history: Life can be really not a happy place. It pains me that so many don't love or care and hurt others. Life can be really not a happy place. Sadly_comma_ I agree with you.  As I get older_comma_ it seems like that more and more.  What happened that made you feel that way?
current: Oh so many things. Lots of trauma. Life really is just full of lots of really difficult events..trying to maintain your spirit and being a good person through it, is really the task of life!
next: Its so true! I battle chronic illness and excruciating pain daily for almost 14 years now not to mention drowning in old medical bills.  I put my faith in God and pray for relief.  Its really hard to stay optimistic.  I really hope life improves for you and you can enjoy and embrace life again.  