There is kindness in your cruelty. I hear in the sounds of silence. Last of all, tell yourself you will survive. You will come out of it. Remind yourself that live or die, you belong to God.
Life does go on.
Happiness is not living without pain or hurt not at all. True happiness is learning how to live one day at a time, in spite of the sorrow and pain and hurt. It is learning to rejoice in God, no matter what has happened. You may feel rejected. You may feel abandoned.