-
ed. was lrlt blank-. Frssnsnlly. and
with al bar power. did she siriEs 20 ne
esii her former ffsli@xs iowaId him.
She knew IL Eas her alsfg q love hinss
her eonseiFnees condemned her Zoe her
spaihy; assia soJ again mould shs euu-
mer1is the.sxsellencies Of his ehsrsewr,
snd call back the issasrness of lnrnsr
yssrs--bnt her efforts we're As useless -
IL abe had siFisen 20 soften adanani xilh
tsars. The words. : ~ i sel6sh, srbi.
nary. and implss-b<. = seemed s.ereoiy-
ped on her sery soul. and serr firsi and
last Do present shrmselrssr wheneysr abe
thought on the suhjeeL
In proportion as Hslsn's all elions
esased 10 dictate her actions toward Mr..
Howard. was her nfss n Studying duty.
She was TOO well principled; had 100
much self respect; and 700 great q re-
gard 70 the proprieiies Of life. 70 do aughi
unbecoming her relative position; or %
leave pndone that wlsich ennld reasonably
be demanded o. her. Her husbands
welfare and rrspstisSaIiy. she endeavor-
ed 10 promote 10 the utmost Of her pow
er;-and his happiness. 30 Ear As II could
be done with her present feelings; but
this could not be done by expressing ten
dernsss and affection which she did not
feel il was contrary 20 her very nature.
Helen had no ronjfdsHfs. Could she
not disclose Der heart 10 him 20 whom
she was bound W the nearest Of all ties,
she would dSsslose II 10 none other. Per.
haps. had her mother been living. the ma
iernal bosom aighi have been The rrerp-
iacle Of her trials; but As death had re-
moved this synpaihizing friend. no other
should be 4 substitute. Not even before
her two oldest Children, did she ever
utter word that would betray her Sc
crei uneasiness; but bitter were the COM
plants that she muImured in the unheed-
ing ear OF her youngest boy. a. she press-
ed HIM 10 her heart; and scalding The tears
she shed upon bis head. called forth by
her blasted hopes. Except Cor her chill.
dren's sake. lie had no charms Tor her.
TO benuHibe,i heart. what can be either
attractive or inieresiingi-ysi Helen dear.
iy loved her children. and on illcir account
life was valuable. The human heart that
has anything TO love, and that is loved in
return, cannot be utterly and remediIessly
drsoIaie and wrelched.
Had Mr.. Howard been what he had
now become, one short year befars. he
had been among. The happiest Of husbands.
and Helen the most beloved Of wives.
Never. sinre the FIRST week &c their union,
had he been so NEUTRALITY-SUSPICIOUS. 10
please her; and never, at any period, 80
ingenious in deyising means to touch her
ieart.-nos even in the days n his youth.
His iault-inding, too, was nearly OF quite
gone. for when with Helen he was too
much engrossed by other cares, 10 allow
Of his noticing things Of irifling moment.
But, alas for himsclf--also for her too,
the change came too late! j. was like
pardon after execution"
Had llelen's department been diffe-
rent from what il was, her husbands
heart might have been alienaied from her.
Had she sought pleasure or sympathy
abroad, had she been freifal or negiigen,
at home, he would gradually have ceased
10 respect. and then % love her; bu, in
truth, till now, hs had never known Of
what she was capable. Formerly he had
looked upon her As child that needed
yuidc--a masier;--a lovely, endearing
shild. il is true.--but child still. He
low saw her high sauled, efficient wo- -
nan, equal to the discharge Of the duties
,f her station, without the support OF any
,ne; and,-that which was Car higher
,roof of elevation and strength OF charzc-
er,-equal to bearing her own sorrows
Without the aid Of sympathy. In truth,
he heart Of his wife had never appeared
o him so great Treasures thing of such
nesijmahle value, as now he had los, liz
lever before had he been so much in love!
Meantime, Mr.. and Mrs. Howard were
he envy or the admiration Of the little
rorld in which they moved. They
gere pointed at as the best matched
air that could be found!--every way
uited TO improve. and make each other
Apply! even at Mr.. Atwood, high as his
expectations had been raised, as aslo.
ished at the dignity and strength of cha
acter. his daughter had acquired under
ir. Howard's influence: and equally so
the softening effect OF Helrn's influence
yerhim Heof,ensighed with regret. tina,
is wife could not have lived To see the
appy couple that they now were! How
slusire are appearances!
$3.50 tro be continucd)