He knows it. His time is numbered. He's approaching the edge and will soon tumble over. God and judgement await. He knows that, too.
Desperate moments call for desperate actions.
That the cross for Jesus was the entrance way to power in a kingdom beyond the bricks and mortar of the world we see. Jesus - when you come there, please don't abandon me to eternal darkness, to being a wandering soul with no place to go, or a soul in eternal torment. It reminded me of the Old Testament story of Joseph in jail with two others. Put in a good word for me. Help get me out of this prison, too.