The only thing that keeps me sane is my position as the manager of a gift store here. All I think about constantly is leaving. I'm 50 years old, this is my 3rd marriage, no children and 2 little cocker spaniels that I love to pieces, but I am so afraid to start over again. California is where I want to go. A. Pack up your babies and head west.
Life is too short to spend it hibernating with an alcoholic.
With no friends, use your Internet connection for help and support. You will find many new friends there that are going through the same thing and they will help give you the courage to get on with your life and be happy.