I run from the reason but the compulsion is still there. Fear walks with me every step of every day. Fear is paralyzing and frightening. Anger is powerful. Fear is small and shaking and cringing in a corner.
Anger is big and loud and gets moving.
I never knew I felt fear. I d pushed it so far away, now its back. Enthusiasm Regained During my first eight years in OA, I was often asked how I kept my enthusiasm for working my program. To be honest I never really knew how to answer because the excitement of recovery never diminished for me. I was always grateful that I no longer weighed three hundred pounds and was not obsessed with food.