I am not my father s son. I know I would be an alcoholic if drinking were not such a waste of time and money. No virtue in that, for it is all on autopilot. As any good twelve step program teaches us, the key to recovery is not just recognizing God as the end all of all our endeavors, and the moment by moment surrender to His will over our lives, but also to be grateful for every little thing that He does for us. My problem is that I don t seem to be able to relish what we have done, because I am so busy thinking about what is still left to do.
Every glass is half-full.
I know it must seem absurd to you, but at 39, I m not so sure I can change. Intellectually, I know I cannot save the world, but for some crazy reason, I think I have to die trying. Of course, this spills over into the building of churches. Because I m nuts, everybody else has to run ten steps ahead of self and God. I m not proud of this.