Vaccines History Past, Present and Health. Vaccine injury 1-23-2012 Tetanus vaccine (Td) Note  I only just found out few months ago about VAERS.  This is taken me a lot longer to write or put everything together because of when ever my condition allows me to be able to function.  I don't know if my former doctor file it for me but I was not aware about VAERS until recently. Reason-   I don't know if my former doctor filed vaccine adverse reaction on my behalf after my last visit with her on 4-1-2013.  (I personally had no knowledge about VAERS until recently)  She was surprised when I explained my symptoms to her.  For the past 35 years she had not had any patient with my symptoms after vaccine injection.  She was going to do some medical research on it.  I was excited but disappointed, waited I heard nothing. I was in so much pain, fear, stress and frustration.  I was upset with my former doctor for my illness as a result of a physical health check after receiving tetanus vaccination.  Diet before and after (household):-  Very healthy, no frying, a lot of fresh fruits & vegetables and juicing.  Eat less meat like chicken and pork usually cook in vegetables soup or casserole with rice or potatoes.  Boiled shredded chicken, mixed bean and green vegetables salad. (No fast food, no soda) Notes- apart from sensitivity to an allergies I was very healthy and very physically active person.   I was very active and full of energy also with very clear creative thinking vision and mind in my head.  I was very friendly and out going.  Not like it is now at some point after the tetanus vaccine injection my mind/head became (disoriented) foggy/blurry fuzzy.   Now I think and visualized through cloudy/blurry mind and vision in the back of my head.  It is very frustrating and embarrassing at a checkout in grocery stores.  Sometimes I hold the line up I get too disoriented trying to make payment when my head/brain freeze or my visual thinking get into very dull, blurry and overwhelm with heat/burning sensation in my head full of pressure like headache also feeling very lightheaded, dizzy and nauseas in my head and feeling faint.  (Sometime cashiers get impatience and 1 lady cashier said me you look like you are dying' are you sick?)  I live with these symptoms for the past near 3 year now.   Hobbies before vaccine injury:-   Enjoyed hairdressing, Cooking, walking, gardening, grocery shopping, fishing, building things, helping neighbors and friends, chaperoning on school trip and girl scout. Etc. (I have not been able to do all these any more and I am house bound, I don't feel like seeing any body any more because I don't have the energy for myself.) Cooking and grocery shopping I am struggling with these maybe once in every few weeks.  My families help me with everything.  E.g. I can't wash dishes my wrist and my arms are too weak (weak pain) even to hold a plate just for few second.  The weakness pain is even worse in my left arm (injection side), putting something like cell phone in my palm holding it facing-up I don't have the strength after few minute or second my left hand give up.  Vaccines History, Past, Present and Health. Vaccine injury 1-23-2012 (Td) Habit:-  I don't smoke. I don't use illegal drug.  I don't drink but on some occasion after vaccine injury I had to drink glass of wine before bedtime so that I can get some sleep.  I was not able to sleep because of intense fire like burning pain in my left upper arm/shoulder at and around the injection area.  I found a new primary doctor in March 14th 2014.  She prescribed me medications Nortriptyline HCL 25mg for pain and sleep, and Escitalopram 10mg, now 20mg for mood and pain.  These medications help my blood pressure went back down.  Note  In the past I had complications with some vaccine.  For example, some of them were painful than the other and took longer for the injection pain eventually go away.  But most of the vaccination/injection spot did not leave injection scars.  I thought it was the needles that cause the pain and for the children to get sick.  My childhood experienced I was told that it was normal to get sick after vaccine injection.  I thought it was normal to get a fever/sick after vaccination.  Now I realized that was not the case.  It is a reaction from the vaccine.  May 14th 2013 I had big argument with my former doctor over these misunderstanding issues.  I was upset and scared.  I was blaming her for the unknown pain and symptoms after I had a tetanus shot a year ago.  She never came across these symptoms before.  She was going to do some medical research and let me know' that was a month ago (4-01-2013).  Since I have not heard anything from her to explain the cause.  Frustrated with the shoulder's joints burning arthritis pain and not able to sleep.  I kept on saying to her it got to be the needle caused the symptoms.  She kept on saying to me.  What you think' that not what it is.  I did "not" realized vaccine caused injury and who is responsible for the medical billings?  I felt that I suffered enough dealing with the pain and to feel punish to pay for medical bills and my family left hungry?  I don't think she can give me an answer at that point.  Also I did not go back after that.  This appt. set-up for high blood pressure I did not have before the Td vaccine.  