My boyfriend doesn't want to hear about it and says it's my responsibility to make a decision. If my parents ever hear about this, they will kill me. If I were you, I would have the abortion and then tell him. You sound upset that your boyfriend does not seem to be helping you. I don't know why you're so bothered.
Abortions are safe and easy now.
You sound angry at him, but maybe more hurt at the implication that he doesn't respect you. You sound concerned that your parents might find out. He doesn't sound too concerned, but I wonder what it's all about. Please Provide us with the names, addresses, and telephone numbers of three individuals who know you. At least one of these references should be from a faculty member.