history: Earlyier this week my brother in law committed suicide. The was only 28 years old. I couldn't breathe when i heard the news. Have you ever had a friend or loved one commit suicide. Yes_comma_ I have.  One that actually died and one that was miraculously saved.  It was a dark and tough time.  Did that happen to you recently?
current: Yes, my brother in law/childhood friend took his own life. Its been very hard to comes to terms with.
next: I am soo soo very sorry.  Its so hard to understand everything surrounding a suicide so its hard to be at peace about something that didn't have to happen.  I pray you and your family will find closure and fight for awareness for people who are struggling with those feelings.