If you are worried about a certain part of transition tell people. Telling people includes Russell or whoever your psychiatrist is. He needs to know these things. Yes, it's easy to read the Net and learn what to say, but you are only hurting yourself, not anyone else by doing this. It's no good turning round in a few years and blaming Russell for letting you have surgery because you lied to him - that is YOUR fault.
Transition is a slippery slope.
It s often hard to call a halt at a certain point and go back to where you were before. You must be prepared to though. If things genuinely aren t any better for you, admit it. There is no shame in being wrong. You have to be prepared to be proved totally wrong about what you thought you were feeling.