Why the disappointment is enough to make a grown man cry. It is my experience that when frustration about getting a career moving reaches a certain level, many musicians turn subtly to fantasizing about becoming a star. It is a lot safer you know. In any kind of fantasy world we create for ourselves, the only thing that happens is what we want to have happen. Reality has nothing to do with fantasies.
Bitterness sets in too.
Grandiose' is a word they bandy about to describe opinions one has about oneself that are inflated over the true image of what one actually is. They begin to feel unappreciated, and besides it was too much work sending out all those tapes anyway, and the clubs don't have a clue what they are missing by not booking them. Forget the fantasies. Don't listen to voices of frustration that make excuses for good old fashioned, in the trenches, hard-ass work. I have seen it time and again.