And so I have to ask my other partners why they would rather have me love someone else less, rather than more. Being willing to receive love seems to be the most difficult obstacle for each of us. As long as we run around looking outside ourselves, blaming something else outside of us, like the AIDS virus, and refusing to take responsibility for creating our own reality, then we have no power over it, to heal it, to change it. Only by taking responsibility for our creation, our reality, do we have any power. We so easily give away our free will and our power in order to avoid taking responsibility.
People close their hearts in order to avoid feeling pain.
But that closing also prevents love from coming in, and from going out. The only way to be healthy, to be immune sufficient, to be alive, young, free, joyous, ecstatic, is to be willing to keep your heart open, no matter how much pain you feel. People want to believe that they can live a life filled with ecstatic joy without ever feeling pain. But the actual choice you have to make is simply whether to feel or not, to allow yourself to be open to others or not. If you believe that the universe is loving and giving, and that others are basically good, then you will be able to open, to remain open, to feel some pain, and lots of joy, to receive and to give love, to be young and vital, aware and happy, to be immune sufficient.