I sensed that in your note. Your pain and your anger. Your grief too. Emily has told me that was the most difficult part of nursing for her, learning to care for her patients, give them the best treatment possible, encourage them, hurt with them, listen to their dreams and then be expected to feel nothing if they die. I could never do that.
Investment banking sounds like a vacation compared to that.
There is no end to my admiration for you, Nathan, that you would allow yourself to experience that deep sense of loss at the death of this patient. What impressed Nathan about the message was her insight into his feelings. Then without any warning, he'd died, even after heroic measures were taken to revive him. A fellow physician had accused Nathan of thinking he was God. Perhaps that was the problem.