I feel that even though God does forgive and forget that the emotional aspects we endure are God's way of making sure we don't forget our crimes against humanity and to teach others God's way though example. We went to Pittsburgh. Had the amniocentesis. Had the abortion. We held our baby girl and cried.
Nobody knows except our parents, sisters, the minister and the pediatrician.
I relive all the procedures, the emotions, the sadness almost daily. I have 2 photos, a baptism folder, and an angelic monument in my garden. I wouldn't do it again for anything. We have two girls. They bring us a lot of joy.