I'd managed to get one hug out of her in the year, and not even a kiss - it was just too early. No, it was not too early. If you allowed your intuition to clue you in, you would have cut out long ago, realizing that she just didn't feel the same way about you, or that something else was in her way. I was getting a bit irritated at not having things go my way or even some improvement - a little anger here. Of course there was anger.
Anger is the most natural feeling in the world under the circumstances.
That's why if your gut were working properly, you would have cut your losses and gotten out. Now she is talking about an ongoing perpetual platonic relationship with me. Assures me that is the best. Perhaps it is, for her. She is asleep on the couch, so I start fondling her.