I love New Zealand. Emotionally and physically I'm attached to this place. At the same time, my family was steeped in English culture to the extent that as a child and young person I didn't feel that I culturally belonged to New Zealand. Paradoxically I felt out of place. I might not like aspects of British culture, but I still feel that I belong there.
Tensions are perhaps what a writer feeds on.
Nothing is ever quite as you want it. The Last Deception of Palliser Wentwood, by Imogen de la Bere.