Rutland herald. [volume] (Rutland, Vt.) 1823-1847, 1838-01-02


circumstances 10 wiring aud break proud
heart like mine. lIenrys 6rtune YVES great /.
" impaired, and ! and bis two sons were
baIcl, left n competency
You will say that surely never again did |
embark in so uncertain ,ouery: but No-
mans heart is made 10 loy~, and though the
conviction strongly pressed itself on my
mind that | was deficient in those charms
that attach the other ses vet IN two years
after Henrys unt'mel,- f...'.h vac, sgan
wife can scarcely tell how this happen
cd, for married . man again whose person
alCualitjcs were greatly superior TO his men
tai powers. He was exceedingly VAN. aud
believe was ashamed Of my want OF that
which he so highly priced IN hmseIi--per-
sonal beauty. He confined me as much as
possible at home and have often wonuer-
ed why he married ne, for | scarcely think
he ever felt any affection for any thug but
himself | was soon released from the tenn
porary dclusion of believing loved hum,
and wrarsomo indeed was the bondage
endured with that weak. silly, handsome
man. His constitution was delicate, and he
died leaving me quite poor. But the moth
cr was all awake within my breast, and |
thought il no hardship 10 labor tor those be-
loved ones. Ny SONS were fine, promising
boys. and felt pride in their possession
quiet happiness in knowing that none dl-
vidcd their warm young hearts with me-
| exclaimed thousand times, All, they love
me not the less that | am not handsome and
those who possess even an ordinary share OF
/ beauty cannot imagine how consong TO my
/ wounded heart was this reflection. had
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devoted my time TO them entirely; aud that
| Icould not afford. as their subsistence de
pended upon my daily labor. This induced
me to offer myself as teacher, and j sue
ceeded. For several years Taught alone /;
! but as my school increased, and my children
grew larger, could not bear TO be separated
from them and Ientered into school as
! subordinate teacher in which young gem
tlcman named Bellman was principal. lie
was an exceedingly handsome man. and as
talented as he was handsome. His mind,
clear and strong, drew an uncrrlng line be
tween the truths and sophlsms OF SCIENCE,
and his manners were as bland and graceful
as his heart was benevolent and kind.
do not know how il happened, but per-
haps ! had contracted "A prejudice against
very handsome men; and had somehow CON
nected an idea of mental imhecilty with
masculine beauty--ihat looked on Bell
man with a sort Of dislike; and 1t was not
until discovered how many good qualities
he possessed, that ! awarded him even a
common share of esteem. About this time
the measles broke out in the school, and my
sons-they whom / all but dollzed- hey
who alone in the wide world loved Inc
were taken. Tongue cannot express the
anguish lcndured as their glazing eyes were
fixed on mine, and felt the current Of life
fast ebbng away beneath the pressure OF
my fingers. They ded--one grave recciv-
ed them both--and jhad nothing TO live for.
Months rolled round, and the apathy OF
grief still shrouded me in Its sulIen folds.
could not be resigned TO God; | fell that
! mine was too severe destiny, and rebel
led against him.
One cold evening sat in my solitary n,
/ partment, alone and suffering. | had par
ted, one by one, with the little comforts
that surrounded me, to protract that life
/ that was burthcnsome, and yet that fear
ed 10 lay down. A knock came TO my
door, and Bellman entered. His manners
1 had always been kind and friendly and
now they were particularly respectful and
I soothing He came to propose to me II
resume my situation as teacher IN hls acad.
envy and he urged so many reasons, in SC
, gentle and kind manner, that acceded
G. 4 whole year taught in the same apart
r mcnt with this graceful and amiablc mar
without becoming sensible of the DANCE
4 10 which was exposing my too keen sus
capabilities. ! felt the strongest friendship
= for him, and admired his personal grace
! while | respected his moral worth On,
I day accidentally overheard conversation
. 10 which could not avoid being listener
p between himself and thoughtless young
0 man. Heavens, Beiman what a shock
. ing ugly woman that teacher Is Why dom
4 Won have somebody pretter to look al -
70 "Oh, she IS ygiy, allow was the reply
% "but she is very clever, and have grea
p friendship for her. ''-"Friendship coulC
!. not feel any thing but disgust for so ugly
4 woman. "-"Of course one could not loy,
n her said BelIman, hut her plainness nee,
4 not create disgust: Oh the contrary, shout,
70 suppose that II would excite sympathy. -