It is a yearning for that special person who once was and now is gone. Grief feels a lot like fear. The world may no longer appear safe and predictable. Even our strong emotional responses can be frightening. Our whole world may seem out of control.
Nothing seems the same.
All the responses of grief seem to conspire to convince us that our world is out of control. Indeed, we ourselves may feel out of control. We may feel out of control or powerless to cope with all the changes that this loss will bring to our lives. We may also feel that we are powerless in regard to our own emotions. If only I had done more.