I just found out I was having high blood pressure because of stress and anxiety suffering from pain, sleepless nights and unexpected pain & symptoms started after receiving Td vaccine.  I was very angry and disappointed with my former doctor at that time.  I felt at that time they should be responsible to see me without charging me until my health get back to normal again.  I did not know who to turn to and responsible for the cause of my injury.  I was traumatized the thought that I just went for a physical check up and ended up getting an illness.  I had not given any answers to the caused of my illness.  I did not have before.  I had no insurance and 0 (zero) money to pay specialist doctor to diagnose my illness after receiving tetanus shot.  March 10th 2014 Orthopeadic doctor managed to explained to me briefly.  How the body autoimmune is mistakenly attacking good cell and protect the injury.  That was interesting to know.             Vaccine allergies: I only just learned about vaccine allergies recently 2014.  At the age of between 2-5 yrs old children line-up I got vaccinated.  Types of vaccination  I don't know?  I remember my mom was crying watching over me.  I was very sick my eyes rolled up & stared lifeless.  My mother thought I was gone.  I was very sick after vaccinated for 1-2 weeks.  (My mother told me she nearly lost me).  Vaccines History, Past, Present and Health. Vaccine injury 1-23-2012 (Td) Vaccinations Reaction & Scars (1st) Chicken/small pox and also given another vaccine (type of vaccine' I do not know?) both on my left arm.  I had high fever temperature on the 2nd or 3rd day after vaccinated.  I did not have vaccine scar from the other vaccine.  Only small pox (scratch-scar)  it was infected the next day.  We were told by the vaccine administer getting sick after vaccine was normal that mean it work.  I got sick but recovered quicker then the other two vaccinations. I don't remember which one was given first' chicken pox or the vaccine below?  I don't think I started school yet at that time, it must been end of 1960's or early 1970's.  At this moment triggered back childhood memories.  Swimming in fresh mountain river the day after small pox vaccination the vaccine (round quarter size) scratch site was infected/pus, I was sick the next day I don't remember how long.  But the other 2 vaccines on my right arm was infected/pus big red swollen skin around injection site.  I was very sick for long time.  Note- childhood environment and hygiene was very clean.  2nd Vaccination (type of vaccine' I don't know?) I was age between 2-5yrs old (I have the injection scar on my right arm) Vaccine injected site was infected red and swollen.  3rd Vaccination (type of vaccine' I do not know?) I have vaccine's scar also in my right arm from 1975 or 1976.  Vaccine injected area was red, swollen and infected.  (My condition now triggered flash back!)  I was very sick for 6  9 months and missed nearly entire school year. I was a skeleton only my skin was holding onto my bones.  I was very sick fragile and weak. Td Vaccination on 1-23-2012. The injection area on my left-upper arm was red for 3 months without vaccine injection scar.  Memories flash back. 1. October 2014 my body weakness & muscles pain symptoms suddenly triggered back my childhood memories.  Suddenly I remembered my mother told me.  She thought I was gone.   I got very sick after I was vaccinated. 2. December 15 2014 I just realized I do have (2) childhood vaccine injuries scars on my right arm. Vaccines History, Past, Present and Health. Vaccine injury 1-23-2012 (Td) Known allergies and reaction before 1-23-2014  Penicillins, Amoxcillins, (very deep constant sharp stabbing pain through abdominal and back making it hard to breath, rashes lasted a month after stopping.  Setraline, I was prescribed very mild dose of anti-depression for postpartum depression 1999.  I may had a seizure in my sleep before waking up my head was full of electrical pulse sprouting in my brain with horrible headache feel like my head was exploding or crushed between bricks.  When I tried to get out of bed and walking around the house, the whole wall and flooring coming towards me and was sinking in front of me.  With crushing headache and my whole body was shaking uncontrollably scared some people who saw me in that state.  My doctor told me to stop taking it. Doctors told me that I am one of those people who cannot take medications.  Bleach and when people smoking around me (sore throat, eyes feel burning) my lung get irritated may be inflame I get into choking cough feeling like drowning (seeing stars) I feel like gasping for breath and I will still suffering for the next week or so after exposure.  Cat (rashes/hives) but not dog.  There are some medications and metal earrings (irritable ear lobs and get inflamed and infected) but not gold.  Seasonal spring.  Little cut or scratch I noticed my skin take longer to heal now.  Suspected allergy?  Shellfish (reaction skin irritation or rashes and sore throat.)  Avoid eating. Allergies diagnosed after 1-23-2012  Tetanus toxoids.  Suspected allergy?  Ferrous Sulfate 6-22-2014 (reaction burning stomach/intestine lasted 2 months after stopped taking this medication by Dr's order because of the stomach irritation.)  