And be thrilled to be alive. I need to flirt with Ray and Adam about sexy elbows and escape into the clouds. I need to fly again. I need to pray more and really mean it, not be so rebellious. Not be perfect, but somewhere close.
Tonight is the night.
If only I could follow through with something this important for once. Make it real. I wish I could really run away. Sometimes I really do think music is my drug. Listening to Freak on a Leash, it almost takes away the edge of the pain, just like they say alcohol does.