Delaware journal., 1828-12-09

NV folly one year before l saw her, and shouiu
not have thought her but myself honored oy uai,
riage twelve little months had suifceo 'o--uoo
forgive me! | took advantage of her love-her
youth--her innocence--she fled with me--out ao'
to the aitarP'
"Again Glanve paused, and again, by vloieh'
effort conquered his emotion and proceeded =
g Never let vice be done by halves--never let
man invest all his purer affections in the woman
he ruins--neycr let him cherish the Kindness II ne
gratfes the sclfshness of his heart, prohisate,
who really loves his v,;tim, is one OF the most
wretched of beings. In spite OF my successiui anu
triumphant passions--in spite OF the derium oil .he
first intoxicaons of possession, and OF the Detef
and deeper delight of a reciprocity OF thought--
feeling sympathy, for the first time found In the
midst of all the luxuries nv wealth could produce,
and Of the yoluptuous and sprung like hues with
which YOUTH health, and first love clothed the
earth which the loved treads and the arr winch
she nhales in spite of these-in spite OF all,
was any thing but happy. lfGertrhle's cheek seem
ed shade more pale, or her eye loss bright, re-
membered the sacrifice she had made me, and oe-
leved that she fea it too. twas in vain that, WIN
the tender and generous deyoon-neveI iouhd ou'
IN woinan-she assured me that my love was re-
compense for all the more touching was her ten
derness, the more poignant my remorse. never
loved but her have never, therefore. entered IN
to the common place of passion, and cannot, even
10 this day look upon her sex as ours 90 10 gene
ral thought--l think so still--that ngratltu,e to
| a woman is often more odious oRence--i am sure
it contains more painful penalty--than lngratitude
to man. But enough of this if you know me-
you can penetrate the nature OF my ieelings-t not
it is in vain to expect your sympathy. ~,
81 never loved living long in one place. we
travelled over the greater part of England and
France What must be the enchantment OF love-
when accompanied with innocence and Joy,--"hen
even n sin, in remorse, IN gre 1t brings us rap
ture to which all other things are tame. Oh those
were moments stepped in the very elixir OF LIE !;
toverhowing with the boarded fondness and sympa-
thies of hearts too full for words, and yet too ag
tated for silence, when journeyed alone, and al
night and as the shadows and stiffness OF the wan
ing hours gathered round US, drew closerto each
other. and concentrated this breathing world IN the
soeep ang embracing seuticle.t OF our mutual love
! 1t was then that | laid my burning temples on hel
bosom. and felt, while my hand cia,ped hers, that
nv visions were realized and my wandering sPirl'
had sunk into its rest"
We took up our residence fer some time at a
beautiful situation, short distance from small
watering place. Here, to my great surprise, l mel
with Tyrrell. EIe had come there partly to see q
relation from whom he had some expectations, ant
party to recruit his health, which was much brok
en- bv his irregularities and excesses. could no
refuse to renew my old acquaintance with hiin an'
indeed, | thought him too much OF man OF th'
world, and of society 10 feel with him that Parucu
: lar deiicacy, in regard to Gertrude, whicn maze
me in general shun all Intercourse with my former
friends Tle was in great pecunlary embarrass
: ment--much more deeply SO than then imagined
for believed the embarrassment to be only temPora
J. ry However, my purse was then, as before at nj
e. DISPOSAL and he did not scruple to avail hinset We
70 ~ largely Of any offers. He came frequently to on
st house and poor Gertrude, who thought had 10
ic her sake made real sacrifice in renouncing my
D. acquaintance, endeavoured to conquer her usuai OH
e. idence and that more painful feeling than diiidenc
e. natural to her station, and even to affect pleasure
en- in the society OF my TREND, Whch she was very "
~ from feeling"
n! He is called away to the south of France, by II
o. eiligence Of his mother being at the point OF death
If. s.When arrived at Toulouse my mother wa
r. much BETTER but still in very uncertain and dat
TO gerous state of health. stayed with her tor NOR
IA than month"; during which time every post brougi
= me a line from Gertrude. and bore back messae
9 i from my heart to hers" in return. Ihis was
Ter mean consolation, more especially when each lette
Is spoke of increasing health and strength. AL IN
m months end, was preparing to return-ny me
Ill ther was slowly recovering, and no longer hao ah
,at fears on her account but, there are INKS IN OF
ell destiny fearfnly interviewer with each other, an
we ending only in the anguish OF our ultimate doom
me The ,lay before that fixed for my departure, ha
been into house where an epidemic disease rage'
Ter that night complained OF oppressive and aeaal.
for ;,lness-betere morning was in high fever.
oh /. During the time was sensible of my state,
en wrote constantly to Gertrude, and carefully COZ
M SIS. cealed my illness but for several days was d
he Iir;ous. When recovered called eagerly for n
8 letters-tters acre none--aone! could not b
or eye was yet awake but days still passed O.
and not line from England--irom Gertrude Ii
The instant was able, insisted upon putting horses
er my carriage could bear no longer the torture ;,
lily my suspense. by lhc .ios. raP'q naj Jo", IN In
nth bility would allow me 10 oeal' afi.s'" "A
ife, land ,nn;.ro s,o