The worst part of insomnia is being awake. You have to be awake to do thing every day, and these times are the only moments when you feel like sleeping. My eyes burn. Eyelid weight is unbearable, unignorable. My body feels like it is dying and yet my mind feels ever more active, but irregular in its consistency.
Thoughts are rapid but cease without warning.
My body is disconnected. My brain is rebelling, conserving its energy in intervals and shooting it off in rapid unimaginative spurts. I laid down 4 hours ago. After praying for sleep for so long, I gave in. I thought laying down and watching TV would nullify my thoughts and send me into a blissful trance.