Stay in complete alertness. Everything is meaningful for a sorcerer. The sounds have holes in them and so does everything around you. Ordinarily a man does not have the speed to catch the holes,and thus he goes through life without protection. The worms,the birds, the trees all of them can tell us unimaginable things if only one could have the speed to grasp their message.
Fright is something one can never get over.
A warrior cannot indulge,thus he cannot die of fright. Your difficulty is that you want to understand everything, and that is not possible. If you insist on understanding you're not considering your entire lot as a human being. Your stumbling block is intact. Understanding is only a very small affair,yet sober understanding is vital.