Educate yourself about the effects of chronic stress, alcohol and drug abuse and other mental health concerns. This Bar Journal contains some excellent information to get started. TLAP's web page on the Texas Bar's website is another place to start. In a confidential manner, TLAP can put you in touch with other Texas lawyers who may have experienced and recovered from the same issues that face you. These volunteers are ready and willing to help.
Serious problems require some serious solutions.
Remember, however, that change is always possible. There is hope and there are solutions. Please don't let ego, status, pride, shame, fear or other barriers stand in the way of your accessing help.