You and Jesus can carry your cross together. We are like the lost sheep when we have not found our place in life. Courage when you follow the Lord. Remember, people may not be convinced, even if one should rise from the dead - Live, in order to convince of resurrection and life. If faith can move mountains, it can remove hardness of heart.
Faith does move mountains, so faith does remove hardness of heart.
Even as a child you knew the importance of asking often for something you really wanted. Now again, in an adult way, ask God to show you His will. Rather, listen to God's voice. Doing His will is all you need to do. He will stay with you today.