No one knew that I had been allergic to caffeine, not even me. Caffeine desensitizes some individuals. Through the years I had increased pins and needles in my legs from a ruptured lumbar disk. Also I had been in an auto accident a few years ago, fracturing my cervical spine. Mine is attributed to both the caffeine and nicotine.
Caffeine also has the ability to depersonalize.
As a Bostonian, I had prided myself on being reserved, polished, cultured and educated. Once I had been so passive like her, but I became rash, irrational and judgemental. My tongue wagged, and I berated others. But I realize now that it was artificial energy, and as I look around, and think back, the things that I accomplished were not accomplished to the best of my ability at all. I have spent the past month replenishing my adrenaline system that went haywire.