Buying him little leather jackets and boots and taking him for rides on your motorcycle, which has become a much needed escape from reality. From here, we need to add a few trees to hide behind. Stress starts to cause problems. You forget doing the things you have done, good or bad, and you forget things you should do, pleasant or otherwise. Needless to say, it is very frustrating for both you and your spouse.
Physical illnesses are constant.
The real issue though is that the mother was only 16. Realization sets in that you can no longer keep this dirty secret, and that it may also cost you some of your loved ones in the process. One day, you start crying and the river seems overflowing. You can't stop, and after two and a half days of it, you feel the drowning process at work. You are too weak to fight back now after all of the mental anguish, and you end up in the hospital with a nervous breakdown.