premise: I did a choice that i might regret very very much that will end up me being very miserable . But in the first place there never was a choice that are easy without getting yourself hurt . I find myself pushing my friends away from my life even more , The more they show how much they care for me and really want to help me the more i get frighten , it probably what happen in the past has left me scar in my heart . Why causes you to run away when your friends show you kindness ?
hypothesis: My fear of having to be open and vulnerable with people scares me