I'm scared that I ask him out, and he says no, thing'll get weird between us. Alli Alli, most relationships start as friendships, but you really need to go with your gut- trust your instinct because it will mostly always be right. If you don't want to risk damaging your friendship, then maybe not telling him is the best thing to do. I lost a good friend and seem to think of him every minute of the day. He died after 3 yrs of a heart and lung transplant.
Loss takes a while to get over.
You don't really ever get over but the pain gets less. It is OK to think of a friend. That helps you to still have him with you in a way. Think about the good parts of him and keep him in your heart like a guardian angel. Give your self a break, and let yourself have the time it takes naturally to get through this kind of loss.