Yet, friends say he has been asking after me. If I give up, I will never forgive myself. There is something there worth the effort, the rejection, the heartbreak and whatever else might be the consequence of my persistence. Over time even rocks are eroded by the persistance of the sea. I'm not going anywhere, and apparently, neither is he.
Motivation is half the battle.
But so is skill, and I don't have any. Any advice on how to get close to this man will be sincerely appreciated. It's obvious from your writing style you're an intelligent, creative woman with a good, healthy sex drive. Yet you hope somewhere there is a technique a woman can use to get a man to want her against his will. This says some interesting things about your sense of fair play.