And also, once you've made the decision to be there, to give yourself, don't be tentative, recalcitrant, sulky about it. We have to have had a good night's sleep, we have to have eaten. You may think that substances help you, that a cup of coffee, or a couple of stiff belts, or a half a valium, will help. Learn to do without it. In my case I've given up everything, hopefully for good, and certainly for the past seventeen years.
Life is complicated enough.
It was my friend in the beginning. It turned on me in a big way. I was the last one to know. Don't mess with the dope, don't even bother. I've never been to a stadium to see a show that belongs in a stadium, other than a football game.