If I lose the case, I'll be in prison but I don't want to go to prison. I prefer die than going in. That's why I'm thinking of suicide. I feel scare and scare everytime when the case came up. I'm scare I will lose it and straight to prison.
Prison is a horible places.
I shouldn't belong to that place. And now I have two more chances to win the case. If I ever lost this two chances then I'll be straight going in. I'm keep thinking if at the end I lose, I will commit suicide. I can't take that presure anymore.