When creativity become impossible, a person feels more and more worthless. In losing creativity, we lose what is closest to our true identity. When it goes, in some sense we die inside. At this time death may seem most attractive. Something else happens as this feeling of worthlessness increases.
People cease to like or to love themselves.
Of all attitudes in depression this one of self-dislike or hatred causes the most harm. It prolongs depression and in some cases helps to make recovery almost impossible. They appear to themselves to be worthless, unproductive, shunned by friends, unlikely to recover, and having little or no hope. Other factors may contribute to this sense of worthlessness. The Judeo-Christian tradition, incorrectly handed on and taught, may appear to advocate the suppression of self, the denial of self, the death of self.