Mostly, I d like to have more faith in people. I spend most of my life trying to figure out what s going on behind their faces. I never really trust that someone doesn t have an alternative agenda than the one they re showing me, and I usually expect the worst out of people. This has a lot to do with my childhood and teenage years, when I was taken advantage of by a number of people, all of whom said they loved me. It s hard to believe in the common decency of the human race in general when you ve experienced stumbling home at 3 a.m. after being gang-raped at a party.
Life is hard.
I ve learned that very early. I just want to find something that might make it a little easier for me.