I think that she still thinks that suicide would send her to hell. She figures that if she drives off the road, then it will be presumed an accident. That way, she'll still make it into heaven. There is nothing stunning in the rehash of warmed-over suicide attempts except that they're common in this circle. But suicide plans are abandoned again, lost in the stacks of stress-management guides and character trait worksheets.
Stress management is always laughable.
Breathing techniques and time-outs don't compare to the immediate relief provided by Ativan, a benzodiazepine tranquilizer. Most of us circle nearly every trait, unsure of what they are, but certain that we have them. Traits can be alleviated, no matter what the cause. Pills mediate between our minds and suicide. Many of us get to a point where we can function and suicidal thoughts are allowed to remain as dormant enemies hiding inside.