And he does not breeze through these without feeling the tight chest and sweaty hands and pounding heart of fear. Normal Christian life in this age does not mean escaping danger, but handling it with prayer. We will see that in a moment. Loneliness David is struggling with loneliness. This often goes hand with a life devoted to radical obedience and hardship.
People pull back.
You are uneasy to be around, and it is too threatening. You know who your friends are when trouble strikes and life together is comradeship in battle not just company for dinner. Four times he mentions his sturggle with guilt because of his sin. He can remember the folly of his youth and he admits that even his present guilt is great. So in the middle of all this external turmoil with foes threatening and friends forsaking the trouble is compounded by the internal misery of a sinful and guilty heart.