It was during one of these attempts, that I pleaded for God to save me. After that, I began counseling and medication, just like you. Now I am done with counseling and will be off my medication completely in six months. Sue, there are a lot of people who have a chemical imbalance that is brought on by aging or genetics, environmental stresses, certain foods, etc. Maybe, you are one who has been effected by all or some of these.
Hormones can cause depression as well.
Taking antidepressants are NOT addictive or habit forming, so be good to yourself and continue to take them until you figure out what the real problem is. If you are not working, volunteer work really helps. I will pray for you, God Bless.