I don't recallbeing involved in the conversation, but MM placed his hands on myshoulders and began to give me a neck and shoulder massage. I tensed at first, but all the hours of studying hadtaken a toll on my neck, and nerves, so I loosened quickly. I'd seenhim do that to some of our male friends, so I didn't read into it. However, I started to think that perhaps I was being flirted with, and Ilooked at MM in a different light. I suppose it was, at first, the prospect of a new relationship,that intrigued me.
All new relationships are good and exciting.
Itwasn't long before I found myself thinking of what it would be like tobe intimate with him. As much as I fantasized about the idea, I neversaid a word. It wastabu, regardless. When my husband did not want to go with me to spend Christmas withmy family in Las Vegas that year, it was the final straw. We had somevery serious problems during the marriage.