For many people, faith and spirituality do offer strength to accept the unacceptable. Other sources of help can come from support groups and counseling services. You may want to look into these different avenues as time goes on. Overall, remember that you can find healing and hope for the future, and your life can move in a positive direction. During your time of grief you should realize that it is natural to want to run away, to flee the pain and emptiness rather than deal with it.
Most people move through grief in slow phases.
You have to be realistic about the different reactions and responses you may have in grief. Here is a description of some emotions that others have passed through. Maybe hearing other people's thoughts will help you not to feel so alone. I feel numb. I seem to be functioning like a robot.