The odd sensation of displacement in time as well as displacement in physical position caused an interesting perspective to arise along with my memories. I seemed to move back and forth in Time as well as in position. I'm just a kid, feeling lost and confused. And maybe a little clumsy. That's part of the clumsiness.
Conditions seem overwhelming.
The task at hand seems superhuman. Some of the characters that I'm surround by are, at some level, heroic figures. And I'm utterly overwhelmed by the whole concept and process of what I'm involved in. Feeding into that is a total lack of understanding. But there's a second layer of fear that comes solely from the fact that I can't grasp the underlying significance of what it is I'm now involved in.