We were taught to believe we had a disease and that we could never be healed of it. But by will power we could break the habit, if we wanted to bad enough. Once out of the rehab center, it was just a matter of time that a weak moment was bound to come. They always do. They always will when you go off drugs or alcohol.
Weak moments are part of living.
It's what you rely on to overcome those weak moments that gets you through, or what leads you back into the hell you've come out of. I didn't have what it took to overcome. My want to didn't want to bad enough at those weak moments. I gave in. Only this time, I was worse than before.