The all you can do may seem enormous to accomplish but there are choices and solutions. It's overwhelming, not impossible. Healing has many aspects and is less complicated than getting sick. If dis-ease is giving you what you want or providing an exit from an unhappy life, you won't want to give it up.
Internalized phobias are detrimental.
Make sure your health care practitioners are your willing partners in your quest for wellness. Change your entire life and move to where help is available if necessary. Ask your angels for protection, guidance, intervention, and help. Make networks and organizations work for you. Nurture and develop your spiritual self.