kind of it's in the subconscious it kind of bruised right and I happen to think about the paper every now and then but I don't make a conscious effort to be like oh how am I gonna explain this and so on but I just found the the worst videos are the ones where I immediately make the video after reading a paper and I've just discovered that if I kind of take a break and then I look at it again right I look I don't read it fully again but I if I have if I have the feeling I've understood it I don't read it fully