This page and my others are, in part, an effort to understand what happened to my son and what happened to me. We have not only lost our child, but also the part of us that they represent. We have lost the future that we would have made together. This is not the aspirations of academic, athletic, or professional success that we all may harbor. It is the vision of being together in the future as we were in the past.
Parental grief is different.
The process is different and so is the aftermath. He was our oldest child and was 28 when he died. Paul really loved football, the NFL, and the Dallas Cowboys. He renewed his subscription to the Cowboys newsletter shortly before his death. We stack them with the other mail that will never be opened or read.