I was trying to fit in what I thought was important. Don't stop opening up. When you're so far down, it's hard to believe there's an up. I'm sending you peace through the vapors. Anxiety and depression are intimate partners.
Obsessive thoughts are one manifestation of anxiety.
Read the BB archives on Skilled Relaxation. There's a metaphor about having to step away from the edge of the cliff before you can really begin to benefit. That is what I'm going to do. Drugs may help during a period of recovery. Keep letting go of everything - minute by minute.