You should marry because you want to spend the rest of life with that person. Now we all know that some-times this does not happen and we deal with it when it arises. Seeing as you are married now, you must work on it. Stop running away when things get a little difficult. Get your H to meet and be a part of your family.
Marriage is a shared thing amougst couples.
You realise that you run when things get a little warm or even hot. When you make a decision remember to count everyone into it. You say you love your H. Running away from problems does not solve them it only pushes them aside for a short time. One big thing in relationships which pulls them togther as well as apart is communication, talk to your H and work it out with him. This is a hard time for you both.