I came back from those hours with the firm conviction that God was calling me to overseas service. That conviction never left me. Guidance does not get easier as we get older and when the time came to leave Korea and subsequently to settle back into UK general practice it was largely circumstances and family commitments that were the raw material of that guidance. What matters is that through every phase of life we keep before us the exhortation 'Seek first his Kingdom and his righteousness'. Only one life, 'twill soon be passed, only what's done for Jesus will last.
Full surrender is a better choice than final suffocation.