At first it was very hard to return to N.A. because I was unable to deal with my feelings. I felt so alone not being in a relationship. I kept gong to meetings, working with my sponsor, being of service regardless of my feelings of loneliness. What I have learned by relapsing is that I cannot pick and choose the suggestions of this program. I must do all of them.
All feelings pass, good, bad and indifferent.
How When I first came into the rooms of N.A., I was in a residential treatment facility. At that time, I couldn t grasp what these people were saying. The more I kept coming, the more I learned that my journey really had just begun. My using wasn t a journey at all, it was a stagnant standstill. My life had stopped.