I AM a bitch. And if people are so uncomfortable around an angry, bitchy woman than they should look deep inside of themselves to see why- instead of regarding only the woman who seems so threatening. To those who are affronted by my anger, I say look at you- stop looking at me for a reflection of you. Stop being afraid of the anger in me if the anger inside you displeases you so much. In the same way will women's anger in childbirth burn away the wounding, unproven, hateful and illogical norms of modern obstetrics.
Anger is a potent fuel.
They were gasping and uncomfortable at the memory of her, how she was kicking and yelling at anyone who came near her. All the kicking and yelling kept her with an intact perineum. The doulas fell silent. Much safer than all those nice women who kept quiet, and did as they were told. I will try to remember all that I am angry about, I will make a point out of feeling anger instead of complacency.