Filling their belly, and their pocket book from day to day, while their soul starves for truth. I would rather fail in the attempt to achieve that which is truly good, then to succeed in the pursuit of that which has no meaning. I know that harvest will come. If it comes after death from God Almighty, then so be it. In heaven it will not count whether men saw me as a success or as a failure, because Gods opinion is the only one that counts.
Surrender is unthinkable.
Giving up is not feasible. God called me to burn as a light of His love into the darkness of this unholy world. There is no other option.