And I cannot discount that small part of me that likes being bipolar. I am trying to think of it in terms that it is a part of me, like my height. I can't grow taller, but I can feel better with the height I was given. And with bipolar, I can't make it go away, but I can find medication and therapy and support systems that can make it the best of what I've got to work with. Rapid cycling is the hardest to deal with.
Suicidal tendencies are rough as well.
Until someone feels this, it is hard to explain. So I guess, I have bipolar. I'll work with it. You play the hand you're dealt. Just play it smart.