Vandalia Whig and Illinois intelligencer. [volume] (Vandalia, Ill.) 1832-183?, 1833-05-08

lures of the enchantment, we are blessed with pow
er to discover glory in all things,we are as magi
cians---we are as gods 1--we not contented---wt
demand more---custom touches both eyes-and 10
the vision is departed, and we are alone In the vii
derness again!
One evening after one of our usual quarres and re-
cancellations Julias spirit seemed raised into more
than usual reaction. There were three or four Of
her friends present--a sort of paryher cousins (the
fortune seekers) among the rest-and she was the
life of the circle. In proportion to her galety was
my discomfort il fanced she combined with the wild
ow who evidently wanted to ''show me off, IN her
damnabe phrase, as her sisters wooer and this
is a position in which toleraby fastidious man
likes to be placed add to this, my readers very
well know that people who have no inelegance when
subdued throw off thousand little groSSterltleS when
they are elated No ordeal is harder for young and
lovely woman, who has not been brought up concen-
tionally, to pass with grace, than that of her own
unrestrained merrulent. Levity requires polish in
PROPORTION to your interest in the person who INDUCES
it and evy in his mistress almost always dlspleas-
ing to passionate lover Love is so very grave and
SO very refined deity. In short, every instant add
ed TO nv secret veXation | absolutely colored with
rage at every Jest banded between poor Julia and
her compapions | swear think | could have beat
her with safe conscience. The party went; now
came my turn. remonstrated-Julla rephed-we
both lost our temper; anced then was entirely III
the right; but now alas will believe my self wrong
it is some sacrifice to a dread memory to own it.
"You always repine at my happiness" said julia,
ssto be merry in your eyes is always crime; can
not bear this tyranny; | am not your wife, and
if | were, would not bear it. If dlsPlease you
now, what shall do hereafter"
ssBut, my dear Julia, you can so easily avoid the
little peculiarites dislike. Believe me unreasona-
ble--perhaps ans 1t is some pleasure to gener-
Gus mind to sacrifice to the unreasonableness OF one
we love. In word, own it frankly, If you meet all
my wishes with this obstinacy, we cannot be happy,
and-and-"
al Tuli with cd vpha
hemence, 81 see what you would say you are tired
of me; YOU feel that do not suit your ideal notions.
You thought me all perfect when you designed me for
your victim; but now that you think something is
to be sacrificed your part, you think only of that
paltry sacrifice, and demand OF me an impossible
perfection in return!''
There was so much truth in this retort that it
stung me to the quick. 1t indicate, perhaps
in Julia to use tit was certainly unwIse.
turned pale with anger.
"Madam,n began, with that courtesy which con-
veys all reproacb
ssMadam,n repeated Julia, turning round ,-her
lips parted---her eyes flashing through her tears-
alarm -gref-but also Indignation quivering in every
muscle---t!is it come to this ?! Go!---Let us part
nv love ceases since see yours is over! Were you
twice as wealthy, twice as proud---l would not hum
BILE myself to be beholden to your justice instead of
your Affection Aforementioned God!-rather
would have sacrificed myse--given up all to you---
than except one advantage from the man who con-
siders it an honor.-Let US part"
julia had evidently conceived the word had used
cold and bitter respect, as an irony on her station
as well as proof of coldness but did not stop to
consider whether or not she reasonably provok-
ed her disdain for the sacrifice thought so great
CALLED me---the violence of her passion reyoted.-
thought only of the escape she offered me---"Let us
part',-rang in my ear like IA reprieve to a convict
/ rose at once, took my hat calmly --and not till
reached the door did l reply.
HEnough, Julia---we will part for ever. You will
hear from me tomorrow for the last time"
left the house and trod as on air. My love for
Julia, long decreasing, seemed crushed at once.
imae med her former genteness all hypocrisy FL
thought only of the termagant had escaped. con-
graduated myself that she having broken the chain
/ was free and with honor. did not then--no-nor
till it was too late-recal the despair printed on her
bueless face when the calm low voice OF my resou-
ton broke upon her ear and she indeed she had
lost me forever. That image rises before me now;it
will haunt me TO my grave Her features pale and
locked---the pride, the resentment all sunk liner
ced III one ncredulous, Wild stony aspect OF desert
ed love- All alas .---could but have believed that
she felt so deeply wrote to her the next day kind
ly and temporarily, but such tone made the wound
ieeper---I babe her farewell for ever. To her sister
| wrote more fully said our tempers were so tho
roughly unsuited, that rational hope of happiness
in our union could exist for either. besought her
not to persuade or induce her sister to marry the suit
err who had formerly addressed her. unless she could
return his affection. Whomsoevcr she married, her
fortune should be my care Doubtless IN little
time some one would be to her dear as once had
fancied myself to be. "Let,'' said, "no disparity
In fortune, then, be obstacle on either side will
cheerfnlly give up half my own to redeem whatever
afflicuon may have occasioned her With this let.
ter entirely satisfied my conscience.
1t is almost incredible to think in how short time
the whole of these events had been crowded-within
how few weeks had concentrated the whole history
of loye.-it first mysterious sentiment--its ardent
passion--ts deserion-its coolness--its breach-its
everlasting farewell.
In four days received letter from Jua's sister,
(mone from Julia) 1t was written in tone of pert
and hppant insolence which made me more than ever
reconcied to the turn of events but it contained one
niece ofnews did not hear with indiference.-Ju
had accepted the offer of her former sutton, and
to be married next week. s!She bid me say (wrote
the widow that she at once through your pre-
tence under an affected wish for her happiness, to
prevent her forming this respectable connection; she
sees that YOU still the right to dictate to her
and that your offers of generosity merely the con-
descentions of fancied superiority ;she assures you
however, that your wish for her happiness already
realized ;"
This undeserving and insulting message completed
Inv conquest over any lurking or regret and
did not in my resentment at Julia's injustice per-
ceve how much it was the operation OF wounded
vanity upon despairing heart.
IstiIl fingered in town; and, some days afterwards,
went to dine in the neighborhood of Westminster,
at the house OF one of the most ovial of boon COM
nanions. had for some weeks avoided society the