The idea that Christians don t cry is stupid. Jesus wept at the death of Lazarus. Mary and her friends wept at the death of Jesus. Judas wept when he thought about what he had done. David wept when his friend Jonathan died and when his son died.
Tears are natural and appropriate.
Second, strengthen your relationship with the Lord. It is easy to turn away from God at this time . . . You need His strength. You need the grace and peace that only He can give. You need the assurance that God is in control.