No real luck though, just insecurity. Waiting on cues, shifting into different mannerisms, tone and vocabularies. One world, fully globalized and everyone's online. I scare myself. But difficult when your own perception of yourself revolves around what you think others see.
Psychologists call that the looking glass self theory of development.
A Buddhist friend calls that bullshit. As a Christian, I've held onto the road to heaven, saving my soul with guilt from eternity in a damned Dante ringed place. Follow the Buddha, and he'd tell you that this a reality with clouds. There is no soul, no self. The answer is because I got caught.