If you know what's holding you back, you can eliminate the obstacles. If you know what your pleasure is, you can enjoy it. Your powers are fantabulous. If you do not know yourself, you are confused. You cannot get a hold of your powers.
People pay a lot of money just to hear themselves talk.
If someone would sit with you, ask you questions, and listen to you talk, that would be fantastic. Try writing instead. Keep a diary. The paper calls for you to put something on it. It's the real thing.