God does not demand. God does not manipulate. God gently, persistently knocks. God says 'here I am, I would like to spend time with you'. Recovery is a process of learning to trust God.
Trust grows slowly.
We can't do that all at once. But perhaps today we can listen carefully for his knock. And, with persistence, we will some day sit at table with him and enjoy his loving presence. Lord, thank you for knocking. Thank you for respecting my boundaries.