They were hideous to me. I'm furious at him for leaving me', I sobbed. It is important to allow yourself to feel honest painful emotions. Acceptance and expression of you feelings are two of the keys to healing. Death so many times seems senseless.
Bereaved people searching for a reason sometimes turn on themselves.
At times you may feel guilty just because you are alive. Admitting these feelings seems to lessen the intensity of the guilt. Loneliness is often the worst problem for people whose life partners have died. The loss of being special to this partner can bring about a feeling of emptiness. It is extremely hard to break the habit of having someone to talk to about the day's happenings, the family gossip, what you've read, or anything that may come to mind.