I suggest you start off by having a long overdue heart to heart with your lover and don't forget that you had a part in making those choices. Acknowledge the anger and hate and work to move past them. Once you have dealt with those issues find yourself a support group. And whenever you can, try and take a deep breath and relax. We are very fortunate to live in a time when something can be done to suppress viral load and prolong our lives.
Life does indeed go on.
It may take an unexpected turn now and again, but it is still a road well worth traveling. In other words, be open to change and counter fatigue and fear with a will to live and the power of a positive perspective. It is still my mantra. Let's be there together. Much Love, Danny Dear Danny, My penis has a hair trigger.