Cheraw gazette and Pee Dee farmer. [volume] (Cheraw S.C.) 1838-1839, 1838-11-28

| Here | had a severe rugg H. with myself
bnt it woul seem, that my guardian angel
had left me; for soon got my consent TO
continue 10 take, mill had made oat one
hundr d.; for the fear Of detection had mea.
surabIy worn away, wLicl, made me lay the
drawer of my employer under more fire.
uuent contributions. still promised N.Y.
so,f, that would replace this money. But
rs the amount increased. the time OF rcPlac-
inr it, became more and more distant. Af-
ter the hundred was filed up; had another
connic. with myself. but concluded to take
TWO hundred. and abandoned for ever, the
idea Of replacing it. Here let me say, |
murdered the last remains Of conscience,
and bid adeu II honesty; for in truth, my
purpose was to get just as much as | could.
Detection " all that | feared; and the fear,
even of detection, had measurably passed
away. During the whole Of this time, |
wasin the habit Of visiting Miss NJ, and
soon was led to believe, that my society was
not unpleasant to her. My suit was con-
tinued, until we were pledged to each oh"
er; and the nup'ial day was appointed. l
determined, so soor as we should be mar
ried, that would leave the house where |
was doing business, and turn my attention
to some other employment. As my stay
in the store, grew short, drew more and
moro heavily on the drawer; but as there
was yet some fear OF b:ing discovered, |
could not gather as fast as | wished. In
order to make the best could of my time,
| began to take goods; and from time TO
time, when opportunity would offer, put
away into my trunk such articles as lho't
would be serviceable to myself or pleasing
to my intended. The time OF our union
drcw near, but fsw days only, when the
suspicious, under which my employer had
been laboring for some time, became so
strong, that he determined TO know the
worst. My eagcrncss 10 obtain funds, had
led me to take so largely, that i: was evident
something was wrong. My kind employ
er informed me, i,;t a cloud was hanging
over me, which would have TO be dssipaied,
before could ever marry that girl; calling
Miss NJ by name. These words Of my
employer, drove 10 my heart like thunder.
bolt. felt that ir the midst of my exulta"
tatioa was stricken. saw all my anticI.
patcd bliss w;thcr in an instan';--though |
affected surprise, that any such thing should
be thought Of! But had been seen in The
possession Of moro money, than 1t was
thought, | could have come by honesty;
and was required 10 account for the way in
which ! Obtained it. tried lying; but my
story was not well maturcl, and my state.
ments were at varicnce with each other; for
gully man cannot reason well, and an
innocen, one will not lie; and falsehocd,
generally carries its own refutation with it.
4, l-nc:h Mr.. w. told nc plainly. that
had been stealing from HIM; Of which he was
satisfied, end that. my trunk would tell the
truth. ! saw at once, concealment was
impossible. Then it was, that the sen
!cncc YOU are thief came home 10 my
heart. Ny first thought. was of my NJ;
and cntrea,ed with my injured employer,
TO lie. my guilt sleep forever, that she might
be nine. But he was too honest TO con-
ceal my guilt; and the object Of my atfec-
lions, too pure, too lovely, to be The wife Of
rogue. lie that had hitlero, been my
friend, and treated me as brother, now
bade me leave his house. The Young n
dy was advised of my guilt forthwith; lest
| should hurry her in'o marriage before
she should be a2prised Of my dissrace.-
Guilty as was. verturedto sec her ono +,
more. before should set ouf, for, | knew no
where. saw her; and told her plainly
the story of my ruin. She heard me
through, and bade me 90, where | never
woall be heard OF again by any person who
had ever known me; and while others
blame and curse me, it is possible, she
blames and plies. Oh! Iwould remcm-
Der her still, were it not, that the name OF
one so pure, should never find way to The
hear, of one so corrupt as mine. | bade
her farewell; fed from her presence, with
feelings Of unmixed djspair, and bounded
along the streets like. wild beast. The
night was dark; which, well suited my feel
ings and guilty condition. Tne thousands
around me, were wrapped mthe slumbers
Of night; only here and there, pale light
was seen 10 flicker from tho chamber win.
dows, as pressed forward 10 ward an inn,
which knew to be stage stand, mend
ing to 80 with the first departure. Twas
received by an old servant. who kept vigIls
for those who keep lac hours. Atl,r in.
forming me-, that no stage would leave I'll
about daylight, he showed me TO aroom
( entered, bad: him retire, AMI take the
candle with him,--that could make ou
without a light. He lef-l threw myself
into chair which sat pn the hearth; ant
resting my head against the mantle,
passed night OF suffering, ne'er surpas.
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