I didn't feel anything, just rational acceptance. All the doctors and midwives were in the delivery room looking at the baby. What they were saying fit with what I had just heard. Ill love you as you are. A doctor came over to me and said, We all see that she doesn't look like a regular baby.
Tomorrow well do tests.
I nodded in understanding. I was taking it all so calmly, so emotionally detached. When the midwife came over to me, I put my hand on her arm. Thank you for telling me, I told her. I knew the midwives are not allowed to tell.