i developed a real fear going back into the public after my first bout of cancer, because i was so used to people gawking at me for a million reasons; my bald head, my lack of eyebrows / eyelashes, my paleness, my thinness, the catheders that stuck out from my chest etc... so to suddenly be gawked at again like i was some science experiment especially among my cancer partners, in a place that we consider a refuge, was infuriating to me.
Emotions: anger, fear, sadness