wow I feel really tired right now  why the hell did I schedule five classes three days of the week   oh well  alright I don't feel stupid typing this   at least my roommate is getting less psycho except for the whole 2 alarms and 1 phone call everyday at the same time I have so much crap to do let me think   read about 5 million pages, chem hmwk, get computer paper so I can stop stealing my roommates and a lot of other crap  I'm glad that I'm living in Kinsolving Jester sucks haha Cheryl's cousin and Byron have to live there. lame o  anyhow I'm glad that I got to talk to my mom today I should talk to the rest of my family more often  it's kind of weird not seeing them everyday   I kind of miss them  don't get me wrong I don't want to be back in corpus  but there are a lot of people that I care about and who care about me there  I guess that is why I still feel like corpus is my home  not austin  although austin is way more badass   more things to do  I wonder how cecily is doing with her school stuff haha that was so funny today in philosophy when he showed that simpson clip about lisa and she was not going to get into harvard and she was like  I Don't want to go to Browne!  I wonder how Jamie is doing I got to give her a call sometime soon  and annette  I hope that walter comes down to austin for a visit I think that that would be really fun    woohoo  it's  friday   we going to party   oh yeah and   karyn I need to calll her too   but she is been kind of flakey lately   I really have to pee   why didn't I go before I started? I still have like 12 minutes   ahh   anyhow   I don't know about sorority stuff     it takes up so much time and I have so much to do oh well we'll  see  hopefully  I don't have to go to all the meeting because that would take up too much time. They're nice girls I just don't know if I like it yet. I really don't want to live in the house next year   that would be sucky  I want to get an apartment  but I do think that it is cool living on campus  your first year because you meet so many new people  yeah    anyhow  I really really  got to pee    I won't think about it   haha  this is so lame  what the hell am I doing and why   I guess it's  kind of cool. kind of like talking to yourself. real cool  whatever  tonight I'm going to rum another mile   got to get back into soccer shape   you know how  that goes    oh I sure do hahaha  alright I sound really psycho I can't wait until we get a break   I'm going to get a massage  that'll be nice     hard work then a sweet ass reward      I got to call cec and cheryl  today  get some normalcy back into my life   people that arent fake or weird   well a little  weird   but will tell me like it  is and make me feel at home   that is what I think I need a balance between my future and my past which I couldn't do in CC  My mom just called and she can't get the radio to work anyway    a connection from the real me the old me to the me I'm involving into   I don't think that I am changing that much  well a lot more  responsibility   personal responsibility but not too many changes in my personality  ahh my hands are getting tired of typing    my roommate is getting cooler   she does not  eep me up to 5 am  anymore  thank god    oh yeah I think I'm going to go to church Sunday   I can't forget about that because I want to meet new people at that church and I want to have a few seconds of peace in my life  when everything's not such at a fast pace  a place where I can breathe  ahhh I'm so tired and I still HAVE to pee  please hurry and end so I can pee  ahh   less than two minutes  alright  time  fly  by  faster my stomach is growling too maybe I'll go eat a little later  alright   well  less than a minute    got to  go to the bathroom   alright   ok   hrmmm   not really thinking about anything else   except I got to pee      ok   got to go     almost do