Loving yourself so deeply, so quietly and peacefully, that the love for yourself becomes love for the world and everyone else in it. Because we are talking of the inner self, the deep self which is one with the flow. And this inner self which is one with the flow is also one with everything else in the flow. Everyone and everything. For you are all one.
Time is elusive and unreal.
You are beginning to understand something important. Live not by milestones and dates, but rather in a continuous flow. This moment is a treasure, as is the next. There is no need to work yourself into a frenzy of vows and commitments in order to make use of it, nor is there reason to regret that the previous moment was not as you planned. Leave all this.