Jeopardizing your friends and future for futile matters is ridiculous. By thinking small-mindedly you leave yourself open for attack and ridicule. Someone has been taking advantage of your loyalty, and then throwing it in your face as if you owe them something. Don't fall for it.
Good things exist without question.
Better times are ahead. You've put in more than your fair share and others are about to take notice - but keep a step ahead of the rest until that recognition comes. The harder you look for something, the less likely you are to find it. It is not in your nature to sit back and wait for things to come to you, but sometimes it is for the best. Multiple personalities are eating away at your well-being.