When you look in the mirror, you are seeing what your eating disorder wants you to see, you are not seeing the true picture. Eating disorders afflict millions of people, thousands of which will die from them yearly. There is good news though, eating disorders can be beaten. You do not have to be a prisoner to this anymore. You have the power within yourself to beat this and you will.
Recovery takes a lot of time and hard work, but in the end it is all worth it.
You will finally be free and you will love yourself.