Maybe he is right. This theology releases nothing but confusion and bitterness in me. Completely rejected and all alone, abandoned by every one, even God Himself. To see His glorious face shining upon me with unutterable love even though I have become what I now am . I think they are becoming depressed themselves just hanging out with me.
Lets stop thinking so deeply and just live.
I wish I could. When I try to 'just live' I find that I cannot. Each breath carries with it the unbearable burden of pain and I must turn, I must struggle, I must DEAL with it. This is why I have been seeking a way, through the theology of suffering, and the futility of this writing, to see God's infinite purpose in this. There are few books about this, especially in America.