At the same time there was a reform of higher studies, so I could train belatedly, as a secondary school teacher. Now I teach in the special needs school, and I have registered to train others, because there is such a demand in this field. However, in these last few years the wish to be a priest has steadily strengthened. But afterwards invariably a knot has untied and it has become clear that nothing is meaningless. I don't depend on the Church for employment.
Nobody can forbid it.
Slowly I am beginning to understand this freedom. Precisely as regards the ordination of women, this freedom is of the greatest importance. I have talked to women who already do this. They and I are empowered to do so by baptism and confirmation, that is, through the gifts of the Holy Spirit. I'm aware that this is forbidden by Church law, and can draw down ecclesial punishment.