Life is just a collection of random events strung together in an arbitrary temporal order. I remember a few years ago there was a tornado in Mississippi that destroyed a church full of Baptists. They thought God had done it to them and they couldn't understand why. Be easy on yourself and try to keep your sense of humor. If the Conspiracy takes your sense of humor from you, learn to use your sense of hate.
Hate can be a friend.
That's one of the hallmarks of the SubGenius world-view. But you can take the Mask of Insanity off whenever you want. You can quit and join back up. You can relax in the comfort of YOUR OWN delusions for as long as you want. We want you to be different.