history: everytime i order something  i really want it makes my anxiety go through the roof I remember ordering tattoo machines _comma_ then was given the the date of delivery it was going to take 5 weeks that put my anxiety through the roof
current: Being helpless when waiting for things is the worst feeling. There's nothing you can do but you need to do something!
next: thank you , long story short the machine did not even work an found out it came from korea