There's a reason for this happening and we may never know why. But I would do it again in a heartbeat. Explore your feelings in own private Health Journal. Good for the body and the soul.
Flowers can grow in the desert.
Take a moment. Quiet your mind. Photos and inspirational thoughts contributed by you, for you. Gary Zukav says that fear is the root of all negative feelings and behavior. The risk it takes to remain tight inside the bud is more painful than the risk it takes to blossom.