One problem he describes is the question of social adjustment, getting over shyness and the desire to be better like by his fellows. He is not the ultra-social type. Jealous of younger brother who gets along well socially. His sense of failure is great sometimes. If a date was successful it was because the girl was very charming and witty, and it was all due to her that they had such a good time.
Guilty feelings re autoeroticism esp.
Would have been embarassed by demonstrative affection from family during adolescence. How others judge his action. Does not like to hear others criticized behind their backs. Regretted had not done more extracurricular things at Harvard. Has a horror of any forced relationships with people.