Now I had given myself the task of conquering it. I'd box anyone, though I was always trembling inside. I tried to hit hard. I tried to let myself be swept away, but it was impossible. The fear was always there, going about its own business.
Fear springs up before anything else.
You've just got to forget it. Forget your fear. Pretend it doesn't exist, and live your life. I downed two more shots of rum. I was in a delicious state, I mean.