Serious lower left back which I believe was my left kidney. The serious pain problems started the day after receiving the shot and lasted for at least two weeks.    As the kidney pain started, my fingers started to feel numb and they have felt numb ever since.  Left hand is a little worse then my right hand.  Want to get second shot but?? I have walking pneumonia since 1973, since I was 15 years old, and will die if I get Covid 19.  I need help to know what happened to me, and maybe monitor me during second shot.  I am open research person. I am a 64 year old man that has had walking pneumonia since I was 15 years old in 1973.  I know that if I do get Covid-19 I will quickly die.  I need vaccination from Covid-19.    I received my first Moderna Covid 19 vaccine on Thursday March 18th, 2021 after 3 PM and immediately had problems.  I had problems in my left lower back which I believe was my left kidney. The serious pain problems started the day after receiving my first Covid 19 Moderna shot and the pain lasted for at least two weeks.  Immediately as the kidney pain started, my fingers started to feel numb and they have felt this way ever since.    This lead me to the situation of "I am damned if I do and damned if I do not".  I want to get the second Covid-19 vaccine shot because I am truly scared to die if I do get Covid 19.  But if I do get the second shot, what will happen to me?  I am scared that it may have the kidney pain again, may worsen my numb fingers problem, and/or do other damage to my body.  It may already have caused other problems?      In summation, whether I get the second Covid-19 vaccination shot or not:  Get the second shot: 1. Everything could be OK?   2. I could have Kidney pain again, possibly doing damage or more damage to my body, even my numb fingers could get worse!  Not get the second shot: 1. Be lucky and not get Covid-19. 2. Get Covid-19 and die.  I want very much to get the second Covid-19 shot, but I am scared and I find nobody cares about what had and has happened to me regarding my kidney pain and my fingers becoming numb, and any future consequences to me if I get the second shot.  I do not know what to do.  My current and main concern to me, for now, that if I do get the second Covid-19 shot I will get that kidney pain and may do worse damage to my fingers feeling numb or possibly other damage to my body.  I am not sure what happened, as a non medical person I can only guess things like maybe I have blood clots that reduce the circulation in my hands.  I just recently got on government assistance only because of this Covid-19 problem and I had a very hard time trying to find a job, I had no choice.  I have not been on government assistance long enough to get financially stable to afford medical insurance, but I plan to do so as soon as I can.    I tried to tell my doctor, but she kept telling me to go to the emergency room.  So, I finally went to the Hospital on Friday April 16th.  They checked my bloodwork and told me I was OK and OK to get the second shot, but I had really no explanation as to what had happened to me, my kidney, or my still numb fingers, or most of all, what might happen if I get my second shot.  I am hoping to get help, for someone to care about me, my health, and my future health.  The numbness in my left hand has been a little stronger than my right hand.  I had the shot in the left arm and my left kidney had the pain, if any of these matter. The left kidney problem was very painful within 2 days.  I could not do anything due to the pain.  I could forget about dealing with my feet in any way, such as to tie or untie shoes, put on or remove socks, getting out of bed, and just about anything I did, any movement at all was very painful.    What has me very worried is the continuous numbness of my fingers.  I want to get back to work and my profession involves computers and keyboards, and my numbness in my fingers bothers me, even having problem feeling the raised bump on the f' and j' keys.  The most immediate problem is trying to untie shoestrings, which I cannot feel to do due to my fingers feeling numb.  This problem with my fingers affect my life in many ways continuously everyday.  I cannot feel zip lock bag openings.  I have had a left kidney problem once before over 2 years ago, which I believe was a result of doing Benicar for my blood pressure. I have only had that problem that once and I got off Benicar and have never had the problem since, not until a day after I had my first Moderna Covid 19 vaccine shot March 18th.    For both of these times, the left kidney pain I immediately stopped all of my medicines and after a few weeks the pain went away.  This time was muc worse than the first time. I have high blood pressure, diabetes, and high cholesterol and take medicines for these.  I resumed these medicines after the pains went away.    As to the fingers feeling numb, I have never had this problem in my life.  My left hand fingers are a little worse than my right hand fingers.  They feel as if they are very cold for frozen, or I have burnt my fingers.  I have never felt this feeling ever in my life.  At the beginning of, January 1st to be exact, when I was 15 years old and in the 10th grade, I came down with pneumonia and was very sick.  It was not until the middle of March when my mother took me to the emergency late at night when she got a doctor to see me on the side.  The doctor gave me prescriptions of antibiotics, cough syrup, and Guaifenesin (which was a prescription in 1973 and is the main ingredient in Mucinex).   For the next 2 weeks I came home from school and laid down on the sofa and filled up about a third to a quarter of a medium size mixing bowl with phlegm from my lungs.  After that doctors have told me I ruined my lungs and I will have walking pneumonia for the rest of my life.  I have lived with this problem and have had to pay special attention to my lungs my whole life.    When I saw on TV a report on the second e-cigarette and what if did to the lungs, I said that looks like what happened to my lungs when I was 15 years old.  I recently saw news that someone had a similar problem.  However, because of my walking pneumonia I need to get the second shot or vaccinated in whatever way, I want to live.  Please help!