Sawyer consoled herself in religion, concluding that God meant for her to remain in a humble station, and that she had been afflicted with an unstable personality in order to learn humility. I am in the hands of a being, who perfectly knows my disposition and just what remedies to apply. I have had much the season past to teach me my my sic intire dependence on God for all, for every thing, even of the most trivial importance. All my powers of mind, seem sometimes taken from me, that I may realize on whom I depend for reason, and all its attendant blessings. I hate female vanity yet possess a large share.
Female vanity tarnishes every beauty of our sex.
Sometimes when I gaze on a lovely young female I almost think her divine but her fallen nature soon contradicts this. It is hard to concieve so much loveliness can be a covert to such a sink of polution as we each possess. In addition to her religious ideals, Sawyer was motivated by a desire to repay those who had provided for her education. I hope he will see to it that he does not lose by me, as he has by other poor people. Sawyer's temperament often put her in conflict with fellow missionaries, but the Cherokees seem to have accepted and appreciated her, and there is no doubt that she was a fiercely dedicated teacher.