There's a joy, a peace and a rest that is beyond my understanding. There is an intimacy and a friendship and a closeness and a oneness with God that I've never had before. As long as we are in our human bodies, there will always be more sin and self to be dealt with in us. It seems the more I learn to truly be abandoned to His will and live for the moment, the more I am witnessing God beginning to fulfill every one of those magnificent promises that He gave me up on that mountaintop in Big Bear so many years ago. A child trusts in the love of his mother, even though she must, at times, discipline him and take him to the doctor for shots.
Real love involves trust.
When someone really loves and cares for you, you trust that they have your best interests at heart, even though you don't always understand their expression of love. God asks us to do the same with Him. He asks us to unconditionally trust in His Love for us, no matter what we see, feel, experience or understand to be happening. The God of the Bible is a loving and compassionate Father, who will use all the events in our lives to rid us of sin and self, so that He might replace us with Himself and, thereby, fill us with His fulness. The inward life of the spirit can only be gained by a passionate and consuming love for God.