Doubt and despair .
Despair is an expression of the total personality, doubt only of thought.
It began as obsessions with my body, primarily my nose and my weight. In my late teens, the obsessions with my appearance were replaced with gay obsessions. I questioned whether or not I was attracted to my female friends. It wasn't until my early 20's that OCD would rear its ugly head again into my relatively peaceful and happy existence. I am sharing my story because I want others to know that OCD is not just about washing, checking or other rituals.