Without memory, the past is erased as quickly as it occurs. What a Herculean task to have to reconnect the dots when the dots themselves aren't visible. For you, Marlene, to be on a constant search, hunting down every scrap of paper, searching for every snippet of information, looking for every association and piecing together every clue, is to be asked to maintain untold stamina. Frustration and fatigue are ever your companions. Fortunately, the curse of memory loss has its reprieve, you forget even the frustration and fatigue, because you start anew.
Rediscoveries have a fresh look, they appear as new discoveries.
You can get energized by the very repetition that fatigues you. A gift of sorts that allows you to continue, another resource for Keeping on Keeping on. Not so for me. I witness it and I remember. Now I must confront my own fatigue.