This is a beginning. Continue to do this exercise throughout the days and weeks ahead. Become your own mother. And play with the idea of how you would love your own child. See if you can transfer that feeling of maternal affection for your unborn child, to yourself in the present.
Many people enter a kind of depression when they finally find someone they love.
This brings up the anguish for resolution. Though it may take a bit of time to sort through, it is a process that inevitably can prove worthwhile. In time you may find yourself becoming more permeable to your husband's love, his touch and increasingly disloyal to the messages you were raised with in childhood. Begin to experience yourself through your husband's love. Experiment with acting that way, as you are able to do so.