Needing to fit in maybe. Maybe I thought that there was something wrong with me for NOT worrying about my weight. So thus began my awareness of my body. Awareness of what I ate. It wasnt obsessive yet.
High school is where the obsession began.
I no longer hung out with that friend, but looking back, I believe it was the transition to high school that scared me. But it was there. I dont remember feeling scared because I restricted to avoid feeling anything. I did not eat all day. That was a line I used for yrs to come.