I would work on that. I would keep cleaning , keep my mouth closed, and allow the process of transmutation to take place. As soon as you engage the intellect, the process stops. Only the Divinity knows what's really going on. I gave a presentation out in Dallas last month, and I spoke with this woman, a Reiki master.
Nobody gets that.
I notice I catch myself more often, but I never get through a day. If you want to solve a problem, no matter what kind of problem, work on yourself. If you know that, you can elevate any situation, and you can release there. Please forgive me. You don't have to actually say that out loud to them, and you don't even have to understand the problem .