Rate yourself creatively. Recall a time when you had a great idea that solved an important problem. Make it as real as possible by using all senses. Learn to enjoy your memories. In some sense, you can't describe your inner creative resource in words.
Lets talk about the qualities of essence.
It is best related to balance. The fourth quality is strength. We often talk of creativity in terms of a breakthrough. Creative people take appropriate risks. This inner strength overcomes fear.