hmmm but remember if you're trying to make it happen faster you're back to the old self right then yourself would never do that the new self would constantly stay there and so then how does it appear it appears in a way that you can't expect because if you can predict it it's the known it's gonna come in a way that you haven't thought of an unknown and it's and it's got a rock your world it's got to catch you off guard it's got to leave you no doubt that what you've been doing inside of you that produces some effect outside of