Still, we have not really talked about the fact that he got it from me. I find myself feeling so much regret sometimes, but it is difficult to even think about the subject so that I can deal with this. I have had no feelings about this but the occasional regret, but not for long. He seems to have accepted it now and is beginning a drug regimen before me. I feel afraid to share my feelings with him without sounding trite.
Any help is appreciated.
I really feel for you. Clearly it is completely appropriate for you to have a lot of strong feelings about having infected your partner. From your letter it does seem that your way of handling a stressful situation is to get busy and take care of the details that need to be handled. This is very commendable, but it still leaves the feelings waiting to be integrated into the rest of your life. If you are not, I think that this is a perfect opportunity for you to consider doing so.