It's not your house anyway, it's King Herring's. You're a puppet with strings attached to your every vital part. Cut the strings, don't pull the plug, and walk out the back door. You'll intuitively know how to handle what used to baffle you. Every moment will be a raised curtain on a fresh vista.
Deep spirituality is what's called for.
If you meet the Buddha on the path, slay him and kick his body off into the ditch. If you've caught even a glimpse of what I'm saying, censorship has received a mighty blow. Let your thoughts turn into stardust to be blown by the wind. You know what you have to do. Just simply walk away, and the jig is up.