First, respect your fragile moments. The intensity of the triggered states decreases as time goes on and as you educate yourself. Second, learn what helps you most when you are triggered. I'm not going crazy. I'm just a little anxious right now.
Dissociation is a habit.
It has been taught to you well over months or years in a cult. It's a tough habit to break. It takes patience. If you want it gone yesterday, you may be experiencing one of the other residuals of being in an intense, high-demand group where everything had to be done yesterday.