You're worth more than that. A person worth is not measured in pounds. Society does that to you, but don't do it to yourself, please. And I think Kate brings up a great point here, doctor. Right now, society frowns on people being overweight.
Some people are downright rude about it.
I want to address one thing about Meridia, there are some questions as to its safety. It depends on the specific situation. Medically and psychologically, no medications should be used without careful discussion with your doctor of the risks and side-effects, versus the potential benefits. One other question I wanted to ask, since you compared compulsive overeating with an addiction. That is an important though unpleasant reality.