When the Lord reveals His presence, it is the delight of the soul. With His presence, the Lord brings an abundance of fruits. The soul does not need to struggle as if rowing upstream and against the wind. In the usual circumstances the soul would not be restless. Having tasted the sweetness of the Lord, it longs for that which it has lost.
Every moment seems to be an eternity.
This departure of the Lord has brought about a sorrow that is beyond words. For even if it tries to express itself to anyone, there is none that would understand. This sorrow and the heaviness of heart are very oppressive. The intellect is trying to figure this situation. The senses are like a herd of wild horses.