Be very very honest with yourself. Even if you find some things embarrassing as it will only be you who will read this. Give yourself about ten minutes and then do the same on the other side of your chart. Importantly, for the positive side you will be writing down all the things that are indeed assets to you and other positive things that assist you on your way. What you have just done is very important and what you do with this list now will determine as to whether or not you will in fact clear some of these clouds away from your skyline.
Sunny days are now only a decision away.
It is very important that you maximise those habits that are indeed proving beneficial to you. The big challenge will be transferring this seemingly large group of obstructions that you listed in the negative column and turning them into advantages that will serve you rather than counter you. For example if you wrote on your list that you were always behind in your work and that your computer skills were next to negligible then one may surmise that if you were to work on these skills perhaps you could automate some of your functions so as to relieve daily administration pressure from yourself. That of choice. What a wonderful asset.