90 meetings in 90 days. If you feel a panic attack coming on, try taking slow deep breaths until sanity begins to return. Open your mind to the possibility of giving up the slip, rather than giving in to it. It will feel that there's no way you can break the power of your own will. But it can only be done by taking a positive action.
Willingness is action.
There is hope, there is a future. Think the slip through. Don't dwell on how exciting it's going to be, but remind yourself of the misery that inevitably has to follow. Accept that you are a Sexual Compulsive. Don't blame yourself for wanting a slip.