In the end everyone's story is about what you should do, what your duty is in your own life. No one else can tell you that. You have to find out for yourself. I am not angry at the world. The world does not appall me.
People do what people do.
Can't change that. I will probably fall asleep reading it tonight, the pages crumpled when I wake. Tomorrow, maybe something by Luis Borges. It will be a long time before I start reading books on betrayal, how everything is wrong, how my world is a lie. Today I saw sandy beaches, green leaves, some rabbits behind my flat, and the sun shining.