He has had it out 25, maybe 30 times, but he had never fired it in the line of duty until last night. The truth is, he doesn't like guns. He was never a hunter like most of the guys at the station. He doesn't collect guns. He never thought about how it would affect him if he did shoot his gun.
Nobody talks about that at the station, or even at the academy.
When Ryner and Mathewson go out to eat, the manager comes to the table. He doesn't know what to say. He is filled with guilt and shame and fear. I'm gonna tell him that I'm up here because I just shot somebody. He looks around the room.