I wish that I was able to get really obsessed by something. Or at least buy into some lifestyle, group or organization without studying it from every angle. I'm a peripheral flake. I'll purchase self-help books and bookmark a few passages, then leave them to collect dust on my bookshelf.
Candles go unlit, aromatherapy oils stay in their bottles.
I have flyers for massage therapy, Contra dancing, the Radical Faeries. But I can't grab onto any of it. Mostly because it's all a bunch of ridiculous nonsense designed to do no more than make money for a few slick hucksters. But there are times when I want to buy into it lock, stock and barrel. I drive a Honda.