I was suicidal and delusion. Childrens' Service Bureau asked me to voluntarily give over temporary guardianship of my daughter so I could seek help. I just wanted to die. I felt like the most terrible mother in the world. I was diagnosed with postpartum psychosis.
Postpartum psychosis is the rarest and most severe of all postpartum disorders.
It affects one in 1,000 women and usually occurs in the first three weeks after birth. Unfortunately, I knew little about postpartum disorders and didn't recognize the warning signs. I believe my problem was that I was not educated on the subject of postpartum disorders. No childbirth or parenting class, book or magazine article prepared me to be able to cope with postpartum psychosis. I am doing better these days.