Now I'm not. You see that this whole incarnation has always been an invitation to true meditation. In that, as you said, it is realized that the mind and all of its projections essentially do not exist. They are made up, imagined, experienced, but in reality, do not exist. My meditation is so conditioned now.
Conditioning can be very useful.
We are conditioned to eat properly, to be polite, to not attack someone when we're angry. This is all very useful conditioning. Meditation practice, whatever it may be, can be very useful conditioning for the mind. It is only when it becomes a prop, and reinforces a belief in the meditator, a belief in the conditioned one, the conditioned body as who you are, that there is a problem. Always, this prop can be pulled out from under the meditator by simply turning the attention toward discovering who is really here.