Thank you for taking time to read this letter. God bless you. Dear Ivan, My heart goes out to you as you are faced with some intense issues. Let's deal with your friends first and the fact they want you to change from being a homosexual because they are telling you need to. Your sexual orientation has nothing whatsoever to do with how you feel about God.
Sex is a further expression of one's deep and intimate love for another.
The gender of the person whom you love is of no difference to God. What matters is that you recognize the love for the person and the ensuing relationship as a gift from God. There are very few passages in the Bible that supposedly say negative things about homosexuality and most of those are flat misrepresentations of the story or what the author was saying. The reasons your efforts to be straight have failed is because you are not straight. God has created you in a very special way.