You are controlled by God's love and trust in the heavenly Father. You are gentle, kind, and faithful. Jesus lives within you and is in control. God and God alone can give you a pure heart. Blessed are the pure in heart for they will see Jesus.
Feelings come with no tangible evidence to plead their case.
They also come with no guarantees. You don't know where your feelings will lead or even if you will be able to endure the outcome when it occurs. But you know you must try. Life isn't measured in goals reached. Life is measured in living.