After being drug free the teaching of the church and the monks' life no longer made sense to me. So I no longer belong to the Monastery or to any other church or religion. I am really messed up physically and sexually. I have a friend who is a doctor, Mark Luoto, and he says that I am sick and having physical and sexual problems because I took Mellaril for those many years. I have suffered serious and possibly permanent physical and sexual damage from taking these medicines.
Men can father children into their eighties.
I am fifty-one and the only way I can father a child is with the help of a turkey baster. What a romantic idea. The woman and me in bed. With the turkey baster. Maybe some Michael Jackson music.