Every night is sought after with great fervor. For with it, comes solace and the dreams that bring the desires to life. Images that conjure up the truths that during the day lie dormant. Tired of the struggle, you accept the empty promises that they bring. It is a bittersweet welcome as you shudder from an unfamiliar place within.
Guilt is replaced by anticipation and then back again.
You have everything to loose - though it seems already lost. It has been slowly slipping away though you eagerly peruse it. For you know that in the midst of the confusion, it is what's right. You can only pray that this too, shall pass and in the meantime, you remain true to everyone but yourself.