We could write a whole book about the looks that you give. We'd have a chapter on staring and a chapter on x-ray vision. You've proven to everyone that you can hold on. Your staying power is second to none. Now learn to let go.
Every day find something to sell, give away, throw out or burn.
If you want to get the most out of life, let go of old crap, literally, figuratively, and most of all, psychologically. You have forgiveness issues that tend to make your personal relationships challenging. People whisper about your sex life. They dare to include you in their most passionate fantasies. You must contend with powerful desires.