Whatever you want to do, do it now. You are right where you need to be. When there is not love for a child to remember, Then there is nothing for the child remember except the hate. Through every dark night, there's a bright day after that. So no matter how hard it gets, stick your chest out, Keep your head up, and handle it.
Fear is the number one killer of dreams.
It's all about balance. Sure, work hard, but don't forget to play. Of course, take time for lawn work and house cleaning, But remember that those aren't the most important things to do. But don't save everything for the future. There may not be one.