I slipped here and there during that time, but it only made me realize how easily a life of turmoil and anguish can suck me back in. That life made me want to hide my spirit where no one could find it.
Alcoholism is like a vacuum.
Instead of sucking in all the dirt around me, it sucks in my spirit. I try not to dwell on bad memories of the past. I guess it scares me to know how life was then and how the disease of alcoholism controlled my life to a point where I just could not cope anymore. I needed something positive in my life and Al-Anon definitely was the answer. I have grown spiritually, even though I am still with the alcoholic I love dearly.