It's like I think the most clearly when I'm doing it. It's a serious problem. If you think you can help me, or know someone who can, please tell me. Persons with this problem are usually very detail oriented. In effect, you are putting yourself in a trance with this behavior.
Endorphins are like morphine and can be addictive.
Regular exercise is a better way to get your body to produce endorphins. Some anti-depressants work well for this problem, even in people who are not depressed. Psychotherapy can also be of help. Distinguishing between these diagnoses would require more history, a thorough psychiatric exam, as well as a physical exam to rule out any medical factors which could be contributing to the illness. An abnormality in your brain neurotransmitters my be involved in any of these.