I do know that I can fall back in love with a man who does not appear lovable to me. His actions, words and thoughts have to be pleasing to me, or I will feel farther away from him. But even when he is trying so hard to please me, I still can withdraw from him if I feel too pressured into reciprocating behavior. Christmas presents, neither one of us are very enthusiastic about Christmas presents this year. When we did our annual shopping trip in Raleigh this year, I couldn't even really see anything that I wanted.
Nothing seems to rouse our spirits much anymore.
We are going shopping and out to dinner for my birthday next week to finish for the kids. We are both kind of looking forward to it. I am very lonely. Read my post. I understand you completely.