He killed himself what he did to himself. And I'm still mad as hell at him for it. But I'm glad it happened quick and sudden. The chances for guilt are less. Guilt kills, as far as I can tell.
Anger does other things.
I still don't know what all anger does. So I listen. But it all feels like bullshit. I want to weep for his situation. I want to jump for joy that I'm not in it.