I guess you are an old-timer like me. I'm not sure whether I'm the right person to give advice about past lives. As you may know, I was King of France in my previous existence, but had my head cut off. What makes life difficult is that most people have some success from their existing personalities and styles. The motivation to change occurs when we feel that the balance between positive and negative results of who we are is tilted to the negative.
All life is imbedded in a ton of connections, for good and for bad.
You need to make peace with who you are, whether you are advancing in years, or whether you are young.