history: My father died about a year ago. I still have trouble when I remember seeing him dead in his bed. I'm having difficulties when I think about my father. He died one year ago and it's still hurting very much.
current: I'm so sorry to hear about that, it must be awful. Do you have friends and family that you can talk to about this? 
next: Thank you for your kindness. My brother is around to listen but he lives a very busy life so it's hard to find someone to turn to.