That is the enterprise of theology. And so, I wind up being a sort of curious creature, an agnostic who prays to an unknown god. For each morning, I do something suspiciously like praying. I sit quietly and have a conversation with the unknown god. It is kind of an inner dialog, like talking with a friend.
Some days there is a deafening silence.
And some days, it is like conversing with a friend. I pose a question and an answer enters my consciousness. Sometimes I experience a sense of a Loving Presence, which some have called God. The subject of God is huge. I probably have three hundred books in my library on the topic, many of which I have read.