Please help me. A You need somebody to talk to. Please pray that God will show you someone who will be understanding and can offer wise, Christian counsel. You very much need somebody who will stand by your side as you seek healing and forgiveness. I'd try a pastor or a Christian counselor.
Most pastors are very familiar with the trouble people can get themselves into.
It's usually hard to shock a pastor. A pastor is well-equipped to help you see that if you're sorry for what you've done, God forgives you. I know you don't feel forgiven, but hearing it from a pastor could help the truth sink in. Christian counselors are even harder to shock. A Christian counselor can help you work through some of the deeper issues involved in your sexual identity.