I think SI has been taken over by Satan and I will not participate in this crap anymore by so much as clickiong in the SI icon. THere are frindlier boards that attract less evil than this. Been responding to you the last couple of days and wanted you to know I am still concerned. I am glad you will see someone who can help you through this and give you the tools you need to resolve these issues. I am very happy to see that you are taking this seriously and looking for ways to solve the problems instead of trying to find temporary fixes.
Marriage is tough stuff, and everyone needs a helping hand once in a while.
I would be sure to make a list of all the problems you are having in the marriage and with your self-esteem to bring in to your appointment. This will give you a head start and help the counselor see what areas you want help with. Look at some of the questions we've been asking you the last couple of days and this may help with your list. Also, you are so upset and distraught. It's so hard to think when one feels that way.