Just as I cannot see light itself but only those things it illuminates and makes visible, perhaps I can only know God, when His divine light irradiates my mind. The living, acting God of Christian theology is, of course, the source of all my concepts. This makes them true although possibly distorted by my personal prejudices being loaded on them. Everything I do must come from God, but it is up to me to decide whether I perform my deeds like Saul or Paul. Without the input by God I would have no concepts at all.
Reality increasingly becomes the dream as the dream turns into reality.
The yoke becomes both light and heavy at the same time as realisation begins to force open the door of understanding just a smidgen wider. It does not frighten me, and neither does it fascinate me, at least not within the real meaning of those words. The Holy Spirit of God is not to me some intellectual concept. It is the Mind of God, the Will, the Heart of God who actively participates in our lives, showing concern without being coercive. Don't be too concerned that you are unable to place an accurate interpretation on what is the Holy Spirit.