I'm just a burden on everybody. Every human being, no matter how physically incapacitated always serves a purpose through his or her prayers and sufferings. Even in this negative and in this passive existence of mine where I am flat on my back for years and years without being able to do anything, I am not useless. I am still doing the holy will of God. If you and I are hit by some tragedy and it takes us months and even years to accept it from the hand of God, don't accuse yourself of having no faith, no confidence.
Nobody can arrive at such a decision, at such a humble acceptance, without a struggle.