To look ahead was to hard. I never thought I could get through one day but I am still here five years later. I cried a lot and that is healing, we have to cry. I always felt better after a cry, it released a lot of emotion. We also know we are haling when we can put our own feelings aside to help someone else.
Healing is a long process.
Sometimes I would feel I had come a long way only to fall back once again. This is the day when your heart and mind knows that your loved one is gone. They are not going to walk back in the door. Looking ahead with a smile. All rights reserved.