Basically, I feel I have no one. Not my 'boyfriend', not my son, not family, and not my friends. From my work I have acquired the proper meds to make me go to sleep and never wake up. In a way I would feel bad hurting people that are close to me, but in another way, I don't care. As you said, they will eventually get over it.
Life goes on.
Thanks for listening - it helps to vent. Believe it or not I understand what you are saying. I have felt just like that in the past. I felt all alone even though there were people all around me. I am glad you decided to write me.