history: My brother is having it all while i am here on a spot. i want to move forward and i am angry about everything
current: I am become so angry and bitter. My brother is having it all while i am at a spot without making any progress 
next: That's really tough. I can imagine how frustrated you are. Just know that going through trials and struggling is always good for your character and you will end up that much better of a person for getting through it. You can't be too concerned with other's lives, you just have to try not to compare. 