I liked this. Some people take pain quietly and others lash out. The only part I could really consider melodramatic, in that light, is the last paragraph. This was cool. I was never much into circuses as a kid.
Clowns are the creepiest things alive.
I think it's commercialism that holds more to be blamed. I don't even notice when I do it. Tis something to think about, anyway. I'll try to keep short. Anyway, to the story.