history: I was always socially awkward, i feel so lonely I'm kind of socially awkward and I don't know how to start conversations in real life. I wish i had more friends having a few good friends or even one is better then having a bunch of fake ones. It is hard to make friends as an adult that are true friends even if you are great at it! So don't feel bad
current: thank you for your support! I have a really good friend but he lives in a different state so we don't see each other that often
next: I understand! I used to be the social butterfly but now after a lot of trauma I am very anxious as well and I don't care to have people I don't trust around me anyhow. Maybe try meetups or forums where people have the same interests?