My guru, Swami Rama, was lecturing at the annual Himalayan Institute Congress last year, and one of the doctors in the audience asked him a question about illness and health. Your mind heals you. You must learn to heal your mind first. Your mind is split, wounded, bleeding. Clean your mind.
Meditation is the healing of the mind.
Learn to dive into the depths and keep going. From the SCM Lectures of Swami Veda Bharati.