Started giving shots of Neupogen to myself. This is a joy for a person with a very shaky hand anyway. My stomach felt like it was cut up into little pieces then thrown back inside, my strength was shot to hell and eating was no longer enjoyed or wanted. I was returned three days latter, infection for three days, then released for good. Eating was not enjoyable, morning sickness 24 hours a day.
Slowly things start to come around.
October 1997 Aredia has started again 90 mg every month and I am on 50 mg of Prednisone. I am completely disabled and on social security, at 49 it is odd to be home all by yourself after so many years. It is important to keep your mind off the negative and hurting and focus on positive thoughts. For me it has been different goals. I set up monthly, quarterly, six month and long range goals.