Delaware State journal, advertiser and star. [volume] (Wilmington, Del.) 1832-1833, 1833-05-17
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| EXPERIENCE AND RESOLUTION.
| How happy some DER others some can be.
Shukespear.
| am now far advanced in life, aud a r so
luton which / adopted in boyhood has never
forsook me. The inquiry naturally is, what
was that resolution 1t is in few words
that l would never marry. 1t is necessary
here to explain the cause of my singularity.
When was quite young, perhaps not more
than sixteen years old, conceived very
great fondness for one Of my schoomates
She was lively, interesting, pleasing girl OF
about my own age. She was not beautiful,
but there was a certain playtulness and gaity
of disposition about her which completely
fascinated and enchanted me. Ills strange
it should have been so, for had always been
gloomy and reserved. l was now happy, but
my happiness was of short duration. One
of my associates was attracted by her charms
wooded her--and was rejected. My sor-
row sat heavily upon me- l was asked to
tell my distress, though every one knew 1T
and by own shiness denied myself the conf
fort of the coincidence of my frends.-l was
miserable.
was a few years older when was again in
love. The object of my alteration this time,
was one whom the world called beautiful
The morning of seventeen summers had not
vet dawned upon her rosy countenance when
] saw her at a public assembly. determii'-
, ed if possible to become acquainted with her,
and know the virtues which every one said
she possessed. This accomplished with less
: difficulty than | anticipated. The more
, saw of her, the better WAS pleased, until
at length avowed the passion which preyeo
upon my spirits. She received my declara'
ton of love, and assured me the passion was
: mutual. Now thought !, am secure OF the
fl..- IL. ht1S,
and surely shall be happy.-l was happy )
Mt least as much 50, as an ardent admrer O
woman can be- Shortly after the consum
nation of my earthly felicity. | was called
S from my home by Indispensable business
t We took leave of each other affectionately
, fondly. At the expiration of several week
o returned home. How delicious were m.
c feelings when flew to embrace her, but how
II palsied was every effort to stir when say
e the expression of her eye. Instead OF thu
IS beam of Joy which l expected to see dartih
is from her searching black eye, was met by
d look which froze my very soul. 1t was cold
,e distant. and of a nature which recognize
Up me merely as a casual acquaintance. wa
Id frcnzied-I was in despair. Inc cause
a this sudden revulson of feeling, never coul
ly understand, as she studiouSly avoided an
in conversation on the subject. Again were M
ct prospects blighted-my hopes prostratcd
n, and guided solely by the poignancy OF m
" feelings, / formed resolution which ha'
s. never regretted. Although time has lol
he since cast his grey mantle over my head,
or warn me that the moment when l shall emit
a new state of existence is not far distant, y
lat my memory will frequently wander to tn
ut, period of my life. The scenes OF those da
lat throw shade of gloom over my mind whe
,or ever think of them. Is not this enough
mt make me misogamist9 Is 1T not enough
he make me sick, heart! appear tothe "ori