This is not Buddhist talk. It is not Freud or Jung. It is not double-talk. It is not talk at all. That syllable, that apparently senseless vowel is the key.
Dead pages produce nothing.
Then glance about and look at the world. See the world change, or at least your view of it. It is glorious, glorious, bathed in light. The room is cleaner than you remembered. This is not your normal eye or frame of mind.