Your giving spirit and congeniality makes everyone around you glad to be a part of it. Let go of all self-righteousness. Music and books are an excellent source of release. Try to revel in them both as much as possible. With it you will find clarity and self-confidence.
Friends are truly more supportive then they seem.
You have turned your world upside-down in an attempt to become and feel something more. If your efforts have failed, perhaps you've been heading in the wrong direction. Exuberance radiates from your every move. You are poised and ready to attack any situation. If you feel alone or unloved, not to worry - comfort is on the way and hiding in the strangest places.