The Madisonian. [volume] (Washington City [i.e. Washington, D.C.]) 1837-1845, 1839-08-17

me now too happy to endure long. excep
in remembrance as brief sunny spot amid
universe OF shadow and to me il is so-a
fatality seems TO attend even my fairest ex.
pectations--I am accustomed TO find my fond.
est hopes crushed at the moment OF their ac-
complshmeni. or oil that dear family moi
one individual remains they are swept of
from the face of the earth, and there is not
one 10 represent even the name. THE manu-
script here was so much efaced with tears,
that there was some paris | could no deci-
pher.
One day received letter from my father
at Paris, who wrote me that he was at the
capital on important business, that would in
fuence my future life; and a few days after
wards he came to us himself, and after pr-
vate conversation with my aunt, informed me
that ! must return with him; that was TO
reside with him at Paris. where he had pur-
chased house. Though observed my
aunt had been in tears, had no curiosity to
inquire into his projects. But should in
deed have been heartless, could have taken
leave of my affectionate friends and kind in
structress without sorrow; acute sensibiliiy
of feeling had been formerly my character
istic, and | now felt how utterly isolated
should be, absent from that dear home, where
! had tasted all the happiness of my life con-
centrated into few years.
My father was impatient TO depart, and with
heavy heart and deep felt sorrow, Quilted
my abode Of comparative peace and happi-
ness and during our journey my father in
formed me. that from important services he
mad rendered to the ministers of a secret ma
ture, the latter had at last Welded To his i'm
porfunltes and had created him n peer of
France. with a revision TO me, if married
as he ,cished, and he laid an emphasis on the
last words. | received the intelligence with
the greatest apathy at which my father was
dispeased, for he had now obtained the high
est object Of ambition for years past, and he
asked me sternly, if was insensible to the
honor replied that hoped he would long
survive his elevation, and that as his daughter
| should submit to his wishes in every thing.
| cannot describe the JOY this. submission az
forded him; | believe he expected should
rather have been rebellious to insist upon
making my own choice of husband, or that
| might already have made my selcciion.--
Alas ! how little he knew of what was pass
ing in my mind Once might have had that
wish-but now, now felt as steel spring
whose temper is gone, so that it may be
moulded at will
made my debut in society at bali given
by the Duchess de b. 1t was a bril-
liant assemblage Of rank and beauty, and ex-
citing for all bu. me, turned away heart sick,
and seated myself on an ottoman apart. Va
rious groups from time to time cast inquiring
looks upon my singular conduct. My father
at length came up to me.
i have been seeking for You every where,
Olivia" said he, "what ais you, are you i'll
wish to present young notlenan TO you,
particular friend OF mine !" and he whispered
in my ear. "pay him attention Tor my sake"
He quilted me, and returned in a few mi
nutes with raking young man, with pecli-
liar impressive countenance.
"This is the Count de Florville, my daugh
ter" said he, and he left us together.
The Count remained silent, looking, as |
thought, modestly embarrassed. expected
he would address himself to me, and felt
anxious 10 terminate teie-a-iete. In order to
break the awkward silence, invited him TO
sit down. This presume he took for an
invitation to intimacy, and seating himself and
taking fold of my dress in his hand, seemed
to examine it.
IuduHtt1OtStHt, " ltlIgtu, tutS
is a very pretty fabric"
Though Disguised with his manner, | could
not refrain from smiling.
Observing my father at little distance,
looking with an eye Of satisfaction towards
us. / requested M. lie Comte to call him
When my father came, pleaded indisposi,ion,
and implored him to quit the saloon and return
home, to which he at last reluctantly consent
ed, and after ticiturn ride home, | soon
found myself in my own room, and gave vent
to my feelings in tears.
After this introduction, the Count was fire.
auently vister at our hotel, and | soon per-
ceiyed the object ofmy father was a'marriage
between US, for which he appeared to have
some urgent reason, that was not acquant-
ed with. But as had given him reason to
suppose he should be implicitly obeyed on
this point, he left me still in ignorance re-
speeding the motive for wishing the union, and
was married to the Count de Florve.
had not been married many months, be-
fore found the manner and conduct of the
Count change by degrees into neglect, and
contemptuous and sarcastic reproaches. But
the same submissive spirit that led me to this
marriage, still deferred me from showing re-
sentiment, and assisted me in the sacrifice Of
inclination, to the duty this self.disposed yoke
entailcd upon me. Ii is true, had hoped by
the most untiring and unweared devotion,
and the greatest submission to my husband,
to conciliatc at least his good WILL But he
treated me as fool. and frequently told me
that my rich dover, TOR my fathers wealth
was boundess) was the price at which he per-
mtted himself TO be allied to a Bmgeoise, but
that when he took the old usurer's gold, he
thought at least his proud family would not
absolute IDIOT. To my father he had long shut
his doors, and forbidden ne to sec him, after
having. under various pretexts, drained him Of
the greatest portion of his wealth, and brought
him to comparative poverty. Often when my