history: A few years back my brother left for college and I had one year of high school left. It was weird having the house be so empty. My senior year wasn't nearly as good since my brother left for college that same year.
current: That's tough. I have two older brothers, so I know how that is. We're separated by four and eight years, respectively, so we weren't as close as you two seem to be, but I always liked having them around.
next: I feel you, me and my brother are really close so it was pretty sad not having him around.