Focus of attention creates your experience. If not, you have the power to shift your focus of attention to what you DO want to be experiencing. You also have some very strong habits of the mind which, at times, may make shifting your focus of attention and staying shifted seem difficult. In order to get different results, you must do things differently. In order to do them differently, you must think about them differently.
Awareness is the first step toward change.
Change, in order to be permanent, happens over time. Such beauty, so early. Willingness is an attitude, not an action. You simply state to yourself that you are willing. You don't have to know how to think differently - I will show you.