This is because you have not come to know God. He doesn't promise to answer prayers of those who do not sincerely seek Him. First understand that this is about you. This is your eternal salvation. No one is pressuring you and regardless of pressures you think you might encounter if you pursue the truth, you need to be honest with yourself.
Nothing is more important.
We have rebelled against the God who created us and He has provided a means to pay the penalty for us and to bring us into a right relationship with Him through His Son Jesus Christ. We must realize, contrary to popular psychological and worldly teachings today, that we have no worth or merit on our own without Christ and are entitled to nothing but damnation. Only through God's grace, by faith can we be saved. Our Lord Jesus did live a sinless life and offered it for us. He suffered and died for our sins and rose again, defeating death forever.