Virginity is a challenge. Virginity is self-regarding. A young girl studies her new shape continuously, gazes at it and then covertly compares her development with that of her friends, some of whom will already be almost mature women at a very early age, whilst others remain childlike and underdeveloped. Conversely, she may be tempted to wear tight or low-cut dresses. Girls with small breasts may agonize over their perceived inadequacies and wonder whether they are ever capable of being sexually aroused because of their dificiency in size.
Virginity is a thing of beauty.
Often a young girl will never realize that she is beautiful per se simply because nobody bothers to tell her. At the end of these forays into adulthood, she may suddenly retreat into childhood again, especially if the role-playing gets out of hand. So for several years she will move in and out of adulthood, seeking maturity and renouncing it as the feelings takes her. As Colette wrote 'When she raises her eyelids it's as if she were taking off all her clothes'. Virginity is an aloneness.