Enjoy the friendship and keep looking for a full partner. Tension is released through arguing. Don't imagine that through your steadfastness she will change her sexual orientation. That's not sane. My world is crumbling.
Specifics are a bore, but basically finances are a burden.
My mother has helped me every month for the past year. No one knows and I feel so ashamed. Plus, I have always been a performance artist, but the art has to come from the heart and my heart feels dead. I am 24 years old with a car I can't afford to fix and cavities I can't afford to fill. I feel like I am physically and mentally falling apart.