history: I drank despite promising sobriety to my wife. I drank and got drunk out of my mind yesterday despite promising sobriety to my wife. Oh no_comma_ that's no good. Did she find out?
current: Yes and I feel so ashamed right now. I can't even look her in the eyes anymore because of shame.
next: Just have a talk with her and apologize. I'm sure she'll understand. Addiction is a life long battle. It's never too late to jump back on the wagon.