history: I'm pretty satisfied in my self-discipline.  I used to have no control over my life but now I've taken the reigns I used to have no sense of purpose in my life_comma_ total deadbeat loser....now I've taken the reigns and am in full control. Pretty amazing how far I've come That is awesome! i am happy for you!
current: Thanks.  So many people bitch and moan about how hard they have it...but few do anything about it glad I finally grew out of that phase
next: i agree totally, it takes a strong person to admit they are like that