Make another list of things done for you which you loved. Organizational Theology Writ Simple Heaven is principle, people, and purpose. Purgatory is paper and procedures. Hell is rules and regulations. The problem is never how to get new, innovative thoughts into your mind, but how to get old ones out.
Every mind is a room packed with archaic furniture.
You must get the old furniture of what you know, think and believe out before anything new can get in. Make an empty space in any corner of your mind and creativity will instantly fill it. Right and Wrong Right and wrong are as far removed from legal and illegal as a skunk from a rose. Knowing right is inborn, intuitive, simple and inevitable. Doing it is the problem, for it requires self-sacrifice.