If I think of the next up I think of the next down, ad infinitum. I also have lumps springing up all over the place. If I have minor nicks or cuts when I go to bed, they bleed during the night, even if they didn't bleed in the first place. I'm feeling very lonely also. Discovered last night that these days I feel lonely even when Frood is home, and that's no state to be in.
Dreams are intense and difficult, hard work, upsetting.
Not nightmares as such, I guess, although I describe them that way sometimes. They are rarely terrifying, but usually distressing. When I dream these days I am ill in my dreams. I caught sight of myself in a mirror and my face was a white oval with massive dark shadows under the eyes. I looked like something out of an Edward Munsch painting.