Heaven is perfect. I once believed because I could not totally think for myself. And you'll know that you've found truth when it doesn't sound like a fantasy. Think about that. Put aside what you want and really try to imagine the reality of Heaven.
Ignorance is where searching stops and faith begins.
So you've heard the story of Jesus dying on the cross for you. And you've been told that the good things that have happened to you are a result of your believing. Good things and bad things happen to all people all of the time. It's called life, and it is the most important thing that there is. It's an experience that is meant to be learned from, not ignored.