Your challenge is to balance your work habits with practices of good health. Try to eat well and get enough sleep. For, a body weak from lack of attention means a mind not far away. Look for a new understanding of taking care. You just love to have things proved to you, don't you.
Fantasies are for the fanciful.
You're hard head will serve you very well in the future. You know you can't afford to take anything for granted. You need to pay attention to all the little details. I know that's not your style at all. That's why it's so important.