Yet surprisingly, as the doctor's words sank in, I did not feel fear or panic. Nor did I feel sorry for myself. In fact, after the first shock, I felt a curious sense of calm. I've had a fantastic time, always. Perhaps that is why I am able to have hope now, to live with cancer as fully as possible.
Life is too dear to waste it on worrying about the unknown.
And cancer, I have learned, to a large degree is still unknowable. Each individual responds differently to his or her specific affliction and treatment. Science cannot predict how long you will live. I admit that initially I tried to do the math. But that was before I finally understood that cancer is a crapshoot.