Life is raw. It is all just smoke anyway. As long as you are openly aware of your existence in Christ, and of the Life that is shared by all, then you are going to be understanding Christ as He is. All you can do is listen for it, and learn, and grow, and begin to express it in your own life experience. Allow yourself to emerge.
All people are different.
Each person reveals a different part of the body of Christ. No one can tell you who you are. Indeed, it is your job to tell them. Be what He created you to be. Show Him your love by being what He made you for.