It isn't as bad now as it was right after I had my first chemo, but I get chemo every three weeks. So just as I'm regaining my personality, I'm knocked down again by the staggering amount of very powerful chemical goo they push into my body. There is so much of it that the veins plump up in my arms. After a few hours, I feel great, almost like a high, but the next day I am overwhelmed by an omni-present nausea and lack of energy. You may all send me good vibes and listen to Bedrock's 'Beautiful Strange' at that time, in my honor.
Chemotherapy is designed to destroy cancer cells, which it does, but it also destroys healthy cells.
Chemotherapy is thought to work because the healthy cells usually recover faster than the cancer cells. Burkitt's cells double in size every sixteen hours. Chemo attacks me at a cellular level. Just as one cannot resist the effects of acid once taken, I cannot resist chemo as its pull is all-powerful. It cannot be fought.