I could hold nothing back or save nothing for myself. There was not a tiny bit of reserve. The marriage is all or nothing. Every bit of me is required, or not one bit of me is accepted. Some souls are feeling the terror of the moment.
Self knows the cost instinctively.
It frantically looks for a way out of having to go to the depths with God. If that self is not abandoned, I tell you truly, that soul will never see life. That one will try his hardest to please God. He is deceived in that he is only seeking to please himself. God hates self-righteousness.