num_pages: 352
description: "I could never predict what was going to ruin me and what was going to rescue me..." Ilyana Meyerovich has never been very far front disaster and loss. A self-described "suicidal, strung-out, psychotic Jew under thirty" Ilyana retreats into her astonishing mind, prays to obscure Catholic saints, and seeks her equilibrium in six white lines laid out on the kitchen table of a squalid Lower East Side apartment. Masochism and nihilism form the twin poles of Ilyana's heroin blurred existence, but this was not always so.
language: English
title: Like Being Killed
titlecomplete: Like Being Killed
genres: Fiction, Contemporary, Sexuality, Dark, Mental Health, Death, American, Mental Illness, United States, Novels
ratings_count: 446
publisher: Plume