Wheeling compiler. [volume] (Wheeling, Va. [i.e. W. Va.]) 1829-1831, 1830-04-14

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be devised. ] substituted wine for the
more ardent liquid; but, after little time
| found carried the wine to the same Inc.
brlatiDg excess that | carried the spirits
] theu tried cider. strong beer, porter, Sc.
but they still cherished and increased my
laundering and love for my envenomed foe,
without weakening III the least a link OF
the tyrants cham; and at length, | came
back weakened and displrlted with my ap-
proachlng ruin, with habits chain riveted
faster than ever, If possible, upon me: for
as in a state, suppressed rebellion is said
10 strengthen the government, so every IN
ehecual effort TO break All iuveterate hab.
~ akeus the subjects confidence 10
himself; shows him the strength Of his en-
envy aud aggravates the vice.
| have at different times visited favorite
fountain and shade, hill and dale each Of
which can witness my grieis and sorrows.
my teRs and broken VOWS; yes, in the
deepest darkness, have visited the tombs
Of my departed friends and relatives; and
IN grief ndescrbable, called on their spi
rits to assist me in avoiding my miserable
fate, bat All ~ vain. ] soon found myself
tamely sDmItti. q to my enemy who was
buslIy adjusting upon me the cloak of ip
fanny; the eternal gull open before me;
my friends weeping about me-; and my en-
emles at distance laughing and fluuing
and sending their cursed sIdelong jeers at
the helpIessWctm.
My God! is there no help for the wild
ow's sonl 10 several If my efforts to re
gain the Dathof recn,ude / was convio-
ccd that tobacco which ! had freely used
for year, wa the principal agent in defca-
ting me; was, therefore, determined
That, in any hlure attempts | nigh make
th!5 lac,ail Of ardent spirits shoIli share
the fate Of his master, and both, If either,
be discarded. There was one small con-
ISOLATION In the mounllin Of my affections;
Oh tgrant. to his decree TAFT drulkl-i
shall be his own cxecutoner, has a clause,
tnat, if he has spirit enough, he may chose
the manner Of his death | had three ca
sea similar to nv own. lately presented to
my view, where opium, the knife, and
pistol had been chosen instead Of the dis
graceful poison | aOplalded their reso- !
luton. admired their choice, and Took nv
measures accordingly. Taking my oa!y
child in my arms, | loIdly exclaimed.
your poor unflrtunate fther''--.he tear
richmg down my cheeks; my wife com
iug into the room was alarmed AZ my APP
pcarauce; dIssembled the cause of my
emotion; took TO my room and bed; denied
all business. and nearly all company; gave
out that was sick, and truly was |, but |
ieiCacd to my friends aud even to my wife
the cause-'here formed my last resolu
ton TO LIVE or DIEi
took two or three doses of neutral
salts to cool my blood, drank plendfuIly of
milk and water, Cruel and tho like, as the
most mild and soothing support 70 the lr
ritabe system; read entertaining books 70
calm as much as possible my timId and
anxious mind: and IN abouta week ven
mred a little abroad, trembling couval
escent-the affection of my nerves gradu
ally abated; my appetite slowly returned;
from very light diet by degrees | came 70
relish the stronger common food of the IA
Die. Long and severe was my Pouance
but great was the prize for which J Wa,
coutendng-liie aud reputation. When
have had TO perform any manual opera
hon, writing. &c how many shifts have
resorted 10 20 get an opportunity Of per
forming 1t alone or unobserved, for tlmIdi
" excited trembling long after Il had ceas
ed IN my calmer moments. When invited
To- drink, | excused myself on account oil
late sickaess, head ache. a recent meal.
or the like; # PRIEST past excuses, wouI5
touch the glass or bottle 10 my bps, rather
than provoke the vulgar taunls Of having
sworl off, Joined the church, &c. A gree
change gradually took place m the econo- |
my of the system, the scarf skin from Oh
tenderer parts Of the body peeled OF; the
stomach and bowels. deprived Of their ac-
cust0mei s,jmIau,-, had % De excited t9l
acuo bv gentle a1s-ic rs; the pulse, from
being prste-namrally quick, saak To- %
and 80 beats IN IA minute, and for tw5
years hardly regalned is natural tone; ma
ny other cha1ges difficult. and not neces /
sary 10 describe, were observed. Nv
mad by degress became calm, thea cheer
a. a. times. and at length happy. Laag
at or The commencement Of my abstinence.
IN my dreams / have sometimes tasted
the prescribed p0isons, horror would
seize my mind. anguish prey upon my
feelings, ill the bitterness thereof would
awake me to behold, with unspeakable
iOy, that it was a dream.
! am now upwards Of forty years old
and long since has It been my custom to-