Trust God to make it actually happen. You can trust Him because He wants you there. You don't have to stop what you are doing. Don't isolate your experience of God's presence to your quiet time with God. Get your heart to trust you are staying there and receive from the Lord continually.
Practical understanding is important.
You also need to understand why you can trust that as you draw near to God, He washes you, dissolving all your reason to feel shame. Repentance paves the way so that you can find greater freedom to believe God and also to trust that you are drawing near to Him. But without a solid understanding of the scriptures you won't have anything on which to base your faith. Over 300 pages of the 550 pages in the books are available by purchase only. Click here to go to the page about the electronic books.