that you won't go unconscious and let that thought or that behavior run you you got to say oh my god this feeling that I've been living by for the last 20 years is actually guilt I didn't know it was guilt because it just feels like me and all of a sudden as you start becoming conscious of it you're beginning to objectify your subjective self here you're pulling you out of those programs and nobody likes to do that because it's uncomfortable they'd rather turn on their cell phones start texting get on the internet