I'm trying to stay positive, but I want be be realistic as possible. Thanks in advance, Staying Healthy, ps. I feel very alone in this. Confidentiality is a must. Well, thanks for writing in with these questions.
Confidentiality is always the rule in such forums.
As for your viral load and CD4 count. Even with this higher viral load, you certainly have months to even years before your CD4 count gets in the range where there are any concerns about your health. So that might increase the urgency to consider treatment options. Certainly we have enough choices so that you shouldn't have a problem continuing to do what you want to do in terms of exercise, as well as be on the go. This has led to much enthusiasm for the view that HIV is controllable and need not have an impact on the years you'll live and thrive.