I was simply getting out of my own way. In The Empire Strikes Back, Yoda instructs young Luke Skywalker how to accomplish miracles of mind, such as seeing into the future and exerting mental control over his environment. We must believe in the powers of the higher elf before we can activate them. And, as i the movie, we have to make a great effort to go where the higher self lives. The path to the higher self is often obstructed by fear, but fear may have its uses.
Many people have a deep-seated fear of contacting the unknown.
If they have been watching such Hollywood movies as The Exorcist the little girls possession began when she worked a Ouija board. A seemingly innocent child's game opened he doorway to ultimate terror. Hollywood, as usual exaggerated. If we are not protected by our higher selves, we become vulnerable to any entity that might want to use us. It's rather like opening up the telephone directory and calling someone at random to come visit you.