Simplify the conditions you place on your awareness. Simplify the statements you make about your life. Then you will experience true understanding and even enlightenment. The recipe is clear. Release all heaviness and attain enlightenment.
Most skepticism is like a stationary exercise bicycle.
It was never meant to go anywhere. Your primary purpose is to avoid weathering criticism from the outer self. It is silly for one part of yourself to fear criticism from another part of yourself. It's as if you painted little faces on your fingertips, and asked them to be your jury. I hear people argue about whether Christ was man, or God, or even myth.