We all encounter messages every day which give clues to expected behavior. If these expectations fit our feelings, we can feel out of sorts and alienated. Many of these clues are gender related, yet gender is not discussed much in our culture. Most people mistakenly associate gender with sex, but gender is about feelings and behavior. One way to begin to fit better about yourself is in a support group in which you will learn you are not alone.
Many people deny the desire to crossdress for years.
Denial is a safety mechanism which can work but not in the long term. And, unless you face your feelings, can cause frustration, anger and depression. No one should be alone and in silence. There are many publications about crossdressing and transsexualism. Some can be found at bookstores such as Border's , while others need to be ordered from bookstores such as the IFGE bookstore.