Well that's all that is left now anyway. My family is gone, destroyed, devastated. I'm back to square one and learning to get ladies numbers in clubs again. Hey, don't laugh, I happen to be good at that. Better than at choosing wives for everyday living at least.
Nobody is perfect.
You screwed up. You can't change the past, but you can learn from it. You married a woman who had all the superficial qualities you wanted, but apparently did not love you. I think you have to stop being so self-absorbed that you see a woman as a commodity who exists to supply you with love and intimacy. Love and intimacy are earned.