Rutland herald. [volume] (Rutland, Vt.) 1823-1847, 1838-01-02

10 surprise the start that lnyolun,arily made
before called pride 10 and in suppressing
any further exhibition of emotion. The mr.
Engagements were gone through, the time
appointed the dresses made, and none
guessed the fatal secret that was quivering
at my hearts core.
Ny aunt, delighted at the eligible match
her favorite daughter was about 10 make,
was proiuse IN her generosity, and for the
first time made no distinction in the mate
-itb's which Try dross was composed, from
tina, of her daughters. The dreaded time
came. and all my philosophical nay wo-
mans pride was called up TO meet 1t with
calmncss and apparent indifference : but
the trial was too much for my strength, "A
burning fever seized on my overweight
nerves. and George was married while lay
in burning anguish on sick bed. Fortu-
nately. the unusual hustle engaged every
body too much to permit them TO pay much
attention to me, and rcioced in the soli-
tude that their neglect created.
arose from that sick bed stern, and cold,
and proud. None lived TO love me. and |
loved none. The dream of youth, that
robes life IN the golden hncs of poetry and
romance, had passed, and awoke, believ-
ing that could live on without feeling any
warmer emotion than mere passing esteem
creates 10 The bosom Fool that was thus
to be self deceived had yet to learn that
our deep susccptlbiltjes arc given us as
strong evidences that earth is not our abid-
ing place, and the strong cravings of our
heart for reciprocated affections, the best
pledge that higher and happier state of
existence awaits us, after which we are for
ever unconsciously signing.
A year elapse and George wa. a drunk
ard and his wife unhappy. The surprising
beauty that had captivated his fancy had
already faded and her weak and tickle mind
and spoiled temper, rendered her the very
worst companion for a man of his ardent
and lmpetuous temperament.
About this period | met with young
man nearly my own age and extremely hand
some had always been a great admircr
of beauty, for the very reason that was to-
tally deficient in personal charms, and look
ing on him as mere child, openly cX
pressed the strong admiration | entertained
for him. How was ! surprised 10 find that
in this handsome youth had met lover
Warm aud impassioned in his manners, and
ardent in all his pursuits, he never ceaseo
soliciting my hand until had promised to
become his wife. He was the master Of or
unencumbcrcd fortune, and could act as be
pleased and in six months after first me
him, became the wife of one Of the hand
soonest men had ever seen. The compar
sons that sometimes met my ear were un
pleasant and nvidious, but Henry loved M
and was for time happy.
became a mother, and my long pcnt "
affections found full exercise in the new an,
delightful emotions that maternity callet
forth. Nv infant confined me at home, anC
Henry soon began to tire of playing III,
nurse. 1t is fatal error that many youn:
7 morthers commit, that Of bestowing thei
undivided attention on their first infant ant
too suddenly ccasing to pay those little flat
p tcrlng attentions to their husbands that form
t the strongest tie on their affections. HEM
= still lovcd-stil was proud Of what he wa
pleased to call my superior inteIlect-bu
, he wearlcd Of confinement, and sought a
broad for that amusement he had hithcrt
, shared with me. ! thus cut myself off fror
I society, and neglecting all personal embcl
q lshmcnts, sank lntoa perfect slattern. NJ
child employed my whole time. and as ha
, never loved Henry with that devotion ha,
I felt for George Manp, troubled myself bu
/ little with his amusements. Judge then III
) horror when learned by accident that Hen
5 ~ had formed an armour with beau;liu
j, but silly girl, in fashionable life, and that III
5 consequence were likely TO be fatal to he
$ reputation and peace of mind,
c My eyes were opened 10 my error ! Oh
o not reproach him. but went again IN soc
d ety-aeain gathered the young and gay be
f meath his own roof; for observation ha
n taught me that show and parade are the be'
d modes of stopping the torrent Of slande
n My parties were thronged, and NC were il
, ylted every where but alas, confidence u
Y longer existed between my husband and ml
II self had never liked 10 20 abroad, an
J. now that the demon Of jealousy was awakcl
is ed la my heart, Hooked on Heurys after
v lions 10 handsome women with an intolcrs
BILE heart burning which IcouId not concea
Y Twas again about to become q mother, b,
J. very different were my feelings nov fror
~ those had formerly entertained. locke
d with dread 10 nv long confinement aud cor