Until and unless my disorder is under control, I ll continue to be plagued by suicidal ideation, and I also know that I ll continue to express those thoughts in my journal. Others worry, and they don t want to worry. They feel helpless, powerless, and naturally they don t want to feel those emotions. I can understand that too. I, like anyone, could be killed in an auto accident tomorrow, and grief would follow.
People always risk pain when they care about someone.
Disease of all sorts, accidents, catastrophes happen all the time. Suicide, however, is considered differently. People feel guilt after a suicide - but it s unfounded. You can t be a better friend, monitor all activities, utter any magic words to prevent it. If it happens it s not because of any one person, it s because of a mental disorder and free will.