He put in his letter that it was a very selfish act. I'm sure people get into a thing where they think people will be better off without them. Which I'm sure Keith felt at the time, and that was a very sincere thought he had. We're not better off without him, we wish he was here. They're are remarkable.
Anniversaries are the worst.
July 4th was the day it happened. There are lots of things we would have done together as a family. It's there all the time, it doesn't leave me. I really have to learn to live with it - all you learn to do is cope better with it over a period of time, you disguise it more, and get on with new things. I find I'm OK as long as I'm busy.