In many ways, I'm still unhappy with it, though I'm learning to accept it. One source of this unhappiness is, as is often the case with unhappiness, ignorance. In the course of our lives, we sometimes come to embrace ideas that simply aren't true. Their fallacy is demonstrated to us over and over again, yet clever beings that we are, we find ways to overlook the fallacy and cling to the belief. In the absence of the belief, we're forced to confront our ignorance, and in ignorance often lies fear.
Nobody likes to be afraid.
Yet, the Universe is such that it forces us to confront the truth. The scientist in me is uncomfortable with this, and many scientists would assert that it's simply the kind of false belief I referred to previously. But I've come to believe, through the experience of my life, that there is a force which acts in us and through us, and throughout all of nature to lead us to what we need, to help us become who we truly are. Some of you are familiar with this as God. I prefer the notion expressed in the Tao, the Tao which can be named is not the Tao, which I suppose is kind of an anti-tautology.