I am an ideal hero and image for young people, because of how I treated people and the morals that I held on to, as well as being a great engineer and helping start this industry. It shows you are a forgiving person to let that slide then, and to seemingly harbor no bad will toward Jobs now. That's my approach to all of life's conflicts and setbacks. I'm very forgiving and it would give me a worse feeling head if I kept sadness inside. Better to forgive and forget and remain friends.
Good things can come out of that.
I think that you just got tired. It's possible that I lost my drive and edge. The truth is closer to the latter. When I departed Apple a second time it was to start a company and make a small programmable remote control. I did engineering and wrote the code for one of the internal microprocessors myself.