He was my first love and I adored him. I'm hoping he can make me feel better and get me over this bad time. It is very frightening to get into a new relationship. A new relationship can bring up suppressed fears from old relationships. It may be months, even years until you are entirely over the pain of your first love leaving you.
First love plays a very important role in our romantic loves.
Don't expect this pain to just disappear. We humans can have times when we feel both happy and sad at the same time, both optimistic and pessimistic, confident and at the same time insecure. It seems to make no sense, but two very different emotions can exist at once within us. You don't want to seem so insecure that he sees you as someone without worth. Sometimes, when a person reveals their insecurity in a romantic relationship, instead of being rescued and emotionally pampered, they are misunderstood and devalued.