I adore and cherish women while being a misogynist. I am a narcissist who failed. So many contradictions tend to put people off. People want clear definitions and tiny boxes and the clarity that comes only when life itself stops. So, all my life I experienced the cautious looks of others, their repulsion, their rage.
People react with fear to the exceptional and then they get angry for having feared.
I am Sam. I seem to be his hero, untarnished by my constant failures and glaring failings. She was physically, psychologically and verbally abusive towards me and to my brothers. I am a Narcissist ever since I remember myself. My mother regarded me as a supreme venue of entertainment and I performed for our neighbours, acquaintances and family daily.