history: I was very much envious on my best friend. He got highest paid job in one of the biggest firms in us I was very envious on my best friend It's OK we all get jealous sometimes. What did you envy about your best friend?
current: He got highest paid job in one of the biggest firms. But, don't know why, it bothers me.
next: Don't sweat it! I am sure with hard work and determination, you will land a good job too!