I know it isn't what God wants for my life. And because of it, I'm not experiencing any peace, any joy, any fulfillment. But I don't know any other way. I'm at a dead end. God is calling you toward Easter.
New beginnings are frightening, and often involve some pain.
But they are there. In God there is always a tomorrow. He is the God of Easter. He is the god of fresh starts and of new beginnings. Easter is his specialty.