Keep in mind that crying is healthy because it is an emotional and physical release. While many aspects of grieving are universal feelings of sadness, numbness, confusion, depression there is no single prescribed way to grieve. Grieving is an individual endeavor. Some want to have many people around with whom they can share and explore their feelings. Others prefer to deal with loss more privately.
Most people report that grieving is much like being on an emotional roller coaster.
The cultural stereotypes of women and men in grief are inaccurate. The reality is that some men need and want to express and share their feelings, while some women prefer to do their grief work in a more low-key way. Bereavement styles have less to do with gender and more to do with basic personality traits. Grieve in ways that are more helpful and healing for you. The holidays are coming.