Vandalia Whig and Illinois intelligencer. [volume] (Vandalia, Ill.) 1832-183?, 1833-05-08

luTeW from neT Hnger pretty pam that idu
once admired, and she said very timidly,
eff, sir, you will condescend to accept this--''
! heard no more; vow that my heart melted with
! in me at once, and tears down my cheeks almost
as fast as they did down Julias; the incident
simple--the sentiment it yelled touching and
so youthful. took the ring and kissed it-Jua yet
lingered--l saw what was at her heart though she
dared not say it. She wished also for some little
remembrance of the link that had been between us,
but she would not take the chain pressed upon her
it was too costly; and the only gift that pleased,
and she last accepted, was ring not half the value
even of her own. This little interchange, and the
more gentle and less passionate feelings to which it
gave birth, seemed to console her; and when she left
me, it was with steadier step and less dropping
air. Poor julia staid in that desolate spot till
the last glimpse of thy light form vanished from my
gaze.
i In the whole of life there is passage in it
so ssweary, stale, and unprofable,'' as that which
follows some episode OF passion broken abruptly off
Stl loving, yet forbid the object love, the heart
sinks beneath the weight Gifts craving affections
] There is event to the OBSERVATION-DISCLOSURES listess-
Mesa weary and distasteul apathy fill up the dull
hatness of the hours--Time creePs before us visiby
we eehis hour glass and his scythe-and loose
1 all the charm of life the moment made SEN
sible of its presence
resolved to ravell fixed the day ofmy departure.
i Would to heaven that had been permitted to car
ry, at least that purpose into effect About three days
before the one had appointed for leaving London,
met suddenly in the street my friend Anne the eldest
of the damsels to whom | had played the sercerer.
She knew, of course, of my love for Julia, and had
assisted Ill interviews found that she now knew
of our separation. She called upon Julia, and the
sister had told her all and demonstrated with her for
her connvance at our attachment. The girl describ-
ed the present condition of Julia in the most melan
choly colors She SAID she passed the day aloue--
and the widow had confessed) for the most part in
tears-that her health was breaking beneath effort
which her imperfect education, feeding her magma
ton at the expense of the reasoning faculty, and fur
nishing her with no resources, i'll prepared her to
sustain. And with her sister, however well meaning
she had no sympathy She found in her support,
and but seldom even companionship.
i This account produced great revulsion in my
mind. Hitherto had at least consoed myself with
the belief that had acted the true spirit of tender
ness to Julia, and in that hope had supported my
self. Now all thought, prudence, virtue vanished
beneath the idea of her unhappness. | returned
home and in the impulse of the moment wrote to hel
passionate and imploring letter. besought her tc
fly with me. | committed the letter to my servant
foreigner, well-used to such commissions; and il
a state of breatbless fever awaited the reply. II
came--the address in Julia's writing opened
1t with sort OF transport--my own letter re-
turned unopened--the cover contained these few
i words -
i 81 have pledged myself to return your letters il
case you should write to me, and keep my word
dare not--darc not open this; for cannot tell YOU
what it costs me to keep my resolution. had nc
idea that it would be impossible to forget you
that should be SO unhappy. But though will moi
trust myself to read what you have written, know
well how full kindness every word is, and feel if
had read the letter; and it makes wickedly hap
py to think you have not yet forgotten me, though
you soon must. Pray do not write to me again.
beseech you not you value the little peace that is
left to me. And so, sir, no more from Julia, who
prays for you night and day, and will think Of you
as long she lives"
| What was to do after fhe receipt of this letter
So aress was Julia, every word that ought to have
dissuaded me from molesting her more, seemed to
make it impossible to refrain. And what a corrobo
ration in these lines of all had been told! waited
till dark. repaired with my servant to that part of
| the town in which Jua's sister resided. recon-
noitered the house. Sand how" asked |, for the
first time ofmy servant Show, Louis, did you convey
the letterlo
81 went, sir 6rst,' answered Louis, ssto the young
lady, Miss Julia's cousin in - street, and asked if
II could not carry any parcel to her relation. She
understood me, and gave me one. slipped the let
ter into the parcel, and calling at the private en-
trance of the house desired the maid who opened
the door to give it only to Miss Julia made sure of
the servant with haf-a-guinea. Mis-, Julia herself
came down, and gave me the answered.
cha, and you saw her then"'
ssNot her face, sir, for she had put on her bonnet
and she did not detain me moment"
In this account there no clue to the apartment
main object to discover trusted, however, greatly
to the ingenuity and wit ofmy confdant and little
to my own. 1t was corner house--large, rambling,
od-fashioned; side of the house down a
dark and narrow street, the other faced broad and
public thoroughare. In walking to and fro the for
mer street, at length saw sudden hight in a win
dow of the second floor, and Julia herself-yes, her
self! appeared for one moment at the window. | re-
cognized her gentle profle-her parted hair--and
then she drew down the curtain; all was darkness
and black That, then, was her apartment; at least
II had some right to conjecture How to gain it
was still the question. Rope ladders only exist in
romances; beside, the policemen and the passengers
The maid-servant flashed across Mcknight she not,
also to the greater one! called my servant, and
babe him attempt the task. After little dehbera-
ton he rang at the bell-luck favored me--the same
servant as before answered the summons. remained
at distance, shrouGed in my cloak. At length the
door closed-Louis joined me-the servant had con-
sented to admit me two hours hence; might then
see Julia undetected. The girl, according to Louis,
was more by compassion for Jula's distress,
whom she imagined compelled by her sister to reject
the addresses of true lover, than by the brbe.
In two hours the sister would have retired to resthe
house would be still Oh, heavens what a variety of
burning emotions worked upon me--and stihed re-
morse, nay, even, fear. Lest should attract OBJ
servaton, by lingering for SO long time about the
spot, retired from the place at present. returned
at the appointed hour. | was admitted--all was
dark--the servant, who very young girl herself
conducted me up the narrow stairs. We. came to
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