I wasn't in a routine, I wasn't working. Mentally, you break down and think you can't do it. I've got a lot of knockers. They've really given me a kick in the guts. But I know when to and when not to, and I'm only 21.
Some blokes are different.
It is a measure of Toia's character that he feels he owes his Dockers teammates. He owes it to former captain Peter Mann - 'the most courageous person for what he's gone through on and off the field in the past 12 months'. And he owes Jason Norrish, Matthew Burton, Stephen O'Reilly, Brad Wira, Ashley Prescott, Adrian Fletcher and Callaghan - 'because they are just so solid off field and religious in what they do'. And Toia owes it to captain Chris Bond. Because he can't swim.