You recognize something there that is undeniable, yet clearly cannot be put into words. You're trying to think your way through this, and as you've discovered, it doesn't work. The mind, which is made up of memory and thoughts about memory, motivated by desire for security and stability, cannot know that which is beyond itself. Let nature instruct you here. Presence is .
Awareness is .
You simply are . Within you, within awareness, arise bodies and minds with all of their needs, wants, and circumstances. We may feed, shelter, and clothe them, we may open the door to sharing sexual, emotional, and other kinds of pleasures. Sometimes there is food, money, the attention and affection of a lover. Sometimes hunger arises, but there is no food.