I do not understand the desire to experience guilt for the inevitable, but it is very real indeed. I just hope that everything is even eventually. A lost soul was forced to seek consolationfrom uncaring and irrelevant sources. No beef against the guards as a whole, but I know the individuals. They are as guilty as they are protective.
Consolation remains perpetually in the future after despair.
He was admitted to the hospital and received his first dose of chemotherapy. But during the treatment, this usually gentle man became extremely angry and upset. He pulled the IV out of his arm and refused to cooperate. He shouted at the nurses and became argumentative with everyone who came near him. The doctors and nurses were baffled.