Dammit, dammit, dammit, dammit . I should remember that this is not about community. Nobody starts these things for the satisfaction of somebody else. I thought I was doing pretty well.
Meaning take out scenes.
So that died. And I sat around for two solid hours on the other one waiting till it was feasible and courteous to step into the action and one of the other parties up and went to bed. I am, evidently, merely a staging object, me'n my boy. I don't care if it's not fair. I'm pissed off right now, I'm feeling rejected and frustrated and inadequate and fucking pressured, and it pisses the hell out of me.