Doubt and despair .
Despair is an expression of the total personality, doubt only of thought.
Send me an e-mail. It would also be useful for people who think they might have OCD or something to read a description that resonates with them. It's an interesting exercise to try and write down what it is like to have an obsession. Go on give it a try and send me the results, which I will be glad to post either attributed or not - your call. I'm not sure where to begin.