history: I was planning on giving birth without any pain medication. I wasn't sure if I'd be able to do it but I was optimistic. I was going to have a baby and I wanted to do it without medication. i was not sure if I'd be strong enough but I was optimistic stil I bet you did great!
current: I didn't end up making it haha but I went further then I had in any of my previous pregnancies at least. 
next: But that is still okay. Either way you accomplished something difficult!