From the start, I knew I was in trouble. The new personalities that I worked with could not have been more different than the comfort I had left behind. This office functioned constantly at full blown chaos - people were always putting too much on their own and each others plates. Some people thrive under this kind of pressure, I am not one of them. I like my ducks in a row, but in this situation I couldn't even begin to find my ducks.
Every office has times and commitments that create chaotic episodes.
Unfortunately, when I solved one crisis here it was always replaced by a new one. By spring of '96 I was beginning to worry I was never going to adapt. The constant pressure was getting to me. For the first time in my life I doubted myself. I began to worry about what others thought of me.