It's easy to be miserable. Sometimes being happy takes hard work. A Book of Celtic Wisdom by John O'Donohue. I didn't like the reality that the chemicals were creating. I wanted to experience my life, my emotions, and not some chemical induced existence.
Life is a beautiful, beautiful drama, a beautiful dance.
I'm thankful that I've chosen a path where love and understanding are what I strive for, not condemnation and hatred. One of the difficulties in being human, and something we all have in common, is that we just can't understand all the mysteries of the Universe no matter how hard we try, meditate, pray, think, or study. Some of us are fortunate in that we can at least make peace with our questions. I really don't know if the deities we worship are one in the same. It's one of life's big mysteries.