And I finally realized that this hunger was for God. I was hungry for a love that I couldn't find on this earth. I was hungry for a relationship with Jesus. I said that I tried religion as part of my recovery. Religion and relationship are two different things.
Relationship is completely different.
I figured out why I thought God had failed me in the past. I couldn't imagine that there was really a God out there who loved ME, Brenna Kate Burrington, that I could be worthy of love at all. This is not to say that everyone needs to go through a major spiritual experience in order to recover. But I did. People recover all the time without God, but not me.