Maybe we can learn from that. This should be a source of comfort to all who preach the gospel with a strong sense of their own inadequacies and limitations. Some of us feel a deficiency in our lives because we have not had a conversion experience to which we can put a date, time and place. Most of us come to faith, develop, renew and maintain our faith in an evolving way through human contact. While we may wish for clarity, more often we meet ambiguity and uncertainty.
Life is on the whole rather messy and complex.
It does not help that we demand of ourselves, and others, that we all have the same clarity of experience as Paul. But I like to think too that we are all, just like Paul, called and chosen by God for some special purpose, only we are not always clear what it is we are called to. This does not seem to lessen the value of the calling or diminish our response to it. Perhaps more faith and more courage are needed where there is greater uncertainty. There is just one moment of transition from one year, one century and one millennium to the next.