Remember you don't have to do everything that scares you. There is no shame. The most important thing is to acknowledge when you get scared, and figure out what it is that s scaring you. As sea kayakers we need to examine and manage our fear because fear can incapacitate us and it gets in the way of having fun. Being thrilled is fun, but being actually scared, is not.
Fear is physical and can impede skills and judgment.
Learn to help others and yourself deal with fear and your paddling trips will be more fun. The awareness of fear will help you experience the pleasure of sea kayaking and of just being alive. Fear is in fact the fear of death, and when we become aware of our eventual death we take an important step towards being a whole person. The more conscious of it we are, the fewer anxieties we will have. Not likely, likely, etc.