Dear Livia, So glad you wrote to us for some advice. I'll try to help as much as I can, based on your brief letter. I recently started school at a new university, for the summer quarter. I am only registered for two classes, and I haven't been attending. The reason is because I have no drive.
Nothing matters anymore.
Ultimately, I feel nonexistent in this life. Tony Just what you have said so far says that you are quite depressed. I saw a psychologist for a while, but my mother interfered too much, so I quit. Then I was prescribed Buspar and Paxil, mostly for social anxiety disorder and heart palpitations. I certainly will say, however, that if you even suspect that you have serious health problems like those involving your heart, you need to follow a good medical doctor's advice regardless of your emotional problems.