When you take your suffering to the cross of Christ and you see there love so amazing, so divine it demands your soul, your life, your all. I want to propose to you that there is possibly no more significant question for the people of God today, because there is a lot of bad, false or misguided teaching which puts the emphasis in the wrong places on this subject that abounds today broadly in the church of Christ. The riches of God's mercy are given to us not because of some infinite value of the human soul. Primarily, love is not a feeling at all. Love is, rather, a mindset.
Love is a decision.
Love is an action , and this is where we get it all twisted up. You've sought the wrong things, perhaps as a follower of Christ, and now you're in the pigsty. Grow up in Christ, brothers. Your body is not your own. It was bought with a price.