Still, these worries are never diffuse. The narcissist worries about specific people, or possible events, or more or less plausible scenarios. He seems to constantly conjure up some reason or another to be worried or offended. Positive past experiences do not dissuade him from this pre-occupation. He seems to believe that the world is a cruelly arbitrary, ominously contrarian, contrivingly cunning and indifferently crushing place.
Life is too good to be true and too bad to endure.
The Narcissist is incurably pessimistic, an ignoramus by choice and incorrigibly blind to evidence to the contrary. Underneath all this, there is a Great Anxiety. The Narcissist fears life and what people do to each other. He fears his fear and what it does to him. He knows that he is a participant in a game whose rules he will never master and in which his very existence is at stake.