It is the fact that my role has become that of life administrator, making sure everything runs smoothly, that everyone is content and able to get what they need and want done. In contrast to my lack of focus, I have found that the white, middle to upper class artistic men I know are able to focus intensely. I remember my Dad, working away in his shop in the garage, could block everyone else out for hours. The ability to work and focus like that is a privilege. It is the privilege of not having to worry about, or be expected to worry about, anyone's project except your own.
Responsibility is a large factor in being able to access time and space to be creative.
In my life I take on a lot of responsibility. Many of my projects are not simply art projects, but also involve a lot of organizing and coordinating. I have worked on projects such as a radical feminist art collective, putting on music and art shows, running a small record label, organizing several conferences and rallies and producing a small, personal zine. When I believe in the causes and projects I am working on I enjoy this work very much. Like any craft, through practice I am honing the skills required to be a successful organizer.