The nature of parenthood is to be kept wanting - I believe. So far there has been nothing but fulfillment. When the milk stops, when my body stops lactation, I will be able to sum up the differences, changes, damages. My body marks time. My child marks time.
Parenthood is about understanding time.
On the fifth day I take a bath, give myself a facial, and as the hot water cools I squeeze first one nipple then the other. I taste the beads of yellow milk on my finger tips. They taste like salt, they taste like tears. All rights reserved.