Now you are ready to write the essay. Write on lined paper, double spaced, using only one side of the page. Do not edit as you write. Write it out. Make it too long.
Revision Let the essay sit for a day or two.
Revise it carefully and write your second draft. This may also be disappointing. Don't expect too much from your first attempts. It takes a lot of work. I have often put in a lot of work, put it in an envelope, taken one last look and said 'Oh hell, I have to do it again' and I did it again.