He feels the promises of labor and management are just empty hype. It's somebody else's pipe dream or power play that he can no longer bring himself to be part of. His feelings seem very clear to him, but with a flaw, he firmly believes that there is no one he has that he can confide in, that no one would understand, not even his wife. She might even criticize him or worse ignore him. He has to be careful around her, on his guard, after all she could have married someone with a 9 to 5 job who could have given her a better life.
Frustration sets in.
Maybe something will happen tonight so that the adrenaline will kick in. But instead the stress starts taking it's toll. Shiftwork is not normal. It disrupts the body. Shiftwork disrupts the home.