Its because you don't have sufficient faith that you rush around moment by moment looking for something. You throw away your head and hunt for your head, and you cant seem to stop yourself. Because it is a sort of addiction that fills the void we have created with our small minds. We have created this game that we are deluded and then we look for enlightenment. But if we omit the first step, we can cut out the middleman entirely and we can go directly to the source.
Compassion is a natural part of the Way and is very mysterious and deeply important.
I think we know very little about love really which is why we talk about it all the time. Its healing powers are very great. A moment of awakening in sesshin, even if it doesn't stick, will still open the heart a little and some of that will stay. And yet it is easy to fight with each other in a zendo. It is easy to be right and have other people wrong.