No, no, no, my friend. You are not awake to what you are actually doing. If you only understood how people are praying for you, sinner friend, and how much effort God, through the Holy Spirit, puts forth to set the stage to get the right things said and the right atmosphere around you, so you can get saved. When you shake your head no, and refuse Christ, I repeat again, you do not know what you are doing. Your own intellectual forces will raise up in your defense.
People are so deceived that they can smile and walk out the door with their shoulders thrown back.
The Word of God says that if we will confess and forsake our sins, God will have mercy on us. Jesus is still praying for people who know not what they do, and He has taught you and I to pray for them just the same as He did. No, not until they repent. That is why it takes much, much holding on in prayer. All the time we are praying, we realize that they must somehow be moved to the place of repentance, before the Father will ever grant forgiveness to them.