I have a strong desire to circle the emotional wagons and constrict my world to right then and right there. Then he is well, and my world expands to include family and friends again. It seems like when you are handed a child with a rare disease, the rest of your life should fall into place. Let me dispel that thought. Relationships go right on being relationships with all the good days and all the bad ones.
Money is still tight, days are still too short.
The Cubs are never going to win the pennant, but are always going to try. I've changed, some for the better, some for the worse. I know more about some things than I ever wanted to know, but I also know more about love. The love I feel for Ian and the love that he shows me. It is not what it is like living with Ian.