During the first weeks in the NICU, we were warned about severe brain bleeds that could lead to brain damage. We were told about possible eye damage caused by continuous high pressures of oxygen. Our son's hernias could rupture at any time, demanding emergency surgery. The numerous infections he caught were life threatening. Although I was elated to even have a baby to take home, I couldn't help be apprehensive about caring for him.
All parents worry about their children, about illnesses and accidents.
But parents of children who have already endured life-threatening obstacles are particularly fearful. I'm not trying to create problems. I just want to give my child the best possible future. I pray that my son will overcome his delays and that new problems aren't identified. I try not to compare him to term babies the same age, or even to other preemies.