Eventually I realized that bad ideas were killing good people. Not because ideas kill, but because bad ideas die-hard and these ideas form the hot beds for addictions to thrive. Most people do not realize they have killer ideas floating around in the sea of their emotional and conceptual functioning. However, if you attempt recovery from addiction and achieve sobriety, you will quickly run into these bad ideas. You stop your addictive behavior of choice and make progress with sobriety.
Life begins to gain some sanity.
Recovery seems possible. Day by day, whatever it takes, you do it, meetings, getting a sponsor, counseling, self-help books, and even treatment. Even though you keep plugging away at your recovery plan, you notice things around you are shifting. People you care about resist relating to the new, sober you. They don't take you seriously about this recovery stuff and begin to innocently offer you your addiction of choice.