Then, once you have retraced your pride and reconciled yourself, your writing gets better. Then you must change all over again while you become accustomed to your new writing image. All the while you are adjusting yourself, you keep trying to write, to meet your deadlines with essays about subjects that stir up thoughts which are sometimes very difficult to admit to yourself, much less to another person, though they remain unseen. The emotional turbulence and mental storms that are part of the process of growing up, being a writer, and facing yourself, show up in your writing. I thought I'd controlled it better in my writing.
Feelings always show through, but that is good.
They teach you about yourself and tell you your style of writing in different moods. If by now you've gotten the feeling that this course isn't worth it, you're probably right. It probably wouldn't do you any good, because you're either too high in whipped cream or too low in unchallenged, falsely sweet strawberries to profit from it. But if you're not quite turned off yet, let me list the benefits. Your essays greatly improve, though you may not notice.