During this time, she worked as a children's book editor at Random House. She was fired in 1982 for missing too much work. She blamed Nussbaum not only for Lisa's death but also for being battered herself. Hearing Susan take this stand had a devastating impact on me. Susan was denying the reality of battery just as my friends, neighbors, and acquaintances had done, just as doctors had done, just as police had done, when I was trying to escape from being physically and mentally tortured.
Flashbacks are different from memories.
They take over the conscious mind. I wrote this piece to try to stop the flashbacks. Newsweek accepted this piece for publication. Then Newsweek 's lawyer halted its publication. The lawyer said I had to prove it.