Most of the time, though, it's more like I'm stunned, or in shock. The pain is too much to bear. This is when I really pull inside of myself, and my brain sort of shuts down, leaving me feeling bewildered, confused, and disoriented. I feel completely and utterly alone, even in a room full of people. Imagine yourself as a leaf, floating alone and without control in the middle of a very large lake.
Dysphoria Let's see.
Yeah, that's it. While depressed, I pull away from other people. I need every bit of energy I have just to keep going. The strain of trying to maintain relationships with people, especially when they rely on me for something, is just more than I can handle. Fortunately, most of my friends understand that it's not personal when I tell them I need some time away from other humans, and they respect my need for space.