history: I could not find my favorite handkerchief that my grandfather gave me. I am afraid I lost it. It means so much to me since he has passed away. I can't find my favorite handkerchief my grandfather gave me. I am fearful that I could have lost it.
current: thats a horrible feeling, especially something sentimental 
next: It means so much to me because he is now passed away. I would be so upset if I can't find it.