You can heal what has been triggered in you by using the techniques of detachment, non-judgment, honoring, and unconditional love. I ve got life pretty well under control. I would only say to you, you have no idea what life can truly be like for you when you re out of that self-imposed imprisonment. The things you struggle for flow to you. You have a feeling of joy.
Happiness depends upon external motivation and external stimuli.
Joy floods from within you and depends upon nothing. Instead of the external being what brings to you a momentary satisfaction, joy exudes from you and changes everything around you from what is pleasurable. It s a whole different way of living life and you find that the struggle is gone. The anger is gone. The resentments are gone.