This is a difficult one, and we will go slowly. It is very important that you read, understand, and use all the suggestions written here. If you need to discuss more, or you would like an additional article on this, please - write to me. This is not theory, friends. I have been in this place, but thankfully only once in my life.
Blind terror has no logic and no reason.
It paralyzes you. It makes your knees weak, your hands tremble, your stomach tie in knots, your mouth dry. You cannot think. You cannot function. You may become physically ill.