You're alone, no one knows or cares that you are trapped in this pit of despair. There is no way out. You dig deeper into the terror of alcoholism seeking relief and escape only to discover even more horrors than before. Your world is a vicious cycle of pain, seeking relief only to discover more pain. The pain is never ending and progressively increasing.
Death becomes desirable.
The real terror is that you don't realize you are trapped here in this pit of insanity. That is the way it was for me, and is today for millions of Americans. I am one of the fortunate few who discovered that there is indeed a way out of the terror of alcoholism. It is a long difficult struggle with many obstacles to overcome. Fortunately, there are treatment centers, twelve step programs and professionals providing assistance and encouragement.