You don't need to read books to find God. You need to read the book of your own heart and mind. You are doing right. Guru is sitting here, just like this, too many bhaktas are coming, but you have to pray to God for relief. There is a system where you have to go to the doctor and get medicine.
Medicine is maya.
In millions of stones there is one diamond. It is like this, really. If you put the brightness out, there is no halo. In India, they say that over and over. That is Mother.