history: Life can be really not a happy place. It pains me that so many don't love or care and hurt others. Life can be really not a happy place. Sadly_comma_ I agree with you.  As I get older_comma_ it seems like that more and more.  What happened that made you feel that way? Oh so many things. Lots of trauma. Life really is just full of lots of really difficult events..trying to maintain your spirit and being a good person through it_comma_ is really the task of life! Its so true! I battle chronic illness and excruciating pain daily for almost 14 years now not to mention drowning in old medical bills.  I put my faith in God and pray for relief.  Its really hard to stay optimistic.  I really hope life improves for you and you can enjoy and embrace life again.   Thank you! I have tried..it's been a VERY traumatic year in so many ways..and I didn't think it could get any worse a few years ago..Wrong! I hear you with pain! Please try every treatment you can. DIET plays a HUGE role- also chiropractor_comma_ Nuerofeedback_comma_ Different herbs! I found eating right_comma_ exercising_comma_ herbs_comma_ vitamins_comma_ organic food helped with my pain caused by doctors- I had tons of neuropathy_comma_ pain and fibro like symptoms in addition to the trauma of deaths_comma_ abuse etc. I hope YOU feel better and YOU inspire me right now that I don't have it so bad!!!
current: That is exactly what I've been going through along with horrible doctors that did nothing for me.  I just went high nutrient vegan 3 months ago and am improving my leaps and bounds.  I follow Dr. Joel Furhman.  You can keep going and your journey is giving you compassion for others that are going through horrible things.  Take heart and I hope you feel better.  
next: THANK YOU! That sounds GREAT! yes the raw groups on FB have good diets too! I need to do vegan as well! Just can't afford it yet. Doing Fasting with Keto WOW- That is true! I just feel tapped out after so much abuse and trauma..and losing pets and children..Just too much trauma in a short time, but I am still here! I am trying to get better, it's just a long hard journey. LOVE to you! Stay strong and kind like you are! So inspiring!