You must change the way you think about cigarettes if you ever hope to succeed. And you can do that. Make a list of all the reasons you want to quit. Post it, read it, believe it. Such as meditation, or guided relaxation, or even consistent exercise.
Many people are able to quit without medication, they just have to really make a plan and follow it.
They create options of things to do instead of smoking. We especially need alternatives for times when we feel bored, anxious, lonely, or tired. Or visit the transcripts of the first couple of sessions of our group. Cigarettes are a dangerous menace, the number one public health enemy and they kill over 1,000people every day. You need to learn some of this and really change how you feel about them.