Thank you The stress has many sources however The pattern of slanderous votes see Tony1 s RfA and mine that kill off good candidates at RfA really bothered me Then I get the same BS at mediation which I though should have been different since the committee was voting This is even worse than the who you know not what you know problem You also have trolls that attack RfA nominees to provoke anger which gives then a sloth of No votes for not being perfectly polite enough to the guy who made perfectly good faith edits about you even though they were obviously untrue slanderous accusations The stress also comes from annoying trolls claiming that my and any other admins little 24 hour blocks on them are admin abuse