I have been suicidal on a few occasions, even to the point of putting the barrel of a gun in my mouth. I have two beautiful, intelligent, funny children, whom I love with all my heart. I have a great job and a nothing is too difficult for me to overcome. Let me describe bi-polar disorder. This is manic-depressive disorder.
Most people know about depression.
Manic does not mean super-happy. It is more like the nerves and emotions are so over-primed, so raw, that it is hard to function. I tend to talk incessantly, have trouble putting sentences together, sleep very little and am easily angered. There are chemicals in the brain that control the functioning of the synapses in the nerves. Inappropriate emotions and actions result.