In fact, it was never about monogamy per se. I wanted to find my own way through the confused and confusing waters of sex. For the past year, I've been with a woman I love deeply and passionately. I have no desire to be with others. I share with her a deep affinity for looking into the nooks and crannies of our psyches.
Nothing is beyond the pale.
Whether this state of affairs means lifelong sexual exclusivity, I don't know. But I don't really care. I was never committed to non-monogamy, no more than I am now committed to monogamy. My loyalty is to the woman I love and to exploration. For more than a decade, I focused on monogamy and its obverse.