A passion to learn fends off fear of failure. Smart leaders pilot ideas and dreams with small groups of trusted associates. If an idea fails, the leader and followers admit it and move on. There is no need for irresolvable conflict or involuntary termination. Learn together and go forward.
Reflection is akin to meditation.
It is not worrying but anticipating what must be done and the best way to accomplish a dream. Do honest self assessment about the effects of all your life experiences, family, and peer relationships, on your becoming a wise leader. Make peace with your past. Your family is yours. Your childhood and youth is yours.