history: I've going through a spell as of late when I've been pacing back and forth more and more and self doubt has crept in. I'm waiting on an acceptance into a program for video editing. Woof I am having a hard time as of late. I've been waiting on an acceptance into a video production program and it's driving me up the wall.
current: Oh, that must be nerve-wracking! 
next: It is. A lot of self doubt has crept into my head as of late and I'm trying to fight it off.