I've never made honor roll since and still don't try to even in college. I guess the problems are deeper rooted than that. I was sexually abused by a stepfather and stepbrother when I was very young, but I never looked at that as the reason. I don't know why, but I don't believe that it had that big an effect on me. Mostly I just wanted to talk and tell people what I felt and believed, without my family interrupting and going on about their own opinions.
Poetry helps, but only if people read it.
My mother would freak if she read some of my poetry. That same year I was having trouble with my social life. I've never had a boyfriend and think that has affected me pretty badly. I've always been a little bit overweight, some years more than others. I always thought that was why, but I see girls heavier than me with boyfriends.