history: My brother is having it all while i am here on a spot. i want to move forward and i am angry about everything I am become so angry and bitter. My brother is having it all while i am at a spot without making any progress 
current: That's really tough. I can imagine how frustrated you are. Just know that going through trials and struggling is always good for your character and you will end up that much better of a person for getting through it. You can't be too concerned with other's lives, you just have to try not to compare. 
next: I am trying my best, but he lives so close to me and i can see all the progress and my mother do the comparison too. Everyone does it 