At this time, all of a sudden there is nowhere for you to go, there is nothing further that you can learn. Everything catches up to you and all you have ever done or learned becomes 'uncomfortably close to home'. You are faced with the choice to either run away from your past and what you have learned, or to realise that all of the learning and what you have read applies to you, that you are no longer 'playing games' and you cannot go on deluding yourself. The stories that applied to others suddenly become as mirrors for you and your life. At this time, you are faced with the realisation that you must face the Truth of You and that no longer is your pursuit an intellectual or mind exercise.
Wisdom comes from the personal relating of knowledge and experience.
Many of your deepest fears start to rise to the surface. Questions, emotions and feelings flow. The death that you seek is the death of your past and all that has you seemingly trapped in your mind and body. In your body memory is located all of the memories which make up your subconscious and unconscious mind. This is the 90 percent of the mind that Science tell us that we do not make use of.