His brooding deeply satisfies me. Can't wait to get back to the book. Before resuming reading, I managed a quick housecleaning, returned about 30 calls that had piled up over the past few days and had the courage to open a stack of mail over a foot high. Paid bills happily. Felt centered, capable, yet somehow calm.
Book is simply too much now.
Protagonist's general good will and judgment seem for naught, as he digs himself deeper into a hole that I wish I could pull him out of. April 11 Had no desire at all to read book. Instead, took a long hike in the hills, planted some flowers, washed truck and kicked serious butt in tennis class. Ate heartily, drank in moderation and slept like a used bird dog. April 12 Got up early to finish book.