If you are confident of the love of God, you can repent and start again. Your can always make a new start. The Christian gospel is very different at this point from secular self seeking, self fulfilment in autonomy. Repentance means becoming another person. The time has come for what the prophets expected to be fulfilled.
Resurrection is a possibility.
Jesus came, announcing the good news. In the name of Christ. Amen I am sending my messenger to prepare the way before me, and the Lord whom you seek will suddenly come to his temple . On this second Sunday in Advent we remember John the Baptist who came to announce the coming of the light of the orld. There was a man sent from God, whose name was John.