history: When I first started my current job I was very scared. I had to psyche myself up in order to just walk through the front door. I had never worked in that field before and was terrified I would do a bad job. I read self help books with positive outcomes in order to get through the first few weeks. I was so scared when I started my most current job that I had to trick myself into being less shy. 
current: New people make me so nervous.
next: Me too! I sat in the parking lot for an hour reading a self help book just to be able to 'fake it' by seeming outgoing.