history: My children are in bed fast asleep, and no one wants to talk to me. I check my social media accounts and everyone is having fun with their loved ones except me. I am afraid to message someone because I do not want them to know the sad truth of night/life. My children are both fast asleep and I am the only one up around my neighborhood at this hour. Is that relaxing to you or lonely? 
current: It is both in a way, more so the second than anything.
next: Try to enjoy the quiet but not get down.