His actions during those 35 years were not hypocrisy. It was training. Similarly we can pray for those who we feel we cannot love. God is divine, we are human. God, although divine, can live in me to such an extent that Hislove can act in me, can transform my human love with His divine love.
Love is the path toeternity.
It is like the pain that comes from learning to use a limb after aninjury. The paralyzed person comes to think of his condition as normal. The pain that onemust pass through in overcoming paralysis feels like death. Sometimes saints, because they are willing to suffer the pain of love, are described asmasochists. But self-giving love is not a psychological illness, no more than the mother whoresponds to her child's needs is ill because she lives for another.