I have seen His blessings in our marriage. I have also seen us grow in our faith in Him. And that is the only reason that we have anything worth having. At the point in your life that you turn your eyes away from the Lord Jesus Christ, and quit putting Him first, you are in dangerous, dangerous territory. Satan is real.
Sin is real.
And destruction is real. With all sincerity I pray that I will always keep the Lord Jesus Christ first in my life. Forgiveness isn't forgetting, forgiveness is accepting the past and loving beyond it. That's what Jesus does with all of us. I love my Lord, maybe more than I would have had I not betrayed Him.