Very bad, very bad. And yet, I think that the Wired Conference has done more for my spiritual growth than the deadlit Conference. The deadlit Conference is too easy for me to be charming in. All I have to do is do my thing, which is basically a variation of the thing that I've been charming people with since I was nine or ten. I do my thing, and people love me.
Deadheads love to love people.
It's strictly a rigged game. Whereas in the Wired Conference, I feel like there are some pretty serious big boys there. I wrote a long, very self-revelatory post about kind of the Jungian dynamics of the posters there, which was greeted with embarrassed redirection of the discussion. But I realized that I feel like a little boy among real men in the Wired Conference. It's been good for me to face up to the fact that I can't charm everyone.