I'm a borderline personality in recovery for the last four years. I go in for my occasional mental health check-up, stay in the community of good friends, and regularly struggle to do the right thing. I keep getting the same feedback from my closest friends, that I do things without thinking. Ingrid Ingrid, one property of ships is righting moment. Righting moment refers to how far a ship can go over on its side and still return upright.
People are like ships.
Storms in life, high winds, or heavy seas can batter us. But if we have a favorable righting moment, we will always return to center. You have professional help, a community of good friends, and an awareness of your own behavior. You have a favorable righting moment. Your hatches are dogged down, you won't sink.