I have a good job, a family, but there are times when I go on binges and can't seem to stop. I just sometimes feel so much pain inside, that alcohol seems the only way to stop the terrible feelings inside me. Most alcoholics drink for the same reason, pain can be unbearable, but they aren't always aware of it. I commend you for knowing what drives you to drink. Having a good job and a family are always justification for a functioning alcoholic who has a belief that to be an alcoholic you have to lose everything.
Alcoholism is a disease.
If you have this disease the only remedy is total abstinence from alcohol. The only way you can get to the bottom of the cause for the pain and work through it is to stop medicating it. With the awareness you appear to have, I believe you may know the root of the pain you feel. From that you can chose a suitable recovery plan. A visit to a counselor specializing in alcoholism or a treatment center that can complete a Chemical Dependency evaluation to determine what kind of treatment options are available to you.