American watchman and Delaware advertiser. [volume] (Wilmington, Del.) 1822-1828, 1826-06-02

change Tor the better. both in my habits and notion,
here was some cxcitation continually my mint
desired to take a lead as speaker; once or .wic
was fortunate. and my success deg hted me b.
like most men 10 a similar situation, permltte
my VANITY 10 carly me beyond ny depth. ven
turcd to oppose tine munster on question which
had never studied; gave uterante to certain G. ON
mon places badly pu, together, and ending in moth
ing The honotab gentleman who replied turne
me into utter ridicue; reached my home in
state of insanity.
"And nov | come to detail OF the blacklist par
OF my black course. | hated the man who had thu
| silenced me. with the hatred nj brother who ha
quarrelJed with his brother. Mine was not ran
cou to be appeased by any thing short oil the dcatl
OF him no had offended me. There was not
morning OF my life, pat OF which was not now de
voted to pistol shouting ! practised ill coul,
spit ball upon be edge Of my knife, snuff
candle at twelve PAGES distant; and soon as mar
attained this degree OF perfection, laid myself on
Tor quarrel In public and In private | soueh
every opportunity to insult and irfiialc my oppo
nenl. stove to satrize him as he had satlrizet
me, before The House; but was wit, and mi
satire consequently degeneraed into personal il
vect've: | was called to o'cef. Out Of doors " u
more SUGGEST ul. THOUGH . brave man, he Wa
| excee dingly goodtempeied. anc either did not, q
would not, see my intentions Tor some time. A
lobby Of the Opera house, that il was out OF hi,
power TO pass it by he sent message. | &C
| copied his challenge; ard as there was some tisl
Of he affA' g. ting wind proposed that We shou'
settle our dispute without delay. We met at al
early hour the following morning, and at the Fl S
fire sh.. him through the heart.
/" Was happy alter this ?-cy no means. Ma,
tiers had been we'll arranged, that though all TIL
world knew by what hand my victim had INST hi
death, yet the coroner's Jury found themselves at
loss to say on whom the suspicion OF guilt should
rest AS far as my immediate fortunes we're cor
cerned. therefore, experienced from the re.ut O
Inc duel no Inconvenience whatever; but my MIN
was never for an instant at rest II ever man deb
erately commit ed murder, did prepared my
self before hand Tor meeting-I .tudiously sough
for it-and went to attend it in the Fl m de,ermi
nation OF destroying my enemy if could. Wer
| it possible TO believe that men are free agents.
were not perfectly satisfied tina: never act BIT
as tale decrees---I sh, uld ,egard myself The mos
| utility and cold bnoded of assa>slns Nay. let m
a. knowledge my own Inconsistency such was tn
| light IN which hen viewed-such is the light
| which | sometimes view myself still
| From ,ha' fatal day, be- anne more than eve
1 a torment 80 mvSel'. ard 10 all around me. L
Lucy was souely cruel. We had been ma
| lied upwards o. year an half, and she brouql
mc no hid Shall onte>s l upbfaided be
for this if u something blameable on hs
part. and ye, we'd he all the while with an inter
| sIty sue Few married Tea experience tor the
wi.es. liable and GENTLE htiue She bore m
| rep, pat hes with The m ekness of an angel; ST
wep. under them but she never complained. II.
father nesved the last hat she was the happie
If women, and | the best of husbands Ever
Thing too. went wrong with me l lost all intere
in public business the very gaming table produce
not sufficient excitement. l had recourse to tt
bottle Among bon vivants and jolly souls, nor
were now my superiors; and reeled home, morI
ing after morning, only to oyerwhelm with reproacl
es and abuse one who never gave me cause to II
proach her. even through inadvertence.
Gas natural consequence upon the kind of Ii
which I had led, my affairs became deeply involves
Creditors we're importunate and the very Jews r,
fused to furnish me with money, except on tern
such as even perceived to be ruinous. At last a
execution was threatened my furniture, plat
horses, carriages, were all about to be seized VIII
was now to be done neither knew nor cared.
"My wife, though the daughter of a countr
clergyman, was connected, both by the father an
mothers side with several families of distinction
One of her maternal uncles had held some big
situation in India and her cousin enjoyed tn
fruits of his TOLL which he himself never lived t
enjoy. He mixed with the best crcles-supporte
splendid establishment-and wilhal was regarded
by those who knew him, as person of singularl
kind heart and correct morals OF course he vis
ed his cousin when she appeared in the hemispher
of London as the wife of an NJ p; and as she like
his society we saw good deal Of him. Only cor
ceive, sir, became jealous, madly jealous. of tn;
man. l contrasled his frank open. and afectiona,
manner, with my own peltish and inconsistent d.
pertinent. could not deny that the first was f
more attractive than the last, and came to the col
clusion that it must be so regarded by my wife
There wanted but some decided act of friendship Q
his part towards Lucy to convince me, that a GRIN
ina passion subsisted between them.
"When the execution above referred to actualI
occurred Lucy, worn out with irregular hours, an
broken in spirit by my unkind treatment exceed
inlxlu Ill he nf The seizare frnifur