That opens the door to exploring yourself and your sexuality from a place of being clear that you are not sure, and in turn that creates an openness to dis-cover your truth. There will be pain and drama here, not pleasure and connection. This clearly is a process that takes time. Erasing old negative beliefs and ideas about sex also takes attention and time and must be done to allow the positive beliefs and then experiences to shine through. I have it for my own pleasure and enjoyment and am entitled to revel in the fullness of it.
Sex is so often about getting human contact and touch.
So create ways that give you that without having to have sex, such as massage. The next level of sexual healing and expression is to give yourself permission to find, and be, your unique expression of your sexuality. Our culture is SO full of judgement about anything wilder than the Missionary position 3 times a week. Anything past that is culturally judged to be suspect if not sick and kinky. Now, not everyone will enjoy these two, but you will not know if you do not explore them.