It can take over your life and become the centerpiece pushing everything else to the side or to the back. The pain can be overpowering, all consuming and incapacitating. It is agonizing. It is transient. Everyone's grief is unique and everyone's grief is the same.
Death is a friend to no one.
So you learn you are not crazy - that the thoughts of the death that consumes you from the moment you wake from sleep that finally comes after endless waking hours, till night falls and the struggle for sleep comes again. It's a place where you CAN recover from the overwhelming pain of grief. It's a place of belonging. But that life is too precious to let this make our lives become a tragedy. We have to face what has happened and find a way to bless our future by remembering the blessings we had because of what we shared with those we lost.