Title: Afraid of the day : a daughter's journey /
Authors: Graham, Nancy, 1962-
Publisher: Women's Press,
Year: 2003
Subjects: Graham, Nancy, Famille.; Graham, Nancy, Family.; Children of depressed persons.; Depressed persons Family relationships.; Enfants de dépressifs.; Dépressifs Relations familiales.
Abstract: "Written from the vantage point of a daughter who bears witness to her mother's recurring bouts of clinical depression, this memoir makes a poignant pull at the heart and sticks to the bones. In words that have long dwelled in silence, Nancy Graham recounts her mother's roller coaster journey into the deep dark hell of the disorder, and what it was like to be forced along for the ride."--Jacket.
Contents: Prologue: Against the current -- Pt. I. To touch the blue sky -- 1. Eyes of the storm -- 2. Shock after shock -- 3. Under lock and key -- 4. A playmate for Nancy -- 5. Wolf in sheep's clothing -- 6. Behind the painted line -- 7. Shame of sickness -- 8. Between a hope and a prayer -- 9. Naming the nightmare -- 10. Not enough coloured pencils -- 11. All I want for Christmas -- 12. Beaches of Sauble -- 13. Road to self-destruction -- 14. Ten-cent solution -- 15. Notes from the edge -- Poem: Wherein lies the answer -- Pt. II. Starting from scratch -- 16. Now or never -- 17. Walking wounded -- 18. Burning bridges -- 19. Disordered daughter -- 20. Meeting the mountain -- 21. Touching clouds -- 22. Too little too late -- Poem: Against the odds -- Pt. III. Into the fire -- 23. Seoul to soul -- 24. Running on empty -- 25. Shrink-wrapped puddles -- 26. Frozen moment -- Poem: Time tunnels -- Pt. IV. Damaged roots -- 27. Father root: muted love -- Poem: Unsung hero -- 28. Brother root: castles in the sand -- Poem: Wedding bells toll -- 29. Daughter root: for better for worse -- 30. Waves against the rock -- 31. Layers of an onion skin -- 32. Mother root: constant craving -- 33. My mother, myself -- Poem: Mirror images -- Pt. V. Courage to come back -- 34. Emergence -- Poem: Echoes of the past -- 35. Gift of memory -- Poem: Not my mother -- 36. The colour of joy -- Poem: Baby's breath -- Epilogue: Sobering thoughts.