What if, what if. On the other hand, if things had turned out differently, my grandmother could be well and healthy, and my relationship could be coasting along blissfully. I've had both thoughts. Things happen for a reason . People say that.
People believe that.
But when I stop and think about it, it just seems na ve. Wishful thinking in the extreme. I know that's insulting to a lot of people, many of whom I respect. I know I could be wrong. I hope, above all else, that I am wrong.