It was my way of coping with things. No drugs would have made it better. One is forced to stay in a place with people one may prefer not to be with. Plans have to be abolished or postponed. The future is uncertain.
Family relationships can break down.
They replace these with constant views of bars, bolts, gates, fences, razor wire, locks, surveillance cameras, uniforms and dogs. They rob you of all normal social contact as well as hope and ambition. They throw all sorts of men together. I desperately tried to cling to some sort of connection with the outside world whilst it became increasingly unreal. We can walk outside and experience the world of nature.