It s been a rough week for Amy. She is starting to experience more flashbacks about abusive things that happened to her at church growing up. She wants desperately to get involved with our church here in Philadelphia, but the visceral reaction she gets from past trauma makes this virtually impossible. Even as I wish she could come to church with me, I affirm the level of difficulty that would be for her right now. Eating has been a problem, too, as it s been easier for her to stuff these painful memories through restricting her eating and obsessing over exercise, weight loss, and body image.
Next week is our one-year anniversary.
Amy s made a lot of progress in that year, and our love for each other has grown tremendously. But I would be lying if I passed all of these trials off as easy and non-distressing. It has been an ongoing battle for us, and for me personally, to hold out hope and to see God s goodness in all of this. Read more here . But experts say numbers may be wrong.