This was an important change for me. The feeling of being a part of life, and seeing the beauty in suffering, has come back from time to time to overwhelm me, but more important, it has become a part of my everyday life. Little things don't bother me much. I think that's great. The knowledge of death takes the sting out of the little things.
Life is about having a good time, good food and good friends.
Binos knew that. So we have to get the little things out of the way. When I feel out of control, when I am angry or scared, I reach out for that feeling, the knowledge that life is beautiful even in suffering. I've learned to put my faith in it. It's a leap in the dark, but it gets a little easier each time.