If you are afraid this may happen, try to get support from family or counsellors before you make a stand. Do not try it when you are alone with him. Make sure you have a safe place to go if you need it. Be prepared to take the step of leaving your partner in order to be free from his abuse. It is normal to feel depressed at this time of your life.
Many women have the feeling that suicide is the only real option.
Killing yourself may seem like the best escape. It is not. if you feel suicidal it's often the result of believing your partner's putdowns, denying your anger toward him and turning it on yourself. There are other options. There are shelters, There are crisis lines. There are people who will help you if you reach Out.