All of them seem touched by Lewis. God knows I want the truth. I really feel that I have sought out the truth and have found it in Christ. I will, however quote Lewis. He wrote much about the mysterious nature of religion that underlies all things.
Holy places are dark places.
It is life and strength, not knowledge and words, that we get in them. Holy wisdom is not clear and thin like water, but thick and dark like blood. I would love to converse with you more. You seem to be very open-minded nad I feel we have a sort of kindred spirit. I, too, was raised in a very conservative Christian church.