Sunbury American and Shamokin journal. [volume] (Sunbury, Northumberland Co., Pa.) 1840-1848, 1840-09-12

avocat1ns usually permitted you to be, the state of
my 1 elugs could not have been concealed from
you, and !. was only by heatrendng efforts that |
as umed en apI a ent cheeruness duiing the brief
AID distant intervals you passed with me; you
Know me loo well to doubt my truth when assure
you that on m,re ,han one occasion was on the |
point OF attempting to rescue oil parties from The
evil which mcnaced them, by removing myself to
another w nd by opium. | struggled d-Gnd only |
knows how | struggled--to subdue this criminal |
attachment, and to recover sufficient tranquility of
miod to enable me to perform my duties as your
whe wrott to him clarng my resolution to
conquer my affection for him; his good feeling and
real regard Tor me promp'ed him to acquiesce in
his course. and he expressed his ,ntire spproba-
ton oft. tried i'll failsd-he struggle almost
cost me my life. now became fully convinced
tha, wa' f'rever incapable of dschareing towards
you the iu'ies AMI offices Of a wife. save by the
al ption Of n course of systematic discrimination
an unremitt ng hypocrisy. from which all my
hetler feelings revolted with lnathing and disgust
fel, that the attempt would render my life one
continued lie. No course then rem,iued fnr me
'y which | could 'e rescued {, m the horrors of
my position, except either self destruction to
Withdraw myself openly from you md resign my.
self To- him who engrossri all my aft cons 10 have
adopted the only intermediate measure by indu-
eing in his society, and secretly committing nfJe-
Iity to you while continued to profess the elngs
and perform the offices of a wife, was one of which
I wos altogether incapable. therefore after view.
ing my situation and examining nv heart, deter.
mined to abandon position which | could no,
conscientiously mant,in, and did accordingly, on
Friday last, deliberately and aIvi.cliy, and not in
a moment of excitement under any sudden
impulse of feeling, leave my house and place my
self in the hands Of him 10 whom my affections
had been surrendered
"Need assure you, that up to the hour quilted
your door, was never guilty Of any act injurious
to your honor or Incompatible with the vows | h,d
made you. What have done, I have done openly,
and have not added The m annes of falsehood and
deception to the sin of inf lelity. While by his
formal confession place in Your hands the power
of releasing yourself from the lie which binds to
you, and of preserving the rights Of our cliildr,n
Fl m the possible consequence of my act, | am
prompted as much by feeling as by duty to declare.
most un,qu vUclly, that what I h We pne has not
been caused by any absence OF kindn IS and aff.c-
tion on your part; that, on the contrary, from The
day Of our mar rage to the day of my d. parture
from you, YOU have been mos, kind. most tender,
and most aft c,i nate am deeply sensible that you
have deserved very diff reu return fiom any that
| il has been in my power to make.
"As believe and trus, that my own conduct. as
we'll as that of The person TO whom am now uni ed
has been, up to the hour of my separation from
YOU, such to afford no ground for objection or
suspicion, you cannot, presume, have any m ans
Of knowing who that person is; it is Necessary,
therefore, that shoull inform you that it is Dr.
Ladner. Neither he nor myself desire TO off'r
extpnuati n, much less defence, of our conduct
We feel il, however to be only justice to Ourselves
to say, thst prepared suffer all the evils
attendant upon t,al change in pecuuiary cir
cumsiances as the inevitable consequence of tie
step we h,ve takcn 4; have come Ia HIM destitute
of any means of support, and bringing nothing
with me- but the few articles of dress had upon
my pers n. He has surrendered large nc'me
which he has for many years enjoyed, arising from
his professional labor; banished as he te, to
foreign country, ,msGed in charaetr iy the very
measure which gives me to him, removed from Ill
those connections on which the profitable occupa-
ton of his Time has hitherto depcned he is at this
moment uncertain where, or how he may obtain
even that very SIN Il income which will sufIi to
supply our most m .deraie wants and wishes Not
res eing exigc cy like the pr sent, he has not
reaiz zed any considerable am un, of propedy-no-
thing IN fact VII ch verbally aid u in cur pre-
sent p si,ion We were both uly aware Of these
formids lie d ffculaa- and sacrifices; but he iet
that a,y ,scr fee, however great, would be most
willingly made by m to soften the evils attendant
upon he position witch must assume. Nov, IN
conc'usi n, allow me 10 express hope That after
III, first a. Gu h attending this msinr une has been
assusged you will sce that your peace AID comfort
Ill be more promoted y 10 slug me altogether. for
retaining me wihuu MY aft cIion would he uks me
to you, and you would have The pain OF seeing me
daily consrm'd hy hopeless attachment to ano
ther, which would eat int my heart until should
be reduced TO the mere shadow Of myself, and
which must, after a brief period have brnught me
TO the grave. II is likely that you will el any
disposi ion to communicate further with me; bt
IS we si have ,ome common interests, Eel i, i,
my duty to supply you with the means of surh
communication, should ii be necessary. Any hing
which is addressed to Mrs. Williams No. II, Old
] Burlington street, will be forwarded 70 me d :.