He often struggles with feelings of unworthiness for the task of preaching the gospel, but he receives encouragements when people are brought to Christ by his preaching. Afternoon at three about two hundred women, and in the evening as many men. Almost every year, several friends and relatives die. He often reminds himself of the great spiritual giants of the past. And the little I have learned from affliction is a constant grief to me.
Communion is always a special occasion, when several ministers help during the service.
By mistake I did not get the bread and wine. Felt somewhat strange, but I learned some things. Thus, it may be the Lord was thus gently chastising me, reminding me to take off my shoes because the ground was holy. Then, I learned sympathy with those who often, at this season, are not permitted in the providence of God to go. Then also, I felt a hunger I had not felt for a long time - a hunger for the bread and wine.