I wanted to have my loving memories. I found new friends and hobbies to occupy my time. At first I felt that if I did not remember all the things of my daughter's life that I was not grieving. Oh, how wrong I was. It was okay to sit and enjoy the small things in my life.
Life is for the living.
We need to live and go on. My life had changed and I had to change with it. I began to try and help those who had gone through the same thing. I tried to tell them it is okay to feel the way you feel, and soon the pain would ease. It was a few years later that they would tell me that I had help them.