That's what I do with bad things. Still others have analyzed and reanalyzed everything that happened. They've tried to reconstruct every moment of the tragedy, endlessly seeking some truth that will help it all make sense. It's absolutely mind-boggling that one person could create that much sorrow. Even though I go to counseling, I don't think I'll ever be able to let it all out.
Nights are the hardest.
After he was killed, I waited a long, long time to change the sheets because they smelled like him. Her salvation, she said, has been her first grandson, Bryce. He was born three months before her husband was killed, and the family treasures its photographs of grandfather and grandson. Like others who became widows last July 29, Roya Havash has suffered from depression. In her husband's personal effects, she found a ticket from the toll booth on Ga. 400 near the shooting scene.