You could not then, but you can now. You are at a choice and choosing starts now. You say you went to counseling. I say perhaps you should have kept going. You would do yourself justice if you were to consider yourself desirable.
Children are very forgiving creatures.
You will start feeling good too and you will attract someone who will feel good about you. M.S.W. She is currently at work as a Personal Success Coach. Joyce specializes in weight issues, relationship issues, life stage issues, and coaches on a wide variety of wellness issues. She is a certified hypnotherapist and addiction counselor. She has been a hospice counselor and does work with bereavement issues and grief.