Vandalia Whig and Illinois intelligencer. [volume] (Vandalia, Ill.) 1832-183?, 1833-05-08

memory refused 10 reCuli all nHrSnef relfOSpeCoL-~
her love, her innocence only obtruded themselves up
on me, and sighed to think that perhaps by thi
time she was irrecoverably another's. | reracet
my steps, and was now at the end of the bridge
when, just by thesstairs preceived crowd, ant
heard vague and gathering clamor. secret I'm
pulse hurried me to the place; | heard police mai
speaking with the eagerness which characterizes thu
excitement Of narration.
"My suspicious were aroused,n quoth he Gas pass
ed, and female standing by the bridge. SO
you see, | kept lettering there, and minute alter
went gently up, and | heard the young woman groan
and she turned round as came up, for frightened
her; and never shall for get her tace,for it wa
so BECOME ---and yet she was so young and hand
some. And SO, you see, spoke to her, and | said
says |, young woman, what do you do here at thi:
hour!' And she said, Il waiting for a boat; ex
Ipect my mother from Richmond And, somehow
or other, was foolish enough to believe what she
Isaidshe looked quiet and respectable like land
II went away, you understand and in about IN
mute after (for kept the spot) heard heavy
splash in the WATER and then knew what it all was
II ran up, and just her once rise and so, as
could not swim,1 gave the alarm, and we got the
boat-but it was too late.o
"Poor girln lisped an old coster-woman; 81 dare
Isay she crossed in love-"
''What Is ths,' said |, mixing with the crowd.
GA young woman as has drowned herself, sir.''
"Where! do not see the body"
at be taken to the watch-house, and the doctors
are trying to recover it,"
A horrible idea had crossed my mind ---uniounded
improbable it seemed, felt if compelled to con-
firm or remove it. made the policeman go with me
to the watch house IL pushed away the crowd-
approached the body Oh, God THAT white face
1.-The heavy dripping hair--the swollen form--and all
that decent and MAIDEN beauty, with the course CO.
yer, half thrown over it--and the ympathizing
surgeons standing by. and the unfamiliar faces of the
women What a scene!---what death-bed. Julia,
Julia thou art avenged.
1t was her, then, whom beheld; her---the selEde-
Istroyef hurry over the awful record. am writing
my own ndemnation---stamping my own curse
They found upon the corpse letters drenched as it
was, yet could decipher its characters lit was to
melt ran thus:---
81 believe now was much to blame for l am
writing calmly with fixed determination not to live
and see how much have thrown away the love
you once gave me. Yet | have loved you always
how dearly never told you, and never can tell!
But when you seemed to think so much of YOUR
what shall say !your condensation in marrying
--perhaps oving---me, it maddened me to the brain
and though would have given worlds to please you,
| could not bear to see the difference in your man
ner after you came to see Inc daily and to think OF
me as a woman ought to be thought of and this,
| know, made me seem cross and peevsh, and una
miable, but could not help it ,-and so you ceased
to love me; and felt that, and longed madly to
to release you from tie you repented. The mo-
ment came for me to do so, and-We parted. Then
you wrote TO me, and my sister made me see in the
letter what, perhaps, you Gid not intend but, indeed
was only sensible to the though that | had lost
you for ever, and that you scorned me. And then
my vanity was reused land knew you still loved
me, land fancied could revenge myself upon you
by marrying another But whenl came to see and
meet, and smile upon that other,-and to feel the
day approach, land to reflect that you had been all
in all to me,-and that about to pass my whole
life with one oathed, after having loved well and
so entirey,---I felt had reckoned too much on my
own strength, and that could not sustain my cour-
age any longer Nothing is left to me in life: the
anguish suffer is intolerable; and Lhave at length
made up my mind to die. But think not am poor
love-sick girl only. more; am still revengeul
woman. You have deserted me, and know myself
to blame; but cannot bear that you should forget
and despise me, as you wouldif | were to marry.
am about to force you to remember me forever, to
be sorry for me--to forgive me-to love me better
than you ever have done yet, even when you loved
me most. 1t is in this that shall be revengedn'
And with this wild turmoil of contendiug feelings,
the pride of womanhood wrestling with the softness-
forgiveness with revenge, high emotions with errng
principles led on to death by one hope to be
remembered and deplored with this contest at thy
heart, ddst thou go down to thy watery grave!
What must have passed within thee in those brie
and terrible moments when thou stoodest by the
dark waters, --hesitating- earingyet re-
solved. And was near thee in that hour, and knew
thee not---at hand, and saved not. Oh! bitter wa:
the revenge--lasting is the remembrance! Hence
forth, ask no more of human affections; | stanC
alone on the earth!