Nowadays, I put my faith unquestioningly in His hands. In solemnity, I prayed and talked to Him, seeking the peace which others take for granted. Some problems in life, like my affliction, cannot be solved, no matter how hard one tries - unless God is winning to extend a helping hand. I look normal without any sign of physical distress but I suffer from constant pain nevertheless. Most people are under the mistaken impression that I look good and normal.
Looks are, however, deceiving.
Pain is not something that one can see physically. Most people would, for example, sympathise with a patient who is bandaged all over instead of with one who isn't. The one without being bandaged could be suffering from greater pain and distress. Sleep is the only refuge Often it is better to bear the unbearable than to complain of the pain that I have to endure. Only God knows how much I have to suffer.