The one person who loves me unconditionally, day in, day out, and as sick as I am, I have begun to alienate. So today I came to a decision, I will keep my March 22nd appointment with my RE but it will be to discuss a surgical procedure called Ovarian Drilling. This is my last ditch effort at having another child naturally, with no drugs and IUI's. The thought of having surgery for the second time in 6 months scares me but at the same time I have finally set a boundary for myself. If this does not work and I do not ever get pregnant again, I will learn to live with it.
Infertility is seemingly a game of boundaries.
You must find where your breaking points are and never push past them. Many times I have come so close and finally just as the last straw is ready to give way I pull back realizing the grave mistake I have made. For now I will pull back and wait for March to come. I will enjoy my son, my husband, my family, and all the rest of the many blessings God has given me. I sincerely hope that during each of your forays through the world of infertility and it's many emotions you never push completely past those boundaries.