Planning more in a day than one can accomplish in a week. Living life on the cutting edge of fear between keeping a secret life secret and getting caught. Needing to be the center of attention in every situation, talking loud, answering all the questions, making every effort to control the emotions of those nearby. But then the roller coaster reaches the peak, and life comes crashing down. Sadness comes creeping in like an aggressive bandit.
Thoughts slow down and feelings of helplessness, inferiority and uselessness take over.
Weakness and extreme tiredness of body make it impossible to function in the real world. Thoughts of death and suicide enter every thought of the day. Inability to communicate and function with others strains every relationship, especially those at home. Feeling pain through mind and body stops normal performance and reaction. Detachment from every feeling, especially good feelings, leaves one feeling nothing at all.