What you will gain will be far more than a loss of extra pounds, you may just get your life back. Start a feelings journal examine just what is motivating the extra snacks, the larger portioned meals. Stop to listen to your body, what exactly is going on when you are rushing to the kitchen, then write it down. Take a few minutes to pause to figure it out. Change one thing at a time.
Many times are goals are so out of proportion that it is easily sabotaged.
We are all familiar with I will start today , I blew it, I might as well blow it big . Start with a few small changes a day and work your way up to your final goal. Just start on the goal of today. One less snack, no second helping, whatever fits for that day. Begin to trust yourself again.