I am simply listening and connecting more with my body, and it seems to provide a pretty good guide as to what is helpful. I began meditation which has had the affect of unclogging the emotional drain and is bringing up an assortment of fears, old hurts and dis - stress. I also recognised that my life had become joyless and dutiful. It desperately needed to be infused with playfulness. Giving myself permission to slow down, smell the roses, pursue interests that were pleasurable without the need to harness them to some all important goal meant putting aside the voices of the critical parent within me.
Balance IS possible. . . . .
Well. . . ALOT of practice. I imagined that it must be so small, soft and vulnerable. I have been journaling and recording my dreams in order to gently probe and coax it out. This will take some time. . . .