We become crucified by our own emotionalism. You need a little time out-a vacation for getting your head together. The stuff you're running through your head is killing you. Life is within your imagination. You stated that you are more emotional than him.
Emotion is a road sign.
When you judge by appearances, you are using what appears to be going on as a feedback loop that governs the very way you feel. A state of mind need not be like feeling the temperature. When it's hot, you're hot, when it's cold, you're cold. We have the option of becoming centered and grounded in love, in spirituality, in God. To conceive this, imagine that you are an angel in human form.