I Will be happy. I can be a success. Here is what one writer had to say about defeat. Do not then be afraid of defeat. You are never so near to victory as when defeated in a good cause.
Defeat starts in a persons subconscious mind.
When you have decided you can be successful, start setting goals. What do you want and how will you get it. What will you do to achieve these goals. Be careful of what goals you set. If you want it badly enough and make plans, you will receive it.