Honesty this is the time to get things into the open. Get rid of the shadows and darknesses of the past. Put light on the dark things and they lose their power. Things can be dealt with reasonably when they re seen as they truly are. Listening especially to people with long-term sobriety.
Meetings be with people who want better lives and are taking actions to get what they want.
Meetings are a good place to establish or re-establish social skills in a supportive environment. There is a lot to learn and feel in a meeting. You are not alone. Think about what you hear and see, but better yet is to feel what you hear and see at meetings. Folk wisdom and slogans don t underestimate them.