The professionals at the hospital told me it was okay to feel that way. They even said that if they had the problems I did that they would feel that way, too. Then they helped look at one thing at a time so I could sort each thing out. The way I was at the time, I had been looking at all of it all the time and it was truly overwhelming. These differences have to do with how they process a chemical in the brain called serotonin.
Antidepressants regulate the way the brain deals with serotonin.
Taking this medication helped right away. Then I began to make the changes I was able to make and try to let things go that I couldn't control. One of the first noticeable changes for me was that I could see my family and friends in a different life. I had felt so desperate and I couldn't understand why no one would help me. I started to see that they were helping the best they could.