Unlike people, pain knows no titles such as 'Birth parent' or 'Adoptive Parent'. For the Adoptive Parent, it may be infertility or miscarriages. I do believe there is hope for the future. I don't believe I have received a life sentence of continuing pain without joy for the rest of my life. I do have peace about my choice.
Happiness is based on 'happenings'.
Peace is a constant comfort. Don't get me wrong. I have days in which I want to forget I am a Birthmother because it is all too painful. Still, peace is the foundation in which my emotions about the adoption rest upon. Honestly, I am looking forward to when it comes full circle.