I believed that somehow I should be the best liked, and have the most friends. I thought that my husband should not have diabetes, that I should not get sick, or have any trials. Most of us have at one time or another and maybe more than once. We are human and should not whip ourselves, but instead throw the elephant out. We can't afford the price of ongoing depression.
Life is too short.
Besides, no matter what, life always has a bright side. I don't have all the answers, but I have a few suggestions. Try to find a little humor in each day, and laugh a little. Think about others who are worse off than you are. Even the little things count, like a phone call or a note.