history: i always feel sad around the holidays.. my dad passed away around christmas my dad passed away around the time of christmas.. it always casts a shadow over my holidays I know what you mean_comma_ it sucks when those "dates" linger over us even if we try not to think about them. Im so sorry to hear that! 
current: yeah.. i know it is time to get over it. but certain memories are so haunting
next: Its not time to get over it, you arent doing any wrong its okay to "feel" things. I hope people around you give you a lot of love! 