I have and am learning to deal with that daily. Raising a teenager as a single parent isn't easy. I feel terrrible about committments to clients that seem to slip at times. I feel guilty that AMEX and Discover and Sears, and so on, don't get paid on time. I feel that the right thing is to work hard and do the best I can, but the creditors never let up.
Free time is a rare commodity.
And when I have free time, I don't have money and am grumpy or I am exhausted. I honestly don't know if working for someone else would be better. I am not going to give in until I am forced. I am going to try hard to make this work. I am working on developing a labor and sales presence at LANL and that may help considerably.