premise: I was quite shaken and upset and one of the kids asked me , " Is she going to die ? " and , trying not to start crying , I answered , " No , she 's not , " hoping that it was really true . Okay , so , very recently I was thinking about that and sort of wishing that I had turned to the kid and said , in a not - quite - menacing way , " Every soul will taste death . " Hahahaha ! Why did the writer say " no , she 's not " to the kid ?
hypothesis: Because the writer was trying not to cry .