I once believed in Modern Medicine. Almost died from toxic level of lithium. Vaproic acid caused severe swelling in lower legs and feet. There's just got to be a better way. . In the Dumps, I feel for your situation.
Manic depression can be very difficult for everyone involved.
I hope that the following suggestions will be helpful to you on your journey to reach wholeness again. The medical profession offers no explanation for the illness except that it may be caused by a lack of the mineral lithium. However, the synthetic litihum when administered, can cause many problems including kidney damage and interference with thyroid function. I feel the most important causes for manic depression include hypoglycemia, vitamin and mineral deficiencies,a previous severe emotional trauma, poor circulation of blood to the head, and abnormalities of the endocrine system. For food programs, I have found a vegetarian food program to be the best in managing the emotions.