Longing to move, like one longs to be near a lover. Fixed in position as if strapped down. Television's magic cannot even transport me away.
Relief comes in small doses that are gone before they can be savored.
I have become this thing. Unable to care for myself. Each treatment or test has its own discomfort, physical or emotional. It's bewildering, having to submit to what one does not want. New faces everyday, coming, going, working, listening, watching.