Be kind and selfless. In other words, you need to connect with what is inside and to grow up emotionally. If leaving her is the best thing for her, then I just need to accept that fact. She is the most important person in the world to me. I am going to an anger therapist and a hypnotherapist to try and help me.
Actions speak louder than words.
Please help me or give me suggestions on how I can put her first and rid myself of my own selflessness by wanting my own pain to go away. Don't act out on your pain. Separate your ego from your higher self. Feel your pain, hear it's message and accept it. Then let it go and get on with life's next demand.