Truth is our light body. Physical beings are also true. But it is not true compared with light being. It is fake. That is why after death our physical body disappears just as naturally as time goes by.
Suicide is a stupid action.
You must go round until you learn the lesson. Be brave for the death if you are guided to, as you are beautiful and God s child. Angels will be with you at the moment you make the shift. It is all good things happened for all the concerned people. Natural death is a graduation it is great.