Phenix gazette. [volume] (Alexandria [D.C.]) 1825-1833, 1828-10-27

the Almighty in predestinating, me 10 sun
DOOM Then my feelings would DC .or ra ~
into keen regret, or rather torment, LOT my
murmurinp. The prospect Of dea'h aod,o
weight to nv mental anguish, and suddenly
summoned before me, enlarg;ng darby IN quiz
the sins of my past life, until they AROSE 80 v.
inaccessible barriers TO the hope oil eterna' gro,
~ when nv miserable existence on eaflo Sno"'u
haze closed | always rate the mental 'or"r"'
I endured on this oc casinn as equal 10 the po
div, daring the time the body preserved 'ne
consistency of its functions. Afterwards INC
mind sunk down with il in:p species oil aPa-
thy no apprehension could rouse. In tha'
dreadful state demanded Of heaven IL my Ter
ribe suirtrings would not propi,iste my SINS
whether heaven, that had so permitted agony
10 be heaped opon my head, would not balance
il against my offences towards It's majesty
| Thus prayed or murmured. Reason seldom
aided me- was the victim Of suflering's I'M
pulses, and was cast upon wild fahcles, chJoy-
ing no repos". +,
| This Stage Of my trial soon had its end; l
had no mode Of computing time, Tor the hands
| oG my.wa,,h were invisible from the darkness;
knew that it concluded just after had hnish.
ed The Last drop Of my water. The absence oil
this beverage, though had made II last me as
long as could, produced rapid change IN my
sensations; this / well recolIcct. began 10
feel fainter and more ak, and my limbs gre"
painfully cold ShiveriDgs now and then came
over me; and my mind, contrary 10 what had
hammered before, seemed 10 have by Tar the adj
vani,ce Of The body. ] was conscious OF dell
rum at times, and Of dem"niacal dreams, ou'
at intervals was more composed, and suiier
ed little pain, but inexorabe debility. The
yiscera seemed to me diminished, and all ener-
CIV in Them extinct, feeling like dead mass
and as if these Of Fad dIsembowtlled animal
had been placed within me instead OF my own
NV piddness of head increased. together with
the spasms and faintness. ! am cer'ain, 100
that about this tire became totally blind, al
ieas, such is my firm impression. foand, too
that in nv paroxisms Of delirium had at
tempted 10 gnaw my arms, Blu, the acerauo'
was moi deep, simply from The want OF physi'
f cal power 10 penetrate the muscle with my re-
lsxed Jaws. "When, q God, will my agonIes
end?" was my frequent sigh, for was 100 weak
for an artioulate ejaculation. | seemed TO have
, forgotten words, even to myself, as / found
when tried 10 pray; could not connect wha
| would say, | Can well remember. AT leng'i
repose, which seemed the forerunner OF spec
DIV death, came apon me- though still sensible
but poweress as corpse. looked Tor my &C.
, liyerance by death with unconcern. have a,
impression that, while lying in this state,
heard the sound Of artillery, but cannot o'
, certain, any more than can tell how long |,
was before became wholly insensible.
NV next recollection Of myself is mos
painful one | was could not guess where
, Strange voices were around me, and could no
, see the speakers, Il ON utter want OF vision
The horrible debility | felt 10 body, combIsft
with the ac,i.i,y OF sly mind during my resus
n citation. unsprakably painful--so much 81
a that the recollection aIrnos.- 40 O
Y times even now. 1t appeared that Ernest hat
r escaped Inc effects Of thiriecn-nch shell
:. which burst over the passage 10 The cellar ant
+. broke in the arch. The siege grew warmer
and the city was taken. When matters were
}. little quiet, the faithful lad did not fail to i'm
v plore all he met in my behalf. A human
G French officer ordered search 10 be made
! anG was found, apparently lifeless, stretched
: on my mattrass. To the care Of French sur
/, geon also owe my rec overy and the power q
a now relating my sufferings. That recover
was slow. had endured fasting Of nine en-
| tire days. am six feet high and proportion
Y ally stout; when found, boy could have Car
v ried me On his back, and | seemed shrunk I
n The lowest stature, mere cage OF bone an
: Skin. Nothing Of inconvenience remains t
Il me now from This my trial, save no.
d and then, a dream Of horl IDLE vividness, whic
I comes upon me whenever suffer from fever
l.. ishness or indigestion, and fea,tuy recalls III
: past.
S BIOGRAPHICAL MEMOIR OF TIE LAT