Morning herald. [volume] (New York [N.Y.]) 1837-1840, 1839-06-06

stag Mr.. -, that should pleased TO accept of
your addresses again. You likewise asked whether
engaged 10 A,m But believe told you
strongly bound but that il was at nv option
to do as pleased. / then thought had Teasona BILE
excuse Tor disnssirg aim, aad wished you TO think
engaged; for then cherished secret hspe of
possessing YOU But whether that hope will ever be
realized u beyond my conception say. / have
talked wiki Mr. F'S respecting separation, and he is
rather unwilling To consent 10 l.. | told him for
what reasons i wished him 10 withdraw. One was
ny incapsbi.ity of sabiug him good wife another
was want Of love betwees US 10 make the married
life Happy. There is another for which should
refuse him; you, perhaps, surmise it, have
talked with MIN upon this Subject and he assures
need have nothing to fer that But place
dependence upoa that But you will say
i ought not to aave man In whom cannot con6de.-
But know what he is naturally lsclned and that
gives to mis,rust him. He owns to nae that
he told many transactions in Boston that never
acted. and solics me to have better opinion Of him
than to think tsey real lie said he did it dis.
cover whether was Of jealous temper, and to try
NY l-ve. You will say he has nattered me- and that
you th-sght had mind capable enough to discern
that il is hauery. But William. tell him il is only
said delsde me- sincerely believe that il fatte
ry. believe he thought his talking me in that kind
of wsy as he expresses H. his nonsense me, would
produce too serious consequences. o, William, feel
If the verge of ruin. BY uniting myself
him must bid adeu 70 happiness. He has not i am
sensible love enosgh for me- last him six months az
the indissoublc knot is tied. 1t must make me
forever unhappy 10 him appear cold me- and act
n 1 unworthy oil love attention and such
my fancy pictures 10 me viii be my situation, if unite
my destiny with his. Why he suffers his attentions to
be directed towards me now, cannot conceive He
snys il is because he has ardent love for Ift u.s.
he las very odd way OF manifesling il indeed 1
many times hi.k lac i, very uRssppy in my company
thisk Ne will make excellent husband, if he gets
that is worthy of him. and one that he sincerely
loves. But AN not that person and yet l dare
refuse him. He has thought that IL is my intention to
dismiss him. and has said we cannon separate wthsat
creating enmity between his family and mine. can.
not bear TO be looked with eye of dlsdan by the
members Of his family, by whom have always been
treated with great respect cannot say whether
| have love enough for him But I must
confess, his appearing so careless TO at timss
makes act rather indifferent to him. do not
tnink Providence ineHded should meet for our
views aud feelings extremely different Bat what
IL be my fate and who is unite their destiny with
mise, is yet unknowsl You must know have always
had great regard for you ever since became is.
mate. | wish II was So that could encourage yosr
love, il would be gratifying to my IN Their and other
friends and will not blush 10 that il will be
qualification myself. fear this is the last time
shall ever have the consciousness Of knowing thar your
heart is unengsged IL ever / behold you again, some
other distng sished female will occupy ysur thoughts
But why should wish il any otherwise, situated as
AMI Its because have a great esteem for you. |
cannot expect that you will wait any longer for me- nor
absent yourself from the company Of females whose
character and manners you may esteem.
And now, what more shall write 7 What more can
write. have discovered % you my feelings and my
~
for being thus explicit IN owning you my real situa
ton. But must write you the impulses of my mind,
must write At all BE assured yop shall ever
hold place ~ my heart and in return, ask you TO
forget Asrer but retain my name in your memory If
in your affections Despise Aot, divulgisg you
my real sentiments. place great confidence in you
and know | can depend upoa your fidelity. dent
know hgtyou may think have accused Mr.. F~ in this
letter Of of love for without cause, were
satisfied that he always enjoyed himself in my company,
the knowledge Of IT would, in some degree make me
happy. Ihave kept company with him so long, that II
is impossible for 10 feel ter bins some degree of
tenderness | will inform you, that IN few weeks
sister HFs~t&*s il 10 be married 70 MIR Rf*f*S*Tr.
They anticipating great deal Of happiness, and
see nothing to prevent H. Mother talks OF visiting
H*s+t*s** this fall or winter and If she goes think
4 shall visit Mis- F****'**s. 1 woula be happy TO
speed week with her, if could find passage back
III do not 90 10 H.sstst" Ihink shall spesd v,ek
in Ss*ssss*s this wister. Mother senas her best re
CARDS 10 you and says she shall ever remember you
AS friend, sincerely dear, you will exist in the
memory Of Ms L. Ns*1sss.