Now I think that it is payback to me, now I must suffer. I keep replaying the final moments of his death in my head for so many years now. I held him as he was dying, I heard him take is last breath and felt his heart beat for the last time. Even after he passed I continued to hold him, rocking back and fourth. As I tell you all of my story, I want to share my sorrow with you and your lost loved one.
Death is a very hard thing no matter if human or animal.
It hurts all the same. I hope this site helps me to let go but not ever forget Muffin. I love you so much Muffin Man, and soon I will hold you again. God bless everyone and thank you.