You can do this with personal transformation. Breathe deeply into the mystery. Keep a journal. If you're more kinesthetic than visual, dance your change process. Try painting or sculpting your journey, or make up songs describing your experiences.
Fear is normal.
It's even valuable, because it gives us something to push up against, which helps develop our spiritual muscles. This is positive resistance. Weight training for the mind. I did this for years. In the Hero's Journey, this phase is known as the Initiation.