It's not apt to be your interest in cosmology or even in theology that draws you so much as it's the empty feeling in your stomach. You don't have to understand anything very complicated. All you're asked is to take a step or two forward through the darkness and start digging in. During the reign of Oliver Cromwell, the british government began to run low on silver for coins. Cromwell sent his men to see if they could find any of the precious metal in the local cathedral.
Love has to be put into action, and that action is service.
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