I really don't feel like sitting here and typing for twenty minutes, but what ever. I'm kinda tired. All I want to do is go take a nap. I really don't want to go back to Austin, I get lonely. I hate this stupid town, but I don't want to leave home, but then again I do , the air is cold when I breathe in  and I need to go take my medicine  oh well I'll go do that later  crap I'm tired and I don't want to go read either it gets so long and boring and I'm not doing that research crap for justin either why do my toes always get so cold the rest of my body is warm but not my toes, I wonder if I have fever again my nose is running but it's stopped up at the same time , that retarded I feel like going to sleep right now, why is the timer not working? is this stupid thing supposed to be working cause if I don't get credit for doing this thing I'm going to be pissed, it's probably this retarded ass computer. stupid shit never works  I don't  want to go back I like school I just wish I knew peeps up there it's going to be a long four years damn it I just wish I was already graduated and working and not worrying about any thing, just making money for my-self not depending on other people this way I could do what I want why can't I do what I want I don't mean bad illegal things just I don't know stuff  I swear I'm not coming home any more if my parents don't stop trying to give me a curfew, what the hell I'm out of high school I'm in freaking' college, and my dad still calls me tell me it's 2:30 and I need to come home what? ugh I swear, man I better do good in school oh well I'm not worried about that yet not until I have tests then I'll probably freak out stress out what ever my face itches my lips are chapped I wonder why though it's not cold or anything but it is cold in this house why am I always so damn cold it's points less to shave my hair is all grown back on my legs and I shaved last night I don't know why I bother to shave stupid shit why are cuss words bad" words what is it that makes them bad, the meaning isn't bad when you think bout it I guess not, do they even have a meaning for real why are they so bad hm I don't know here we go with the goose bumps again man I have o get up early tomorrow ugh and I have to read a lot of crap oh and print my homework still damn I hope I remember to do that shit I better not forget god when are the freaking twenty minutes up? and why is this timer not working? what the hell  maybe it tells me my time when I press the end button, haha presh = push and press I'm so retarded but I hope that it shows my time when I finish cause if I have to trype for another twenty minutes I'll be pissed or pised like on the sweetest thing, what ever LeAnn your so retarded man I need to figure out how to get the internet in my dorm just in case I have to do this thingy over again, hm dad has birthday this friday, yeah I get to come down here again, I kinda miss home if you think about it , but I'm not going to tell any one cause they'll just say see I told you so, but the only thing I miss is the people I hate this fucking retarded hick town and I like being out on my own I just HATE being by my self I get so lonely man I got to stop thinking about this other wise I'll make myself homesick oh well I'll just have to suck it up and not worry about it cause I'm not dropping out or transferring I went through a lot of shit just to get here now damn it I'm staying I just don't like living in the stupid dorms oh god I don't want to go back there. I want and apartment bad, damn it I need to use the bathroom and I don't know if I can hold it, my hose hurts when I breathe it's giving me a head ache or maybe that's just because I'm tired I don't know but I can't hold this I may have to take a bathroom break can I do that though oh well I'll just have to go and see now won't I crap I'll be back but I don't want to leave cause I don't want people reading my shit I don't want to let other people know what I'm thinking about hell if I did I'd just freaking' tell them my eye itches I need some drops or something no I need advill and a nap I'm tired and my head hurts crap how much freaking' longer to I have to sit here this retarded computer better not decide to shut down or there's going to be some shit I'll be pissed ooooooooohhhhhhhhhh I'll be pissed I hope our other assignments aren't like this what ever as long as I don't have to write a research paper god I hate writing especially research papers if I liked writing I'd be an english major, a book write, author you dumb ass, or a journalist or some writing shit career, but I don't like writing ooohhhhhh I hate that hate what else do I hate being lonely, alone or by my self, that's one of my biggest fears being alone and by my self not having  a boyfriend or getting married or having a family, just a lonely old hag with a dog and some cats, I want to get married and have a family, and getting fat I'm scared to death of blowing up into a big ass balloon or something I just wish I was smaller, I mean I'm only 5 ft and my legs are chunky I have a nice booty though that sounds kind of conceited though and I don't think, no I know that's not how you spell the word but that is ok, I suck at spelling anne was good at it speaking of anne she really hasn't been a good friend to me I mean she never answered her phone when I called  and I know she has caller I. d. she was probably with audra dumb ho but what ever I don't really care man I'm tired can't I quit this thing already will it tell me when it's been twenty minutes or do I just press finish I don't know maybe I'll just press finish I think that's long enough I'll try