The one important thing I have learned over the years is the difference between taking one's work seriously and taking one's self seriously. The first is imperative and the second is disastrous. Sometimes this is the normal result of things not turning out as you had hoped, and the passage of time and some psychological bootstrapping can get you back to normal. You cannot heal yourself if you are clinically depressed. Call campus counseling and make an appointment, stressing the need to see someone soon.
Clinical depression is a serious, dangerous condition that needs attention right away.
I can't resist pointing out that CD's make good gifts. It's one of my favorites. Nanette is a friend, and a wonderful musician. I hope to be doing several shows in AR this next year. I set up on that ledge, which juts out into the big valley to the west of Mather Lodge.