We all to often take ourselves way to serious and anything and everything around us. Yes it is good to be concerned about certain things but lets not get caught in something that really is no concern of our immediate well being. There is no one or anything to blame for your unhappiness or jealousy. Taking steps to share your love with all around you is a courageous action. Once opening ourselves to others we are vulnerable and subject to becoming hurt if we are not careful.
Expectations are only a sure fire disappointment waiting to happen.
So let go of any expectation and lighten your karmic load right away. It's easy to sit here and type out these words it's not easy to stay centered without some sort of discipline in our lives that creates awareness. It's also easy to speak about meditation but creating a daily format of sacred rituals to clear the way for cultivating a higher consciousness, one first must have an knack for it. If not get it right away. Life is flowing by and you're missing it if you're caught in your own web.