Persevere in this, and you should soon gain a feeling of profound deprivation. Don't trust anybody. Grapple with your own problems, like a REAL man or woman. If you should get the urge to confide in someone who seems to care, remember that people are basically no good and look out for themselves alone. Never take a vacation.
Rest is for wimps.
Anyway, it's a luxury you can't afford, especially if you're working up to a state of genuine exhaustion. Live in the past. Keep these regrets fresh by reviewing regularly. Re-running these will take your mind off those pressing matters that others think you should handle now. Like this month's rent.