What Lama wants is for you to become a wise human being instead of one who is dominated by the energy force of a super-sensitive ego. If you feel like that, the course was worthwhile. Your old habits, your schizophrenic mental attitudes haven't changed a bit. So you can see, realization is so individual. It depends upon each individual's mind, effort and wisdom.
Realization is so personal.
You've been like that from the time you were born until now, and if you keep going that way, you'll end up dying with nothingness. That time will never come. You can see, when your mind is occupied ego energy, it's like constantly having needles stuck into your body. It's the same thing, exactly the same thing. So you can realize how Important it is to release attachment and ego.