So you might as well think about what you feel like you want to do with the rest of your life. I've never, ever even thought about what I really wanted to do. After his wife, his girlfriend and his children all abandoned him, my broken friend literally spent time in the desert, selling insurance in Arizona. Listening in the silent loneliness of the desert for that quiet inner voice that he had ignored for so long. We will use any distraction to avoid the anxiety of spiritual growth sex, drugs, television, radio, overwork, hobbies, trying either to please or to change others.
Every temptation is really the temptation to avoid the anxiety of genuine spiritual growth.
Real Christianity is not for wimps, it's a scary business. The hound from hell which dogs my steps is the temptation to be passive. It's the temptation to avoid temptation instead of facing it. Just ignore it. Turn up the TV, and don't think about all those bills.