Many times I was on the verge of passing out. I had many vaccinations administered to me in my adult years traveling around part of the world in mid 1980's and 1990's.   Some I had painful shot and chills flu like symptoms and some did not.   I had "NO" idea they were vaccine's reaction (allergy) until March 2014.   I was told that was normal reactions that' some people do and some don't !   I did not have any vaccine scar from any of the vaccinations given to me in my adult years.  Vaccine History, Past, Present and Health. Vaccine injury 1-23-2012 (Td) I expected to have shoulder injection pain for 1-2 weeks and chills fever flu like symptoms after vaccine shot "BUT" this tetanus vaccine shot administered to me on 1-23-2012 is different then any other vaccines shot I had as an adult.   After 3 months still suffering with shoulder raw burning pain at the vaccine site that when I made a phone call to talk to the nurse who administered the Td shot telling her I was in so much pain in my shoulder at the vaccine site.   At 4 ½ months I begin to wonder if something is going on?   The pain would not go away instead it was spreading and migrating.   June 21st  2012 I was so stress in so much pain I drove to my former doctor's office but the receptionists would not let me see my doctor.   Again I went 2 more times summer 2012 still I can't see my doctor because I don't have any money and insurance.   My doctor did not know anything about it until a year later.   My doctor (former) was not happy' saying that receptionists suppose to allow room for emergency.   I think the receptionist were fired I have not seen them anymore after that. I expected to have a shoulder injection pain and fever/flu like symptoms after vaccine shot.  I was told in the past by medical administrator was considered normal reaction.  This (Td vaccine 1-23-2012) vaccine shot was very painful started when the vaccine was push in my upper-arm muscle followed by the above symptoms.  I thought the shoulder pain eventually go away.  BUT!   I did not expect to have other following symptoms.  Different types of pain and symptoms keep on appearing on and on!  I was devastated in fear of unheard and unknown to me pain and symptoms.  I did not know what they were and how to described them?  Doctor visits for the past 10 years before 1-23-2014 Tetanus shot. year   2009               reason       constipation year  12-22-2010     reason       rashes - allergy reaction year  11-28-2011     reason       cough  allergy Note  Sometimes after menstruation "blood work" shows Anemia  it come and goes.  I eat a lot of green.  It never affects my energy or activities. Medication before and during 1-23-2012 Tetanus shot. None. Vaccine History, Past, Present and Health. Vaccine injury 1-23-2012 (Td) Adverse event from 1-23-2012 1. 1-23-2012 received Td vaccination between 3.30-4.00 pm.  The most painful vaccine I ever experienced as an adult.  I felt dizzy and nauseas.  I hold my left elbow with my right hand.  My left upper arm/shoulder was very painful I could not move my arm.  After the Td shot I felt dizzy, blurry, fuzzy, light-headed and nauseas I went a cross to coffee hound for few hours to make sure I didn't pass out. The beginning of my Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. 2. 1-29,30-2012  tiredness, (1 of the day I threw-up twice without stomach upset) mild weak, chill, achy flu like symptoms for 2 days.  The above symptoms gradually build up. July 2012 again flu likes symptoms.  My body becomes more weak and fatigue. March 27th 2013 sudden weakness and fatigue exertion out of breathed.  From mild-moderate CFS.  I was able to stay awake during the day.  Few naps. January 1st 2014 I had flu for the first time since 1997.  This flu lasted 1 week. Chronic Fatigue Syndrome is getting worse combine with all other pains. May 5th 2014 I past out having severe migraine headache because of CFS my body was overwhelm with other pain and symptoms also light headed, dizzy, nauseas, clmmy and weak. May 8th 2014 Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and Concussion.  Cause my brain to shut   down I was not able to stay awake.  5-08-2014 to 6-02-2014 I had short-term memory loss.  I could not process what people were saying to me.  I can see but I can't think just blank and fuzzy/blurry.  I was very, very sleepy my brain just shut down to sleep.  I think I got 55-65% of my visual thinking memory back after recovered from the concussion but since after the tetanus vaccine shot.  My head/brain became blurry/fuzzy, cloudy and feeling disoriented.  Ever since I do things, talk and think through a cloudy foggy vision in my head.  My condition with these CFS right now is very crippling for me (severe).  I cannot predict from one day to the next.  Vaccines History, Past, Present and Health.  Vaccine injury 1-23-2012 (Td) 3. August 2012 sore throat, feeling like my throat swollen with the feeling being scratched inside my throat and as if it is partially blocked.  About 2 ½ years now.  4. Followed by ½ head pain/headache on the left side and a day or two head pain/headache migrated to the right head. 5. End of August 2012 rashes start from left upper arm/shoulder at the vaccine site and September spreading down on the left side of the body then to the right.  