Thanks, I enjoyed your visit, Lefty. Notions like this are very empowering. Attacks of grief are normal, and they can be in the form of feeling afraid all of a sudden. Being overcome with despair. Then, all of a sudden, you can be laughing about something.
Men often have a tougher time reaching out.
They often do better if they have a group of men and a task to do. Miss my dad a lot, especially around Christmas. Put it out. You could write a Christmas card and put things down that you loved about him. We used to watch Three Stooges and Red Skelton together all the time and I identify these things with him.