history: I'm pretty amazed at how far I've come in life.  I was such a bum now I'm a real man, living on my own self-employed with my own car paying my own bills Looking back at my older self I've come a long way.  It's pretty amazing really_comma_ I was such a bum now I'm a real man_comma_ living on my own self-employed with my own car paying my own bills. Like waking up from a nightmare haha
current: Sometimes it can be difficult to get your footing when starting out. It sounds like you enjoy your life now and have something to be proud of.
next: Yes a lot more than back then for sure.  Still striving for better every day though