My life instinct became stronger, and I got much too busy to die. I have another book due. I have a life now. You can't have a life and an eating disorder at the same time. If you don't like life, you can turn it down and have your own little sadomasochistic affair with yourself.
People often misunderstand eating disorders as a wish to go back to childhood.
They write eating disorders off as an adolescent problem, but eating disorders affect women at every age in every background, as well as men. We want to see it as a phase, because if we really look at an eating disorder, we're confronting some ugly facts about human nature. Avoiding life is paradoxical for people with eating disorders, because in many cases they're extremely caught up with succeeding. They're workaholics, perfectionists. They seem to be throwing themselves into life, but by getting caught up in work they're avoiding having to deal with people emotionally.