It's all in my head. When I cannot write and I want to. I feel incarcerated, unable to unlock myself, claustrophobic inside my own mind. That they are trying to make a career of it. One can make a career of scribbling, not of writing.
Writing is a vital function, unlike a career.
I started very late and spent years of my life on the frivolities and dumbness of the world of business, a world which rewards mediocrity and caters to those who cannot create. Through the phone. That I am in need in therapy and my salvation lies in my ability to put words together so that they stick retroactively as well as prospectively. Many a manipulation of words is artisanship, not art. It is not a bad choice, economically.