That's when a mighty sadness can hit unexpectedly. Despite all these cautions, I still think unencumbered, light-hearted, safe sex can be a harmless blast. There's one very important thing I'd like you to do first, however. You need to be happy completely on your own. This may seem daunting, but for your health and your future, it's crucial that you find your happiness independent of other people.
Recovery is a process.
You will get over it. Just be patient and don't do anything to harm yourself or your soul.