You never hear people discuss the pain of losing one's brother or sister. I'm sure the loss is just as devastating. If I were qualified to analyze it, I would say that most brothers and sisters are surrounded by their own families. They have husbands, wives and children to help fill the void, lessen the pain and provide the push to go on. The responsibility of living and taking care of ones own family takes up all of our time.
Little time is left to mourn the loss of a sibling.
I know that in my case over the past ten years the pain has gone, but the memories are stronger, the longing is greater. I miss my sister. There is a microscopic space in the center of my existence that is empty, that is the space that is longing for Catherine. Outsiders might say we didn't get along. I don't think that is entirely true.