It is undeniably evident. A thousand years of remorse will still not relieve my guilt about what I have done to others, to myself, to my Lord. How silly are my pretensions to goodness. How foolish to conceive of myself entering higher consciousness. I tremble in shock, convicted.
Much weeping happens.
Your whole body sobs. You have a growing sense of helplessness due to the acknowledgement of your allegiance to evil thoughts, words, and actions. You feel you stink at every level, and oh, how putridly. Convicted and Purged Then morning arrives and you go about your daily life smiling, doing your job, but feeling empty inside empty and very clean. In your terror of the threshold and your profound remorse, many longtime personal blockages and obstacles are released.