The day is over again and still so much to do and to think about. I hope my parents are settling down up in  Colorado with good business and a place to live. I hope no conflicts will occur although I know they are going to fight one in awhile. I miss my mom the most. she cried at the airport and I can still see those tears in her face. her voice was so weak when I called to say hello. is this it to college life? I wonder where Tim is has he called me and left me a message? I have precal class with him first thing tomorrow morning and I dont know where to go yet. I hope to get my beeper soon because I needed really bad and I dont know when ill get it. as I look at the screen I wonder if the writing will ever go down onto the next line, or will it go on forever. I really want to go home  I feel as though I have to be with her 24/7 and I feel like she'll follow me everywhere I go. I don't want her to , but at the same time I dont want to hurt her feelings. I hate it when she smokes she smelt so bad in the classroom wow it finally has moved down to the second line. this stream of conscious writing is kinda pain in the butt because it is nearly impossible to actually start typing without thinking about what to type. lookin at the screen uhhh she wants to come over today but I dont want her to I feel as though she's gonna stick with me wherever I go and I feel like she's never gonna find a friend to hang out without me. but I shouldnt think like this because shes my friend and we've known each other forever. but I feel that shes going to hold me back in the future as we go on. either that or we're gonna fall apart, not easily, but  I feel that someones gonna get hurt and I dont want to be the one hurting her. my head itches. I gotta go home and call my mom and talk to my dad. I wish they had the same kind of water here as Colorado. their water is so nice. I would like to know if Tim likes me or just as friends because he actually we act the same way towards each other but I dont know if I like him or not so I wonder if he feels the same way. my pastor is here from Dallas to teach bible study and I kinda feel guilty because I said Id see him and stuff when he is down here but I cant get my self to go and sit and listen to him. I feel bad. I wonder what lee is doing he seem so quiet yet outgoing but not really I would like to get to know him but I wonder if he even knows that I exist. I think he does but who knows. sitting here typing wondering what time it is . what can I eat for dinner? I have an eye appointment tomorrow and I want to meet Tim somewhere so we can go to class together. cant wait to go home Im kinda glad I didnt room with her I can't imagine how hurt she'll be if she really knows how I feel. she gets on my nerves time to time and she asks me if she gets on my nerves, but I can never tell her that she does because I dont think its right. I want my friends to come over to my apartment but I dont know how my roommate is going to react. how am I suppose to find a roommate for next semester when she leaves . it almost time to go  I hope they dont make us read this later on in the semester. I think I really want a boyfriend but not really, I dont know what I want. Michael is pretty cute only if he was taller I would fall for him so hard. but Im glad we're good friends. Im kinda glad that they broke up too. I think shes too self fish and he can do so much better. I better memorize the medical terminology by Thursday. what should I do this weekend I bet she wants to come with me I feel as though every time Im with her Im blocked off from the crowd in a way Im uncomfortable with her around other people. I wish she stop smoking she  looked so crappy up times up and I dont feel like typing any more.