You are searching for another way out of your imagined judgment. Your imagined judgments are largely because of your unwillingness to humble yourself to true love. True love does not seek its own. Seek the welfare of others and then will you know of the plain path through the trauma of shame. Shame is not bad for you, but shame is good for you.
Shame presents the nakedness of success.
Behold the birth of success before your eyes. It is naked and free of all chains. Wrap yourself with the under garments of humility and the outer garments of my righteousness will grant you the identity of a citizen of heaven, instead of the identity of a fugitive. You are not an animal. You are wounded and you have responded to your wounds and your hurts with the emotions of human reasoning.