Finally they tried a new technique, ICSI, where the sperm was injected straight into one of her eggs. I'd fought for funding, I fought for treatment, but then I was the one who had given up. I regret how much it took over my life. Even for those who have not endured Kathy's experience, the decision to give up can be heart-breaking, and the regrets just as strong. You go for a scan and are told everything's fine, and you're on a high, and then you go along and you're told it doesn't work.
Every month is a cycle of hope and despair.
It becomes an obsession, it's all you can think about. It was one of the hardest decisions in my life to stop. You have to realise you can't have everything you want in life. I always thought as soon as I wanted a child it would happen. It came as a shock.