But someone not liking me doesn't have to mean anything more than that. What a relief. It's not a right or wrong thing. Yeah, that makes me laugh. And it seems like such a silly goal, but really, to just be able to live and accept that some people won't like me.
Life is very different.
And that's where I go. It's become a very simple and quick way for me to get started rather than trying to go over and over how awful the place looks and what's worse and where should I start and worrying that anything I do won't make a difference anyway. You know, just writing this is bringing back even more memories and words you've said to me. But the most important thing I learned from you was about being a mother. During the time that I was seeing you I was constantly tormenting myself with thoughts about what a terrible mother I must've been.