I've enrolled in law school because I want to change things here. But if I want to accomplish anything politically, I have to keep my nose clean. Hell, our school system banned Harry Potter because magic is a satanic concept. The urge to make other people's lives better is a two-edged urge, and though it's noble of you to want to change things around you, you can only do this with the permission of the changees, and this does demand a certain sense of humor. Democracy demands humor.
Great crusades tend to fail, and affable public servants who enjoy the work tend to go on and on.
Be one of those, if you like. Or, if you want to write a novel about your religious crisis, do that. You probably can't do both. Same as you can't smoke three packs a day and run the triathlon. You can't model underwear if you weigh more than 400 pounds.