One thing I do believe is that a bipolar patient will not do well until on the right mood stabilizers. Antidepressants alone may only amplify and speed up the cycling. Suicidal thoughts no longer plague me. I don't have a broken record of bad thoughts playing in my mind, over and over again, on a daily basis. I am even fairly sure I will be OK next week, so I can make plans and not have to break them.
Life is really good.
Do everything you have to do to find this person. Then, stick with them, tell them everything and trust them. But, make sure they are the right one first. BTW, I found Buspar to be utterly worthless. Best wishes to you.