These second generation mentally ill also began to treat themselves with street drugs. Under the influence, a significant number committed crimes of violence. The prisons and county jails together house about 2 million inmates, about a third are known to be mentally ill, and a large proportion of the balance are addicted to heroin, cocaine, methamphetamine. Our presidents led no moral crusades to restore treatment resources to the very needy. Your distress is a temporary problem.
Suicide is a permanent solution.
The two most likely predictors of suicidal deaths in the US is age, and substance use, with the very young and the very old being at greatest risk, especially when aggravated by self prescribed street substances. While you may suffer much pain you are looking for relief rather than death. Their is an assumption that you might feel better or nothing after suicide. The misunderstanding is that it is impossible to imagine a world without us in it. Even while we imagine what will happen after we die, we are still very much alive in the imagining process.