The Arkansas advocate., 1830-06-02

door of an obscure and dingy dwelling. whence the only light issued that had witnessed, since left my tunefnl Afio. of the Thames. It was opened by a bloated, fierce looking female, who in a grufi voice, asked inc what wantedd \ loud peal of thunder drowned my re- ply. pointed without; and the ae- lion seemed to content her. She mar. shalIcd me into a low back-room, re- questing me to step lightly as l entered. l followed her on tip-toe, and seated my self oii q broken bench, bj tie dy ying erl- bers fla fickering fire.
 The apartment presented a cheerless picture ofpoverty and desolation. One ot two naitiiated chairs stood near 5 seanty-furnished table in tbe centre Of the room. In one corner, on a low mat, lay poor emaeiated form, apparently groaning in troubled sleep. l drew near, and as the woman re-entered with a lamp, l was struck with astonishment. The face was pale, but interesting; the eye-lids were of dark purple, and the cheek hollow. Pressing his lips as if to nerve him to some imaginary conflict, he opened his eyes full upon me, as the light shone overhis lowly pallet. New CT shall l forget that look! The blood rushed rapidly to his high forehead--it retreated again to his heart, and left him deadly pale. He reached forthhis hand and in faltering accents, pronounced my name. ] looked for a moment ill doubt ful recognition; il was but for a amoment; he pronounced the name of EDerard Graham. My head grew dizzy-my sight failed me, and l was insensible.
 When 1 recovered, my once high souled and honorable friend was life less corps before me. The struggle had been too powerful for him to endure, and life had ceased in his mighty inhn- ence. made enquiries of the unseemiy being under whose roofI had takenshel- ter; and learned that he had for the past two months, been an inmate of her mis- erable dwelling. His last half crown had been paid her the day before; and there remained no effects tocompensate her for her attentions, fl he had lived longer.-There was only packet in his hat, she said; and that she had made him solemn promise to take to the London Post Office. She took down the hat, and handed me the packet. 1t was sealed with black, and bore my direc- tion, with line to the overseer of the London Post Office, requesting 1t to be sent to America. Finding my efforts
 intellectual to persuade the woman that the packet bore my name, purchased 1t from her at the price of guinea; and leaving her a sufficient sum to defray the funeral obsequies of Graham, and promising to call early the next day, l departed on the cessation ofthe storm.
 reaching my Hotel, ! dismissed my valet from my room, and throwing my self ona sofa opened the packet, and deroured its contents. Ii was smoky and mutilated; but l overcame the in- terlineations, and read as follows :---
 "LoNDoN, October lS.-- "To you my dearly-cherished friend, now that all hope seeing you has pass ed away forever, may now confide the secrets of the last last tt#e years Of my aw- ful life. ] lshudder to look back upon them; but there is no alternative. Il this faintiy written record should ever reach you, let 1t be to you the beacon ol a mighty warning. lam dyingina For eign land, surrounded by many to whom l might apply for relief, were l not a midnight murderer, stunning the day, and an irreclaimable sot. The weight of my crimes has recoiled back upon my heart, with a keen and undying retribu. ton. l have sown the winds Of intem perance and Unbelief-l am reapine the whirIwinds Of unutterabie monition The fires of agoaiZing remorse are bur ming in my blood the monitory voice 0 a struggling conscience is laundering il my ears, and l experience the enkindlet bangs ofa mental hell. Gin, God! witt what direful punishment have my ini quities overwhelmed me! But mus on.
 Tou know the secretof my early love
 You know the embarkation of Emil,
 Barton fer England, aid that l followed
 her soon. Oh, that could describe t
 you the Eden of happiness that dawnes upon me the first summerI spentin Eng l land. We were married; and Tim'
 went by with his wings glittering in tht pearls of hope, and his brow clothed II
 sunshine. We made a delightful toul
 on the Continent, and returned wit