He started to withhold money from me. I hired a lawyer. He found out about the affair and I dropped the lawyer. I felt so guilty about it. I don't know what to do now.
Guilt is part and parcel of typical victim behavior.
Stop with the guilt. He talks to me sarcastically about how I am soooo abused. Threatens divorce if I don't move back in with him. I know what I did was wrong. I know how serious it is.