Today I have an almost 3 year old daughter, she will always be my light to follow no matter how rough and dark the road becomes. Yet, I cant help it if I cry. For when I look at her in this house, I always wonder what it would have been like to have 2 kids alive instead of just one. I can not have anymore, so I will never know. I find my self day dreaming these days about taking him to school, my little man, I am sure that I would cry when I left him there, but not too bad, not like I cried when he left me here.
Today is full of different emotions.
I can now smile and laugh again, but there is always a hint of sadness. I call it the lost look. 4 years ago today I didn't know that it existed. All rights reserved. Permission to use, copy, and distribute this document, in whole or in part, for non-commercial use and without fee, is hereby granted, provided that this copyright, permission notice, and appropriate credit to the SIDS Network, Inc. be included in all copies.