I have no thoughts of getting back together with him. You spent most of your life with this man. Even if you don't like him, he is comfortable in his familiarity. You are in an interim space right now. I know what to do and when to do it.
Love is the most difficult arena to negotiate.
I think you are frightened of diving into your new life. Anybody would be. A woman married as young as you were, who spent most of her life with one partner would be especially frightened . He may be a pain in the neck, but he is company, and you know what you expect . Dina Dear Dina, Be patient.