My life has been getting into shape since then, it's a lot better now. It took me all that time to finally figure out that i wanted to live. I suffer from mental illness as well as physical ailments. There are many times that I just can not view life worth living. It doesn't matter that I have children, or a family.
Life is just too painful.
I know that suicide will not only hurt you, but will hurt or affect many people around you. So please, if you are thinking about killing yourself for any reason, stop and ask yourself if it is really worth hurting yourself and everyone around you because of a problem that you can probably get help for. I am 16 years old and have tried suicide eight times till I had a great friend sit me down and made me think about what I was doing and all the consequences for my action. If you or you know someone who is planning on committing suicide, as a friend, sit down with them and just talk to them. The first time I tried to kill myself, I did it in the evening of the day I got released from the psych ward.