history: I wanted to go to Spacecamp. I filled out a form to try to get a scholarship because I knew that was the only way I could go.  I wanted to go to Spacecamp. I filled out a form to try to get a scholarship because I knew that was the only way I could go. which way is that?
current: I could only go if I got a scholarship because I couldn't afford it otherwise. 
next: maybe it happend for a reason? maybe you will find a better apportunity to get there