history: I was pretty sad when my grand dad died. It was not expected I was sad when my grand dad died. It was random Oh_comma_ I'm so very sorry! I know it's very hard to lose a loved one_comma_ I lost my sister_comma_ father_comma_ and both sets of grandparents.
current: Its always tough
next: Yes, even though it's part of life, it doesn't make it any better when it happens. I hope it starts to get better for you soon.