Staunton spectator, and general advertiser. [volume] (Staunton, Va.) 183?-1849, 1839-08-08

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/; be that |, who am SO profus. in nv
cna.ities' so soft in my feeliDgs-am
wishing the death ola harmless. inoifen.
sive being, who has never crossed nv
PAIN VINO knows not of my existence
SUNDAY was passed-a warm bripb,
spring day--so calm, SO stli-the bus,Ie ol
business has ceased-ali seems quiet and
peaceful have been 10 church. Oh tina,
'ou'u j}'a Ia Tho prayers, and fluid III,
peace o' m'nd which all can find but me.
cannon with an unreqniied sin upun my soul
How il bears me down-mhat nm eiern,,
ioad-sleeping or waking, I am ever con.
scio1s OF II. The sermon 10 day, indeed ev
cry sunday, always seems directed TO me.
les ine-the wrongcr Of the h,berless
ne Clergyman always looks towards me
Cnn he divine ! Does he know? But these
arc foolish iancies. Oh how I wish could
never go 10 church! Cornelia, however.
| makes such point OF il, I cannot refuse
,houSh am always worse afterwards. As
placed my vile in our carriage, the most
tasteful and most costly in the ci;y-necks
we're stretched eagerly lor,h 10 obtain a
! sh"e, look or nod tom her. The wealth.
ies'' The mosI distinguished, pressed for ward
! 10 proiicf hand To me- Was I satisfied
'heh No! lenvied The honest me cLsn,c.
as he walked Ia his home possessed with an
! uosuiiied integrity. I envied the meanesf
VINO could say, there lived no human being
when he had injured
am blessed with beautiful and healthy
chiiuIen my wife ndores me, for ! am de-
voted husband and fond father Men esteem
me 'hey call me pattern Of integrity am
So IN all things but thai one act. Yes. as if
10 redeem my crime as much as possible. |
am over scrupulous in every moral duty
s"d especially severe n, correcting the leas,
apparent dishonesty in all under my control
10 The praises which are poure ed into NV
ears satisfy me /! NO-ihey sound like moc-
Kerry and yet cannot live without them.
mere IS secret consciousness " Thin me.
which turns all my blessings INTO curses, and
leaves me blasted tree-on which the dews
OF heaven may descend-ihe sun may shine.
ou' II can never, never blossom again.
have not sought my pen 10 relieve my
! suppressed feelings tor long time. have
conirived 10 drown thought, TO Danish care,
nave been gay-yes, gay--he life of
SOCIAL circle; aud have made Corneia hap
ny by my good spirits. How her noble
counienance is illuminated when she sees me
| apps'eniiy, free from care. We have been
IN constant round OF amusement. and ba>
n'shed TO the depths of my soul all dark re.
heclions-but was il happiness. Was it
gaiety which felt? How different from The
tfanqul delight OF soul at peace with itself
winch Can imagine, but Can never feel
no. never, much as hope Tor it, My sen.
sa'ioss are OF wretch WIN seeks relief IN
iaudanum for acute bodily jain. The agony
OF suffering may he luiIed, and wild deii,i i
um succeed /; but il Cannot be called enjoy
men!. This unnatural state, however. is o.
AM IL I, u,
was so fortunate as 10 possess q Young
man IN my employ. who is the perfection o +
men. lie was 10 matters OF business a sec
ono SELF lie bad the entire contIo oil of every
'h'ng, and was acquainted with all my CON
Germs, except that one dark spot-wh,cb
had he known it how he would have despis
ed me, whom he looked On as one of The first
oi human beings. He was every ding 10
me, so interchangeable, he seemed to live only
10 serve me and determined 10 place him
! III The path oi fortune II ii were in my power
One day he informed me he was on the
point OF marriage. wss pleased 10 hear j, :,
and resolved TO increase bis salary | had
been for longer time Than usua! in one nf
my cheerful moods. We were a, brcakias,
one morning, when Cornela, taking NJ The
newspaper, turned, as is usual with ladies',
hrsi 10 the marriages.
All Charles Leslie is married - she
misunderstanding the intelligence would
interest me.
Indeed" said I, "nnd what is the fair
ones name? Charles did moi mention i, TO
me-"
Louisa Seymour, said she, readiug from
The paper.
The cup fell from my hand ; felt as il
struck by thunder bolt. dark cloud
/ gathered over my lace, and ] rushed from
The room. Louisa Seymour ~ | cried, in
| Tory could he fnd no other name but that
TO blast me with: Are there not girls g.
[ nough Tor him 10 marry, but he must seek
her in her obscurily? suppose she will
/ have children too, 10 inherit their mothers
! rights, and never shall DC free from The
( load which Expresses me
! felt as ifLcslie bad done me some wrong
ana was irf''aied against him. when we
met, could scarcely bring myself 10 con-
| graduate HIM and il was done with very
VI grace. From that time, | never treated
BIN with The same friendIioess IS formerly.
Ills presence constantly irrtated me and
/ my dark hours grew more and more lfe-
quent IL Leslie had married that girl on
purpose TO torment me, could not have felt
more dIspieased with hm. lie uevcr could
/ act afterwards 10 my satisfaction ] found
iauii with every thing hc did !; and ~ ben he
informed me Of The birth Of a sOu, my ire
could no longer he fesirJned. In short, he
/ perceived he could moi remain with ne. He
! binted something OF The satnc-ani caught
OF II with svidny for I felt, sere he out OF
my s'9ht might grow Caimcr and once
more snake oil The weight " biCh dragged ne
down 10 lie lowest depths OF dependency
! We parted, and endea yored 10 dismiss Il, n,