healing from a disease and mystical experience that come in for all these different kind of reasons healing from a childhood trauma but really they just want wholeness right and so as I start becoming more whole and they start feeling more whole is not coming from anywhere out there it's not coming from out there nothing out there is making them feel whole when the novelty of the thing wears off you feel empty again they're feeling whole from within oh this is different this is a different game so why wouldn't