In nine years I have moved at least fifteen times, renting, share renting, living with relatives, etc. In that time I found jobs, but the battle was my age and the jobs I was looking for. Old does not fit in to my language. However, it did with the employers I was seeking jobs from. You're free now, live it up.
Men are beasts in sheeps' clothing.
I did wonder about it. Not for long. About six months after my husband's death, I began to take dance classes. I met some very nice men, none of which would fit in my life. I had a spiritual side, an animal side, a nature side, an art side, and a bit of a paranormal side.