This would prejudice him from the start against Jesus Christ's teachings. So, rather than deal with his personal imperfections, he has invented a questionable history to marginalize Jesus. Because Jesus is the mirror of truth, forcing people to deal with their own personal imperfections, to see themselves in truth, He either brings out the worst or the best in people. Mr Osman's books are essentially a letter to God justifying his sins. The testimony of the apostles Almost every apostle died a horrible death not denying Jesus Christ or His teachings.
Painful torture tends to bring the truth out of people.
Here is the web page on the death of the apostles . Dear William, Hermes Thoth. This name translates into - Messenger of truth. This is the same as Apostle. Or an angel.