Rashes healed in January 2013.  Rashes was breaking up in the center left me with scars. The beginning of burning muscles and arthritis pain.   6. The most painful vaccine shot I ever had as far as I can remember.  From the moment she pushed the vaccine shot in my left upper arm.  I do have high tolerance for pain but this time I felt my left shoulder was painfully frozen.  I walked out of doctor's office supporting my "frozen arm" (I mean' it was excruciating pain I could not move or lift my left arm) with the right hand and went across to coffee house to be safe before going home they close later then doctor's office. Vaccine injection site was re d for 101 days from 1/23/2012-5/02/2012 no scar. Vaccine injection site was excruciating very raw constant fire hot burning pain, sometimes throbbing pain (same raw pain I felt right after the td vaccination) for 4 ½ months.   Gradually on/off  mean' constant intense to less intense throbbing burning pain I was still in excruciating pain. 1-23-2012 to October 2012 I could not lift my left arm/shoulder it was very painful deep achy, weak burning pain in my upper left arm and shoulder joint.  Vaccine injection site 2013  April 2014 gradually come down little bit from intense hot chili burning muscles flares-up alternate to mild flares-up every few minutes throughout the day, or every few days constant intense chili hot muscles burning flares-up to few day mild to very mild constant muscle burning at the vaccine injection site. Vaccine injection site in left upper arm May 2014  Right now it is having burning flare-up.  Flares-up comes and goes from intense hot chili burning at the injection area together with deep arthritis burning pain in the left shoulder joint.   I feel it more intense when the weather is dump and raining. Sometimes flare up moderate burning pain at the injection site and another time mild flare up to none for 1 or 2 days. From 1-23-2012 after tetanus shot my left upper arm at the vaccine injection area was constantly throbbing burning fire pain.  I could not get much sleep for 26 months.      7. February 2012 radiating muscle burning annoying pain in my left shoulder joint from vaccine injection site.  Constant and on/off burning muscles pain flares up gradually migrating down my left arm and also migrating towards in my (posterior) left shoulder joint/shoulder blade radiating from vaccine site.  I did not expect this symptom & I was confused). March 8th 2012 sharp quick stabbing pain in my back underneath shoulder blade and spine the pain disappeared.  It feels like as if someone struck a knife in my back.  Intense burning pain at the injection area was radiating up into my upper left shoulder arm joint.  I began to feel flares up of burning muscles migrating, shooting and flaring in certain directions or angles.  Example like muscles burning throbbing from the top of shoulder arm joint, I can feel those burning throbbing muscles pain connected to shoulder blade near the mid upper spine forming muscles knots and deep arthritis pain.  Gradually burning muscles tension pain, flaring up and migrating and covering the entire left shoulder blade forming muscles knots may be into arthritis pain.  Every little movements in my left shoulder I could hear a lots of crunching muscles knots in the joints.  At the same time a build up of intense deep achy bruise arthritis muscles joint pain deep underneath my shoulder blade bone.  At this stage it was hard to move the arm, the shoulder feel tight in a lot of pain.  Left shoulder and neck build up intense muscles burning tension at the base of the neck.  Gradually neck muscles burning tension start to build up muscles tension towards the right shoulder. December 17th 2012 muscles burning tension start migrating from the left shoulder and the build up of tense burning muscles tension at the lower base of my neck migrating to the right shoulder into my upper right shoulder arm joint.  From upper right shoulder arm joint, burning muscles start throbbing, flaring, shooting across to the shoulder blade forming knots the same movement as the left side a year ago. Gradually in year 2013 the entire right side shoulder is exactly in the same painful condition as the left side.  The burning crunchy tense muscles knots became as a deep achy burning bruise arthritis' pain.  It feels like having epidural pain in my upper back spine.  Deep arthritis pain are more intense underneath both shoulder blades and across my back and in my spine level with armpit.  From the right side shoulder gradually into 2014 spreading or migrating into the the rest of my body down my arms and hips to legs.         I could not understand these weird symptoms I still get fire burning pain flares up every other days or every few hours in my left upper arm as if the injection pain is still fresh.  February 2013 I burned my left pointing finger on a hot pot it blistered.  I could not felt the burning pain at that time because my body was totally numb.  Now every other day or any time I get burning flares up in that finger as if I have fresh burning pain.   3. June 20th 2012 at 12.30pm pass out for 10-15 minutes intestine burning sensation.   Note.  Will finish the rest soon.