This still does not explain why they like Jerry Lewis. Since my injury, I ve been completely engaged in the building of a new life. What really kept me on my toes was that every day I had a new challenge to address. I was always on guard. With the recent luxury of relaxing into a routine life, came the vivid understanding that I had a pressure slowly building up inside of me.
Tension slowly builds up in our lives like magma increasing in pressure under a volcano dome.
Before the eruption, emotional lava oozes out the side vents onto our family and friends. I was snapping at people at inappropriate times, getting very angry over little things and frozen with apathy when large problems arose. Easily startled, I had a short attention span, deep feelings of being overwhelmed, fears of trying something new, periodic depression and this foolish vision of the 49ers getting to the Super Bowl. I was suffering from the accelerating symptoms of unresolved trauma, also known as toxic stress. These are textbook signs of unresolved stress from trauma big and small.