I hope that you're gonna take julius advice and a little bit of mine too. Julius I love you. I HAVE to make my life what I want it to be, instead of waiting for him to come and entertain me. You put this and that before me. Even if he says he does not, he really does.
Actions speak a thousand words.
That's what I do. Good thing it works every now and again. I am a great believer in individual power and potential. I'm glad that you've opened my eyes a little. I'd like to think that something good has to come from royally screwing up a few times.