Dear Diary, My body just doesn't bend. My legs don't go high enough, my toes don't point I can't wear a leotard in public. Tina commented on how thin I have become but I don't see it. I see a bulky figure staring back at me through darkened dull eyes when ever I look in mirror. I see oddly bent limbs when I try to place my legs in the correct directional positions but everything just looks odd.
Nothing feels right.
I'll never get into Julliard like this. I must be dizzy from over eating. I guess I'll have to cut back when I eat, too. No more chocolate. I need to be skinny.