I am beside you. Listen, listen, listen to My Voice. If you want to communicate with God, be willing to keep reading, keep trying, and keep seeking. Try to be open-minded and willing to give God a chance. If you have doubts good that means that you are being honest.
Doubts are good.
They mean you think. God can handle your doubts. When God speaks to you, you will know who it is there will be no doubt. But after the experience, the doubt will be back, trying to separate you from God. That is the voice of evil.