And then I realized that my neutral feeling was just that, a kind of zen middle path. The inner reality was more important than the exterior appearance. And I felt like I could finally think clearly about what I wanted without the distractions of my former inner conflict. I was no longer going through a cycle of euphoric femininity followed by a depressed male-ish feeling of futility and hopelessness. And that was my first month.
Hormone therapy is very revealing.
The test procedure very simple. If after several months, you love and prefer how you feel, think and are, then you are probably on the right track, . It didn t take several months. Mentally, I was finally living in the present. Previously, the present was something just to get through on my way to someday .