A friend whose opinion I respect visited Mother and reported a lasting change in his perspective. In dire need of inspiration, I recruited another desperate friend and we booked a flight to Germany.
Mother gives darshan in silence.
Perhaps we are spiritually dense. There is a lot of controversy over Meera. Andrew Harvey's Hidden Journey and Martin Goodman's In Search of the Divine Mother are third-party accounts. I observed an obvious inner circle of devotees who do their best to create a holy atmosphere around Meera. Everyone tries to act very pious and reverential as they wait like cattle for their turn at darshan.