Your grief will be intense at first, then you will still have recurrences of sadness, but they start to spread out. The inability to forgive is often driven by pessimism that life will never progress beyond the current grief. Knowing that the pain will decrease and feeling like it will are two seperate matters. But be sure your emotions don't completely overwhelm the facts. Your expectation of healing will help generate realistic hope.
Balance is required in the grieving process.
On one hand, you go to do it. On the other, remember your loss does not represent the sum total of your life experiences. Faith, Hope, Love Remain, but the greatest of these is Love. FHL Thanks for posting that. However, I haven't suppressed my anger and kept it all in.