I was heavily sedated, and in pain from my surgery just days before. I wanted to die. It s now been almost 11 months since that dreadful day. So much has happened, so much has changed. The birth and death of you child will do that to you.
Death brings about change, at times painful change.
We as a family have been ripped apart too many times to count. An infant brings unconditional love and the future. With the change also comes growth. Growth of yourself and all that we once thought was so important. The death of this beautiful baby boy has and will be the hardest thing that I and my family will ever go through.