Make a list and do what you need to do to make them become a reality. Everyone has things they hate in their life and there are things that they love too. Overcome and adapt. Rest in the things you like and pursue those things. Find what you perceive as your higher power.
Suicide is the one most selfish act a person can commit.
Think about what you're doing. Think of all the things you'll miss. That is to say, It's worth going for the things in life that matter, that have a purpose and are morally and ethically sound. Go for what other's say is impossible and prove them wrong. It's actually an option, but it's not a sound option.