history: My sister got a new pair of shoes. They were the same ones that I had been wanting but can't afford. I should have been happy for her but I wasn't. My sister got a new pair of shoes. They were the same ones that I had been wanting but can't afford. I should have been happy for her but I wasn't. A little jealous much?  Maybe you should pick up a side job?
current: Probably but I can't right now. I know how I feel isn't right but I can't help it.
next: Maybe you can borrow them?