premise: i found the man i love again . i missed him a whole lot and today was just one of those times where when everything is just chaotic and no matter how many times you rest it is still chaotic in the back of our minds and then finally there is that break . it was great to talk on the phone with andrew for the first time in a very long time and feel like " this is my guy , the one i missed like crazy . What might have helped me decide Andrew was my guy ?
hypothesis: Talking to him on the phone and getting the worse from the chaos because of it helped me realize it .