There is no rationale, no light to help him find any meaning in all his suffering. I kept the rules, confessed my sins, and trusted you, God. Now you let this all happen to me. I put my hand over my mouth. But such an understanding is incomplete and may lead us to contempt for Him.
Prayer is such a privilege.
Do not fail to pray because you do not feel that you pray well. Open your life, your heart to God often. We are learning from Jesus and the model that He gave to us.