num_pages: 304
description: A gifted and audacious writer confronts her lifelong battle with depression and her search for release This Close to Happy is the rare vividly personal account of what it feels like to suffer from clinical depression written from a womans perspective and informed by an acute understanding of the implications of this disease over a lifetime.Taking off from essays on depression she has written for The New Yorker and The New York Times Magazine Daphne Merkin casts her eye back to her beginnings to try to sort out the root causes of her affliction. She recounts the travails of growing up in a large affluent family where there was a paucity of love and of basics such as food and clothing despite the presence of a chauffeur and a cook. She goes on to recount her early hospitalization for depression in poignant detail as well as her complex relationship with her mercurial withholding mother.Along the way Merkin also discusses her early redemptive love of reading and gradual emergence as a writer. She eventually marries has a child and suffers severe postpartum depression for which she is again hospitalized. Merkin also discusses her visits to various therapists and psychopharmocologists which enables her to probe the causes of depression and its various treatments. The book ends in the present where the writer has learned how to navigate her depression if not cure it after a third hospitalization in the wake of her mothers death.
language: English
title: This Close to Happy: A Reckoning with Depression
publisher: Farrar, Straus and Giroux