I can't begin to understand what is going on. I feel like I'm slipping away. I just want to feel okay. 16pm I didn't realize how many sad folks there are out there. I want to feel good, but I begin falling into a wind tunnel of a thick black fog.
Life goes up and down like a thread of dripping wax.
01pm I was diagnosed as having depression a few years ago. I still can not understand it. I guess I have always been depressed because I really didn't know my feelings were unusual. I was a child of abuse from infancy thruoughout my life. It was much easier not knowing that I had an ilness than it is now.