When I got sober, they disappeared. I was told that would happen, but it doesn t make it any more endurable. Made it easier to relapse, for one thing. I got sober, alone. I was turned from a wild child into a bland adult.
Responsibility is damn boring.
Let s see - birthdays past. In 94 I met a girl then met up with friends and relapsed into five tequilas. 95 was the best ever - I d been attending a weekly open stage, and that week everyone wrote poetry and songs about me, and bought me drinks. I was with Orson and we had a peaceful day. I was alone and wasted my time at a cybercafe sipping chocolate martinis.