Now we're ready to begin. The most helpful thing you can do for yourself now is to work out a Plan of Action to deal with your situation in a constructive way - starting right now. First, you have to assess the real problem - the root problem. This may take a while. Come back to your list and add new thoughts as they occur to you.
Small steps can add up to big results.
There is always someone or something that can help you. And there are always more stones to turn over. In doing anything difficult in life, we have seen the power of support systems. Don't overlook this crucial component of success. There are all kinds of support groups - and surely there are organizations of people who do the same thing you do.