I'm always vacillating between belief and doubt. You will doubt. Not always, perhaps, but a little most of the time and a lot some of the time. Ask the Lord to help you with your unbelief. What God usually does as you turn it over to God, is that God harnesses it, uses it for teaching you and helping you discern.
Many people panic over discovering that they still doubt.
We all get something, sometimes several somethings. Let God lead you as to what you get, and don't worry about what you don't have. Don't be so concerned about getting gifts, but about being a gift to others, in Christ's name. But you can always live each day for Christ. Great stories tell great truths which help us deal with life.