It's truly an awesome feeling. That's as close as I can get to describing it. Well, this depression started with the idea that I couldn't make it in the business. It became a loop of self-doubt and insecurity, into which I continued to spiral for several weeks. Don't foget, everybody's selling something.
Actors sell themselves.
All I know how to do is act. It's my job to create a person, in a given situation that does certain things to achieve a desired goal. I'm sure that exists in some acting book somewhere. What I cannot control is how other people perceive me. It's the one thing most actors would like to be able to control.