It feels safer if it distances itself from what it sees no way to control. Remember the ego has no real power. The spirit within you is the source of your true power. The soul knows the way to your spirit which is always at peace and full of joy. Your Ego's Perception Come to the realization that your ego's perception of the situation is the cause of your depression.
All perceptions change.
Each new thought, action, piece of information or the next experience will alter your perception. In your mind, take yourself out of the creation and place someone else you know there. You will gain a new and often helpful perception of you. Really listen to your soul through meditation as it guides you carefully and skillfully toward the action the ego needs to take to allow the healing process. Be careful not to listen to what the ego wants you to do.