Before high school, I had no interest in spiritual things. When God awakened a desire in me, I struggled. Many doubts about whether it was real. Disciplined study of the Bible convinced me. We often associate seeking with our past.
Spiritual desire needs to be a continual concern.
We are seeking a God who wants to be found. Prayer and meditation. A. Prayer is central to personal recovery. Bill Wilson encouraged praying each morning and night. Serenity prayer was his favorite.