It is your choice. Faith is the step beyond belief. You can hope there is a god to save you. You can believe there is a god who will love you. You can build a faith that you can walk on.
Perception is reality.
It is your choice. You don't have to be an idiot to love god and feel something in return. There's no devil in my ear. We can take responsibility for our lives or we can piss them away. It's a choice.