Panicking wastes energy better used on other things. There are Craft teachers out there who will at least guide the novice through these early stages. In fact, I will do this as a part of my responsibilities to the Pagan community. I don't expect payment for it. If you feel you are in this position and would like a helping hand then please email me .
Paganism is defined simply as a collection of nature-venerating religions.
Defining it further can be difficult, so I'm going to have to generalise. Most Pagan religions have little or no written doctrine. We revere or worship Nature. Festivals are marked according to the turning of the seasons, although precise dating varies from group to group, or even between individuals. What constitutes a Pagan religion can be difficult to pin down precisely.