Then go back to the balcony. All sorts of little errors . Partners help you debrief on a regular basis. You need allies and you need confidants . But you must understand the differences between allies and confidants.
Allies usually have other loyalties.
They may sabotage or betray us. We must honor their competing loyalties. They care about helping you restore your sense of purpose. You must have partners. Most of us try to lead without partners and without a sanctuary.