I recently started school at a new university, for the summer quarter. I am only registered for two classes, and I haven't been attending. The reason is because I have no drive.
Nothing matters anymore.
Ultimately, I feel nonexistent in this life. I saw a psychologist for a while, but my mother interfered too much, so I quit. Then I was prescribed Buspar and Paxil, mostly for social anxiety disorder and heart palpitations. I don't feel like they help. The only time I go out is to drink or do drugs.