That has become automatic, too. We can consciously attend only a few things at a time, so most of what goes on in our minds is out of the scope of our attention. NT people are extremely hard to talk out of our ideations, including the negative ones, because our ideas are our reality. If you ever decide to get counseling, choose your counselor carefully. There are many working as psychologists and psychotherapists with a conscious preference for an NF type of cognition, but who are actually SJs to the bone.
Psychology is the kind of field bound by countless rules.
Many who practice it just mindlessly follow authorities' writings with no living insight into the mind. You need to find someone who is your intellectual equal. I had my memory tested with a set of tests containing questions where it was asked to memorize arbitrary sensory patterns, sequences of numbers, pairs of words etc. The result was considerably poorer than the average result in every section. There is nothing wrong with my intelligence or memory for ideas that make logical sense, but memorizing arbitrary data has always been painful for me.