More downs then I care to explain. I can't help feeling like I have wasted 2.5 years of my life on someone who does not deserve my love. I know I have made the right decision to leave him, but I can't seem to get him out of my head or heart. I wrote this to an ex-boyfriend a few years ago. There is no way that I can tell you that the loss of your boyfriend will not bring forth pain.
Loss always does.
But, I can assure you that if you choose to remain with him, you will be doing yourself much more harm than good. Believe me, I understand why you do feel this way, but you shouldn't. I would venture to say that the reason you return to him when you break up with him is because he is familiar to you. In a way, he has become a habit. But they don't have a clue what will happen if they leave.