She suffered a great deal both spiritually and physically during her last illness. She knew she was dying and was so sad to leave her husband and children. I miss her so much, and feel heavy with her loss every day.
Nothing is good or bad.
Love and hate are concepts that help us manipulate our physical environment as best we can to prolong our own survival. The universe gives equal time to Jesus and Hitler, to the Buddha and Charles Manson. It doesn't seem to have the capacity to care. I'm sorry for your sorrow. I know from my own experience how much it hurts to watch someone you love so deeply suffer so terribly.