So wake up. If you can navigate the 'friends' thing properly you can begin to be around the guy you want to be around. Hopefully you will be able to transition this into a relationship. Obviously try and take it slow. The fact is, if the guy bones you immediately, there is a good chance you will never see him again.
Men like to bone and run.
They always have, your job is to train the guy not to run by making this all happen very, very slowly. If you can't do this yet you are out of the scope of anything this article can do for you. No one will ever understands how wonderful you are. This is not a very understanding world. Often we get obsessed with one specific person.