Dear Soen Sa Nim, I am still in bed, and although I don't have pain any more, I still have a problem with my leg. It's numb from the knee down, so I think that I'll have to do something besides only rest to fix my back problem. This time in bed has been like a retreat in many ways. For the first time in my life, I understand that I have no choices to make. I can't do what I feel like doing.
Every day just comes and goes.
People come and go. Sometimes it's warm, sometimes it's cold. I just have to stay here and let everything occur just the way it does, and I must keep my mind clear. So this sickness is very strong teaching. It's funny, because I am dependent on everyone, but at the same time my mind is not dependent.