Click here for details about membership. I am ill because of wounds to the soul, to the deep emotional self and the wounds to the soul take a long, long time, only time can help and patience, and a certain difficult repentance long, difficult repentance, realization of life's mistake, and the freeing oneself from the endless repetition of the mistake which mankind at large has chosen to sanctify. D.H. Lawrence One of the wisdoms of the 12 Steps is that surrender to God is not a one-time event. It is an on-going, multilevel process of letting go of the things that block us from God. First we let go of our addiction.
Nothing changes if nothing changes.
The difficulty, of course, is that we have reasons why we developed all these behaviors, and we have feelings about letting them go. Some time ago, my wife and I were speaking on recovery in a large church in the Seattle area. One of the issues we touched on was workaholism. As we spoke, I noticed a woman in the front row growing more and more agitated. This woman, like all of us who struggle with addictions of one kind or another, was using her addiction to keep her pain at bay.