If you like the experiences you get from your practice, continue the practice, as there is no other proven method by which one can get such experience. To become selfless, self controlled, equal in one's dealings with others, self satisfied, and so on, is desirable. It is also blissful. Over the centuries persons have consistently attained these qualities through spiritual discipline, and not by any other method. They are by no means easy to attain, even by the prescribed method.
Spiritual life is about being an ideal person.
It is a daunting task but there is no greater challenge. Strive for it by any means. Q. I am perplexed and worried seeing the divisions and disagreements which are afflicting the devotee communities. Yes, this is disconcerting. However, everyone is moving in accordance with their faith, their experience.