history: I can't get pregnant but all my friends are having kids. It's hard not to be envious when I am struggling to get pregnant but all my friends are having babies. Yeah_comma_ i hear you.. I can see how that can invoke envy.. you'll get there soon
current: I sure hope so, I don't want to be devastated.
next: You won't be, i assure you. Do your part and hope for the best. :)