I gave myself permission to always love Liam. I gave myself permission to love Liam even if I never saw him again, even if we never spoke again, even if I fell in love with someone else, even if I one day came to love myself the way I so much needed to. I gave myself permission to love Liam no matter what. I am not sure Liam understood how I could still love him yet not want to be with him. But I believe that one day, if he has not already, he will receive the same gift I did.
Love is a miracle.
Leaving and still loving is a miracle. Loving Liam is a miracle for me. I will always love Liam in my soul, and I am not ashamed of that. In fact, I am proud of my love for him. What it shows me is that love does conquer all.