If tragedy befalls me, or someone mistreats me, it's almost like a guilty pleasure. Don't get me wrong, it really does hurt. But part of me loves the fact that people are paying attention to my feelings. I have the spotlight, and have the benefit of the doubt when I do brash things. I just wish people would pay that much attention to each other without the pain involved, but it's impossible.
Humans are mortal creatures, and only have so much energy to give to other people.
We can't give out our entire reserves to others all the time, we save it for special occasions. This might sound bad, but I don't think it is. Life, with all its beauty, can be pretty hard, and each of us spends quite a lot of energy paying attention to our own needs, and just getting through the day. That's it, this is the end. I've been deep, but now I'm tired.