The Bible teaches to dismiss the life of earth for the rewards in heaven. But as a disbeliever I have appreciated in value from the uncertainties of life. It's obvious that you hate God and hate Christians. I have no reason to hate an alleged god any more than I do Zeus or Captain Hook. If you don't have faith in God, you can never know the truth.
Faith relies on the absence of evidence.
Before you appeal to faith when reason has you backed into a corner, think about whether you really want to abandon reason when reason is on your side. I'm a peace loving Christian and do not believe in war. Anyone who kills in the name of Jesus is not a Christian. Your criticism of Christianity does not reflect upon true Christianity. Good for you.