We are children of our age. Consider the idolatry you breathe in your society. Consider your personal idols. I am where my heart is'. Lord make me know your ways'.
Life is only for love.
Time is only that we may find God' - St Bernard. Ponder Mt 22, 35f. The journey is over now. It is good to stop it. Leave it for a few days then try to evaluate it as best you can.