I'm not good at speaking and expressing myself. I'm really not good at expressing myself and talking in front of people. The society here really pushes you to express yourself. That really puts me in an awkward situation. Sometimes I refuse to express myself because I believe in the power of silence.
Silence really carries something.
If you're really loud and noisy, you miss out on what's going on and what you really want to say. Maybe that's my excuse for not being able to communicate well with people. I communicate well in writing, but only in Japanese. I can't fully express myself in English. I have gotten better, but as language goes, I feel no attachment to the English language.