There is an incredible tug of war within. One side of the individual wants desperately to do God's Will while the other side aches for intimacy. Inner turmoil reigns between passion and Godly living. It is easy to feel as if one is drowning in a sea of emotions and no help is on the horizon. It seems an endless stuggle with no where to go for consolation and strength.
Frustration leads to feelings of futility.
This futility kindles feelings of self-hatred and guilt as well as anger at God. How can God, who supposedly loves me, stand by and let me suffer so. I do not think God wants us to be torn up like this. The Bible is very clear that Christ is about healing, wholeness, forgiveness, grace, Peace, hope, love, renewal and victory. For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life.