The names of the officers are real. They share their experiences to offer the view behind the badge of a suicide by cop incident. That's one of the most absurd questions I've ever heard. I guess they want to hear that you can, but that's such bullshit because there's not one cop out there that can answer that question until it happens. I've had two righteous times when I could've shot someone, but I didn't.
Nobody really has the answer to that question until that moment.
I was at the end of my shift when I answered a call where a man named Floyd was in his house and wanted to kill himself. He was going through a divorce and was drinking too much and it all added up. Normally these things go real easy but this call was a classic example of why you shouldn't be so lax in the job. We had communications call him to ask him to come to the front door. I'm behind a car that is almost directly in front of the house, just the width of the yard separates us from the front door.