We were born crucified. Your past can only affect you according to how much you doubt or are unaware of the destruction of the old man on the cross through Christ s death. Living by faith is seeing yourself as God sees you. If you take something that is not a part if you anymore and think that it is still apart of you, as you try to deal with the guilt of the past, you are not getting the truth of the cross into your heart. Not only might a sin seem glaring accompanied by great guilt, but you might consider the sin so extreme since it was so habitual with you.
Many people experience habitual sins.
Their guilt is so strong because they have actually commit those sins. And that might make them seem as scarlet. But once again, though our sins be as scarlet, they shall be white as wool. If he tasted it for every man, then every man tasted it. If Christ died for us, then were all dead.