That was over four years ago and I am coming up on five years clean. This is a life long process. I learned that I suffer from the disease of addiction, and that I am sick. I have an incurable disease. But there is treatment and it is the 12 steps.
Recovery is hard work.
You have to get honest about yourself and the things you have done. Recovery is more than not using drugs. It is taking responsibility for our actions. I was beginning to see just what the meth had done to me and the way I looked at life and the world around me. I didn't like what I was seeing and that scared me even more.