uh how much time do I have today is a busy day I am hungry, when will I eat I haven't taken a shower yet and I'm going out to eat after class with my brother and sister I don't like business I should just drop ba101 I I want to go to kevin's birthday party this is a weird assign mient metro is a cool place to study I should go there more often I love my dorm room I miss my mom's food I want to go home for a day this weekend I still haven't gone to zilker park jake should get out of that frat while he can before he pays any dues at least john is in over his head I wonder if he'll be able to handle all that I hope my brother is okay in the peace core I wish I was closer to him and karen they aren't like me I miss purdy and buddy last night was fun I need to quit going out    so much but I like my friends they make me feel less stressed I hate that business school building it sucks why am I a business major I hate math and I don't really like science all that much art is where I am psychology os so interesteng how do you just decide to be a forest ranger kevin is cool as shit I  am tired I love sleeping I wonder what all these strange dreams are about I know they mean something I am hungry or do I just want to eat why do I eat so much maybe cause I haven't been smoking as much so you smoke and kill your lungs or you eat and get fat that sucks I just need to stay busier and I won't eat as much I should get a job then I will stay thin fuck the freshman fifteen and I'll have some of my own money then I can go to miami should I transfer to a university in miami cause I love miami I miss it the rain it rained every day a nd it never rains here never rains rock yards palm trees and exotic plants beck is the shit he is so unique I wish I could meet him I wish I would meet some people like me here or some people that would be entertaineg all these white-bred frat boys and sorority girls are faking it all be real and it will be fine take care of this school stuff cause that's why I'm here I wonder what's on t. v. that t. v is bad for studying I can't believe I studied unitl 3 I miss dennis I am worried about him and james and mikey they are fucking it all up for themselves and they don't admit it I know they know it but they won't realize it why don't they just move on out of killeen it is hard though when you have frinds like that it's hard for me to make new friends now because they were such good friends that it seems no one will compare but what made them such good friends maybe they just changed me I need a cigarette but it's too hot outside to be smoking I want to check my email why dosn't anyone stop and notice me I thought that austin would be cool like that eceryone's so friendly in miami but not really , just friendlier to me cause I'm blonde five more minutes that business shit sucks I need to decide what my major should be art? I'm not that confident to be an artist I know I have talent but I don't know what I'm going to do with my life I am stressed out and I think I'm pms ing that sucks I don't want to do this it's frustrating uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh people need to use this computer t his place is busy deep breath happy birthday to kevin I hope someone got him a cake did kack email me I hope so am I leading this boy where dennis led me I don't want to hurt him like dennis hurts me still by staying  in my head all the time I want to talk to him but I can't do it I can't call him natalie will probably answer then I'll have to be upset again that's so fucked up I wonder what jake's doing megan is being a bitch and I can't believe it shse just waits till we're in texas to be mad at me that's pretty fucked up