It was horrible. But blissfully, I hope, I won't actually feel horrible or lost or angry or helpless. But I will remember the sadness. I might even feel it. Because the changes have barely started, and by the time they all come along, they won't be or feel so immediate, it will be a gradual thing as we adjust and compensate and deal.
Perspective is everything.
I got your note. You are not a shite. Not even close. Dog paddle like hell. C'est la vie.