They realize they probably won't see their loved ones again but can't fully grieve. Uncertainty is enemy and friend. Once outgoing, Ms. Moore has closed up emotionally. She suffers anxiety-related health problems. In March, she was hospitalized for gallstones.
Many nights are sleepless.
Other nights, she wakes up at 4 in the morning, rolls over, sees a portrait of Greg and says hello to him. Her two surviving sons lost direction in their lives because of what happened to their brother, Ms. Moore said. They live out of town. Her daughter has a house in Avondale. Ms. Moore is wounded every time her hopes rise and fall, as they did last month.