You've done your time in Hell. As any person with Posttraumatic Stress Disorder will tell you, there are many visual, auditory, or other sensory triggers that will bring about the horrors of the past. You do not beat PTSD, you live with it, you cope the best you possibly can with it, but you do not conquer it. You fight it continually so that it does not conquer you. When I feel more at ease, I will continue with this page.
Writing can be and is cathartic.
Too much, too quickly is damaging. This is something that I never wanted to place on my site, but due to someone 'reminding' me about copyright laws, I have placed it here. If there is something of mine here that you want to lift, I will give permission. All you need do is ask.