I'm not suggesting that you be irresponsible or do anything illegal. Rather, to lighten up, trash a week's worth of emails, take a week off, eat a pizza. Anything to get you flexing your muscles in a different way. Stop comparing yourself to others, and identify your own measures. It's normal and even healthy to compare who you are and how you're doing against how others are doing.
Reference points are fine.
But using these reference points as a way to build self-esteem is not smart, because it makes you dependent. Plus, it's human nature to compare yourself to people either steps above or below you, depending on your ego need of that day. It's pointless really. Better to come up with your own measures of who you are and how you're doing. Stop setting yourself up and start making life easy on you.