Sad and closed. The marriage lasted 4 and a half years. In the meantime I had had an ectopic pregnancy that turned out to be life threatening. I believe we really didn't get over the pain. I did more than him, but I always had someone I could open my heart to, someone I could run screaming to, someone who would hear me, calm me, and allow me to trust again.
Life is cyclical.
So were my regular misgivings. On the surface we looked a fine couple. Just had a bad start at trying to create a family. I taught English to Italians for most of the nine years I lived in Italy. Then things changed and I worked in an environment for the mentally handicapped.