history: My father died about a year ago. I still have trouble when I remember seeing him dead in his bed. I'm having difficulties when I think about my father. He died one year ago and it's still hurting very much. I'm so sorry to hear about that_comma_ it must be awful. Do you have friends and family that you can talk to about this? 
current: Thank you for your kindness. My brother is around to listen but he lives a very busy life so it's hard to find someone to turn to.
next: When my relatives have died, it helps me to remember the good times, and makes me smile instead of being sad