The moon was full and I was feeling this real peaceful- ness. I got into this whole other state, of knowing I was gonna die and accepting it and really wanting it. It's like when you go to weddings, you take pictures to remember everything that happened. Well, I was taking mental pictures to remember this. At the brink of the attempt, the suicidal trance intensifies to a frightening pitch.
People feel extended beyond their capacity for survival.
Some describe a deafening cacophony of voices, while others relate an otherworldly stillness and certitude. The suicidal act itself may be fraught with emotions of anger or grief, or it may be purposeful, even peaceful, and virtually without feeling. Time exists only as the succession of moments between the present and this one final act. Chris' experience of this tunnel was so intense that everything she thought and felt seemed to further confirm her desire to end her life. She was not to be thwarted, either by a change of heart of by outside intervention.