There isn't a better way to express how I'm feeling. Maybe I'm wrong and I'm not in love, just got in this mood because of the book - which I think is true . I'm not trying to stop it. And if Life gives me a second chance I won't let it go. And I beg Her on my knees to give me this second chance.
Love hurts a lot.
And it makes you lie to yourself when it does. I think that's what I'm trying to do. The unsurance and the fear are making me give up all that I've been dreaming of. The fear of rejection and the fear of the new. The fact that I'm so insecure about setting my foot on a ground I don't know and that could be so unsafe.