Misplaced concerns about privacy and confidentiality may deter warnings to others. There are no reliable predictors of suicide. You have suffered the greatest and most horrible emotional shock of your life. You feel betrayed, out of control, disoriented, and hurt. This is what happens after a suicide.
Nobody's ever ready for it, and it overwhelms anyone whom it directly affects.
The loss is too fresh and you are traumatized. The first weeks and months are very hard and your emotions may be in turmoil for a long time. You can be helped. Start by seeing your doctor. She or he may be able to recommend services or medications that may help.