The feeling of such power was addicting for me. But it wasn't the thrill alone that pushed me, just a kid back then, to turn to gangs. It also had something to do with self-esteem. Most people who intimidate don't want to commit crimes, they just li ke to feel secure by knowing they are feared. No matter what anyone tells you, fear still produces a certain amount of respect.
Many people disagree because they're confusing fear with hatred.
They also hated us for taking their money, so they had no respect for us. But before I started hanging out, I respected all the gangsters because deep down inside, I also wanted to be able to intimidate. We all do. If you fear someone more than you hate him, then you will subconsciously develop a respect for him. Not necessarily a healthy respect, as my case turned out to be, but respect nonetheless.