I wonder what's for dinner, sitting at the booth Monica's in the room I should have brought my disk to check my e-mail I want to go see Steffen  Germany seems so cool the apartment taking a video for steffen falling on trevors bed over and over again I got a bruise the x's on my hands are bright I hope they come off a bunch of stamped x's on my hands buildoing up, my entire body is dyed purple, the enigma, Chase and Steffen saw him at Stars, eating at Stars see Swinging Utters the following morning after the warped tiour at Stars I want breakfast food at whaterburger I wish they didn't mess up my order last time I got lost deiving here Kerrville seeing the deer I wish I could have held the baqby squirrel or saw it Urban Ledgends Chase deosn't like those moivies  L-something movie goldie Hawn flying in the air off of that one movie with Woody Allen, Tim Roth, the Deciever, him taking pills, a split personality pshycology class drugs don't affect a person on the test, the movie was wrong renting movies in kerrville, Emir buying Basketball for me for Chase, Chase and I. what to do. Going tothe apartment Concan, really sunburnt, the following night at Chase's Randy comes over and pushes me on the trampoline, so much pain, wisdom teeth codine, falling asleep all the time, freshman seminar falling asleep middle school they used to eat goldfish taking my trah to the can and saw Kyle and laughed, Las Vegas at the park skateboarding, rollerblading going through the water then fell down, jumped up fastly. hahahaha sleeping on the floor waking up the house when I screamed though I didn't know it. fall time, this boy's life guy Stefen, he seemed so nice hanging out at the snow cone place red soda with ice cream going to pick up my cousin at bvaseball practice waiting over time driving around with Alix going to Chase's before christmas day, seeing Steffen going to the show, Chase playing, watching there video at Jason's, looking at the stars in my front lawn with Jason seeing a falling star in front of the apartment, I hate typing this, I wish the time was almost up I have nothing to write Chase will be here soon, I wish things were cool with us, why do things suck, Iw ant my hair to grow out and dye it red, I need to start swimming beths house swimming, her party, trey-getting married, how things change, my back is alright, surprizingly phiscal theapry helpped. it's hot out, walking Caleb to class, such a nice guy it's a small world I wander what cort's doing. i miss Steffen, I wish he'd come down, I'm so depressed here. I miss everybody from corpus. I need to check my e-mail it's kind of hot in here, I wish it would snow I hate being so picky aobut things I feel light headed starring at this keyboard is making me sick, I have a headacke and still 5 more minutes of typing, deep breathe. go away I'm so tired. staying up watching pop uknown and sunday's best they were good I miss Chase's old self able is so annoying I hope I don't have to really meet him, oh well, I'm hungry I wish Chase would get here so we could eat, I wish I'd be done with this so I could eat, head hurts. my wrist hurt too from keeping them agaist the counter's edge while typing I want it to rain, running around in trashbags during the rain I lve the rain. I want to paint this keyboard with a bunch of different colors, I want to paint my room with different colors Cerel sounds so good right now, I need to start working out, I'm so out of shape. Come on time 2 more minutes, hurry up I want to stop I'd like a break my head is hurting  I'm getting anxious. 30 seconads   hurry  I need to stop looking at the keyboard when I type, that's what's making me sick.