You're saying you'll do what you're supposed to do, but if it leads to any personal benefits you'll turn them down. You're reducing religious faith and the infinite possibilities of life to becoming God's little robot. I really hope so. But friendship adds just as much to one person as to the other. You are not inflicting some kind of punishment on her by becoming her friend.
Friends are a reward.
There are people in the world who think of YOU that way, and there will be more, but you have to LET them. But I feel awful because I feel as though I am, in some way, abusing the opportunity I was given. You ought to only consider going out with a girl you have never seen, never heard about, never spoken to, and never in fact had any contact with in any way whatsoever. The only way you will find true love is by picking a surname at random from the phone book, calling them up, and proposing then and there. I really don't recommend crazy alternatives such as meeting a girl in a friendly social situation, such as at church, and gradually getting to know her.