The Charlotte journal. [volume] (Charlotte, N.C.) 1835-1851, 1838-07-06
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THE BASHFuL NAN.

BY THE AUTHOR OF THE vEsTAL; OR \
TALE OF PoMPEI."
Let him who mas never suffered from the
horrors OF bashfulness, pass BY this article.
He will find here nothing with winch he
can sympalhise. But he who knows the
exquisite misery of temperament, whose
very nature almost shuts HIN out from hu-
rnan sympathy, while IL opens upon hun the
full sluices Of laughter and rIdlcue, he only
should read, for he only can understand,
this chapter of my sutierings. Ii is but a
specimen Of my life. Er uno disco oalaes.
To all others 1t will be only sealed iouu.
tain; and as they pass II by 10 the proud
consciousness of the nnspeakable blessing
OF impudeace, let them thank heaven that
its waters can never flow for them.
As my object is but TO give a specimen
of the numerous contre temps that lnces
sanity beset me, the moment | appear IN
ladies' society, shall merely speak OF those
that befel me at the only dinner ~ PARIS 10
which Sas invited. Though laden with IN.
,roductory letters, never delivered another.
pass by the various efflris made, be
fore could muster sutflclent resolution 10
delivor TO Madame o., the one that pro-
cured for me, and friend who come with
me, the dinner 10 question. pass by, too,
nv trepldation al the everlasting peal with
which the bell responded to ny tlmld touch.
Scarcely could | Distinguish the Pdrie= au
Suisse, over the porter's lodge, where pro
badly Swiss never stood since lts erection.
| pass by, too several MINOR biunder- ];
such as asking the porter to direct Us TO Ia
chdmbre de .Mdddme," meaning her draw
ing room. Suffice II 10 say, that ny less
nervous companion, dictionary 10 hand
boldly led the way that having lraversed a
goodIy number Of courts aud stairs, We at
length arrived IN safety at an ante room,
whore stood sfyant before pair Of fold
ing doors, which be threw vide opea and
announced US by pair Of names, that We
should never have recognised as our own,
had we met them elsewhere.
Already ag,taied, and psrspiring with
nervous trepidatInn, this psientalious mode
Of entrance, SO different from the republ
can simplicity 10 which vas accustomed.
was lnr,nsdable trial 10 ne. Ny cheeks
tlngled, my kness lrembied, and my heart
beat violently. slunk slenrly behiud nv un.
abaslied companion, and epdeavored 10 gath.
er sufficient courage 10 conceal the treinof
thai shook me like all ague fit. Ma lame
.. rose 10 receive Us; and, as W. approach.
ed n-r, It became necessary that ! should
depfoye from behind my friend. But ~ 80
dong. ! d.d not notice large pet dog, who,
comfortably stretched on red velvet cush.
ion, lay nappng beside his mistress, d..
recliy 10 my path. OnI vent, anxious only
10 get through the introductory ceremonies
as soon as possible, and then TO ensconce
myself 10 some remote corner where.
Ibe world forgetting, By the world forgot"
| urght escape all notice or remark. But
truly says The French proycrh, +" Lhomne
Sc propose, mas, C. est ie bon Uieu que Dis.
pose :" and very unfortunate were MS dis.
positions for my intention. As FASTENED
on, all glowing with confusion, aud ouskiny
with fright. just as | began my bow.
stumbled over The deies,ed pei, and was
suddehy 3r-cipiaied head foremost ike An
ancient baftering ran, into The lap of ,lls-
r.; overunnng eplsodically counirytnau
of my Own who was seated next her, b,l.
ancng bis chair Oh It's tvo bind legs. 10
save himself, be iBsiinctivey grasped the
back Of her chair; and his weight at her