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wise and e~xpostulate with me with all
that earnestness and zeal so peculiar
to her nature. But all her kind adj
monltlons were in vain, and | madIy
persisted in my career of licentious.
ness and vice. Again and again she
would upbraid me with want of re-
Spect and affection for her. Still |
persisted. urged in ex;enuation of
my many faults that | was young, and
that the world did me injustice. But
a crisis was at hand. In the mad
ness of a drunken revel | proclaimed
my intentions towards her and abus-
ed and vilifed her who should have
been esteemed by me a jewel beyond
earthly price. 1t soon reached her.
and ] too soon followed to deny and
destroy a report that rumor and cal,
umny had exaggerated. And oh,
who could portray hat dreadful
scene. Each word that she uttered
inflicted 4 "~cureless wound upon my
guilty breast. Her pale haggard
coun;enance bathed in tears-her
eyes red from weepins-her dark
locks hanging in massesupon her once
happy face, would have softened the
feelings of a demon. Never before
did man feel as | felt. | felt as n con-
demned criminal ready and willing TO
receive any punishment that my crime
merited. Long, long did she weep
| dared not mention her name, for it
seemed to me sacrilege. After com
posing her agitated feelings she raised
her eyes to mine. That steady, fix
ed. subdued glance! 1t penetrated
my soul. The bare effort seemed to
have added force and dignity TO her
manner. "Why have you COME
she asked, "to add insult to injury?
Is it that you expect again to deceive
me by your professions oflove and
friendship? The time was when |
could have been influenced by your
vows but that time has passed nerer
to return. The time was when your
pretestations of love and consistency
were music TO my ears rs | believed
they emanated from an honest heart,
but that confidence i snow lost not to
be replaced by years of atonement.
All! little did ] imagine that the
hopes | once so fondly cherished
were thus to be blasted-that you
who promised to sustain me through
difficulties and be Il friend in adversi-
ty that you could thus cruelty dash
from my lips the cup of bliss and ex-
tend to me that of bitterness and sor-
row. Oh! what have ] done to de-
serve such treatment at your hands?
You have injured my character-you
have blighted my hopes, and as a vi
per you have entwincd yourself a.
round my affections, until you have
stung me to the soul. Leave me!
Oh leave, and remember you carry
with you my pardon--but through !
forgive | can never forget"
Never, until she u.tcred these fear
full words did know my real feelings
towards her. To leave her thus |
could not. l stood petriied and mo-
tionless. saw hat a denial would
not serve my purpose-but no penI-
tent ever asked forgiveness at the
bar of an insulted God with more real
fervor and earnestness than | implor-
ed her TO overlook the past. vowed
that | would no longer wander in the
paths of vice and immortality, and
would live only for her. But all my
prayers were in vain. She would re-
gard me as a friend but v as a low
err. For the first time the truth flash
ed across my mind-that | loved her.
| rushed from her presence to rave
in the madness Of despair. Herl love-
illness of mind, Of person, and above
all Of disposition, had subdued the
iron hearted man who hitherto had bid
defiance to female attraction. And
now, though all hope is lost, though
the breach that separates us is impas-
sable, still memory keeps alive the