I'm close to because I'm afraid they'll leave me. I worry that people I feel close to will leave me or abandon me. When I feel someone I care for pulling away from me, I get desperate. Sometimes I am so worried about people leaving me that I drive them away. It is only a matter of time before someone betrays me.
Most people only think about themselves.
I have a great deal of difficulty trusting people. I am quite suspicious of other people's motives. I'm usually on the lookout for people's ulterior motives. If I think someone is out to hurt me, I try to hurt them first. People usually have to prove themselves to me before I can trust them.