I have so many fears just thinking about vocation. My friends think I am weird, some think it is cool, and others are skeptical. God created you in his image and likeness. You were created in all eternity in the mind of God, who formed you. This formation is a plan.
Every building has a plan.
Then we go about building. So also God has a plan for us. We should discover this plan. This plan will tell us what this building is going to be, what we need for it and how we should go about building it. I am aware that you are anxious to do God's will.