The important thing is to keep your mind, soul, and imagination open.
Many gay men feel that their lives are ones of unrealized intentions.
They intended to have a lover, but never did. They wanted deeper friendships, but could never work them out, either. They wanted to have a more sexually exciting, fulfilling life, but their bashfulness and repression cut them off, also, from this. The only thing they could imagine were the brutal consequences of being open. These consequences were shaped for the most part by internalized homophobic feelings of guilt, fear, hurt, and repression.