Somehow we have the ability to choose at every moment which universe to walk or fall into. Or maybe it just seems like choosing. After all, we have this instinct to do something. That is not to say that our actions don't matter. They do matter and we are the ultimate judge of our own actions.
Life is tragic and beautiful.
We have all of these stupid decisions to make, most of which don't matter one bit. But there are a sneaky few that make all the difference, as Robert Frost warned us about. Forgive those who have disappointed you and forgive yourself. Neither the legal system nor violence are effective in the end. We're just ghosts fighting the apparitions of our own creation.