I also get over loaded with all the sensory information that comes from people in a social situation, such as conversational noise, movement of people, clothing, doors and so on. The only time I enjoy social occasions are when they occur on my terms with friends that I know and trust. I know that I will never be neuro-typical. I will all ways have Asperger s Syndrome. If I am to have a sense of pride and dignity, of high self-esteem, then I need to accept me as being who I am, value my sense of difference and work with my talents, attributes and disposition.
Difference is always uncomfortable.
We all like to be amongst that which is familiar, predictable and comfy. You would so often feel let down, disappointed, lied to and so on. I am very unevenly skilled. I have huge problems with being disorganised, getting lost, using public transport, understanding others, and just the practical interactions of social situations. If my sense of value came from being good at every thing, being an achiever at school, work and home, being able to get into other s minds and be in tune with them all of the time.