If you succeed in doing this, tell me how. Seek the approval and confirmation of God. Keep your old love letters. Throw away your old bank statements. The two don't mix.
Bank statements are of man.
Love God not money. If God gives you money, thank Him and use it for His kingdom. True love is of God. Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives.