This may not sound like a good way to be, but these feelings of remorse helped me considerably. I battled and cried for three months in this way, and I m no longer the cheerful and optimistic person I was. However, I spend less time justifying my inconsiderate or self-interested behavior. I am beginning to recover some of the depth I had lost to glibness over the years. I have recovered some of the integrity instilled by my father and the compassion I had felt as a young child.
Some practitioners seem to have come from a past of despair or tortuous illness.
I did not. I came from the other side and had to get past the easy world I had made for myself. I had talked exclusively about my spirit s development. I have omitted mentioning changes in my health because, with one outstanding exception, I have always been very healthy. My life has had fewer tribulations than most, and so my experiences may not sound as miraculous as those of others.