I would not have hesitated to do the same to you - had the situation been reversed. This doesn't sound to me like hatred. This sounds, to me, like massively suppressed anger, ossified into the weird stalactites and stalagmites of hatred. Hatred does not flow - anger does. Hatred is a structure - anger, a stream.
Hatred is a being, it permeates every cell.
It feels so natural that it is hardly ever noticed. It speaks through anger, though. Hatred is static - anger the dynamics, its energy, its changing aspects, its holographic angles. Anger you feel, hatred you live. If it is proportional and directed at the appropriate target, it is correct and true and worthy.