I've forgotten things which happened to me that I don't know about. As we pursue healing we may want access to locked-in memories. Memories can't be forced Recalling the specifics of sexual abuse is not essential for sexual healing. But if memories do return, that can help the healing process. Remembering sexual abuse may enable us to acknowledge abuse more fully and to direct our healing efforts more efficiently.
Survivors often remember abuse when they are ready to and no sooner.
Robin, an incest survivor, began to recall her abuse when she stronger, more assertive, and secure in her life. Her memories emerged gradually. I didn't let myself know more than I could handle. Remembering takes time and energy. You're likely to find that memories will surface simply by your proceeding on this sexual healing journey.