But you also need a full-time job to support this direction. And that's the problem. It's always the same pattern. I get some drongo job in an office or a factory. And just when I think I'm on the verge of flourishing, it all falls apart.
Some distraction always creeps in.
Some thread comes loose. The whole thing blows up, and I have to leave. Problem is that the time I spend at each job is getting shorter and shorter. And the jobs get harder and harder to find. I turn thirty next April.