I am feeling it as I write this paper. I know children need to self-nurture and explore, but there was a sense of unease in my body watching these children. In this observation the student acknowledges the thoughts, feelings and physical sensations related to her own aloneness and how she experiences children who are seemingly doing nothing. If she were a teacher encountering that child, chances are a similar response would happen, whether she noticed it or not. No matter how skilled she might become as a teacher, this feeling from her childhood may affect her interaction, possibly causing some anxiety both to her and the child.
Children can be very sensitive to anything hidden.
After a huge gulp, one child coughs. The teacher says to him, 'Oh, that's not a real cough. I feel exhausted and sad. Finally, I allow myself to just feel what I am feeling. We are encouraged to not close off the raw sensation of emotional painfulness.