An old friend pointed me toward some resources and forced me to ask some very serious questions about the actual existence of God. The Bible says he cannot. Faith was simply not enough anymore. I though about what my life would be like had I been raised Buddhist or some other world religion. I couldn't do it.
Every religion believes they are right.
I think that's part of human nature. To go beyond mere faith requires evidence. The only evidence that is unbiased in it's findins is scientific evidence. And in the light of science God was dead. The evidence I found in science was not in favor of Christianity or any of religion or for the existence gods.