You want to be. Enjoy yourself and don't bother me. If you feel true need. I'm praying for you and helping if this is your unsaid hope. Ignorance is but roleplaying, playing a role that doesn't express your full capacity for love and growth.
Evil is nothing more than ignorance manifested as hunger.
Evil is all that is will-weakening. With some big exceptions, there are almost always damaged people, not bad people. Bad people are damaged people. It makes no sense to judge a damaged person. You accept them as a form of damage.