I thought I would be, but I'm not. Dying in pain, now that's another story. And I am afraid of what will happen to my wife and two boys if I'm not around. I feel bad watching my wife cry after each round of bad news we receive. There's nothing I can do or say to make things better or mask the truth.
Bad news is bad news.
Nothing can make it good news. I'm afraid she will forever be in debt because of the medical bills I'm racking up. I don't want to be just some guy in a picture. I want him to remember the good times. I believe in God.