Your reaction is not an uncommon response to such a disaster. It s understandable that you feel this way. I am afraid for your safety. I am afraid for the safety of your children. This will most likely happen again, and it can get worse.
Resources are available.
You need to know your options. I m here for you when you are ready or able to leave. Things may never be the same, but they can get better and you can get better. This was not your fault. You deserve better than this.