The Rhode-Island Republican. [volume] (Newport, R.I.) 1809-1841, 1837-03-29

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His whole tone was strangely indicative of
qulckness of perception, freshness and bril-
liancy of intellect, and most delicate eye
for beauty; and in the mere bagdteile of
conversation, there was refinement of
luxury aud sentiment pervading i: which
plainly said, " 81 je ne suis pas la rose j'ai
yecu Oh ellie e,oit."
was awakened from the reyerie into
which his even flow of language and poet
zeal images had thrown me, by summons
To the piano, and saw no more of him until
he took leave; but long call the next day
followed by walks, rides, dances and feto
tsfe at all the succeeding parties, did not
allow this first impression To fade away.
Again letter of disappointment came
from Edward; but as there was still n
chance of his returning by the next packet,
he intended waiting its arrival. Forester
was in the drowing-room when the letter
was brought, aud my vanity was not little
iiattered by the qualification which ITS con-
tents evidently afforded him. Mine, fear
was not less apparent, for his eye rested
upon me with an expression of delight and
interest that | could not mistake. 1t COM
p!etely awoke me, and for the first time
saw all the unhappiness | was preparing
for myself and my dearest friends. "No,
it must not be-" said !, as hurried TO my
room uftcr he had left. "It shall not be.
Thank God my heart is still my own, and
to Henry will | surrender it, unbreathed
upon by mortal. Poor Henry, If lie knew
what dangerous rivn! lies in his path, Inc
would hardly lingcr SO long on his way"
opened my desk and took out his last
letter and was even more touched with It's
anectonate play fulncss and deep tone Of
interest, than had been when first read
il. l rcpcrused letter after letter, with the
same happy effect mot SO very danger
Gus "a rival, either" thought /, as closed
my desk. I felt myself rcassurcd, and
when Fanny afterwards rallied Inc upon my
growing interest in her friend, it was with
the earnestncss of truth itself that assured
her of my indifference. To confirm her IN
the belief of my assertion, as well as to
strengthen my own good resolutions, l de-
clined joining little party at her house the
next evening, and was rewarded for my
hcroism by four of the most stupid uncom-
Portable hours ever spent in my life.
The following evening there was TO be Il
party ut my aunt's, and as il had been made
expressly for me, I could not well decline
but reassurcd myself that ms il was 10 large
need not fear being subjected to Mr. For
rcster's exclusive attention. ] might have
saved myself all inquielude upon the sub
ject, for hn bowed without speaking TO me.
Dance after dance succeeded and he did
not approach me, and when by chance
met his eye, it was Immediately nyerted. ,
tried to supper my; usual gay manner,
but my efforts wcnried me, aud pleading
head -ache to my father, left the room Mt an .
early hour.
" How hate caprice" thought !, rs we
descended the steps but did not feel IN
clincd to repeat this mental reservation
quite so bitterly, when, MS we drove of, |
heard the servant coll his carriage, and at
the instant his graceful figure darkencd the
brilliant entrance. | did not stop to renson
upon this little incident, or should probn-
bly have been convinced that there was
nothing peculiar in gentlemon's leaving
party at an curly hour; but it certainly
mndc me feel much less unhappy than
had been for many days, and before went
to sicep'thc brigh, thought dawncd upon
me, that Fanny must have said something
to him to have produced this change Of
manner. She might have thought i, but
just to her brother Henry, to tell him upon
what terms we stood, and 10 assure him
Of my total Indifference TO every one else.
formed plan after plan for discovering
what she bad said, and could hardly com
pose myself for my Impotence to put them
into execution; but at leigh sleep came to
inc, and happy dreams nearly compensated
me for my days inquictudc.
The following wecn persevercd in my
good resolutions. even sent Il letter of
welcome to New York for Henry but in |
spite of all my efforts, it was cold and for
NAL. My time was spent IN regrets, hopes
and surinises. II was true that Forester
had never declared himself my lover; but
was not playing a double part IN proffer-
inp affections TO Henry, which, disguise II
as / would, felt were not mine to bcstow.
Of what wayward materials is this wo-
mans heart Why had mine been ever
closed against all protesta,ions oi love only
to declare itself bankrupt when affection
and duty sent in its demand For the Grs,
time I felt awsre how little our affections
ora under our own control As well nigh, |
we expect the violet to withhold its perfume
from the passing breeze rs that warm
heart will refuse its treasure OF affection to
one formed by nature and education to
svtnnpatbise 10 oil It's finest feelings aud emo
tons. We may disguise the sentiments;
we may return cold answer and an aver
ted eve, when the heart is yearning With
tenderness; but it struggles the more for
the restraint, and makes the bosom prison
Of wretchedness.
At length the announcement Of Hcnrys
arrival reached us, and they were To JOIN US
at late hour Of the day. was awakened