Young people tend to experience a lot of inner conflict.
I think the records as we have them in the Gospel may not be complete, because the earliest Gospel was written 40 years after Jesus was crucified. If one believes the Scriptures are the actual word of God, it may be possible that the Bible Code has a basis in fact. After all, the Dead Sea Scrolls, which opened up an entirely new window into the time of Jesus, were discovered in 1947. Archaeologists are actively digging in the Holy Land to this day. I'm aware of.