The rest is history. Oneiroid Psychosis writes some of the most mentally disturbing audio imagery I have encountered. Like I said, the seduction of music can make you feel and think things you normally wouldn't. To me, being turned on by things that you're told is supposed to be sick and deviant is almost a high. There's a strange conflict that goes on in your head, so you let go.
Music totally enhances that feeling.
I spent a lot of time introspecting and generally feeling shitty about myself. Music and art has helped me work through most of that and control those forces and release them. We're very comfortable here, so it's allowed us to concentrate on doing what we enjoy. I wonder how our neighbors would feel if they knew the crazy stuff that goes on in our house. It doesn't really matter where we live.