premise: I had this big elaborate plan - where I would be slightly drunk but not REALLY drunk and be all pretty and glamorous in my birthday outfit when I saw him for the firsr time . Just because from my previous experiences when you meet up with someone after its been a while there s just too much build up and they look different and you feel weird getting all excited and emotional around them and its just kind of awkward for a bit . I just wanted to skip all that ! I know this is n't exactly the most sturdy logic - but it made sense in my head . Why would being slightly drunk help me in this situation ?
hypothesis: I would lighten up and not be so tense about seeing someone after a while .