But you are not the thoughts. You are not the feelings. You are Pure Awareness. You are free from all concepts. You are not the experiences.
Experiences are phenomena.
Phenomena come and go, but you are always the witness to all experiences and all phenomena. Do you want to see God. That Witness state, that Absolute Pure Consciousness is itself non-different from whatever you might conceive of as God. Do not underestimate this. Do not evaluate it at all.