You would rather find, as anyone would in your place, a healer, medicine, method, or miracle to end the suffering now. I remember lying in a hospital for days some years ago, in so much pain that I couldn t stand it. But I did. So bear in your mind and heart the words of Sohma Morita who said, When running up a hill, it is all right to give up as many times as you wish as long as your feet keep moving. So one of the most important teachings of chronic pain or illness is the practice of living in the present moment maintaining awareness in the here and now.
Life is a series of nows.
If you knew for certain that your illness would end in two more minutes or in two days, two weeks, two months, or even two years you probably could cope with it differently. So set an intuitive date, a definite date when your immune system will return you to good health. Mark that date on your calendar, in your mind, and in your heart. If that date comes and goes and symptoms remain, then set a new date. Remember that you never have to walk farther than the next mile, the next step, the next moment.