I can sit there, perfectly still, not reacting to my surroundings because to me, they don't exist. I am in a time bubble when that happens. I thought I was the only one that happened to and never mention it to my psychiatrist because sometimes I am embarrassed to ever admit, even to him, that my own perceptions of the multiverse are so profoundly skewed. I hurt so much right now. I just want to crawl into a hole and pull the top over me right now.
Nothing feels good, nothing is pretty.
Food tastes like ashes and sound is too harsh. It is all too poignant. There is always something new to learn. You are totally right about the research in the last 10 years. Science has really come full circle in their quest to work with the chemicals in the brain.