I discovered this week that another great disciple of Christ experienced this too. You must do it many times and in many different ways. And it certainly does not become easier. You said it, Henri. I like to explore wild ideas which are not essential to my basic faith, and which may not even be valid, but they are always thought provoking.
Recycling is good.
But this month I won't go off on an environmental tangent. I did get to thinking a while back about the truth learned in a Solid Waste Management class that we can't ever make things go away, we just move them around. So I was thinking about the atoms in the universe. They get recycled constantly. Well, you get the idea.