People sometimes ask why a full realization of Love does not come instantly when they pray. All people ask this question, including me. We even get moments of healing. That's just how it is.
Love comes in many forms.
Make no judgment - they are all Divine. Somewhere inside we know that. So daily silence is the tool we use to keep cleaning off our lens, wiping away old hurt and recurring disbelief. If we are patient, and if we persist, our lens becomes clearer and clearer and clearer. We move as fast as we can.