history: I had an awesome childhood. I think about it consistently. My childhood was great. I have mainly positive memories of it. You are very lucky my friend. There are so many children out there that cannot say the same_comma_ sadly. But so happy for you!
current: Yeah life ends up pretty dark for tons of people. It's slightly absurd when you think far into it!
next: I guess it all comes down to karma, if you believe in that stuff...... I do. :)