Don't be a mental shut-in. Simply be filled with the thought of good and it will radiate - you do not have to bother about it any more than you need trouble about your digestion. We always find insufferable any one who possesses our own recognized faults. It pays to be good - I tried it once. People who get in the habit of being miserable, finding their happiness in this, will be miserable - no matter what their physical condition is.
Life lies in the quest.
Never mind your name or fame. Whoever you are, there is a place here for you. You will be welcome. As we do better work we become better people. Most of our troubles come through venturing into dangerous places.