num_pages: 242
description: From a young age there was a feeling and that feeling would not go away. This is the honest account of the journey taken by a straight guy into finally accepting that yes.....he is a crossdresser.  Not only that but he also had to come to terms with admitting to himself that he liked being watched and the discovery that over the course of a number of years, both the act of dressing up and the satisfaction of being looked at went together beautifully.  At the end of the book is a short story based around a fantasy.  In this book you'll read about the years of denial and the difficulty faced by a man who didn't want to admit that there was real enjoyment in those moments where he would dress up and go on cam to perform.  How just the act of trying on a pair of tights as a boy eventually led to him dressing up fully and performing stripteases on cam online.  You will read about how he became a crossdresser, descriptions of performances online, some of the people he met and talked to, feelings whilst doing this, how he very nearly fell too deep into the world of online pornography and fantasies that just don't fit the standard thoughts of a straight man.  There is no sex in this book, no "throbbing members" or "aching" body parts and although it gets sexual, this is not a sex book. It is about crossdressing and exhibitionism.  This book contains photos showing how his dressing up has changed over the years and although some are sexual in nature, anything explicit has been blacked out. (The photos, however, seem to have come out slightly smaller than anticipated and to the left hand side instead of being in the centre so apologies for this)  Also, the author is not a professional writer so please forgive any imperfections. 
language: English
title: Confessions of a crossdressing exhibitionist