If you're not a candidate for medicine or if you fear medication, there are many ways to begin the process of claiming relief from your well of sadness. I was personally horrified to begin my medication. Little did I know that I was one of those people. Stop fighting the urge to declassify yourself from being a textbook case. Stereotypes exist because some things are universal.
Depression is universal and it attacks people of all ages and gender.
You are not alone and you are not crazy. But you do need to take control and be accountable for your own feelings. If you are chemically imbalanced, then take responsibility and start your medication. If you are depressed and hopeless, then take responsibility and call a professional. There is hope as long as you are willing to take the first step.