She wanted to keep hating her dad, because then it didn't hurt so much. But she began to think that hating him would make her just as bad as he was. Maybe her heart would become hard too, and maybe she'd become an old lady who kicked dogs and hated kids, 'cause she couldn't love anybody. Everybody said she was just like her dad. She got her notebook to Bella out.
People have good parts and bad parts.
Turns out our dad didn't get hit by a rock after all. He just left us, before you were born. It didn't have anything to do with you though. It's just that he hurt real bad inside cause he wasn't loved good when he was little. So he didn't know how to love.