Tell yourself to forget it. Turn your brain to work, but it fights you. It registers couples in restaurant booths. Kisses in doorways. Rings on fingers.
Babies ridicule with gray eyes.
Think of your mother pretty and 23 in white lace. Your father smiling with adultery lurking behind his eyes. They anxiously sell the house to an indifferent buyer. Split the cash. Stand in the dirty Manhattan rain a moment longer than is considered normal.