I lost my innocence to my real Dad that chose to use me for his own self-fulfilling needs. The things he did to me happened while he watched pornography. I go through times of depression, confusion, anorexia and guilt. My Mom says that it was not my fault, but still I wonder wasn't I good enough or perfect enough. I am finding that there are many others like me.
People say there is no harm to pornography.
I say they are wrong. My husband and I seemed to have a good marriage from the outside, but I experienced verbal abuse, very little love and intimacy. My husband was emotionally unavailable. When I received a call from a woman with whom he was involved, the pieces of the 25-year puzzle began to come together. Over the next few years I discovered my husband had a secret life which included a life long sexual addiction of numerous forms of pornography including phone sex, affairs, X-Rated videos, cable porn and more.