I would have more respect for you if you call yourself an infidel, rather than say God could not keep you eternally secure. If ever a day came when I though I lost my salvation, I would confess to God that I was illigitimate all the time. That is what the Bible teaches. Unfortunately many Christians have a kindergarden understanding of the Bible. When your source of authority is yourself and not the Bible, you are still in kindergarden.
Lets look at a Bible verse.
Is Holy Jesus going to divorce his church.