Relate to God in whatever way you choose, but do relate. Give it a try. You have nothing to lose but your doubt. The following thoughts on God may stir a few of your own. I have had the experience of being gripped by something that is stronger than myself, something that people call God.
Negative thoughts lead to negative assumptions.
Give yourself 100 points for taking the test. You get an A. Give yourself a gold star. Good for you. That's the pop quiz. So, change the meaning of the abbreviations.