3 or 4 times - I guess that works. Actually, I should have hated music. In grade school, I was a trumpet player, sort of. I had this mondo music teacher bitch that would poke the end of my nose with a ball point pen every time I made a mistake. I notice a little hostility in your history.
Some people believe in detractors.
So honestly, there is a thread of motivation in me that wants to prove them wrong. On the other hand, nothing is free, nothing is easy, and nobody owes you anything. And you can't expect everything to go as you think it might or should. Goals can be attained incrementally or by degree. Many times, I've had disappointments, failures or plans not work out.