I could nor ever would discourage you from thinking. It's an incredibly rare think for people to do these days. I don't know why I'm even writing. You're a celeb. But, if I could say anything, it would be this.
Life is made up of little tests.
In the past, I used to regard each one as a final exam, that if I blew it, my whole life would be ruined. Dating, career choices, even whether I stayed in my band or not. These tests were a strange form of challenge and validation to me. The only trouble is, when you fail, you sit around bumming for a month. It took a year or two out of college for me to realize that, despite all the claims of my former teachers, my life was just as unprepared and unplanned as it was in 9th grade.