The activity is my memorial to him. I've grown calloused yet. I know I have to fight against the way prison can turn remorse into bitterness over time, as punishment persists without purpose. Punishment for the sake of punishment. Rehabilitation is the greatest myth about prison.
Reconciliation is nonexistent.
There's only meaningless retribution that soon enough overwhelms the criminal act. In the mind of many offenders it's natural to eventually place all responsibility on the system. You still have to do the time. Every day I must fight to blame only myself for being in prison. If there is such a thing as predestination, then regardless of where my stupid choices have placed me, my lot fell to teaching.