You may ruminate about the same idea or event repeatedly or obsess about a feeling or action you thought was long past. You may get physically ill or develop an addiction or your temper may flare. Your sleep may be disrupted and your dreams become nightmares that insist on attention. Or, your breathing speeds up, your chest is so tight that it hurts, your thoughts get jumbled, you can't slow down, you feel like a mess and you are afraid that you really may Go Crazy . Everything may get on your nerves and the slightest sound may seem like the screech of chalk along a black board.
Love seems a foreign concept and making love is hard to do.
You may wonder why you are alive or find yourself thinking of suicide. Sometimes, it's not actually killing yourself that comes to mind, but a kind of wish that maybe an accident will happen, a car crash seems appealing, or that you just won't wake up one day and your misery will be over. Normal depression often occurs after a severe loss, if you feel helpless or hopeless about a situation or event, or if you are very angry and keep your feelings locked inside. Sometimes depression or a mood swing is due to a hormone imbalance, the side effect of a medication or mixture of pills, or it may be due to a genetic predisposition something you are born with. In older folks, we have learned that what we used to think of as natural depression that comes with aging, isn't natural at all.