You need to centre yourself in the love of Christ, available through the Church of those in relationship with Jesus. They can give you support and counsel. Helping you through this situation. There are many plans in a man's heart, Nevertheless the Lord's counsel that will stand. Your plans can seem the best way to deal with a hard situation, but God's way is better and brings a blessing with it.
Open rebuke is better than love carefully concealed.
Faithful are the wounds of a friend, but the kisses of an enemy are deceitful. A satisfied soul loathes the honeycomb, but to a hungry soul every bitter thing is sweet. Like a bird that wanders from its nest is a man who wanders from his place. Ointment and perfume delight the heart, and the sweetness of a man's friend does so by hearty counsel. For her worth is far above rubies.