There is no beginning. There is only the infinite passion of life. If you want to doctor life, maybe you need to be patient. Apply discipline to your thoughts when they become anxious over the outcome of a goal. Impatience breeds anxiety, fear, discouragement and failure.
Patience creates confidence, decisiveness and a rational outlook, which eventually leads to success.
No thing great is created suddenly, any more than a bunch of grapes or a fig. If you tell me that you desire a fig, I answer you that there must be time. Let it first blossom, then bear fruit, then ripen. I am certain, the body is not the measure of healing peace is the measure. First keep the peace within yourself, then you can also bring peace to others.