history: I'm not really sure what I'm supposed to be doing with my life right now, but I'm trying to at least get back home. I don't really have much direction in my life right now_comma_ I'm just trying to keep my head above water because I don't really have any other option. Oh no that is terrible. Is there anyone near you that could be of help? Maybe a family member or someone that can lend a hand or ear? I'm so sorry to hear this.
current: I've asked pretty much everyone in my family for help, and it seems the answer from all of them is that they can't afford it financially right now.
next: I know it means swallowing some pride, but if it's financial help you need, perhaps you could go the route of Gofundme? or maybe government services? I know it might be embarrassing to some people, but sometimes your back is against the wall you have nothing to lose.