The Wilmingtonian, and Delaware advertiser., 1827-09-06
From tho European Magazine.
LOST rEEI.INGS.
81 wish not Springs forever fed;
wish not birds forgotten sttaa;
only wish for feelings dead,
To warm, and wake, and feel again. "


AsI become older grow conscious that
some feeling of my youth is lost; that some
cherished tie is dissolved. and thai change
has taken place in my passions and affections.
am sorry that it is So for the chahse mas
been an unhappy one. lnstead OF the hopes
Thoughts (surely may call them seq OF
boyhood, have g4iued nothing now but the
knowledge that they were delusive--atd
have parted with the anticipation Of happ-
ness, for the gloomy certainty OF srlet. oh.
there i. nothing like the imaginary ioys Ct
boyhoodl They arc the blossoms oE e%is"
tencc which but too seldom ripen into How
ers. Time, as it roll heavily on, breathes
codly over their passing swcetncss--iliInp
ling with the world Injuries their freshness
and their beauty--thc misery OF others talis
| like blight upon them; manhood kiiis tnem.
Day by day, some leaf falls witnercd from
the stem of hope, and then comes bitterness
Of soul, with fear Of future Ills, and sad but
vain regrets for past pleasures. Nhat weu'a
not give to wander, as used 70 "ahue''
bv that hill which seemed placed by tue
! hard of nature, that man mlBht stahu upon
| its summit, and gaze on Paradise. bue
must have back my boy-teelings, ana see ''a-
ture as then saw her--w1en could LOOK III
her fair face, with heart as pure as the IN
nocent flowers in her lap. here must ne
an echo in my breast to the song OF the larKs
/ those children of the sun--and the scrch
Iity within, which once wed with the trafquA'
surface of that little river which lay oefore
me sleeping in the green arms ol summer
| must have my day-dreams OF fe1i@ity' l
must have back those whom loycd--!oved
with bows warm fcelngs--.and whom in
I ,boI /
I have him who was part of my own heart
} for felt as if a portion OF 1t died whch ne
I was taken from me.
! Without these by-gonc feelings and lost
objects, that scene would be desert, hap
pness, am convinced, is theory OF youth
which manhood seldom practises; Tor re-
member, as if it were yesterday, how my
heart opened to a sense of it. Sorrow was
name then, but pleasure reality. MY MIND
gradually awakened from its dream-and
age, which is truth, reversed them. trust
ed all. and thought no harm OF single ilv-
ing being; for was then, as my frichd Ciare
beautifully expresses it
"Emparadiscd in ignorance of sin"
! loved every one, ard seemed to think that
| there was but one heart which beat for all
mankind. ] knew nothing of conflicting IN
terests. Of friendships exchanged, OF love
unreouited. The whole world seemed like
garden. and the human race Ike movers
I could not then distinguish the weeds that
Grew amongst them. Oh! would that it were
so still Would that could lock upon the
Young as brothers and sisters--on the ageei
as parents, as then did! Would that co"ld
! banish the remembrance of injuries as easl
w as have buried thc resentment they al
I first awakened within me, ami be again the
happy unsuspecting boy | w4s' hut ne"
scenes have opened upon me, ana intercoufSs
with the world has made me suspicious.
cannot put my faith in every smiling iace a
T once could; nor trust TO tones, although
thew seem soft as nightingale or woman = iit
could utter. Some, whom J have thought
nv friends, have shrunk from nc
-"As from stream in winter
o.bsrs who were somewhat older than my
self. but who had appeared to love me as
lovrd them. and that was fervently,) and oe
came sooner initiated into the opiniens OF SO
c,ctv. despised me for my innocence. th'
srcen and undisguised feelings OF youth were
thought OF with contempt by the man. ne
seemed ashamed that they had ever iei
them. and confoundes in their mature i"'as
nations ignorance Of ill'' with ignorance
v;rtue. | saw those--and those. VINO wef'
6 bonnd to me BY the strongest TIES iorsaA
|, m. in nv need. Still continued to THINK
we'll of human nature as could, but the con
Science of the boy was shaken, and the eau
ion Of the man succeeded it. ] mingled IN SO
: ....h the dread Of being deceived, an