Breathe it in and meditate on it. Meditation can be an act of compassion for the community . Be grateful for these revelations of the Divine. Acknowledge them and don't fall into the trap of measuring them against expectations. Look for them and the whole world looks better.
Healthy people are grateful people.
If you must have expectations, expect the Divine to show up when you're trudging The Path. It will find you. As misfits, what spiritual rebels have in common is their differences. Anarchy is their unifying bond. They will never be soldiers of any Christ - Hitlerian or holy.