The second function is to prospectively legitimize any and all acts and decisions intended to prevent emotional involvement. BUT I don't feel loveable at all. I attribute the FACT that people love me to their stupidity, naivete, gullibility, ignorance, or pathology. I assure myself - they would have never been able to love me. As it is, it is only a question of time before they get to know me better and turn to hatred and repulsion where love once blossomed.
Narcissists Feel Deceitful Narcissists very often feel like criminals.
They feel as though they are constantly engaged in a major scam, deceiving their nearest. This conviction stems from the primordial sin of their autocide. Prone to neologisms, I invented this word recently to describe the murder of the True Self by its False distant relative. The guilt fostered by this act festers and yields a rich concoction of fear and self loathing. Kafka described an inexplicable, arbitrary universe in which punishment is meted out for no apparent crime.