But what might be a problem here is that her expectation was misplaced. She was looking for the wrong thing. The important thing is what God has done, has given. When she focused on her feelings, she may have been, and even likely would always be disappointed. Feelings, as we know, can be very unpredictable.
Emotions depend on so many different things.
But the one thing certain here, the one thing she can always find, no matter how she feels or thinks, is that God is here with his gifts. That's God's promise, a promise given substance in the flesh and blood of Christ here for her. She can come to the Supper feeling happy or sad, bright or blue, but that doesn't matter. God and his gift will be the same. She is assured that she is forgiven, no matter how she feels.