Please place me in whatever kill-file you have. It is against the guidelines to request a free astrological reading on the Astrology forum. Well, consider if your hobby happened to be medicine, and you joined a list of doctors to learn more about their craft. Probably not, because you know that doctors are professionals who spend many years struggling financially to learn their skills, and you value them as professionals. You would take the time to visit them in their office, and would pay the fee.
Professional astrologers deserve the same consideration.
Furthermore, if your concerns are important to you, seeing an astrologer in person, over time, just as you would any other counselor, is certainly better for your long-term growth. Some of us do offer readings via e-mail, but there will be a fee if the astrologer is a professional. If it is completely out of the question for you to visit a local astrologer, I do offer an online column called Ask an Astrologer - it's a bit of a lottery that your question will be chosen, but you have a fairly good chance if the question is detailed, interesting and you have all the birth data. There are some gray areas here though. There are several astrologers on the list collecting astrological data for studies, and they may contact you if they find a particular combination of planetary influences to be of interest in your chart.