You strive to be emotionally self-sufficient or above it all. Yet, your emotional needs are stronger because they are unconsciously and habitually repressed. Work on compassion, empathy and emotional rapport. It is even possible that you don't have much past life experience as a human being on planet earth. In that case, as you age and mature you can become more sensitive to the feelings of this world.
Water is a chief symbol for feelings.
Bring the water element more into your life. Get a hot tub, water bed, fish tank, fountain, and pool. Live closer to a great body of water. Lend an ear to someone who worked with feelings. Listen to Beethoven's 9th symphony.