It's too hard to talk about this. In total honesty, hearing your voice is a problem. I lay in bed staring at the ceiling all night. I recognize you and I are soul mates. Fourteen years ago we might have pulled it off, not now.
Children change everything.
I love you. And I love my wife. Over the weekend I envisioned what I would have to say to my kids if this ever came out. The phone rang twice since I started typing. I assume it's you.