But he wouldn't really do that now. He should learn manly skills. That has been drilled into his head by his father all his life. A skill that could lead to beauty is repressed. And so on.
True talents can remain hidden, repressed, for a lifetime.
Perhaps, for many of us, there is more repressed beauty than ugliness in the shadow. We gay men have a rightful place in the world. Our predecessors were the shamans and seers of old. Gay men were respected. Though we are often scorned and put down by today's society, there is a true beauty in being a gay man.