freeing yourself. Because if I surrender for the purpose of freeing myself from some suffering. Then I have imagined the end of that suffering through that surrendering. Real surrendering takes place when a person recognizes that of himself or herself. All they can do is lay tracks. And when you. See quite clearly this level of consciousness, such as it is. And you recognize that's its complete limitation. In that moment you begin to die to that consciousness you begin to surrender yourself clearly. Now, with no future in mind. Sorry about that. I don't know what to do about this blind, it just the light comes through and I. I look like. Like Mike Tyson or Tony the tiger or something like I've got stripes. Deal with it. What is what causes this? These tracks When old tracks show up. Should we re track? No, that's the point. We don't want to re track. What we need to do is is is live. Is to be alive. I'll give you an example. Is there any moment in our life? Whatever it is that we have, I shouldn't say we wear whatever. It's bothering me that light. Try turning this a little bit. No, that's all we can do anyway. When Tony, when everybody when when do I, when I'm? When is it imperative? That I that I make a choice. For instance, when I when I find myself feeling. Uh, unhappy, disappointed. Expectations dashed. In those moments when that happens, can I get to that point where suddenly it feels like everything just repeated itself? Again, unless I got to that point in time by following a track a track that was laid down by a choice that was made. A track that was laid down by a choice that was made. In a moment prior, so that then I began to live out this choice and try to complete everything that I'd imagined in order to become. Free or new? And I I'm making points here to try to understand that when is it that suddenly and use your life? When do you suddenly feel like I've got to make a choice? When do those moments happen? Let alone how compulsive vital have you ever felt? I got to make a choice. And by the way, the feeling that I've got to make a choice here because my life depends on it. I'm not talking about get out of the freeway. That's a dead giveaway. The reason that I have to make a choice 'cause the track I'm on. Isn't going to get me where it want. It's threatened, the tracks threatened. I need a new choice. I need another track. Another thought, another plan, and this consciousness that first of all created the condition that's threatened by the the moment then simply just reconfigures itself and comes up with some variation on the theme. But just like the Roomba robot that created the rut in the carpet, everything that that consciousness determines and decides will be the new path. Is part of the old path. Because that's all it can do, so it's a dead giveaway in that moment. So here's the point. In those moments. Have you ever noticed that the pressure of making a a choice like that? Never appears without you running into a crisis of some kind. This is a critical passage in our time together. When is it most important that I come up with a new choice? Because my old choice is threatened. My identity has been challenged by something. My plan has gone awry. I've got to come up with another one, otherwise I'll never find a paradise. You fill in the blank. That always happens that critical thinking takes place when I run into a crisis. It's at the split second when I run into that moment. If the choice says you've got to make it, and what happens when I run into that wall. That that that. Split second, where suddenly everything has gone bad. I'm stopped in my tracks, am I not? Emma, please, your experience, not mine. You're suddenly you're not what you're doing. You're not supposed to do that. You're not supposed to be like. This isn't supposed to happen that way. My God, what's wrong with it but? Look at this. This is crazy. And in that moment I. Run right into a wall, don't I? And what's the wall that I run into in that moment, other than something that had been an expectation? Something downstream from some image or idea that I'd imagined was going to bring about a change in my life and my circumstances in the world, and suddenly it's dead. It's gone. Boom, I run into a wall. And when I run into that wall, what am I really running into? Please see this with me. I'm running into the onset of a sudden resistance. In my own consciousness. To the revelation that has come to it, that that road that track that belief, that image it's not going any further. That's it. And