Your actions may have clouded that personality, but if you really want to know who God created you to be, there's a pathway through repentance that will lead you to an entirely new life. Unfortunately, people are all too aware that the virtues have been wielded as clubs, foisted on us as seemingly impossible obligations, and unleashed as tremendous guilt-inducers. That's why so many people react negatively to the mere thought of virtue. Forget about the virtue you think you know. Virtue gives me the power to enter into relationships, situations and circumstances without fear of losing control or doing something stupid.
Virtues are like new brakes.
They allow me to travel fast and into new situations, knowing that with them, I have the control, strength, and ability to maintain my integrity. His plan to give us our lives back over time. In repentance, our destiny is secured. In the practice of virtue, our God-ordained character is released. That's not who God created us to be.