That may be my most painful case. But as a judge, you can't start second-guessing yourself. A detached judge is an impartial judge. If you can't detach yourself, you shouldn't stay on the bench. Such detachment exacts a high cost socially.
Isolation comes with the job.
That's why judges socialize outside legal circles. Judges build other barriers simply because a good judge cannot avoid controversial cases or issues. You have to be courageous. Unpopular decisions may evoke hostility or harassment. The sound of gunfire.