The cold reality of knowing you can never have it. You settle for the comfort of home yet long for the dreams in your head. You close your eyes and see it all. No one can see but you. The non existent possibilities taunt and roam aimlessly in a mind that no longer has control over its thoughts.
Strength diminishes with every new vision.
The hope for control is lost with every new dream. You are powerless against the desires that rumble within. All that is left is the will that does not allow you to bend. The struggle is strong and this new wanting is all you crave. It's that one relentless desire you can't escape from.