When you feel this way, you know the monster of rage has taken over your spirit like a great dark force. It is a structured, calculated, and out of control force. It's the real monster that the prison system creates. That's the terrible price of committing a crime and going to prison. The ties to the past and hope for the future become all important.
Legacy writes that memory is crucial.
It may be all that one has. A prisoner needs to remember who he or she may be, and have hope that there is at least a pinprick of light at the end of the darkened tunnel. You gotta keep that little mantra ticking in the back of your head. It has passed. It is passing It will pass.