The Litchfield County post. [volume] (Litchfield, Conn.) 1826-1829, 1827-11-29

ring at such a time it fell with all the weight
OF last ana communicating calamity On one
who was already overthrow n.--Oh how weak
--how childish---hOw foolish are we even the
wisest of US all i. S;.cn moments as.these T
clenched my tccih. ! st;smpt on the fioOr;sf
{ tost about my arms with the vain and object
| less passion of an angry Child. NV dog. ~
mazed at The violence ,f nIy passion, Fixed his
dark eyes upon !ns and stared with astonish
ment, as we'll he might, at the agitated sestic-
uiations of his master.-I saw an expression
| Oftenderness and cOmmisseration in his looks:
and IN an agony Of tears-dOn't laugh at me.
| tor in the same situation, under the same cir
cumstances, you would have done the same
Il flung myself down on the floor by his side
exc!almIng, s. Yes, Neptune, every thing ON
earth has oisaken me but yOu--lny fortune
my friend, my love with my fortune and
you, you aione' my good old dog. are. con-
slant to me in the hour of affection! Ttstart-
ed up and paced my apartment:backwarlsSz
forwards with wide and hurried strides fever
ed with the rapid suggestion of painful events
bewildered in mind, afflicted at heart. per-
picked in the extreme There was no plare
| IN my thoughts for the future was absorbed
! wholly in the present was careless of the
loss of my patrmony-It was gone; and T
willingly resigned it. Ny distracted fancy
| began to view the robbery rather benefit
| than an injury. 1t had revealed to me the
baseness OF the world, the fallacy of human
{ attachments, the inconstancyof woman, the
! treachery of man. I had in one morning
learnt that the world is a lie; and love :
name; and friendship a cheat The lesson
had indeed been dearly bought by the ex-
change of afluence for poverty but in the
despair and bitterness of my abandonment. r
should scorn to have purchased it at an ,n(e-
! rior price.--it was worth all, and more than
| had given for I'll felt grateful to Drayton
for the act OF fraud which had in moment
rendered me thus INDECENT and wise would
not attempt the recovery of the wealth he pur-
Joined. That wealth, as looked down npon
it from the heights of my passion, seemed to
dwlndle into an inconsiderable speck. and was
dlsdalned as mere noxious bait for falsehood
and duplcity. Let him | calculated. let
him keep my money let it attract towards
nm as 1t did towards myself, lying smiles g.
artificial tenderness; letshim, as have done.
nix ms heart upon the beautiful receptions
which his afluence shall coniure IN around
him, let him be robbed, as have been. lat
| him, as have done, detect the error Of thc
Illusions that had delighted him: and then let
him curse the perfdious, ungrateful wretches
that had deceived him, as | now do curse
! those that have injured me- How inconsist-
ent are the thoughts and actions. the words
| and the sentiments of man! Never was |
! conscious OF so deep feeling of tenderness
| as that which flowed from my soul towards
the beings was denouncing, at the very mo-
| ment the expressions of passionate indigpa-
| ton were issuing from my lips.
Impetled by that residences of mind, took
my hat, called Neptune to follow me. ant.nre
pared to seek abroad that distraction for NV
grief which could not he fel,nd in the quiet Of
my home. In leaving the room, nv eve CLAN
ced towards my pistols. My hand was on
the lock of the door. perceived that to an
proach the place where they Law, was like
tempting He'll to tempt me; but thought
flashed across my mind, that to die were to
punish the unworthy authors of nv sorrow
were to strike imperishable remorse to the
hearts of John and Maria: and took tho
pistols with me, muttering, as I concealed
them within my breast. Perhaps may want
Them
In this frame of mind wandering through
back and retired streets, with no other mo-
tive to direct me than the necessity of loco
motion, at length found myself on the banks
OF the Thames, near Westminster Bridge.
My boat was kept near this place. On the
water, should be delivered from all appre-
tensions of observing eyes. should be A.
lone in my sorrow; and unfavorable as the
season and the weather were, proceeded to
the spot where my boat was moored. bad
time for boating, Mr. Luttrelr said Piner. who
had the charge of my wherry it's mortal
cold, and there's rain getting out there to the
windward.' But careless of his GOOD natnr.
ed remonstrances.I seized the oars impatient.
ly from his hand and proceeded in angry si-
lence to the boat. Ipushed her off,and row.
ed rapidly towards Chelsea, with Neptune w.
ing at my feet. When thus found mvself
alone on the water, with none to know. or
mark. or overhear my grefbreaking through
all the restraints that confined it as long asT
was exposed to the inspection of INV fellow
creatures, discharged it in vehement exclam-
tons of indignant passion. Fool that was
TO trust them. Nothing on earth shall ever
induce me to look on them again. Oh. Ma
rial should have thought it happiness enough
to have died for you, and you to desert me-
to fall away from me too at monoen+
when single smile of yours might have
Identified me for all the wrongs of
fortune, all the treachery of friendship As
IN Fraser. men are all alike,-selfish by nature
habit and education, They arr trained to .
baseness, and he is the wisest man who be-
comes earliest acquainted with suspicion. He
is the happlest. who scorning their hollow de-
monstratiOns of attachment, cOnstrams eyerv