I think it's the same loss that has been reflected in movement 8 of The Great Wilderness . In general, my strong feeling for the Scottish Highlands also connects with this. But then in The Unknown I take the most tormented motif from the 4th Symphony for the tuba part, and it gets raised into a much higher, more sublime level, where true resolution is found through alignment with the higher purpose. The other main element underlying the music, and really the point of all of my creative work, is the forward-looking overtly spiritual side which in various degrees points towards the enlightened state. This reflects the higher purpose of my life as a spiritual teacher.
Teaching can be on many levels.
It can involve communicating concepts in words, but the ultimate spiritual teaching is through pure experience of love, wonder, beauty. All my creative work is about opening doorways, horizons and visions in the mind, and many works give glimpses of the higher order which is in fact already within us. I think it is actually the combination of this main element and the abovementioned inner suffering and search for its resolution which has given rise to the consistent intensity in my works. Associated with the above consideration is a strong motivation to reveal the important information that the Church has sought to suppress over the centuries. This would derive particularly from my own experience of having been persecuted and burnt at the stake for rejecting the Church's oppression of people and suppression of the truth.