He always seemed to have his eye on the big deal, but the big deal was a mirage that constantly tantalized him. This is a common characteristic of men who have not been blessed by their fathers. I know, I was one of them. They have not experienced the calling out their manhood by dad. A year ago Brad admitted that he was back on cocaine.
Evangelical men have a very difficult time admitting they have a hole in their soul.
We mask it with perpetual motion, sound, T.V. and some like Brad use drugs. I tried everything I could to get Brad to slow down, and be still and learn to hear the voice of God. He desperately needed to hear his heavenly Father whisper the 5A's in his ear. Brad, you are my beloved son. I accept you as you are.