Give because it makes you happy to do so, not because you are trying to make someone else happy. Prepare yourself to accept the recipient's attitude concerning the gift. You do not have to live up to anything you may have given in the past. Enjoy each season for itself. Volunteer with a nonprofit organization as a gift to someone.
Alcohol increases the feelings of depression.
Instead of going to parties, go to a quiet place such as a small town and spend the night, explore the area, find out how others celebrate the holidays in a less commercial way. Make new friends or contact an old friend you haven't heard from in a while. Whatever your plans, include time for yourself to recharge your batteries. Don't take all the responsibility for activity planning. Share it with someone who has your interests at heart.