briefly thought that I was I had a very bad headache and some of the doctors thought I might have a brain hemorrhage and during the time that I was waiting for my MRI results to find out whether I had a brain hemorrhage or not I realized that most of the fact I was having worry about making sure that other people would eventually try out the research ideas that I had at the time in retrospect they're all pretty silly research ideas but at that point I realized that this was actually one of my highest priorities in life was