You seem inspired by faith in your cause. I'm the only one around here that really knows so everyone comes to me to find out what's going on. Most organizations have such a person. You appear to be pleased about that. I, I'm going to scream.
Many tasks can cause that reaction.
You seem really frustrated. If you want to know anything at all about that, just ask General Counsel. Why not just ask the Director's Office. Many offices would take that position. F. General Counsel seems to give you confidence.