It is definelty okay to be sad adn want to cry. Hold your kids. Remember to pray Missy, take the focus of your H and focus on God. Only God can heal your hurts. Really your H cannot.
All humans fall short of assuring emotions and happiness.
Only God can help right now. Let him heal you and encourage you to move on in your life today. My h ended up stopping by the house this morning to drop off candy for the kids. He was in and out in 1 minute. He barely looked at me and all he said was have a nice day.