You won't talk about it. That's what you'll do. You'll work double shifts, you'll drink more than ever, you'll do anything to avoid the pain. You don't know it yet, but this won't work. Grief is a problem.
Loss is problem.
And if by some chance it can't be fixed, you'll replace it. Marty came to our widows' and widowers' group two months after his wife had died. He cried throughout the meeting. He simply couldn't stop crying. When he didn't return to the group for two weeks, I called to see how he was.