It is not possible to desire to feel authentically empowered. It is possible to intend to create authentic power by finding and healing the parts of yourself that generate the many painful emotions in your life. As we become multi-sensory, aware of ourselves as souls, and able to understand power as the alignment of the personality with the soul, we are drawn to this journey. I am glad to be on this journey with you. Competition is deeply ingrained in me.
Competition is an expression of fear.
Fear that you will not be able to take care of yourself. Fear that you are not lovable. Fear that your life is meaningless. The underlying issue is not one of competitiveness, but of fear. Until you address the parts of yourself that are frightened, you will experience the insecurity that expresses itself in your need to compete with others.