I dislike the footwork part. I have trouble scheduling time to balance my checkbook. I worry about cashflow too much. I tend to carry large paychecks in my purse rather than depositing them, because having them where I can touch them feels somehow safer. I am not perfect.
Life is worth living.
I smile a lot, even though I sometimes still struggle to handle my checkbook after 10 years of program. It is worth the effort. Don't debt one day at a time. Get to meetings. When you feel isolated, share.