Your abortion experience may have occurred years ago, as mine did. Or, you may have only recently undergone the procedure, perhaps as the result of the coercion of those you trust. But whether the wound is fresh and hemorrhaging or covered and festering, you need help. This is an experience which has not only involved sin that must be unloaded at Calvary, it involved the death of your child. I hereby give you permission to grieve the loss of that child.
Somebody has to.
The longer you try to push it underground and hope the pain and the memories will go away, the longer you deny yourself the true healing and peace that our Lord gave His life to provide. That's what we try to do, you know, when we refuse to accept the death of our Lord as payment in full. You may still feel grief and loss for some time, but you must distinguish the difference between grief and guilt. Guilt is legitimate only until the sin is confessed to your Heavenly Father. His forgiveness is then freely given.