Silence is our enemy and the abuser's friend. If I was a better girl, Daddy would love me and not do this to me. Abuse by another is never your fault. Abuse can be the fire that tempers the steel and makes you strong. Sometimes it is very hard for survivors to tell the difference between those who will hurt them and those who will not.
Abusers count on that.
People who have been abused, put up walls around themselves to keep emotion in and hurt out. You can learn to put windows and doors in your wall and even a remote control that puts it up and down at will. But first, learn who you can safely trust and who you can't. You can't trust your abuser not to hurt you. He plays that role in your life and isn't likely to change, at least not easily or quickly.