Many times it will be in a close friend, perhaps of the other sex, who with we can exchange some form of conversation, a meal, or other mutual interest. Some may even find a companion who becomes much more intimate. In each case the caring spouse is the only one who can say whether they are in the right or wrong. Those who know of the sheer aloneness that this disease creates knows deep within their being how complete it can be. The ride however for the spousal caregiver is even wilder.
Emotions run across the board.
Guilt over feelings and thoughts that we experience can be devastating. It is important to remember that the feelings and thoughts you experience are like fecal matter, they happen. We have no control of those stray thoughts and our emotions. We only have control of the ones we react to and hold on to. I myself have used this phrase to get through a spell of bad times where love was not the strongest emotion I felt towards my spouse.