I can't sleep. I keep thinking about him making love to her, and my mind starts playing tricks on me. Please help me. I would be forever grateful to you. He, your spouse, denies.
Most men do.
Not everything was necessarily a lie. Even if the affair is a truth, he may still love you. Men can, if not all of them, separate the love they have for their wives and the affair. Don't be so hard on yourself. The fact that you trusted is positive.