I am a senior in high school, seventeen. Buddy and I got married in June and live in a house together. We have so many memories at that house which makes it wonderful but yet painful at the same time. Giving him a bath, rocking him to sleep, watching his father be a better father at eighteen than any man in his twenties or thirties. We wanted to move to ease the pain from the memories but felt like we were leaving him there.
Every day gets a little easier.
Tomorrow will be a week since I have seen my baby's beautiful smile. I feel so many things at one time and try to find comfort in so many things. I have so many questions that a doctor can never answer. Will I be trying to replace my sweet Victor. I want so bad to know that God is a wonderful being but its so hard when he gave me so much pain.