As an adult you may want to reexamine it, with an adult's resources. It helps to have other people around who use the same vocabulary in describing the life of the spirit, shared rituals, and a shared community that extends back into history. Twelve Step Programs Coming to terms with your limitations, with others, can only help in discovering that within you which is truly limitless. Again, trust your instincts. You can't decide what it is, but you can decide to say yes to it when you find it.
Folk songs are the product of years of spontaneous editing by their communities.
They require only a basic level of musical technique to begin with, yet offer opportunities for the most sensitive musician. They are a standard that has kept me honest as a songwriter for 25 years or so. I learned how to sing from hours listening to tapes of Billie Holliday and Hank Williams. I don't sound like either of them, but I know a lot more about phrasing and emotion in singing than I would have otherwise. Take a poll of bluegrass flatpickers and ask how many of them are Charlie Parker fans.