Then do it. It's ok to find creative ways of expressing your pain. Seek solace in your own artistic expression. Use paints, pastel chalk, crayons, or markers to draw pictures or designs that convey how you feel. Perhaps it will be a mix of colors that symbolize your emotions.
Many people use red to express anger and rage, and black to express hopelessness and despair.
Certain shades of blue might be used to convey sadness. Perhaps you would like to bring your work into therapy to talk about what each color symbolizes for you and what you were thinking and feeling as you created this particular piece. Write a poem that describes your feelings at the moment. Compose a poem that in some way addresses the memories or experiences that cause you this pain. You may choose to share it with a friend, loved one or your therapist, or you may choose to keep it for yourself.