I don't recall if I absorbed the full magnitude of that moment, but I meant what I said and said what I meant. I do believe a supernatural bond was created between my wife and me. The divorce hit me very hard. I can't claim to have been a perfect husband, but I believe I was sincere. Every day for the past few years, I have prayed for reconciliation.
Life goes on.
It's not that I have a physical desire to be with my wife, but I maintain a profound love for the woman that I married. It's difficult to explain to people why I feel the way that I do and why, after so much time, I would want reconciliation. But I do. It's the desire of my heart. It's also frustrating not to be heard.