If you are being hurt by your partner, you have nothing to be ashamed of or to feel guilty about. It is not your fault. Help is available. There are agencies that are dedicated to helping people in your situation. They will be respectful of your circumstances, your choices and your desires, and help you in whatever way they are able.
Abuse typically continues and worsens as time goes on.
If you are being physically hurt by your partner, your life may be in jeopardy. However, there are steps that you can take to protect yourself. If you are being abuse, it is important that you talk to someone about your situation, and get the help you need. Counselors at domestic violence and crisis agencies are trained to help you create a safety plan to minimize your risk and the risk to your children. This information is not a tool for self-diagnosis or a substitute for professional care.