For me I felt dirty and that I must have done something to deserve what happened. I learned from a friend of mine that nobody has the right to touch you unless you want to. I have also been bulimic for five and a half years. At times I have gone into recovery and at other times I have relapsed. It truly is a frustrating situation please know that you are never alone.
Death is a perment answer to a temporary problem.
I want you to know God loves you very much. He cares about what's happening in your life. It may not feel this way at times. You can make it through this have faith. You will be in my thoughts aand prayers.