You just have the same problem that all talented, ambitious people have. We want to be everything and do everything all at once, but you can't. Just know the one thing you really are in heart and spirit, and let everything else be your diversions. So look to far seas and distant hills in your time of need, and welcome unlikely heroes, for help comes from the strangest quarter. Try to do something you haven't done before, and learn to trust.
T here are many ways to love someone.
Sometimes we want love so much we're not too choosy about who we love. Other times we make love such a pure and noble thing that no poor human can ever meet our vision. It doesn't entail marriage, or even physical love. There's love of parents, love of city or nation, love of life, and love of people. All different, all love.