Maybe you could talk to your Minister about counselling. Isolation is not good. Get out and talk to people face to face. Let them know how you feel. You'll be surprised how many people will relate to you and your feelings.
Most people feel depressed at some time or another.
And He opens up doors for me everyday - even if its putting someone in my face with some helpful,encouraging words. I've been hospitalized twice for suicide attempts, been to several counselors, been on several medications and nothing seems to work. I sleep for long periods of time and really see no reason to live. I have no friends and all I do is cry. I'm starting to hate my job, too.