If a command list does not produce abreaction, find one that does. If an item within a list does not produce abreaction, consider dropping it for a short time. The minimum number of commands in a list is one. Whenever the going gets heavy, restart at the beginning. Otherwise use a lower list.
Anger is the best agent for cleaning up one's emotions.
Think twice before trying meditation while under medical supervision or drugs. Meditation can raise blood pressure. Antibiotics are unlikely to cause trouble. Tranquillisers certainly will cause trouble. The writer has never heard of anyone getting enlightenment by use of illegal drugs.