Age: 32.0
Sex: F
Vaccine: COVID19
Symptoms: Pain, Pyrexia, Rhinorrhoea, Suicidal ideation, Uterine spasm
Clinical narrative: I have NO clue why my doctor didn't submit this, considering I emailed her on the 27th when I was able to function to some degree again, because the shot affected my hormones to the point I was suicidal, but here's the exact message I sent to her on April 27th 2021:  Greeting Dr.   "I don't know who else to contact with this information, especially since I don't think the side effects hotline is going to be able to tell me if I need to head to the clinic or ER or not, so I'm contacting you (I trust you fully, because you've always cared). I got my second dose of Moderna yesterday, and I'm going through hell. The first shot made me sick too, but not like this (the first shot gave me explosive diarrhea within 2 hours of receiving it, the arm I had the shot put in felt like jelly for the first hour after getting it, I had numbness and tingling in that arm for most of the day, and I was severely fatigued for around a week). With this one I actually felt mentally suicidal for the first time in forever last night. Not from the pain it was causing my body, but my brain was turning on me. My uterus was lightly cramping, even though my period ended last week, so I know it's messing with my hormones. My arm was and still is cramping from the injection site to the bone to the point I've whimpered on and off, which I only ever do normally due to menstrual pain. I can barely lift that arm, and every movement hurts. My underarm hurts, all my bones and especially my joints hurt (my knees want to explode). My mouth tasted like I'd been sucking on pennies for a while yesterday. I have a fever of 100 degrees F today. I'm getting slight nausea on and off. My nose was dripping last night, I couldn't get warm no matter what I did (extreme chills - I drank tea, was under 3 blankets, and curled up in a ball and still couldn't get warm), and up until a few hours ago it felt like a bomb went off in my head (severe headache, lots of pressure). My arms have both been going partially numb on and off. I'm fatigued. I was crying, pleading with the Creator before I finally fell asleep last night.   Should I head to a clinic/the ER? I know some of this is normal, but I wanted to be sure all of it is."  It took about four days for all of the above issues to go away, but it's November and my periods still haven't completely returned to my normal. The period I had after the shot was the start of that - I suffer from menorrhagia as it is, but this shot made my standard menorrhagia seem like a joke. It was as if my uterus was PUMPING blood out of it, and it felt like the organ wanted to come out of me I was bleeding so heavy. Every period since the shot has been like that - I'm bleeding through and off of pads like crazy (literally soaking them) in just an hour or two during the first 2-3 days. I have more clots than ever before, and they are larger overall than before.   I've been suicidal before, as a teen and into my early 20's, when my depression was at its worst and my hormones were in heavy flux. The only time these days I get even close to those feelings is right before and during my periods, but I don't want to actively kill myself. The shot made me want to actively kill myself, and considering how bad my periods have been ever since I know it's doing something to my hormone levels.   My doctor's office (Dr.) told me to head to the ER if thoughts of killing myself continued, and to take Tylenol or ibuprofen for the fever/chills and to rest. The suicidal thoughts did subside after about three days, and my family was there to make sure I didn't hurt myself (my sister actually laid down next to me and held me throughout those three days because of how messed up I was). I did as they recommended, and I didn't use any cannabis during this time (before and after the vaccine) for fear of it affecting efficacy. I'm sorry I didn't, because cannabis is better pain relief to me than ibuprofen, aspirin and the like ever have been. Cannabis is the only reason I'm able to deal with the pain from my periods since the second shot. I'm afraid to get the third booster because of this, and I may not.   Also, I'm sticking this here because you didn't ask anywhere - I was assigned female at birth (I have a vulva).