Chinese: 觉得自己对别人而言就是个负担，没有人会爱上我，最好死了算了，因为那样我就不会伤害任何人了，可是话说回来，我想活下去，证明给别人看我很坚强。
English: I feel that I'm a burden to everyone, that no one will ever love me, that I'm better off dead, because that way I wouldn't hurt anyone. However, on the other hand, I want to keep living and show everyone that I'm strong.