Don't beat yourself up. It doesn't mean you failed or that you are a failure. Lots of women try many times to quit smoking. Give yourself credit for trying. Even a day or an hour spent smoke-free is a success.
Women try an average of seven times to quit smoking before they succeed.
Think of how you could handle it differently next time. Record this in your smoking journal. Look back at the section on the benefits of quitting smoking. Record the benefits that you experienced while trying to change. Think about what you've learned and try again.