So stop condemning yourself. Stop trying to figure out what you did wrong. It is what you are thinking right now that really counts with God. Second, remind yourself that God knows your limit and will seek to prevent you from going beyond it. Every move is monitored.
Every tear is bottled.
God identifies with your every pain. And my God of mercy, of fair play and compassion as well as a God of power who can and does work miracles and answer prayers. My God would never deliberately bring harm to anyone. But if it happens if it simply happens due to wind and rain and weather and man s own mistakes, then God has promised to keep life continuing, an even richer, fuller, brighter, ongoing life to compensate. We do well to remember those words.