Questioning this movement or that, asking others if they see it the same. It only seems to happen when she is tired. The process takes days. The emotional turmoil is unbearable. Fear, anger, guilt, sadness and disappointment totally eclipse nine months of hopes and dreams.
Sleep is a stranger and survival becomes the only goal.
With each day comes more information . Fear of tomorrow increases. Anger towards the ineffectiveness of modern medicine is a repeat performer. Endless introspection strives to neutralize the mounting guilt felt by the mother. Slow realization of the situation walks hand in hand with sadness and disappointment.