But sometimes there are no apparent causes. As you look for answers and understanding, you also need to deal with your feelings of shock, anger, and guilt. The intensity of your feelings will depend on how close you were to the deceased and the degree of involvement you had with his or her life. As each suicide is individual, so will your reaction, healing, and coping process be unique. The general observations that follow may help you deal with your grief.
Shock is a first reaction to death.
You may feel numb for awhile, perhaps unable to follow a normal daily routine. This shock can be healthy, protecting you from the initial pain of the loss, and it may help you get through funeral arrangements and services. It may last a few days or go on for several weeks. Take some time to be alone, if that s what you want, but it is also important to be with other people and to return to your normal routine. After the initial shock you may feel angry, guilty, and of course, sad.