If I could have just let it go as what it was, I know I wouldn't be back in this place. Ego's are a trip. A monster I had when I was younger was fear of abandonment. I thought that it was my fault that my dad left, and whenever I would go to bed I would want my door left open, just because I wanted to see if someone was leaving. Now I feel that I have overcome that stage of abandonment due to the fact of growing up and becoming independent.
Independence comes with experience and experience comes with growing up.
I've grown up a lot by coming here. I've realized that no matter what you do someone is going to object or disagree. The way being held has aided me maturing is that you begin to stir up emotions and feelings that you wouldn't have if you were on the outs. People take freedom for granted. I feel I took freedom for granted and when you start taking things for granted, that could be another type of monster in the sense that you become content in what's going on around you and what you're doing.