Doubt and despair .
Despair is an expression of the total personality, doubt only of thought.
I believe that I have had subtle symptoms for most of my life. Not the type that can incapacitate you, but odd little quirks. I was a fearful child and had a great deal of anxiety about my life and anything changing in it. The couple of quirks that come to mind are having to take either an odd or even number of cold cuts when making a sandwich ,or chewing first on one side of my mouth then the other. Strange little rituals of waving my hands or shrugging my shoulders were some others.