We cannot come to meditation in the hopes that it will give us what we need or what we want. Meditation is a place that we must come to with an offering.
Meditation is a very sacred place.
Close your eyes and feel and see that place that is beyond name, form, and color. It is a place of silence, a place of being in that perfect state of ecstasy. You must learn to enjoy the pain. Learn to love it. Try to respect the form.