Remembering, meditating, and musing are three aspects of the internal life. These things stop the downward spiral. There is not a father alive who can resist that. It is not by human strength or human wisdom you stand. My soul thirsteth after thee, like a land that is so dried out it has big cracks in it.
Big cracks appear.
It is begging for water. This is the process. You have eliminated the circumstances that are destroying you. I understand the works of your hands. I understand if I hunger and thirst after righteousness, I shall be filled.