The next time I decide to reach that level of intimacy with someone, I will make sure the relationship is based on mutual respect, not selfishness. There's a big difference between having sex and making love, and I can only truly say that I have had the former. To even say it is rare, but to mean it is even rarer. We're all equipped to have sex, but making love is very different. Being a long-term virgin isn't embarrassing shameful.
Nothing hurts more than making a bad decision that lasts a lifetime.
If you don't believe me, just keep on reading. He's only 19 years old, my age, but also has a baby girl. We've been together two times and he constantly flirts with me. I like him so much, but I feel guilty just the same. I told myself that after the first time that I would never do it again, but I just can't control myself.